Your move, “Addiction” pt 1

They use to say there were no success stories about people leaving the program 
Cuz obv those that made it didn’t go back to brag 
(Which is why I’m sad I can’t appropriately go back to meetings)

After spending a decade in AA, I guess a lot stuck
I haven’t been shitfaced drunk at all since I was 17,
The most drunk I have been as an adult was over four years ago
And that was no more than eight apple ciders 
That was also my second week leaving the program so I had to test the waters a little bit to see ofc 

you know it’s good philosophy when it not only keeps you from killing yourself, 
but everyone that’s ever listened to it as well

I wonder if aliens have struggled with addiction,
Because if they haven’t, then they really can’t say shit to a recovered addict 

I know there’s gonna be some therapist out there talking about how half the shit I say is a red flag and what not
Well, so is bottling shit up,
& Eating to escape
& Hanging with the wrong people
& Drinking any amount of alcohol and pretending it’s healthy
& Ignoring creative intuitions 
& Not helping your family even if they gaslight you every time
& Pretending your feelings are more important than someone else’s
& Pretending to be an emotional black belt
& Pretending to be above or exempt from learning any type of self-defense 

The complete approach to recovery eventually must include an aspect in which you are completely rebuilding your brain or rewiring
Or upgrading

handling trauma is like getting better at cognitively driving 

Psychedelics can essentially do the equivalent of three years (or lifetimes ) worth of work in three hours

you’re not supposed to say this if you want to be spiritual and all, but
But my service numbers are,
9.3 years daily recovery meetings
3.3 years sales management (modern suicide watch)
Five years real estate (modern match maker)
Five years equivalent full-time fitness coaching (modern therapist)
Another additional year of full-time food, service or equivalent (to sample the various flavors of humble pie)

Doesn’t get any more spiritual than Hitting AA meeting after eight hours working overnight at McDonald’s

Remembering the few times I went to the strip club..
directly after AA meetings…
With all the people from the meeting lol

lame motherfuckers in meetings would be like,
 “if I’m by myself then I’m in a bad neighborhood“
HA HA HA a real knee, slapper that one is

Or even better..
“I have an allergic reaction 
every time I drink I break out in handcuffs”

If I could find some of my buddies at a meeting, then I really enjoyed chain-smoking, drinking coffee and eating cookies and pretzels 
But most of the time it was just putting up chairs, sitting there on your hands, 
judging others and everything they do,
but nowhere near as harshly as yourself for judging them

Addiction is shitty because it has this invisible line ,
It goes from fun,
to fun with problems,
to just problems.
You go from a partier,
to a heavy drinker,
to a functioning alcoholic,
to a rock bottom alcoholic

You can be dependent without being addicted, 
but it’s usually just a matter of time before you fall into the addictive category from that point 

The specific Substance can influence the risk of dependence tremendously 

You can never be the same kind of dependent on weed as you are on alcohol
You can still do a lot of self harm with weed don’t get me wrong,
But you have to be a special kind of stupid and you have to be dedicated to the harm 
So the issue isn’t the plant 

Alcohol has a way of hijacking your brains functioning 
And inducing a personality change almost always for the negative
The only net positive way of drinking is truly limiting to just a couple drinks every week.
one or two a day isn’t gonna kill you, but it also kind of seems pointless 

Alcohol is probably the most dangerous thing that we have normalized as a culture 
Second is our prescription “medicine” 

If you drink only for fun, then that’s OK 
If your only fun is drinking then I feel bad for you*

for nine years,
when I went out pretty much every night, 
It was sober people lol 

pretty much everybody in recovery is getting high on nicotine and caffeine 

Hard to recover if you don’t believe you have the power to

if there are 7 AM recovery meetings with just people sitting around literally blowing smoke calling it recovery,
 Then you can do that by yourself or with the spirits as long as you mean well

Hanging out in church basements with drug addicts then heading out to close down the bars (sober) is one hell of a strange time

True addiction requires a delusional false belief that nothing will ever be OK without it again. 
Otherwise it’s just physical dependence

You will build a tolerance before you build a dependence 

Alcohol promises the same things as mushrooms but without the work 
However it doesn’t tell you how it takes your soul on the back end *

A consistent demonstration of control is the exact opposite of addiction*

Anyone in recovery would prob crucify me for even trying to work their steps and be normal lol*

I think everyone should have to grow their own mushrooms in order to do them
The growing process is long enough & tedious enough to ensure you respect it *

one man’s OD is another man’s pre-game

Many wouldn’t be so “tough” if they knew the reality of MDMA and electronic dance music*

Mushrooms drastically reduce your biological age while increasing your spiritual age

Idk if there’s ever an excuse that about 1.5gs and some good tunes can’t resolve*

Caffeine can be a major antidepressant when motivation is in the toilet
But the issue with caffeine pills is that you can build a tolerance so quickly 
and it don’t take them long before they stop hitting the same 
and you stop getting a decent buzz and withdrawals can be nightmarish

Ive sponsored enough dudes to know when someone has their mind made up before they ask advice 

Being 19 with a 45-year-old Sponsee is a weird position nobody talks about

The fact that I can restrain myself from eating the entire Kratom chocolate each time shows I’m disciplined with both chocolate and getting high *

YOUR MOVE, "ADDICTION"