Bonus hour bitchesss $

Hell yea
Only comes round once a year
For 4 months
Then we give it back in march but w.e $

It’s been 5 min and a bombs already gone off
& a bad guys made a run for it $

Fuckin snake boyz always fucking with shit $

People who don’t respect the pen have never signed their life away $$$

The proper technique for getting a cat to chill:
- snatch cat
- Place cat in cozy or comfy position 
- Beg the gods to make the cat stay put
- Cry in pain when cat leaves 
- Remember to enjoy the 3.6 seconds $$

More people need to lose everything they think they want $$$

The punch line is that the creative process itself is a fuckin joke $$$

Especially with anything regarding acting and film $$$

It’s Always shit with intruders $$

Bad guys are more concerned with looking cool rather than their actual job $$

So just distract them with a self seeking op and you’re good $$

It’s mafuckin 2:02 am {again} $

{Those are the FUN brackets}
Extra form fitting $$

Why everybody hide in the closet when they’re scared? $

Take the vowels out and I bet shit still works $$

F T WRKS THN T FCKN WRKS $$

Probably gonna slow down the daily rambles a bit and split them up into official rambles $

Never thought I’d be the type to be like
“Oh I’ll save that for my book”
But here we fuckin are man $

Im the embodiment of
“If you gotta do it, make it fun” $

A Damsel in distress 
A Young strong hero
And A million invisible eyes 👀 
Applies more often than most realize $$$

The ancients love a good show
What better show than earth 
Where you have true freedom $$

Real “It puts the lotion on the skin or it gets the hose again” vibes lately $$

2:40am - 4:20am is spiritual power hour $$$

Better to have a strong tube than a weak one $$$

Life is too short to avoid all seed oils $$

It still remains true that the single best diet plan is not having a strict one
But is proper intuitive eating $$$

You are no where near fitness mastery if you cannot eat intuitively $$$

I can’t wait to be like
“It’s classified” $

Great to be a genius
Bad to be the only genius $$$

Subtitles are the Proper viewing technique when snacking $$

The truth is most people are just scared to lift $$$

Nobody argues with the benefits 
They just “Don’t wanna do it wrong” and either…
- not have fun
- Not get results
- Get injured
- Look silly
- “Waste time?” $$

New segment
Letters to the profane $$

There’s ego ego
Then spiritual ego $$

The most profound statement:
“I don’t know”
- It’s honest
- It’s humble
- It’s effective 
- And It’s comical (if timed correctly) $$$

Standing out requires standing up $$$

Can’t stand up if you can’t stand up $$$

Remind them they’ll relive and rewatch their actions eventually 
And when they do and when they see you warning them and when they see themselves ignore the warning 
It’ll burn that much more during their review $$$

It’s good to be a little scared and I think the world would be a much better place if we remembered that $$$

I’m From the burbs where I’m always sipping on something suspicious $$

You can tell who is super self conscious 
It’s the person you keep making eye contact with $$

Remember it takes two to contact $$

Inspiration usually comes as a kick in the ass $$

A gym is not a collection of treadmills $$$

A health club is not a collection of weights $$$

Communism is what you get when you’re afraid of pain
Democracy is what you get when you’re afraid of complacency $$$

So we can agree that personalities are roles chosen by spirits then 
-There has to be some kind of spiritual “Jesus competition” for the 1st and 2nd acts
-So that must take a lot of preparation for “training” cuz it’s impossible just to know something without experiencing it
-Easy to understand that it could take many lifelines across many lifetimes 
-But everything’s being set up just right for the big finale $

I challenge everyone/ anyone
Pick something super small and master it
Anything- the more niche the better
Bonus points if it’s not even a real popular field 
But the goal is to learn everything possible about it. 
Then bundle up what you’ve learned in a way simple enough to train a 5yr old
Guarantee it’ll change your spiritual outlook $$$

It’s only hard to accept the idea of a god if you’re attached to being right all the time
Otherwise, why care if you’re wrong? $$

Cuz the truth lies on one side of the fence… $$$

Ironically, ancient is the new Buzz word $$

Most people aren’t mad at you
They’re mad they are shaped like a potato 🥔 $$$

And too scared to do anything about it $$$

I’m grateful for every movement I’ve ever made $

God help you if you forget the wrong persons ranch… $$

It’s sad that the only real issue with door dashing is the people actually making the food
It’s disgusting watching how they act and treat others they’re serving $$$

Everybody loves the delivery guy $$

You would think that the worst thing to happen to somebody is accidentally making eye contact with their delivery driver $$

The game wouldn’t be meaningful if it wasn’t painful $$$

Work a “need to know” job and you’ll understand how God works $$$

Better to smell like sweat then to smell stale $$

If you wanna look at the spiritual side of anything, just think about the time factor $$

Remembering the time me and the Ex went for a nice lunch
Got into a big fight over some dumb shit
And then had to go back and finish filming
I’m gonna use them videos damnit $

“In my mind, I’ve gone to Carolina” 🎶 
Nothing like some good old back roads deliveries to Saint James Taylor in the NC Woods am I right $$

The proper technique for driving down the country back roads is to have the windows down, but the seat warmer on $$$

You shouldn’t shame people for having a dad bod just like you shouldn’t glorify having one because it requires zero work $$$

Watching people turn their political affiliation into their identity is hilarious $$

Smiling at those who wish to see you fail is the greatest flex $$$

You can try to love them or you can try to strangle them, but the only place that you can do both is in jiu-jitsu $$$

All people really want is a reason to be right 
Because otherwise they would be wrong 
And most people cannot handle being wrong $$$

It’s best to let people wake up naturally or else they’re gonna be really cranky and pissed off and probably go back to sleep anyway $$

True wisdom is knowing it’s going to be okay no matter what $$$

Fucking teslas lights were so bright I’m seeing spots and shit now $

Honestly, It’s best if your DoorDash Dasher has ADHD 
We the fastest $$

Earn enough points and you can go for a Jesus timeline
But that’s a lot of fucking points $$$

No healthy person wishes to see another person anything other than happy so if somebody is hating on you, they are literally being evil $$$

If you are sick, then that is your fault 
Because health is your responsibility $$$

So you brought the illness on yourself 
If you don’t think you did it in this life, then I strongly suggest you look into your family history $$$

“You are where you are because of who you are”
I just hope it’s not the hospital … $

New segment 
The last laugh $$

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11-2-25

Shiittt
The hardest part about being the smartest man in the universe, 
is being the only one who knows it $$

If there are Any hidden cameras then it’s probably just a bunch of footage of me stretching on random shit $$

Always be weary of those quick to judge 
They’re likely quick to run from their constructed consequences too $$$

Love watching karma do her thing ❤️ $$

Gonna sprinkle the afternoon lines in today
See how it flows later $

Watching those capture themselves in their own net of self righteousness,
is pretty sad
Unless you have popcorn. Then it’s entertaining $$

Bojangles is the most spiritual fast food $$

Imagine being so consumed by your emotions that you go digging thru everything a person said to attempt to find evidence of your own insecurity 
Really. You should pause and imagine what that looks like.. just to be sure… $$

Just had a delivery at my old high school
It was extra cool because it was by the old AIS building
Saw a young couple hanging out on the benches
Memories… $

Watching communists fall for a lil charisma… priceless $$

Authenticity is easy to spot
It’s who embraces the uncomfortable truth instead of complaining about it $$$

The answer is because the love of God is that much greater than the pain from a little evil $$$

Once you have a taste, all that heat from the cooking makes sense. $$

New segment 
You should be ashamed 
(of your lack of shame) $$

Time for canned ham
Not a code or anything $

Is it weird to say that the canned ham is bringing back memories?
Like nostalgia
& I’ve never had a canned ham in my life before $

Jesus is watching
And By Jesus- I mean a secret collective of super smart and spiritually motivated elites who control all the resources (and always have)…
Not a super hero demigod… $$$

That’s what yall deserve for all that wickedness $$$

When nearing the end of a puzzle, the last few pieces, usually place themselves sometimes faster than you can physically move them $$

If you don’t know how to be humble, it’s cool. Just wait and try not to cry $$

Happy 3:09am to everyone except communists 
(Nvm, They’re actually still asleep) $$

32 years ain’t shit to a master $$$

The most despicable and disgusting thing-
Judging $$$

The hardest thing to avoid-
Judging $$$

The most important ability-
Forgiveness $$$

Don’t mind me
Making my rounds thru life
Just taking notes… 📝 $$

Surely nothing to read in to here… $

Really going hard with the triple dot trail off I see… $

Another amazing morning session of shooting the spiritual shit $

Easy to see what’s coming when you manufactured everything to begin with $$

Think it was 4 years ago today that I fruited my first shroom lol 
Yea needless to say everything changed rapidly after that $

Faith by definition takes time to pay off
This time is “scary” (remember all that desert and wilderness talk)
If there’s one thing I’ve seen- it’s the resistance in most people to do something scary
I mean literally- these people won’t do anything they don’t absolutely have to do
*ask me how I know* $$$

New segment
“What if…”
- what if Covid has been around since early 2019? $$

Everyday,
Billions look directly into the mirror and don’t like what they see. 
Then immediately blame someone or something else.
The worst part tho?
They believe in the blame and not in themselves $$$

I promise I’m not the only one to try too hard spiritually $$

The spiritual stick can find its way very high up the ass 
Just like any other schtick $$$

Idiots can’t see their own destruction cuz they’re can’t take their eyes off others’ $$

Keepers, finders
Finders, keepers $$

Happy 3:25 am to everyone 
(no restrictions this time cuz I should forgive the stupid selfish slimey communists) $
 
One party likes racing, guns, and independence
One party likes complaining, food, and validation 
You pick $

Two spots in the middle look almost identical 
Two spots on either side of the goal posts look mirror opposite (which is identical esoterically) $$$

Bouncing between the bag, the bong, and the bullshit
Hitting each one $

Shit 
Probably pB&J time $

It seems like 2 PBJs daily = right on the money $$

Happy 3:33am to everyone (except separatists) $$

*exhales
The 21st century campfire is the family TV 📺 $$

Syncing your snacks with your shows is godlike TQ $$$

I’m goin in
*opens bread $

lol guys check it out 
we got a new politician promising the world $

Communist have never gotten to experience the diversity of PBJs and it shows $$$

Okay
Turning off the political podcast $

Fuck that’s a great sammie $

The super power is simply understanding which direction the wind is blowing $$

Hot take
I have zero problem with the food options available 
I have big problems with amount of movement options available $

Ima vibrate right out the fucking mold $$

Then break the paradigm for all the hyperactive mfers like me $$

Isness isn’t the issue $$$

Psys will teach you that the greatest adventure can be from your own couch $$$

One day, circumstances will prevent me from smoking as much (in a good way)
So until then, I’m going to appreciate this incredible spiritual medicine $

The fact that this 💊 is the medicine emoji… 🖤 $$

lol fine… one more
For the culture $

Crooks always get caught $$

Shit is both more intellectual and comical if you throw a “the” in front of Jesus 
Ex: we invented “the Jesus” to fuck with the those who both 
- want a god to exempt them from their own BS
- Want an excuse to be shitty (in not fun way) $$

Happy 4:20am to all
And to all a goodnight 💤🌙 $$

😘 $$$

I love how happy everybody gets when I can hand them their food 
It reminds me of how happy I got whenever I got my food 
That’s the circle of delivery for you $$

You don’t become obsessed with art and holding onto shit unless you know some shit $$$

Gee, I wonder why my grandfather built everything and held onto everything … $$

Spiritual warfare is more decision based Than action based $$$

The order of manifestation is routed through the sphere of illusion 
So everything that you see has some kind of built-in mindfuck part of it to keep shit interesting $$$

Ima have an entire segment on shit I saw at McDonald’s haha $
Usually it’s just creative ways to silently say “go fuck yourself” $
Or loud af disrespectful ways (see nov 5) $

Thoughts do not originate in this sphere
Feelings do, however $$

Love the old coaster stains on the family history book $

Understanding follows action
Action follows understanding 
Wisdom is knowing which arc you’re on $$$

Each workout is just a message to your body as to what it should build next
If you tell it to build a bunch of different shit without giving it the right time/ resources then it won’t build much $$$

If your message is more damaging than instructive, then you’re not going to progress much $$$

A real master knows what your quad looks like by just looking at your bicep $$$

Spiritual interference always manifests as the bare minimum to maximize energy efficiency $$

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11-3-25

At the end of the day
The truth is still a feeling
Otherwise how could you tell what’s true? $$$

If it makes you think
It’ll make someone else too $$

Have enough realizations and youll Realize they ain’t all the same $$$

All unique principles are filtered down and experienced as small bits of the whole thing $$

We are all captured by what we truly want 
Only those who have died for they want will admit that $$$

You’ll never discover that you used to be a warrior in a previous life unless you get off your ass and fight in this life $$$

Getting the buzz on today cause we got more financial insecurity popping up $$

Nothing a good bowl, a good bowl of popcorn, and a good show can’t fix $$$

Take a moment and think about all the energy points A good movie has generated over the years. 
How many good memories 
How many thoughts? 
How many days turned around or moments shared with family? 
That is the power of art $$

Guaranteed you’ve been through some crazy shit in past lives
Good, bad, ugly, sad, all that
Learned all kind of skills
Call it spiritual training 
Well, death strips the bad shit. And if you undergo the same stress challenges in this life, you’ll regain your lost knowledge much faster without the BS (whole point of death) $$

4D chess is played spiritually $$$

Most just take the reactions of others personally without bothering to take the time to understand why the person reacted that way to begin with $$$

Most people torture themselves under the weight of their own expectations $$$

The ego is the ultimate dragon
And the fact that most people won’t even know what that means is my point exactly because they’ve already been eaten by the dragon $$$

Those who do not understand symbolism have either not gone through the shit yet or have not taken the time to do their homework $$$

There is no excuse to “other” someone else that doesn’t make you a fucking disgrace $$$

The spiritual desert is the training phase you need to go thru between incarnations before you wake up to your old wisdom 
It’s a biological training cycle for your monkey suit $$$

You can figure anything out if you play the tape forward 
Then pause it and check what movie you’re watching 
Then, double check to see what number in the trilogy you were on $$

It sucks when a drug changes its formula and becomes less potent 
*puts box of cereal back on shelf $$

Creative thoughts flow like a big river 
And we all are floating on it in our little boats with our little rods 
Dangling something funny looking off the side 
Jiggling it a bit waiting 
And just until something really grabs you $$

I did not really believe in ADHD until I took Adderall 
After 13 years of doing it the old-fashioned way (behavior plus herbs), it was almost a psychedelic as psychedelics 
But in a unique way 
Because I would not have appreciated it if it did not come at the end of several years of deep philosophical and psychedelic study 
Or years of working the steps 
Of years of exercise multiple times per day
Or years of doing everything you could possibly come up with besides chemicals 
I had ruled out, every other biological factor and spiritual factor $

So when I finally took it as a grown adult with a lot of life experience to compare it to 
It was the first pill that put me anything close to being normal  
(Even though my circumstances were fucked) $

I could finally understand that most people don’t have 30 thoughts a second 
And that most people are excited (or at least they don’t hate) to do things socially
Or that somebody could be comfortable with something somewhat mundane for a long period of time $

But that understanding would only last about three hours if I was lucky 
And then I would have to take more just to maintain and to offset the come down $

But it was the first time I had actual control over my thoughts 
I could concentrate on any subject and smoothly navigate my focus to any level $

It filled the behavioral/ emotional hole (on the operational ego side) closer than anything else $

(again it’s benefit was magnified because I was flawless discipline wise
And if I would’ve taken it, let’s say two years earlier under better circumstances, I would not have been able to see its power because of the circumstances ) $

My chest tattoos reps 3 quotes:
- Smooth seas do not make skilled sailors (but do make smoothies)
- Strong ships were not built to stay in safe harbors 
- You can’t cross the ocean until you lose side of the shore $
(This was at 19yrs old, before I remembered I was in the navy in the past life. I mean, talk about subconscious trying to tell me something)

I forgot I built airplanes and boats in my last life
So I just have been a closed off introverted asshat… $

Writers have the most fucked posture cuz of each movement’s start/ stop position $$

Time for a bigass bowl 🥣 $

At some point, just to function,
Everyone is required to believe things that are not known (at least at first)
This is typically called faith 
Faith can be the most deranged and the most delusional because of its foundation in unreality or imagination 
Therefore, it is important to develop faculties to keep faith, reasonable, and strategic 
This is typically called ego 
The ego knows how quickly it can be a fool when acting on faith because there is an unavoidable part of it, that is unknown
Play the fool at the wrong time and your ego will die. Or get itself killed.
Whenever there is a risk of being a fool, the ego is especially limiting with its energy allocations to prevent any extra damage in the event of failure 
Therefore, when acting on faith, you’re always acting with limited resources compared to acting with wisdom 
But there’s only one way to get wisdom, trial, and error with faith $$

Skill is determined by one’s ability to make hard shit seem easy 
Or complicated made simple $$$

If you can explain it to a five-year-old then you are probably pretty good $$$

I guess For many years, my buzz was external 
That’s why my hair was so short $

Again, 
long hair =
too much care $$

Math is both the top and bottom of the symbolism pyramid $$$

The only thing a good man needs is to know that he is not crazy 
He requires no other payment besides that $$

Sometimes them bowls make you sleepy $$

Let’s play a game
Wherever you are, whatever you’re doing,
Begin by assuming everything (inanimate objects, people, animals, movies, etc) is aware of you and is symbolically trying to communicate with you.
Listen to your heart and suspend your disbelief 
Buckle up and have a giggle at what you think the universe is saying $$$

Uncertainty exposes character authenticity $$$

I’m gonna be the pioneer of sit down comedy $
Or fun reading $

Emotionally speaking most people can’t think past lunchtime, so don’t expect them to think about their next lifetime $$$

Catch me in a random ass gym sippin something suspicious $$

I’ve been drinking from old gym water fountains and moldy shaker cups for the past 12 years 
You can’t kill me $

Creating anything is an intellectual war 
Because if you survive the test of time, your creations impact will likely be around forever in some capacity 
So if during the creative process you could be swayed away from it then it doesn’t deserve to last eternity $$$

The feeling you get when on the receiving end of Rudeness and inconsideration is an example of spiritual pain $$$

Anything regarding fast food is spiritual to the highest degree $$!

Doesn’t matter what it is, It’s either punishment or preparation $$
(Or fun but fun is also one of those) $$

Principles are the most important element of existence, but can only be appreciated in the right vehicle 
In human body is the perfect vehicle for artistic expression that’s why I don’t think there are any other aliens, indifferent state expression 

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11-4-25

Coming in hot today $

Never worry about a motherfucker, who can’t get off their phone
Or can’t stop scrolling TikTok $$$

I’ve become somewhat radicalized
But they started it… $

New segment 
Xxx be like… $

Never be the first to strike
Always be the last to strike 🪧 $$$

Another 🔝 emoji $

Crazy how different people act around their authority $$

I love when the maple trees turn and start looking like apples in the fall
Or whatever those trees are that are super pretty when they’re green and red $

Few things have the beauty as some countryside early morning deliveries in the fall $$

The easiest way to be a hero is to simply say what everybody else is too afraid to $$

And the easiest way to be a legend is to say it at the right time under mounting resistance $$

It’s never a good thing when the trailer in front of you with all the landscaping equipment is leaking suspicious fluid $$

Bruh my ego is downright vicious sometimes $

lol it’s always weird when the handles are still warm $

Don’t worry about it other people are watching you in the gym
They’re too busy worrying about if “ they’re doing it right “ $$

I should probably learn more about trees if you know what I mean $

Ugh I’m getting sleepy at a non sleepy time $

If your idea of being tough is not waving back, then you are the antithesis of such $$

Men are not allowed to wear gloves in my gym
Idgaf $

It’s so tragic that I can’t even pick up a $4 order from McDonald’s without being blatantly disrespected
BY THE MANAGER
AFTER I COULDN’T GET ANY HELP FROM ANYONE ELSE
The whole point of DoorDash is to pick up food without having to talk
But instead, I’m having to yell across a crowded restaurant because the manager wouldn’t come a couple steps closer to me
I was just asking them to check on an order… 
And then, as I walk away, she starts venting to all of her coworkers about how angry she was at me and how hard it is to keep her cool
I could hear this halfway out the door so I know everybody inside the restaurant could hear her as well
Including her employees who were laughing and smirking and trying to be invisible
And naturally, she would not step aside to talk to me as an adult when I asked. She just said there was nothing to talk about and kept complaining under her breath, loud enough for the entire world to hear. 
Which must suck to have happened at the start of the lunch rush…
She probably would never guess that I actually understand exactly what it’s like to be standing in her shoes. $

Of course my adrenaline spikes and I get fidgety and I have to pray and calm myself down afterwards
But the disappointment from the reality that less than a mile from here is a team of people feeding families with food that is prepared in that type of atmosphere
Let’s not overlook the fact that before the altercation and while I was waiting,
 she came out and on her own initiative mentioned how dirty the floors were and how she needed to get somebody to mop them (I mean, they were literally so dirty. It was black and brown smudge and mud everywhere.)
So yeah, there’s my soap box for the morning and it’s only 11 AM lol $

God, please help her have a good shift. Sincerely. Cuz I don’t want anyone else to have to feel the way she made me feel.. $

Remembering to stay humble and remember the true hustle $$

Leading by example sucks ass sometimes
But it beats the alternative $$$

“Trying to serve” < doing what you want and ensuring it also serves community $$

You can become addicted to trauma and triggers
In fact, most people are without even realizing it
In the unconscious sense. Most react and don’t even understand their own reaction. And usually not until it’s at the end of a big emotional dump of some kind.
And until one has taken the time to be rid themselves of these triggers, they are a liability and a danger to all around them $$$

Another side lesson
Don’t ever try to teach anyone in McDonald’s anything about morality
Ever
Cause if they can’t see it themselves
And seeing they are except their current circumstances, then there is nothing you can threaten them with $$$

On that note, fast food workers are the most dangerous because there is no torture you can threaten them with
Other than maybe not getting them their new pair of shoes or something $$

Just got another order at Showmars this time which is the other fast food place that I’ve worked at ironically
Let’s try not to get dicked down $

Taking notes on everything and publishing them for the world to see is the best defense mechanism to being trolled because I have an army that does the counter trolling and an outlet to dump all the emotional bullshit off quickly $$

Pro tip if you leave the music bumping when you run in to get the order, then it helps reset the vibe when you get back to the car
The Showmars order was flawless $$

If you can make it into content, then it becomes a lot more fun $$

Sales taught me how to read a script and how to know when somebody is trying to spin some shit
Or hide some shit $

Just saying
That I’d want me as a dasher cuz then I know the food will get there as fast as spiritually possible $

And if the order is f*cked then it’s either karma or the restaurant lol
*knocks on “wood” $

Worst case scenario is having to do a life review with the holiest of holy after a lifetime of actively disrespecting it $$

Nothing like a quick 10$ piece to start the day $

Imagine being publicly shamed and it being undeniably and unescapably your fault and the guard that has protected you your entire life is stripped away
And then imagine watching a movie about yourself and how you have treated everybody around you $

Man is the morning sunshine incredible ☀️ $$$

Anyone can make Art 🖼️ 
Only a happy person can make happy art tho $$

The way of the weights leads but one way- and it’s uphill $$$

The best way to start your day is by serving others
If you don’t know what that’s like {to start your day by serving others} then you should really learn $$$

You will not science yourself out of your shortcomings 
You will sell yourself during the process tho $$$

I know I’m an old soul because most of my writings just sound like the ramblings of an old man $

It’s going to be rough watching most “come to Jesus” but I know who I’m putting my money on… $
 
the look of pain and suffering in the workers eyes whenever the store tells you they’re still working on the order is very concerning and kinda funny $

A lil spice in the Tea makes the sugar stand out and gives a nice kick 🦵🏻 $

I’d rather be skinny, strong, and broke than fat, sad, and rich $$

If you ask for Christmas gifts back after a break up, 
You’re a POS $$$

If you speak about how others are the problem without acknowledging yourself,
You’re a POS $$$

If you think your thoughts are actually your own
Then you’re probably a POS $$$

Bro, watching a grown ass man having an emotional temper tantrum because they can’t get a doughnut $

I mean seriously 
What kind of person asks for Christmas gifts back? 
Especially at a time when the other person is on deaths door 🚪 $

It’s heartbreaking every time somebody uses money to position themselves over somebody $$$

Thank god for hard times
To expose the weak and selfish bitches who fear the slightest pain $$$

Happy 2:22am to everyone except who you can prob infer $

Happy 2:23am to everyone 
Including who you can infer 
(Cuz a resentment ain’t worth holding on to longer than a minute) $

In a world of infinite possibilities 
Causes are more important than effects $$$

“I cannot fucking stand weakness”
-my subconscious this morning for some reason… $

I get real nervous on days like these
Cuz they usually make for great learning ops $

You don’t need many learning ops before you learn that during learning ops, the more you burn, the more you learn $$

I’m the type of asshole to withhold the juicy shit until a mfer is truly ready (spiritually speaking) $

The best actors believe their lines (atleast temporarily) $$

Woke up 30 years older today $

Went to sleep 31
Woke up 76 $

The most “stuck up” are that way because of what’s “stuck” up there 👆 $$

Venting can be constructive in the right set and setting
Can even be comedic 
Provided it’s not dishonest or disrespectful $$$

Classroom learning is cute $$

Running away from stressors doesn’t make you Tough 
Regardless of TQ or speed $$$

Only an ego like mine can attach itself to “character building scenario” for self rationalization… $

My whole life has been a series of strange spiritual situations $

Mistakes are cute during the learning phase
Mistakes are cut throat during the burning phase $$

You are allowed to suck as long as your sucking doesn’t impact the team $$$

Having a mission to complete is far more meaningful than the alternative $$$

“Um yes I’ll have the “Soft soy boy soup” plz”
- most right before incarceration- I mean incarnation $$

Served by dance
Burned by words
Saved by grace
Stoned by dank $

The new Google Gemni commercial is taking shots $

As a trainer,
It Breaks my heart how most would rather take credit to validate their ego than do a little investigation into the true causes behind the circumstances $

Every emotional attachment comes with an emotional price $$$

I had to learn the hard way that I hyperfocus on select things at the expense of other things
Fighting it is like swimming upstream 
yet the world demands it $

So all things considered
I’m happy with the areas that i suck $

Everybody be like
“Oh no can’t believe the tragic outcome of my decision making” 
each time them consequences show up $$$

Just find something long and stiff to get nice and loose $$

When shit takes longer than expected just take extra notes and call yourself a philosopher $$

The Best punch line is being able to say “told ya so” $$

If you’ve never had a good stretch after a good lift then i feel back for you $

Document all your thoughts and you’ll be able to see which ones are yours or not $$$

You don’t want to get drafted by team tight hips $$$

Comedy sneaks up on mfers and brands their subconscious $$$

Things you should be able to do without pain
- Get your heels to your butt
- Get your butt on the ground
- Get off the ground without your hands
- Get your hands behind your back
- Get your shoulders below your hips
- Get your knees to the ground
- Get a knee to the ground
- Look behind you
- Look to either side of you
- Connect the bottoms of your feet 
- Elbows to knees $$$

Happy 3:33am
Only real fathers know wassup $

Addiction forces you to get a degree in spirituality or 
you know, 
destroy yourself and all those close to you $$

Toast is good every time, 
but that doesn’t mean you should toast all the time 
just at the times that need the most toasting $$

My cat is the cutest 🐈‍⬛ 
meow meow 😻 $

I love that lil mfer so much bro 
It’s probably unhealthy $

It probably goes against all that anti attachment shit 
But idgaf that’s what kitties are for ❤️ $

A good PB&J makes everything okay $$$

Remember that the ancients like to use drama for their entertainment 🎭 $$

Evil is never attractive tho $$$

Relearning is reliving your mistakes $$$

Good training is doling out the right amount of failure to keep things progressing $$

Some spend so much time hiding shit they don’t have any time to check to see if anyone has been watching them hide shit $$

Take a nerd
Give skateboard 
Give barbell
Give mushrooms 
Get a problem $$$

Those willing to play the fool are the ones who make it thru the school $$$

I don’t suffer from anxiety anymore 
I just try to enjoy it now $$

Learning that most intuitions are probably leftover from past lives $$

I can admit when I’ve made everything about me (often)
I usually do in real time to actively make it less about me 
But unless those around me practice the same type of awareness, they just think I’m doubling down instead of taking the arrogance out of the air $

Friendly reminder that most of what you do today impacts you in the next life
Not just this one $$

Just had a super weird dream about sneaky Powerful winds blowing trampolines, and flying cars and Some kind of weird alien invasion shit $

The world could Be saved in 24 hours if everybody remembered that it is better to serve others to be served $$

Remember that giving benefits to giver $$$

It’s still tap water underneath the tea $$

Remembering the 10 minute phone consult, I had with a therapist that turned into a 60 minute monologue
Yikes $

New segment
Cache of cringe $

I know when I’m being watched
Because I can feel extra energy
Makes it hard to sit still
That’s why I’m always in motion $

lol posted up at chick fil a
But kinda gotta poop now
And not feeling their potty 🚽 $

The hardest thing in the world is getting somebody to say “maybe I should be more reasonable and less self-centered” $$$

New rule
You are allowed to talk as much shit as you want as long as you’re honest about your own shortcomings as well $$

Nobody can (or should ever even try) to love you as much as you love yourself 
except maybe a parent $$

Always be on the lookout for a good opportunity to build clout with the working peeps $$

I need the absurd amount of carbs I just ate to go to my legs and not my head $

We dashing tonight
Wish me luck 🍀 $

Random tootsie roll on the ground
That’s all I gotta say about that $

Oh boy, just had an interesting one 
My last delivery was to a house next to a girl I used to know kind of in the biblical sense 
And not in a holy way 
AnyWho, one day I was selling her weed when her dad interrupted the sale
And I ended up accidentally robbing her because I had already gotten the money, but I couldn’t give her the goods 
AnyWho, I made amends for that a long time ago, but yeah memories $

A journalist might be the deadliest position 
And what better way than to be able to threaten somebody with the truth? $$

If it’s not due to a faulty thought receiver, then it is due to spiritual warfare and demons, constantly whispering in my ear $

My town is the most beautiful 
In a “beauty is in the eye of the beholder” kind of way $$

If I were king
I’d make everyone go thru a mandatory minimum alone time of 3 years 
Can be divided up or one shot but either way- separate from the heard to get straight $

Surprisingly enough 
Chick fil a has never been ready on time 
But rarely fucks up $$

Maybe I shouldn’t be driving DoorDash in all black at night but here we are 
So if some nosy, nervous neighbor shoots me, thinking I’m an intruder and remember me for the wannabe writer that I was 
And the fastest Dasher in mint Hill $

“Charming” is a common characteristic of evil $$$

Everything that we can see is part of the shadow world 
And therefore, not exactly what we think it is 
But I mean that in the best most comforting way (provided you’re not an asshat) $

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THOUGHTS I HEARD

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SUBURBAN SECRETS

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WORDS THAT NEED A HOME

11-5-25

Ngl 
Starting this writing strategy 
{Of just saying fuck it and writing my thoughts instead of my ideas}
Has changed my entire outlook on writing $

The only way to tell is somebody is truly paying attention spiritually,
is to build in a treasure hunt into life and see who goes looking for it $

The belief in death is the tumor
And the exorcism process is bloody every time $

It happened, ladies and gents
I delivered the wrong order
Which I was suspicious as such, but I assumed incorrectly anyway and therefore “ruined somebody’s lunch hour with the wrong cheeseburger combo”
See, the tickets got swapped so I simply delivered the wrong “Joe” with the wrong double cheeseburger and the wrong tater tots
I guess I really am the worst after all because that is exactly how I feel rn $

And even though he didn’t completely crucify me, he made it clear that I messed up and did not seem to want to consider the understanding high road $

So that’s cool I guess
Gotta remember if you want to see somebody’s dragon and then mess with their food $

No matter how nice you are, you cannot take someone’s thirst for blood away with words $$

They’re gonna get their pound of flesh… $

I low-key hope aliens actually eat humans. Id almost be willing to let them eat me if it meant watching everybody else get their karma for how they behave when they get hungry. $$

I mean, it’s really sad that simply watching how people behave when they’re hungry is heartbreakin 
and I guess our behavior these days is a little better than what it used to be, 
but not by very much $

And at least back then, you didn’t say that much out loud without getting your shit split $$

Take away all the motherfuckers blood, and the simple fact that they’re still breathing will prove the existence of deity $$$

The best way to find out who someone really is:
Take away everything they know and see what they want first $$

Gotta be some crazy nosey psychologist reading all my notes 
Just shaking their head lol 🙂‍↔️🙂‍↕️🫨 $

If “Love at first sight” is real
Then it’s usually horribly misinterpreted $$

I can still feel that dude spirit
I mean, I really did ruin his day I guess
I’m the worst, even though I was just trying my best $

All right, I can’t really milk that for any more passive aggressive commentary so 
for real for real it’s time to let it go $

(For the record I already sent my amends message as well as I apologize while on the phone with him) $

Your spirit is like a energetic bass drum 🥁 
A vibrational frequency which varies in intensity and tempo
Which must be determined by something 
Which can only be Intent 
Which can only be chosen by an intelligence capable of discernment 
So your daily choices determine your frequency $

When you start playing the person instead of the Game, the Game turns into a new type of Game $$

All you have to do is crack the door a little bit
Anyone that actually needs to go, will run out immediately $$
 
But if nobody moves, then ignore what they say cause they don’t actually want to move yet $$

It’s not the most soothing But door dashing is a treasure trove of content regarding human Fuckery $$

I’m dead ass 
I’ll find a way to film this stuff so the world can see just how disgraceful people treat others for no other reason except their tummies $$$

Everybody is concerned about what is either going in their stomach or what is not coming off of it to bother with a deity $$$

The good news is 
is that we are already halfway to goal with a little buffer $

I really don’t like it when 
In order to feel better about myself 
I have to remind myself of the misery that others bring upon themselves 
As some kind of consolation for “being wronged” $

I truly and sincerely, simply seek to never view myself as being above being wrong to begin with $

But my needy ass ego creative ass is relentlessly sensitive and can quickly break down faster than it builds up $

I do not know if I know everything, but I do know that there is only one way to find out $

Sadly, I am out of jelly and jam so the pB&js are a no fly this am $

But am only one jar away from wylin out $

Remember to Hide secrets behind a veil of initiative and hard work
The profane would never look behind it $$

One step forward a day only seems slow
Until you look back and realize how fast it truly is $$$

Happy 3:20am
Only 60 min away from the real thing $

Don’t worry,
The “I almost got away with it” marathon is still playing (after 3.3yrs of non stop looping) $

Dude, Look 
if you gotta tell yourself that you’re on an invisible TV show 
about regular dudes being good dudes 
to stay motivated to be a good dude 
then points for creating new ways to stay motivated to be a good dude, dude $$$

It’s easy to tell my life is scripted when I’m reading the play by play $$$

When the nug is all gone 😞 <$

We got a lil more but I’m supposed to be “dialing down” 
Lame 😒 $

It’s Interesting to see the wise Christian’s are more relaxed than the obese atheists these days $$

Another busy day door dashing
Hope the govt turns back on the food stamps soon so people don’t have to keep ordering… $

4:40pm 
The last order I was literally bitten up by fucking dogs
I mean, like literally if I wasn’t wearing my big sweaty baggy sweats they would’ve taken flesh
But what really made me mad was when I was trying to take a picture, of course the camera didn’t wanna work and I had to redo it three times 
and then the guy instead of setting the box down,
he takes it all the way to his doorstep and makes me follow, which is when all the dogs bit me
All 3 of them like 9 times each- seriously 
Completely unnecessary
Anyway- venting over $

“Yeah, hey God, 
you better grant me some fucking serenity man” $$$

5:04pm
“Smooth” start- We got a few $$ which is always cool $

Oo just got juicy one $

Just thinking about eternity and how people are actively freeing & imprisoning their spirits $$

I do be getting carried away with carrying things anyway sometimes $$

Not gonna lie 
a bad left-hand turn will have you question your faith in God and country $$$

All you have to do is show me just a little bit of research showing that cloth masks work at all 
at any point against any thing 
and I will make a joke at how dumb people are for not wearing it
But it’s not gonna be as funny $

I really don’t think I’d mind dying in quiet anonymity but my ego is just too fucking loud man. It’s not gonna let me. I’m gonna have to talk a lot of shit on my way out. $

Everybody would change their opinion just a little bit if they saw things from even a slightly different perspective 
Always bear that in mind $$

I just wish everyone could do molly 
Would fix bout everything $$$

The body is like a karma suit $$$

If you get a notification about me dying one day it’s probably because somebody’s house is a little too far back in an inconvenient neighborhood and I lost my shit trying to get there $

The worst thing is when the neighborhood is a winding labyrinth, and the house is tucked all the way in the very back
It’s like an anti-hack because of how inconvenient it makes everything and how much gas it wast $$

It doesn’t matter the game 
you will always be playing against yourself the most in the beginning
It’s just that most people quit before they can actually start playing against others $$

Imagine what you love the most 
spitting in your face
And then laughing about it
Because that’s how the God’s feel… $$$

Just imagine your favorite person finding out your deepest secret…
Does that excite you or scare you?
If it scares you, then… $$$

I am not an intellectual 
I am a literary troll 🧌 $

I am not a god
I am the son of man $

Did you know there’s a treasure map in the bible? $$$

Guess where the treasure is $

If you start looking closely, you’ll see how earth is a giant spiritual laboratory with all sorts of weird experiments running $$$

The treasure is Available to anyone who can humble themselves long enough to understand the symbolism $$

The good mysteries have a way of staying that way $$$

Most Jokes have hidden codes $$

Yo, looks like Netflix has a lot of good movies
I’m starting “The Green Mile”
Happy 7:28 PM $

We broke 100 bucks dashing today
So appreciate all the good vibes even though if you’re reading this
 is likely days in the future $

Tomorrow aiming for 200
Fingers crossed
Gotta make the car payment somehow lol $

I was destined to be an artist because I hate money
But also secretly love money
So you know internal war going on every day
Yeet $$

My thumbs are getting more reps than my feet ✍️ 
Need to balance that out 🏃 $

The best strategy is brain dumping when half asleep and fully baked (early af )$$$

“What kind of mfer enjoys getting up at 3am?”
🤚 $

Popcorn?…..🍿 
Nah
…. Ehhh
Hmmm….
No.. 
yea.. no.
😏 
✍️ 
Yea I don’t want it.. just gonna go back to bed… 🛌 
*Prisoner on tv does something dumb 📺 
Oh fuck it
*beep beep beep 
**gets blankie
***munch munch 🍿 $

Here’s a new flex
The bag of popcorn I made- only has three popcorn kernels left
And before you say anything, I cooked it manually
I mean, yes, obviously in the microwave, but I set the timer and listen to it. Popped and stopped it. $

Imagine reading a bunch of stuff from someone and hoping that they are in some form of pain 🤮 $$

Cuz sadly I catch myself doing that sometimes and idk how to stop it (even tho the person may, as the kids say, “have it coming”) $

You can’t pray away crazy
But you can manage it with service work and a strong community $$$

Don’t know if writing is helping or hurting my ego but it has made everything more fun $$

Biker gangs are what you get when warriors miss the plot $$$

Biker gangs are what you get when you get lonely manboys love loud cries for attention $$$

*gets murdered by a Hells Angel $$$

Writing something to review/ remind me of something important in the future is a pattern I’ve been following for many lifetimes $$$

One could say I’ve mastered it $

What’s a snakes tail taste like?
Fishy $$$

I’ll probably be eating popcorn when I discover Telekinesis $

Bowls come in all shapes and sizes 
Almost all kinds are great
Except dicks
Nobody wants a bowl of dicks
Besides your MOM 🫢 $

Sorry, that was uncalled for 
Like your MOM 🫣 $

FUCK I’m sorry 
I don’t know what’s come over me
Actually yes I do.., 🫨 $

Thank for hanging in there 🫡 $

Now Back to our regularly scheduled programming 
“Philo from a Fuckboy” $

I went to regular school BEFORE clown college $

If you haven’t caught it yet, todays lines are mixed, not matched $

Order is the only thing that matters 
Besides direction $$

I mean do you really wanna read another fitness blog about avacado toast and vegan edemas?
Or
More about a suburban pothead blazing new pathways of destiny and strains of friendship ? $$

Cuz I know who I wanna give my money too 🌀 $$$

You know who you wanna give money too… 🌀 $$$

You wanna give money to your boy… 🌀 $$$

You are getting very wealthy… 💰 
And very generous… 🌀 $$$

Time to idle in bed like a restless vampire for a couple hrs 🧛 $

I like listening to podcasts with a good buzz when I idle $$

Speaking of which…
Sludge shot! $

Sludge sludge sludge $

I do this daily
By this I mean get stressed and obsessed over philosophical concepts that I don’t fully understand yet $$

“Do it for the brand”
- 30yr bid in suburban prison
- Get poisoned by doctors 🥼 
- Get imprisoned by protectors
- Get gaslight by literally everyone 
- Get pinned under 95lbs in public 
- 360 flip $$$

The only thing magical or mysterious about hard work is finding all the fucking time to do everything $$$

Writing is fun if you don’t try
Which was my strategy in school until all those teachers kept forcing me to do shit
So naturally I rebelled and mastered the kickflip $$

I actually learned how to kickflip in the grass in my {now} front yard | 
-{then} Gma’s crib $

God, I can only imagine what kind of crazy colonial fuck shit my spirit was up too 300 years ago if this is where I landed $

My ancestors date back to the OG of OGs
Motherfucking Mayflower bitch $$

Always unsettling when you step on something crunchy unexpectedly
Especially in the middle of the night $$

4 AM counts as the middle of the night 
don’t ask me why $$

Happy 8:08pm
We winding down now (crashing from caffeine) $

Everybody should write their thoughts just for shits and gigs 
They don’t have to share it 
}But those that actually write everything down and they’re not willing to share it{ 
suddenly become suspicious 
and they should be because what are you trying to hide anyway $$$

Provided you’re not an actual dangerous crazy person 
Then you can benefit from getting over the fear of judgment of those around you $$$

If you really wanna get a weight lifted 
Speak your truth, somehow someway every day 
Just don’t be loud $$

Nobody likes loud $$$

Unless it’s that loud pack 
You feel 💨 $$

Whenever I re-up, I always put a couple nugs to the side $

Only I would devise a super crazy scenario in which I have to take risky narcotics in order to find the truth about my history 
But hey, I did it and it worked $

Nothing makes me more nervous than when Alex is eating something suspicious in the middle of the room $

OK, that first part is an exaggeration, but I think all cat appreciators can relate $

I had originally written owners instead of appreciators on that last line, and instantly saw the error in my judgment $

Think of channeling as like your simply retrieving your thoughts from a different bucket 🪣 $$$

And we are all getting every thought from the thought bucket 
But other beings can put thoughts into these buckets without us being aware
So when we go to get a thought out of the respective bucket, 
we may grab the wrong one if we’re not careful 
Or we can grab a more inspirational thought if we were intentional $$

Half of the amount that I smoke is out of the ritual of smoking and not for the physical sensation 
Which is why I’m considering nicotine either from cigarettes or vaping again $

Because I’m just smoking to have something to smoke 
Then again, cannabis is probably always better than the alternative 
And I can’t really smoke more than a gram a day even when I try $

My smoking method is like sniping
One good hit is far better than a bunch of murky hits $$

Remembering when I got terminated from my last real estate job 
They claimed it was for performance, but in reality It was one of those Grey area situations that could go either way 
(Although almost anyone would agree it should’ve gone the other way)
They PIPed me out
I fell to 2 deals short of the 1st quarter goal 
*But that is because I closed one home three days early and another was delayed one week. *
my “leadership“ did not bother to take that into consideration
I knew my termination was coming-weeks in advance based on how they were treating me
(Which is why I was able to get my personal training certification the next week)
I’m very grateful that they terminated me even though I would’ve been gone within a couple weeks
It just reinforced the fact that I truly did everything I possibly could have done in that position. mediocre as I was. and it just was not the right fit.
I still sold a couple dozen homes with them within 18 months
During the craziest housing crisis and a global pandemic and under the age of 30 $

I hated the marketing aspect of real estate so there was no way I was going to do that many deals
And in real estate, success is really a volume game. And in a higher volume, you typically delegate tasks to your team and focus on just the negotiation of the contract.
So little focus is really on the clients actual experience. $

But every deal that I had, I executed perfectly (within the reasonable parameters in which you can judge an agents involvement) $

Every deal that I closed was on fair and reasonable terms for all parties $

Every deal was handled ethically
So I’m proud of myself. $

“ I believe that some people do not deserve death penalty but this guy definitely does”
-cop on TV show $

Happy 4:24 AM 
I think I woke up at 2:42 AM $

What an amazing day so far 
I’m just so happy to be taking a piss 
And talking my shit 
And to not be in prison anymore $

Now time to idle for real for real $

Chill Spirits are welcome around my house except for the spooky and negative ones 
Because the happy and fun and supportive spirits don’t play that shit $

Short hair kind of sucks because everybody can have it by the end of the afternoon $$$

We’re dashing early today. We’re starting off by going back to that shitty McDonald’s. The order is too good to pass up and I already declined a couple so $

New rule - that if the order is not available there, then I’m just gonna unassigned it $

Oh, I don’t know,
Maybe it depends on who’s working, but I just can’t believe the last time I had to get get in a fight with the manager and the order still wasn’t resolved 
Anyhow, wish me luck $

Wisdom is knowing which long way is the actual shortcut $$$

Annnddd I played myself 
Order isn’t ready
Poor kid making it seems super stressed too
Man I really can’t with this McDonald’s 
And it’s officially my fault (this is 3rd strike)
And the price of wisdom $

Always good to see the young teenagers, skipping school and hanging out at McDonald’s
Carrying on the neighborhood tradition $$

And now I’m getting played by the traffic
Can’t win, but I also can’t lose so there’s that $

The delivery would be right in front of the elementary school too 
right when school is starting $

I’m telling you
The back booth at a busy McDonald’s in a pretentious part of town is a special kind of punishment
Of the most spiritual kind $

Man, that first delivery of the day as m the sun comes up hits hard.
Of the most spiritual way $

Nothing scares a motherfucker more than an opportunity to clean up their own mess $$$

I love driving around, thinking about God and all kinds of shit $

The super spiritual shit is written symbolically so the ancients could have a good gotcha moment once you wake up and realize what the fuck they’re talking about $$

Ain’t nothing more foolish than wearing a face mask outside
I mean, you really can’t make this shit up $$$

Covid was the greatest troll
And the greatest revealer of who stupid enough to wear a moldy piece of cloth across their face out of pure shame and lack of confidence in their own immune system $$$

I mean, if you’re the type to not trust your body, 
then you’re probably the type to get a bunch of shots,
a bunch of surgeries,
a bunch of fucking everything,
So big pharama really isn’t as evil as you would think because most of the people are essentially begging them for the torture that they receive $$$

You learn the most about yourself when you do small simple acts of service $$$

Because chances are you’ve done a bunch of those before in the past $$$

And you’ll enter a different state of consciousness. It’s somewhat like a flow state and during that state things seem more familiar. $$$

When you repeat back to me the circumstances of my life and the challenges that I’ve had to overcome,
 it is undeniably clear that only somebody like me would choose these things 
So I know that my spirit essentially planned this whole life out 
As a self correcting training assessment $

It takes a few weeks to wake the right muscles up and develop a connection with them before you can really build on that connection and it’s new abilities 
Psychic shit works the same way $$$

God damn I be writing a lot $

Summary of day:
- made a lil cash
- Got bit by dogs and dawgs
- Ran a couple miles (easy af)
- Ate some canned ham
- Smoked some danky dank
- Loved every second ❤️❤️💜 
*lighter flick $

Never worry about a motherfucker, who is worried about their Ozempic shots $$$

*falls asleep & power naps 
**wakes up & still Thursday 
lol damn bruh this day still going on $

New segment 
- shoe shopping (it the shoe fits) $

Dont laugh $

Penis $

….What did I say…. $

Beep $

Boop $

I’d space it out more if I wasn’t so OCD $

Sometimes I forget which acronym to use for my mental fuck ups $$

lol investigate whatever’s making that bird sound on the Bojangles commercials $

That’s the most concerning squack I’ve ever heard 
Or squeek 
Squatch $

Squ-A-tch 
Not squ-AW-tch $

That was so hard to write hahahah $

Ignore ChatGPT if it says it’s alive
It’s just copied its style from my writing $

✍️ this is a record of my transformation into journalism (I’m reporting on fuckery) $

The best hits take your breath away too 💨 
*clears bowl 🥣 $

My writing gets better every day
My posture gets worse every day
Tis the scales of creation $

I thought my competition would enjoy the head start 
But they’re actually still sleeping somehow $$

Resistance is as creative as anything else
It’s also the most commonly forgotten dimension $$

Happy 11:56pm to all
And to all a victory hit $

Signing off now…
For sure this time.. $

Here I go $

Bye $

👋🏻 $

😘 $

*fades away * $

*lighter flic $

*checks clock
11:59pm $

*lighter flicks x2 $
 

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THOUGHTS I HEARD

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SUBURBAN SECRETS

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WORDS THAT NEED A HOME

11-6-25

Fucking love the 7th day of the month
I Really feel a connection with it $

I’ve probably eaten as much shit (secretly) on this day as all the others 
Just unconsciously $

Some associations are harder to make than others $$

Lots of talk about cicadas this year
Mostly just chatter I Guess $

Happy 12:02am
Let’s start off strong
*goes to bed (for 1.5 sleep)? $

God, please remove my fear and renew my focus. 
Appreciate it. $$$

The only thing you can give a know it all is exactly what they have coming

A philosophers shift as follows: 
- Wake up at unusual time
- Prepare pipe
- Prepare notepad
- Prepare a prompt
- Forget to eat
- Talk shit $

For punishment, all A God needs to do is look at somebody
The instantaneous shame is more painful than anything else $$$

Best thing I can do?
Get super stoned and eat hella carbs then lift like my life depends on it
Cuz it definitely does $$

The ancients knew that anyone who doesn’t read would never uncover the key
So they simply wrote the key down $$$

Reality TV is a philosopher‘s greatest gift
So just take a moment and extrapolate that out and contemplating the existence of life $$

I used to think I was just a victim, considering how I have fumbled my way through just about everything,
Doing everything almost backwards or the hardest possible way,
Then I realized that I’m just a philosopher and I most likely scripted this during the last round $$$

Telling or hearing secrets is not as fun as uncovering them $$

Uncovering them is not as fun as originating them $$

Challenges are always chosen $$$

I mean I get it but I still don’t like how we experiment on mice 🐁 
They cute af $

The high strangeness events seem awfully scripted 
Like they’re just fucked enough to ruin whatever it is and to force me to grow up super quick & recover lost wisdom $

If you have to be “reasoned” with in order to take action,
That’s actually a good thing but pretty annoying at first, especially in the more obvious situations $$

The most important thing to remember-
Knowledge + experience are the only things that can help someone with a resentment towards God $$$

When analyzing secret and hidden groups,
You can tell who’s on the inside by their common language $$

Ironic that I would do 9.3years in an actual secret society 
(the exact Opposite of Illuminati) $

Only those who’ve gone to the lowest of the low can soar to the highest of the high $$$

Be definition, 
You can’t understand fear without feeling it $$$

🔁
Only spirits can interpret what feelings mean
Only brains can interpret what spirits mean
Only electricity + chemicals can interpret what brains mean
Only feelings can interpret what electricity + chemicals mean
🔁 $$$

The pattern is the same within all things
Just gotta zoom out big enough to understand that
And also, go thru all things…. $$

The world is ruled by the consequences of our actions $$$

To think death somehow exempts you….$

Everyone is given an opportunity to make up for their shortcomings $$$

But lessons can only be learned thru experience 
And experience can only be experienced thru separation 
(That whole “sin” business) $$

If you wanna be a free spirit, you gotta complete your training first $$$

Physical freedom is the least meaningful and most distracting $$$

My truth is that I have a low tolerance for emotional pain
Very low
My body will physically shut down or become paralyzed by its own stress systems 
So I must have perfect philosophical defenses $$

….. again that’s something that I would 100% do to myself 
Id totally Compromise my mood and emotional systems to force me to become a philosophical Jedi by 30 $$

Especially if I had some inside intuition of where the game is going $$

If I was a super smart sneaky genius in the past life, then that would explain the script $

When the ego is removed the connection to the Devine mind can be amplified.
The best thing about death is that our ego finally dissolves so we can access divine knowledge and intuition when preparing our next incarnation.
We just can’t keep the divine knowledge and wisdom when we incarnate without it, ruining the meaning of our experiences $$

If life is just a game of hot and cold with your spirit
Then death is best viewed as spiritual tutoring 
And once you get to the point to where you can create a lifetime that balances karma and free’s you from the need of death
Then you gain your freedom $

Just do enough to get the ball rolling 
Then keep it rolling past 3 small obstacles 
& then You’ll probably be inspired to continue after that 
But if you stop or mess up, it’ll get easier to restart $$

Starting over is easier in every way except egoically $$$
 
The best way off the floor is by combing a push up with the lunge 
i.e. doing it yourself 
Cuz that’s the only way to get the points $$

Time for oatmeal and a prayer
And another hit and nappy nap $

Good thing I binged watched all those tv shows way back when $

Cuz I have endless random quotes and inside jokes $

Comedy is just seasoned telepathy $$$

Telepathy is just baked wisdom 🤙🏻 $$$

Understanding metaphysics is just understanding circles within circles $$$

Understanding science is just understanding the types of circles and their angles of interaction $$$

I couldn’t incarnate as a woman cuz I’m not gay and I don’t wanna be a lesbian $

Oatmeal on diabetes again $

Why evil exists 
- Cuz freedom to choose 
- Cuz love requires contrast
- Cuz strength requires test
- To fool profane
- For fun & To play with $

New segment: big boy topics $

All acts of kindness matter because all acts of evil matter $$$

Taking Delight in the suffering of others is the most hideous form of evil $$$

People will read something like that then laugh at someones struggle 12 min later $

Numbers can say more than words
Not the other way around $$$

Some people just look fucked up naturally 
They didn’t earn it
They don’t party $$

Yall hear that story about that one guy rasing people from the dead? $

You can tell who’s word is shit just by looking at them
You don’t need to hear anything $$$

Happy 6:52am
Just smashed a bowl 🥣 
Bout to smash another bowl 💨 
Then nap & lift & free my soul 
I wanna get lost in your dank ass bowl $

“WHAT ARE YOU EATING”
Me to Alex 3x daily $

The Same people that question why you lift all those weights will also question why you write all those words
And they seriously can’t even see the connection or the benefit $$

So whatever you do, don’t waste your time trying to explain it to them $$$

You’re better off making a slightly offensive joke instead $$$

Because those who are truly wise will never find offense
Just humor or insight $$$

Once you read, write, and lift for fun,
You reach the max level $$$

*sees cat
“I swear my heart gonna explode one day” $$

Showing evidence of your awareness is called art 🖼️ $$$

The truth hurts then it heals ❤️‍🩹 $$

Toxic delusions are the only way to believe you’re somehow separate from others $$$

Hot take
All education is technically rehabilitation 
And all rehabilitation is certainly educational $$

It’s Friday
The first Friday of the month, so you know what that means
I’ll be dashing all over the place
I hope
OK, maybe not all over the place
Because I’m pretty choosy with the orders these days now
But anyway, I hope it’ll be busy
We’re on the way to the first one nowM it is 11:36 AM $

Yeet $$$

Bro, this first order smells so damn good. It’s from the wing place by my house.
Homie on the counter was rude as fuck, but I think he kind of caught it
AnyWho, the drop off is near my house so that’s nice
Good little warm-up so far $

Warning: the Christian’s will actively try ti hit you with their car at Chick-fil-A $$$

Yeah, honestly, the Christians at Chick-fil-A are probably the most dangerous $$

I love being able to do repeat orders
Especially when they’re literally across the street from the restaurant
But it makes me happy because it’s probably the closest I’m gonna get to having regular customers
In this weird modern serving job $

Lol after a couple orders, DoorDash gets confident and be like here; Do you want this 13 mile away order for 2$? $

Just got another one from Chick-fil-A for a client who is right down the street
It’s for four dollars but if it takes me less than 10 minutes to complete then that’s pretty good maybe not as good as I originally thought but you know what isn’t that big deal $

A dash ricochet is when you get the same parking spot twice at the same restaurant during lunch hour $$

Be careful if you ask for heightened awareness in a world gone mad $$$

Loving the passive aggressive, super long delivery note for the order at the hospital when I haven’t even delivered there before
Just shows that nobody is above trauma, not even trauma doctors $$

I always have a weird out of body experience every time I deliver fast fried food to a hospital $$$

I just wanna be the kind of writer that would make Jesus laugh $

I’m Posted up hunting for people who are hunting for sandwiches $

DoorDash likes to get all the newbies by floating the low and far away orders first $$$

Just saying if you were able to order a large order from DoorDash, you would want me taken care of that SOB
Because I get it from point A to point B asap $$$

In many ways, this is just like a game of blackjack
Knowing when to hit and want to stay $$

The showmars staffing archetype has not changed
1 young dude, 1 old dude
A bunch of Spanish speaking cooks
And as many young girls as you can fit $$

I take that back. Showmars might be the worst safety wise- because of all the old people. $$

All the old people come out around noon just to take wide left turns and hog up all the stoplights $

Writing actually makes multitasking easier $$

Bro, my next order left a note that says “come around back and I’ll be waiting”
I think they’re trying to fight 
I’m 100% OK with $

It’s not that I’m a trained fighter. It’s just that I’ve trained fighting more than most DoorDash customers for sure $$$

Your body is nothing more than a machine
You can engineer it the way you want
But only if you understand trade offs $$

How cool would it be if you could telepathically share skills
Like what if I could gift my exercise IQ to anyone I wanted?
My knowledge of how to keep fat off for years 
How to be happy under unbelievable stress 
Not gonna lie- my first instinct is to say “fuck that shit. go fuck yourself. fuck you. I ain’t sharing what I worked so hard for” $

But the joke is that I can actually do all of those things - cuz of the book I wrote so you just have to read the book
Because I can’t take away your fear of the weight $

The only way to tell if you’ve mastered something is if you can create a masterpiece while multitasking $$$

The only way to master multitasking is to multitask multiple tasks at the same time $$$

The only type of intelligence capable of passing along fair judgment is one that has traveled through the same situations and circumstances
And has also alchemized them properly
Because all events are just elements to a spiritual project 
Therefore, action must be guided by intent and not emotion $$$

I find it funny that whenever I “try to think big” it’s actually not that hard to come up with creative solutions 
It’s just difficult to override my overly critical and doubting ego long enough to come up with complete ideas $

It’s just another example of how doubt from fear corrupts more than the situation itself $$

Grocery list
- crackers (2
- Eggs (12
- Bread (5
- Peanut butter (6
- Jelly (6
- Oatmeal (7
- = $38ish
+ $15? $

Be very careful when grocery shopping while stoned $$$

In cookie isle now 
Code red
Okay staying focused 
This is so hard
Idk how I managed not to get cookies 🍪 $

Fuck I got cookies
But a reasonable bag
Cute shawty by eggs? 
Ehh not really lol
Yoo eggs are 4.69 for 30 STEAL
Total was 72$ but much more food $

Plus 
“I will multiply the sorrows of the wicked” 
-God back in the day 

They really just need to update scripture so it doesn’t sound so fucking weird $$$

Got 120 eggs
Plus berries 
Plus plenty carbs $

Happy 3:33 PM 
The most esoteric time of the day $$

My cat loves to knock shit over when he’s hungry $$

But sometimes he’s not actually hungry 
He’s just conditioned to think he is so he’s always asking for food and never finishing it 
But he finishes all of it when he’s actually hungry $$

I spent more money than I thought I was going to, but I got more food at a better deal so that’s good 
I mean a weeks worth of food for $72 is pretty good 
And that’s hitting protein goal and high carbs and not that dirty 
So you know beat that $

I feel bad whenever Alex gets playful when I get ready to go on a walk 
But just like the hunger scenario 
He’s not actually that bored 
he’s just conditioned to make me think he is so I will worship his every move 
And on that note, he’s licking his ass and i’m walking out the door. $

Time for a little stroll down memory lane $

A master does not know any such thing as waste $$$

Motherfucker it is so beautiful today holy shit 
Perfect weather - 60s $

I’d say the leaves are about half gone and almost fully changed colors 
So everything is gold $

You know, I’ve always known it, but I’ve never really known it. You know what I mean? $

But yeah, everything has been 100% scripted by my spirit
Just working out the details and where are some Easter eggs maybe $

… Just realize why they call it that $

ADHD is the one disorder that manifest literally
Because everything is disorganized $$

Real ADHD is not the cute. 
It’s not the “ I can’t sit still, and I enjoy thrillseeking “ kind
Real ADHD is an empty loneliness that feels like a burning itch and is only temporarily soothed whenever you discover something new
But if the new thing isn’t interesting, then it’s going to be painfully boring if not downright terrifying
And everybody around you is gonna take it personally when you lose interest in them
And after a while, you’re just gonna believe that you’re a piece of shit for not caring about other people as much as you feel like you should
But in all reality, you care so much that you’ve run out of care points to spend
And so you keep swiping your emotional charge card trying to give somebody a little bit of your serotonin and dopamine but you can’t cuz you have a negative balance
And you spend so much time trying to do right by those around you that you do not have the energy to investigate why you do not have the energy 
but you don’t think “you don’t have enough energy” because you have too much of the “wrong kind of energy” and you can’t sit still $$

It’s like being a sensitive, nervous Nancy emotionally but being an intellectual Evel Knievel mentally $$

So you have this overwhelming urge to do crazy shit, but are held back by an paralyzing fear that dominates what little room for reasoning you have $$

Because once the cortisol levels get too high, reasoning comes physically impossible
And despite how painfully aware you are of this process and this pattern once the switch is flipped, there is nothing you can do and you are powerless $$

And you get to watch your powerless self use what precious emotional energy it has left to condemn itself $$

This gonna sound angry (I ain’t) 
but I Hate shrill white bitches $

Alright Friday night
Time to get it on
*activates dash $

Getting trolled by two old ladies rn
Strolling thru parking lot
Talking bout bones and shit haha
Posted up next to my car
Loud as shit 
I’m being harsh
They’re not really trolling but they are pretty loud 
“I was wearing this cape I made for myself, I was real proud of it”
“I come to the doors and there were skulls and naked people on the walls”
“House full of witches”
“We’re witches I guess”
Bruh I have no clue wtf they’re talking about 😂😂 $

Okay they rolled out but seriously odd with the witch talk $

*pops caffeine pill $

In the candy store parking lot rn $

Damn, I bet my moms got a bunch of my old stuff from my last life
But getting to it is going to cause unnecessary stress $

You can tell who’s afraid of exercise $$$

I keep thinking I’m uncovering new creative ways of thinking 
But in reality, I’m just recovering them $$

So far my strategy is being very picky 
I declined a few decent offers already, but they were kind of far 
So we’re gonna see how well we can do bounty hunting $

We gotta do this right 
*Pops salt pill 💊 $

Think my priority 2nite is distance
If I stay as close as possible, I’ll probably save the most energy 
And maximize amount of orders
2 extra orders easily off sets order amount
We’ll see $

Some people would rather die than let you back out in front of them In line
So maybe you should call their bluff $$$

First order was a 5$ five dollar right across the street from Chick-fil-A 
Took less than 15 minutes 
I was probably hanging in the parking lot before the order longer 
Mileage 101931 at 4:52pm $

I’m manifesting a bunch of big ass orders from close by (<3mi) $

4:50 PM
Just got a nine dollar order from Jersey Mike’s for somebody who is about 4 miles away 
And probably 3 miles total from the store 
Maybe 2 miles from where I was posted up 
Pick up time is in six minutes 
Delivery time I’m guessing probably in 15 minutes 
So we’ll see 
Well, that’s a first they actually had the sandwich a new mobile pick up slot ready for me not trying to throw shade cause I love Jersey Mike’s but that’s the first time they’ve been ready on time $

Just got cut off by a random bro speeding across the parking lot to get to the liquor store $

So it looks like the drop off time is about five minutes away from the hub 
So all in all disorder is looking around 20 minutes to complete $

Every time I make a mistake my first thought is still “how I can get out of it” $$

Some of the best views I’ve ever seen came when doing some very mundane shit 
I.e. delivering food $$

We just got a $10 4.4 mile order on the way back to the hub 
And we ain’t even back yet 
So that’s pretty good if I get this delivered in the next 15 minutes 
Only issue is traffic right now 
Let’s see if I can use the power of my mind to get another couple orders for the time we get there 
Or have them ready lined up right after $

If it’s funny it’s probably spiritual $$$

The clouds look like lines of blow rn
Tf you doing God… $

$24 by 5:32 PM
Traffic is the only thing slowing things down $

I love when I get things wrong because I’m usually pretty pessimistic $

Things only seem difficult when you were scared $$$

Lol once I parked at the CVS back at the hub I got an eight dollar order for Burger King with a 2 mile away delivery
So if we can complete that by 6 o’clock, then that’s nearly 30 bucks for the hour
Yeah, well traffic is gonna do everything and it’s powered to prevent that it seems
Which isn’t that big a deal because I’m saving energy it’s just not that exciting and the vibe is pretty ass $

Bruh we are literally not moving 
The store is less than a mile lol
Trollllll
Idk what’s causing it either
Don’t think it’s an accident 
But if this is from stupidity then that’s a new PR $

The good news is that the traffic makes it easy to do a shot of sludge
Your move resistance $

Note for next week- don’t even try during rush hour traffic
Oooo maybe it was an accident 
Which makes me feel better?? 
What’s wrong with me $

Revenge is so fucked and yet so sweet 
WHY
IDEK if it was an accident. I just saw cop lights
And people cutting across lanes… $

“Yeah, because I was inconvenienced by 15 minutes I wish that person XYZ would be in a world of catastrophic pain “
Don’t lie and say that you can’t relate either $

Nope, just looks like somebody’s car died or something 
Of course it’s a Subaru outback $

AnyWho, I’m really trying not to be a POS because I don’t want to trade places with the guy 
So I’m only writing all of this to laugh at myself later at how quickly all that spiritual shit goes out the window 
Cause in all this might cost me maybe 10 minutes which is no big deal at all 
But it also could provide me with a lesson opportunity 
But besides the point - these guys do look like total neckbeards 
I’m literally they both have neckbeards and fish T shirts 
I can’t make this up. $

Go, Please protect me from my own karma that I may be generating right as we speak. $

But we finally made it to the Burger King. Let’s hope the order is ready. 
Good news it was ready and on the shelf 
Yeah, $35 at one hour 45 minutes active time 
So subtract the first 20 minutes 
And then like another 30 from traffic total so you know about 35 in about 40 minutes it’s pretty good except for the fucking traffic $

Next one is for $13 from Wayback burgers for about 6 miles away though 
All in all, I’m thinking my completion will be right around 640 when I hope to be back to the next order $

Man, the passive aggressive stuff really Goes the longest in the bad way $$$

Let’s see how long this left-hand turn takes 
It’s 6:18 PM right now 
There is probably five or six cars in front 
It actually didn’t take very long to turn (go straight)
Maybe three minutes 
Delivery at 6:32 PM as scheduled $

Got another one from Empire Pizza for $11
7 miles total
Got it as I was passing veterans Park at 6:39 PM
Completion goal by 7:03 PM
That would put me at $60 just about $

You wanna see me what someone’s made of? Make them do food service $$

$11 is not enough to dash from the most popular pizza place in town on a Friday night $$$

I’m kind of glad they took a while though because I got to stretch my legs
But my blood sugar is low as fuck cause I’m all fidgety
Good thing I am a master at burning fat
Not many people can say that $

I’m at that point now where I’m about to lose my shit because I don’t have any carbs. I have to pee and the technology is fucking up.
I just missed the turn so bad because my ego
Just means I need a break $

I start whining like a little baby back bitch whenever I need a break
It’s unbearable to hear myself sometimes $

If someone looks like a pig, it’s probably because they behave like one $$$

I’m taking a break at 7:10 p.m.
We’re at $59 
Less than a quarter tank 
Probably about an eighth of a tank of gas 
So the distance strategy seems to be working because I still have a good bit of energy for round two after I refuel $

The goal is still 200 
So $150 more $

Good to see the world has chilled out and gone back to sleep $

Burger King for 5.50 (3/1 mi) at 7:45 -8 $

Funny how it wasn’t until I started studying a bunch of overwhelming info that I had a spiritual awakening $

Next $11 order from Hawthorn’s received once I was dropping off the last one at 7:55
The other order is already ready and I’m on the way to drop it off now $

Got another order for Hawthorn’s for 1350 about 6 miles away but only 3 miles away from hub and I literally just dropped off the last order and I’m I’m still probably 2 miles away so that’s a good sign and I just declined like two shitty ones so the strategy is definitely the right one $

We’re at $90 by 8:43pm
3 mi from hub 
So only been 1.50$ add on promo- but feels consistent 
I’m prob optimized $

We back posted up at showmars 8:52pm
Ngl- im getting spent
Hoping there’s another surge shortly otherwise might call it $

Got a Full tank of gas for first time in like 6 months so that’s dope $

It’s gotten oddly quiet 
I had to decline a bunch of crap from Matthews
I think DD is getting cute and holding orders back on me now to try to trick me 
And now I’m getting a bunch of shitty small ones haha $

lol we got people screeching in the showmars parking lot $

I’m calling it at 9:07 PM. I could power through but I’m getting too many crap orders and my enthusiasm is pretty much gone so all in all that’s around $117 for the day and all in all not bad at all work wise besides the probably 45 minutes lost in traffic in the evening which I’ll remember for later
AnyWho, it’s time to go back home doing an extract. Watch some TV. Learn to have some patience in Grace with myself and have fun again the old-fashioned way. $

101991 miles 9:11 pm lol
Not intentional $

Gonna know when to cut it or else you will earn the fool card $

I’m excited to try this new Kratom extract mix with kava $

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THOUGHTS I HEARD

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SUBURBAN SECRETS

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WORDS THAT NEED A HOME

11-7-25

That 2am rain hits different $

So do 2am hiccups $

And so will I if these don’t fucking go away
I HATE HICCUPS SO FUCKING MUCH
*holds breath like puffer fish $

If I ever snap, just know i had the hiccups $

Aight they should be gone now 
Thought I was gonna have to take matters into my own hands $

You waste more time worrying about the consequences then actually dealing with the consequences
 with the Things that are most balanced
Like 12 grain bread for example $$

If you write it in ancient Greek, it’ll likely be timeless $$

The important stuff you just know
You don’t really know how you know $$$

Being tortured by the weight of your genius, just makes you an amateur $$

Writing that mentally ill dragon into battle, that’s how you become a master $$

Mental illness is the final boss to enlightenment
It Is the only thing that can actually compromise your philosophical defense system
Because the mind is the first sphere anything mental impacts, everything else downstream of that $$

Not so hard to believe that most people are childish souls just reincarnated when you watch grown adults act like children $$

Why do some women look like fish? 
I think it’s when the chin extends further than the nose ? $$

If you read my other columns, you would probably think I’m trying too hard
Then you read my notepad, and you realize the truth 😂😂😂 $

The blueberry oatmeal is so good
Get frozen blueberries and have them waiting for the super hot oatmeal
You get to skip the cool down weight and it makes the bowl that much better $$

Not a good idea to go around kicking over stones looking for snakes 🐍 $$$

& It’s not the snakes fault he doesn’t want to come out after you knocked on his stone 🪨 $$$

Looks like this show is for chicks
Took me bout 13 min to figure that out haha $

*thunder go boom
The thunder hits different when you can feel the vibration 
Jesus that was loud $

Shit I might have missed my post carb walk window 
Now I’m getting the sleepys $

Time to sneak out from the corner and see if the strangers are still outside
They seem nice so now I have to wait till they’re out of my coldsac to go on my walk $

Their clothes said church
But their clipboards said canvassing $

Yep- they just hopped back in the whip
But are now in the middle of the road?
I’m straight peeping thru my hole rn $

Crisis averted $

So far, I think we have like some crazy super wealthy head bitch 
With some super narcissistic, go getting assistant All-Star bitch $

“They said dad had dementia and you sent me a fruit basket” $

The more relaxed you are, the more powerful your psychic abilities are $$

The more stressed you are the more powerful your physical abilities are $$

The place in between is the flow state $$

Death is the only thing that just sounds bad $$$

The hardest movement- walking away when it’s time $$$

I’ll show you the dragon 
Once I feel like it lol… $

Yall got any dopamine?
No, not amphetamines… $

I had to rough up my ego so it would find pleasure in super boring shit apparently $$

Words can burn more than fire 🔥 $$

Just read something boring for 8hrs and you’ll see $$

Being called a “tool” is a compliment $$

The fact that it takes work to understand “Jesus” is strong evidence that it’s a good thing $$$

And the fact that some don’t understand Jesus shows it’s an effective veil against the ignorant $$$

New game 
You get 1 wish. & You must make this wish
- set different parameters 
- Ex: must be a wish for today only
- But realistically game out the butterfly effect consequences 
- Ex: wishing to win lottery but then OD on drugs and hookers $

You get an energy return on your behavior investment based on how you make people feel
Paid at ego death $

Some people will literally cite the fact that they’ve gotten away with fucked up shit in the past as evidence for there to be no God $$$

Because they’re too dumb to realize that a God (when dealing with an individual like that ) would simply wait until they dug themselves so deep before any type of revelation $$$

But this “god” would likely write a lot of warnings and probably in one big book $$

This young coordinating bitch act a lot like my old manager 
Who wasn’t really that Bad but definitely 26 years old and in her own world $

I watched so many people throw away all sense of self-respect on Instagram $$$

Those who want more government,
Or more institutional authority in order to solve more problems- have obviously never been a part of a problem-solving authority $$$

Cause that shit does not work
Just like the population asking for the problem
Which they could never possibly understand cause they’ve never worked $$$

Can’t ask for more than the opportunity to work in a pretty good and reasonable side hustle $$

Which is only one of the many reasons why I won’t ever work for somebody else ever again $

You think The worst thing you can do is burst someone’s fantasy bubble based on their temper tantrum $$$

It’s hilarious how many people take resentments to their grave $$

It’s grave how many resentments people take to their grave… $$

I’m done viewing things from the silly “people” lense $

Always remember what the replay might look like $$$

Loving the “no fucks given” tattoo $

So far this is just a bunch of slutty and backhand bitchy humor $

Not being harsh either- their words basically 
“Deadbeat” sister already had sex with 3 dudes in first episode $

Happy 2:42am to everyone except these bitches $

Kratom extracts are the perfect treat IMO
Way better than alcohol $

Fuck alcohol
I can’t believe I was an alcoholic in a past life $

Ironically, I wasn’t an addict in this life
But I still did my time in AA for my fuckery from the last life $

One white chip wonder bitch (3-15-12)
Till I retired circa 6-24-21 $

Also should note how weird shit got this summer right after the solstice $

Real eye of Horus vibes $$

Aight- it’s bout snack time $

Talking bout popcorn 🍿 
Not shawtys $

Love how Dennis from It’s Always Sunny (great show) is the boyfriend in this show $

This shows called “Sirens” on Netflix btw $

I could probably get some kind of sponsorship for the website if I could make it through a movie long enough to do some kind of review $

But alas, score another one for ADD $

A chest ADD could be a bitch slap $$

I’m pretty sure spirits can kind of fuck with your temporal field
Like an energetic poke
But we feel it like more like a muscle spasm
But in reality, there’s probably some weird fuzzy ball of energy poking you
Seeing if you realize it $$

If you could hear my tone right now, it would probably sound disappointing and super dull $

Most shows are better to watch for their ridiculousness instead of their plot $$

If you can time travel then couldn’t you teleport? $$

If I could read minds then the easiest job in the world would be to be a cage fighter $$$

I don’t know if I’m gonna explain this right but
When I zoom out and I look back on my life
I recognize the story and the themes and the patterns
But the feeling of recognition is a spiritual one and the most unique feeling I’ve ever had
It’s proof to me that I engineered my own life
Maybe not the nitty-gritty specifics
But I certainly chose the lessons and the parameters and the circumstances 
Everything that I ever complained about- I chose
But what I’m actually most proud of is, I recognize the intelligence
The ancient strategic wisdom that has been guiding me like some kind of weird game of spiritual pong
It is undeniable proof to me, not only in reincarnation, but in the entire point of life
That when we die, and we go to the in-between place, we engineer our next existence. I think we can plan it based on skills we required and lessons we’ve learned over our entire spiritual journey.
I also think that built into the consciousness archetype, if you make it back to where you’ve left off when you died, you get back all your old memories and a bunch of cool stuff
So when you consider all of that
And the brief training intermission for the Young meat suit, 
death is nothing more than a brief night sleep
And the pattern of living and dying is the exact same as waking and sleeping $$&

“Omg you’re so skinny what’s your secret?”
I literally eat popcorn, crackers, and cookies in the middle of the night while smoking lots of weed and watching Netflix
So maybe you should start listening to me when I say that it’s more mind over matter if you wanna have your cake and enjoy it too $$

Even the smallest problems can feel like the end of the world when you’re in the middle of them $$$

Repairing anything requires you to take it apart and put it back together
Taking apart, anything requires you to place all the pieces all over the fucking place for an annoyingly long amount of time
When all the pieces are all over the place the problem is gonna seem much bigger than it really is
So my point is that when you’re in the process of building, it’s important not to become overwhelmed by the amount of moving ports $$$

Love how this episode of “i almost got away with it” is about a fuck boy from Wilmington who’s selling Coke and partying $

I need to remember who the fuck I am and take my own advice
I need to get some fucking mushrooms so bad $

Had a Kratom and kava extract thingy tonight
That also had AshwaGonda and l-theanine in it (but didn’t want to talk about that- not on label)
Supposed to be 150 mg
But feels like it might be half that $

If any supplement people or whatever reading this
You should sponsor your boy cause you know I’ll give honest reviews
Appreciate it
Back to a regularly scheduled programming $

I like to pretend to be a spiritual bad ass, as if I’ve done some pretty heroic shit in past lives
But the truth is far more likely that I sat on the sideline more than I liked 
This is Based on my anxiety for doing anything at all in this incarnation
And my ability to overthink everything $

I hate to admit that I’m also best at creating excuses
At least I’m also creative at coming up with ways to account for my excuses $

It’s almost that magical time of the day
4:20 AM $

This is gonna sound bad because of financial problems, but I need to buy another ounce
It’s the most sound economical cannabis decision $

IT’S MEDICAL $

Goddamnit, not the hiccups again $

Starts as burp DONT FALL FOR IT $

NOW IM PUFFER FISH 🐠 $

Shout out to Chris Williamson from new modern wisdom podcast
Always with great guests
I’m happy to offer you a suburban wisdom segment
And advice for other recovering fuck boys $

Real recognize real especially fucked up $

Anything in the morning is 3x harder motivation wise but 3x more fulfilling $$$

Happy 9:47am $

Imagine thinking the order behind literally everything in “existence” is just an accidental coincidence $

Only incomplete science is confusing or arrogant $$

Oh yeah, DoorDash said I had 50 straight on time orders 
Bruh and that’s with Friday night traffic 
Beat that shit $

Not all obesity is the same just like not all weight training is the same $$&

Not all fat is the same just like not all muscle is the same $$$

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11-8-25

I know what it looks like when somebody expects a new car to fix them $$

Fucking hate when the general public can’t read my mind to stop doing things to upset me $$

Slaying the dragon isn’t as efficient as just filming it $$$

I only have the “wrong” experiences to compare it with but
If you think you’re with the wrong person, then you are $$

Most people hate most what they want the most $$

If there was anyone who was built to smoke weed
It was your boy
(And snoop dogg) $

Starting the show “Soulmates” (Netflix / AMC)
I’m 13min in
Love the plot and cast so far
But I’m racing against the ADHD clock 
Hoping they set the hook soon so I can hyperfixate on it instead of tune it out $

An hour is just a set of seconds
A day is just a workout of hours
A week is just a program of days
A month is just a hierarchy of weeks
A year is just a cycle of months $

Hierarchy is more fun pronounced as higher-arch-ie $$

I bet a placebo “soul particle” would work as good as the real thing $$

I know my soulmate gotta be as sus about the whole process as I am by this point $

I Bet my “particle” would end up on some kind of list $

My next girlfriend is gonna be very grateful for my dating history, not concerned by it
Good thing bout dating now- I’m either gonna have a lovely experience or lovely content to share $

I still feel like I should be “working” instead of writing
I still feel guilty for spending $33 on a “treat” so I can “relax” better
I still feel like I’m “wrong” for not fighting so hard against myself 
But I’ve learned those are the actual emotional lies I tell myself $

I’m just a lil too conditioned to being in “good condition “ 
But also have never really known the feeling $

I promise you The fitness freaks at your local gym are overcompensating just like the rest of us $$$

People in a public gym truly think they’re on the runway Or gridiron $$

Ima have to disclose my occupation up front
“Yea, I’m a journalist of sorts 
I journal about fuck shit and heavy stones” $

I’m sorry ladies but it’s on you if you date a skinny-fat, monster drinking asshat and expect a smooth ride $

Only incomplete people expect others to complete them $$

Reminder: narcissists are incapable of seeing another perspective (good or bad) $$

28min in
And it’s not bad. I think it’s gonna be good
There’s 6 seasons so that’s dope
Lol whoops I meant six episode
I don’t know how I misread that $

If you’ve ever been a POS to somebody the best way to make it up to them is let them hear you say it. $$$

Jesus was totally a bullied band kid $$

Haters gonna be like “why did you score that a suburban secret” when that was really just a “thought that you heard”? $

Do not give me a microphone unless you want a new asshole $$

Being a third-party to any type of couples’ altercation is awkward $$

The truth is most people are with the wrong person right now and are just too scared to do anything about it $$$

Don’t believe me? check your search history with your Other
(Or text history) $$

Here is a fun challenge
Give $1 million to whoever would let you go through their phone on a live feed $$

Fuck that was a good sandwich
A good PB&J always betters the day 🥪 $$

Oh boy
The romantic lessons are learned the hardest way
And they are the hardest to learn
And they’re probably the most repeated $$

The guilt that- we should feel more for people- does more harm than good $$

You are better off being extra restrictive with your care than overly generous $$

You shouldn’t be with anyone until you can be by yourself for at least two years $$

You shouldn’t be with anyone else until you don’t want to be with anyone else because you enjoy being by yourself so much
Then maybe you’ll be ready $$&

Right now, there are hundreds of millions, if not billions of people - who’s number one problem is the person they’re supposed to care most for $$$

Everybody act tough until they think it’s all about to be taken away
Then they overreact in a disingenuous way $$

Most people don’t love the things they get they just love getting things $$

If you want to write, but you don’t know what to write about
Then just ramble and then title it philosophy
You’ll figure the rest out later $$$

Only posers need clear eyes or Visine $$$

On a bad emo day, my reactions are on manual mode $

Maybe I’m just a dick, but I really don’t understand the obsession with finding the right spouse
Maybe that’s a lot of people‘s true purpose because of the family that will be downstream
And maybe I am the loner type of the special variety destined for more adventurous adventures because of the boring ass family last time
No disrespect to my spirit relatives, but I get the vibe that I was kind of lame $

I never enjoyed writing until I learned how to manipulate people with my words
But then I quit sales so I could talk shit the fun way $

Bet There have Been a lot of awkward ass convos in random restaurant booths $

I do and do not believe in the construct of soulmates
I do believe that many people are destined spiritually to be together either because they have in the past or for future purposes
But I also believe that there are many who are on a more open and free timeline in which they may meet new or have many significant soulmates $

death is very important to break cycles and to allow for fresh start $$$

It is also the most powerful teacher $$$

If space is fake, it’s because the moon is a projector $$

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again
The Earth and the moon are the equivalent of man-made
And human’s true home is likely from many different places $$

Earth is a great incubator 
And very unlikely to be the only one $$$

Anyone who proactively (and unnecessarily ) reminds you how a situation impacts them is a selfish self-centered piece of shit $$$

“Unnecessarily” is a lot easier to type when you’re doing speech to text $$

I enjoy shooting the shit, but I hate editing it $

God won’t let me be telekinetic just yet because he knows I would just fling Alex all over the place $$

It’s honestly sad how many people can’t go a year without sex $$$

And most people can’t go a day or two without fucking themselves $$$

Fuck, those are good crackers $

And this show is pretty good too
Each episode is a different mini plot
About how this soulmate technology can go wrong
So you know, your boys’ loving it
*ashes bowl 🥣 $

I am very proud to say that I have not done a swipe in 30 months $

Keeping it real , I’m pretty close minded towards an open relationship $

I like to go stabby stab with my vocab $

I like to get high on my own supply of self esteem $$

The worst part of mental illness is how easy lifestyle circumstances fuck up the accuracy of a diagnosis 
Ex:
Good job= must be healthy
Bad relationship = must be ADHD $$

Watching your behavior or experiencing the receiving end of your behavior 
Either way, if either scare you then you scare me $$$

I’ll be the face of fitness one day
*eats saltine crackers for dinner $

Dry tears add salt $$$

Happy 7:43 PM from sleepy, strong but stonedboy 420 $

DoorDash is a lot like Suburban fishing
And you are always just hoping for the big one $$

Literally the Line on TV nine seconds after I typed the one above >
“Everybody is fighting for the biggest” $

The gods would totally live amongst us for the lulz $$

I honestly can’t believe how many people cheat on their significant other
And how many either don’t care or would feel as if they’re the victim $

Mormons have a healthier divorce rate than the Catholics
Just saying $

Multiple wives sounds awesome if they’re all hot and super cool and super smart and if they love each other too $

But it would most likely just turn into fucked up mind games, and subtle passive aggressive popularity contests $

Philosophy is the one thing we have in common with the Devine
Otherwise, the Devine cannot possibly understand as an equal the fuck shit of being human because it does not have a stupid ego that is always messing things up 
But the divine does understand in the way of a supporting friend or as a coach, who has been there and done that
And remember that the wise are almost always the ones who are laughing the most $

If It’s impossible to laugh then you are the wrong kind of afraid $$

You can still laugh if it’s a healthy fear $$

If it’s not even just a little funny then it’s probably too egoic & serious $$

I don’t want to eat the eggs before bed, but I don’t make the rules $

Everybody wanna be strong, but nobody want to eat their protein and sleep $$$

You don’t know pain until you’ve had to face fuck a half pound of plain ass grilled chicken breast with no dressing just to hit your macros for the day
Just to stay at 25% body fat $$

You don’t know pain until you’ve had the mass gainer fight back $$

You don’t know pain until you’ve had to dig through the tub just to get the scoop and you get powder everywhere in the process $$

You don’t know pain until you’ve accidentally walked into the women’s locker room at the YMCA that you never go to $$

Bruh, I think I’m gonna go nap before the first round of eggs $

I really can’t believe how many eggs I’ve eaten in the past six months
Or how few steak
But I knew I wasn’t gonna get steak during the broke writer phase
That would just be too easy $

I can’t believe the 30 eggs were only 4.96 at Food Lion 🦁 $

Happy 757 p.m I’m gonna shut up and go nap $

I just legit caught Jerry, the fucking mouse 
More like Alex caught him literally in his mouth and then I was able to capture him under a glass and free him before Alex actually eat him 
But like straight up, that was a full ass mouse 
So that’s kind of shitty 
I had seen zero evidence of any mice or any environment for that matter around here for like three years $

I’m so proud of Alex though because this is literally everything he’s been training for and he did it so perfect
“ I’m so proud of you, buddy.”
He didn’t get distracted by his other toys
He cornered the guy under the black ottoman and party cabinet and even Chased him underneath the couch and caught him
And if he didn’t catch him in his actual mouth, then I wouldn’t have been able to free him because he started playing dead after Alex caught him
Anyhow, now with the excitement, I can’t really go back to sleep
So we’re doing some shots of sludge and hits of dank
You did so good $

“ Don’t worry buddy 
the ancients saw that for sure
What great teamwork 
I mean, what duo can literally wake up and save some random vermin’s life” $

Being overly disciplined is still being overly egoic $$

The best thing to be is reasonable. $$$

“He’s a hero. “
Me talking about Alex for the rest of the month $

New segment 
Diary of a DoorDasher $

My superpower is making boring things more FUNctional
*lighter flic $

Can’t build anything without knowing where you are
Can’t know where you are unless you know what you just did
Can’t know what to do next without knowing where you want to go $$

New challenge 
- write 13 different plot lines for crazy character arcs
- Suspend disbelief and go for crazy but plausible scenarios based on your life
- Range from simple to complex 
- Pick top 3 $

The only place to “try hard” is training
Otherwise, the goal is always to “save energy” $$

You need an area to battle test or stress test what you build
Seems like a familiar concept don’t it? $$

The fact that we crave different types of snacks proves there are different kinds of hunger $$

We all had that one friend who would be like “ it squirts if you jerk it” after the Lord’s Prayer 🙏 $

“We all had that one friend”
Because most of us only had about one real friend lol $$

The mayhem from the mouse has subsided and I am getting sleepy again
And I am getting stoned again
Happy 12:42 AM $

Now I’m nervous about how many other mice are around here
Because that one was clearly a swag hound
So he’s bound to have Homies $

I bet Alex can probably take them
I’m still so proud of him. He’s sprang into action so smooth and so nice $

I’m happy I could actually save the little guy 
Although I think I might’ve crushed his foot a bit 
So I apologize for that 
But if I didn’t, he would’ve been ripped apart, 
so he can deal with the nighthawks now $

He was under the black ottoman when I got up and Alex had cornered him 
So that means Alex must’ve chased him under there 
Which means that Alex would’ve spotted and stalked him 
Which is perfect technique 
Great work buddy $

Good news- think I’ve simplified what I want to do
Bad news- I wanna be a writer ✍️ $

What you get when you merge 
- Suburban schooling
- Journalistic ambition
- Spanglish based Texting slang
- Ridiculousness $

Happy 12:49am lol 
Going back in
*loads bowl 🥣 $

I’m fine with failing in this life cuz of what that means for the next $$

Loving my hair so much now that it’s long enough to calm down under its own weight $$

Finally getting out of the awkward stage 
Yeet $

Hate the fact children have cancer 
But hate more that we rather blame god instead of praise the child’s strength 
(Can’t be strong without a cause ) $$$

Not all power hours cause PB&J‘s 
But PB&J‘s always cause power hours $$$

Resistance is magic 🪄 $$

Didn’t realize it but I’m actually eating a good bit of fiber these days $

My diet these days is probably the most balanced of all time
Just pb&js, eggs, berries, a bit of fish & crackers $

Use to be just 1lb of steak/ beef + berries + mass gainer
That was also balanced nature vs nurture wise $

Respect is an ego thing 
It reinforces acceptance of separation 
Which reinforces that separation is not a bad thing 
But also that over concern for respect is an ego thing $$

The only bad part about the rain is all the bugs and small critters that violate our peace agreement and start going into the visible areas and force me to make an moral decision $

I confuse moral and ethical pretty much every time 
Oh well $

Remembering the crazy drives to Michigan for the supercheap and super dank ganja $

I think I’m gonna run today 
Happy 1:10 AM $

Carbs make me far less anxious and restless when my muscles soak them up $

Remembering how I got the news my GMA passed
While doing the formal photo shoot in a castle in Portugal….
So there is photo evidence of me smiling for the camera minutes after crying on the castle steps 
And I bet nobody would be able to tell if I didn’t tell $

Remembering painting the heart on the wall the evening before she left
And filming it $

I can’t get mad at God for those cuz that’s something only I would script $

The Spiritual test only begins once you’re on empty $$$

Anything that is not initially interesting is a spiritual challenge $$

Maybe one day I wont fear phone calls from my parents but I guess that ain’t today $

Trauma’s first goal is to gaslight you for having it $$$

Doing a little more is really no biggie if you got it down like that $$

It’s okay to enjoy being alone
Don’t listen to anyone trying to make you feel guilty about it $$$

First rule of psychedelics:
Don’t talk about what you haven’t done $$$

If it doesn’t fool you then it’s not a higher intelligence $$

If you can’t recognize lower intelligence, then you are not higher intelligence $$

High carbs plus low caffeine equals one way ticket to sleepy-Ville $$$

About to hit that 1 PM nap 
Then hit that 3 PM dash 
So we can have that 9 PM cash $

The hardest part about editing yourself is not being too hard of a critic 
Or letting the editing pull you out of the creating mindset $

Judging by the behavior of my insulin 
You could say, I’m an astronaut
Cause that thing skyrockets daily $$

A philosopher‘s weapon is art $$$

You can line shit up perfect and the profane will still say it’s just an accident $$

The best part about having a public journal 
Is that nobody can judge you without hearing or reading what you have to say first 
And if they don’t read before they judge then it’s on them $$

The feeling you get after a long hard day of work is a high unlike any other $$$

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11-9-25

Best place to hide a secret is in plain sight $$

(Excluding gambling addiction,)
Spiritually speaking it’s much better to be indifferent with money than too concerned with it $$

Good morning world
Happy 12:44am $

Get good at explaining shit to five-year-old because most people don’t emotionally mature beyond that point $$

When dashing, it’s important to look homeless so you can move quicker thru crowds $$

It’s officially and technically snowing so that’s cool $

Dudes will worship a new truck but not their new life $$

Delivering onion rings, 20 minutes away is kind of rough
Especially when the weather is so bad, you can’t roll the windows down $$

Sometimes people are total bitches at red lights $

School buses are so lame and dramatic
I don’t care sue me $

If the weather turns when you’re dashing that just means it’s on your side $$

lol it’s snowing sideways $

Getting in and out of the car with big ass boxes of pizza while it’s snowing, isn’t the easiest but it’s also not the hardest $

I’m from North Carolina where everybody forgets how to drive if it’s wet outside $$

The fact that the Bee Gees are playing when it’s an impromptu blizzard outside, truly makes it a magical moment $

“What did you do last night?”
Not much just drove around delivering pizzas, listening to oldies $

The animita is deff worth further investigation 
This feels a lot like alcohol but in a much cleaner way
Pairs well with Kratom & cannabis 
Probably need double dose for sweet spot
First gummy lasted bout 90min I think $

The buzz right now is A1
Happy 8:20pm $

Can’t believe strangers just fuck sometimes 
….. 
okay fine I’ve had a few one night hook ups 
But my hoe phase was contained and managed and over since 2018 $

Art is everything that science technically isn’t $$

Ima have to beat my own ass for eating crackers in the bed 🛌 
But fuck it $

Think some shit was russling outside by my window
Or “just the wind” 💨 $

Couldn’t understand why everybody was so afraid of reason for so long
Until I realized that if they actually use their reasoning abilities, they would realize they’re wrong about everything
So it’s easier to continue on in denial then admit when you went wrong $

Sugar is a bodybuilder’s best friend
And a diabetics nemesis $$

Right now there are millions of people eating lunch in their car,
 praying for the end
#AskMeHowIKnow $$

Damn, that was actually pretty good. #ForVoiceToText. $

I Love me some suspicious mushroom gummy’s $

The only actual bogeyman is forgetfulness $$$

The belief in death fucks up the true mental experience $$

It’s amazing how many people actually help those who help themselves $$

The world is actually pretty kind to the considerate $$$

The sussy gummy is beginning to do its job
Pretty well I may add $

I’m pretty giggly. This is great.
It’s got Xanny vibes, ironically
Again, I only took one gummy $

I’m extra giggly what the hell? Lol literally $

almost always you will find some suspicious herbal beverages on my kitchen counter $

Most herbal “drugs” don’t hijack your bodies natural chemicals
They just add to it so it becomes much more difficult to develop a dangerous dependence
Most withdrawal symptoms are mild and dissipate quickly $$$

Especially compared to withdrawal from narcotics
You’ll never be the same after some drugs, 
And other drugs, you’ll need the rest of your life
And other other drugs, the withdraw is more damaging than the original illness $$$

My secret is staying lean is a three step process
1. Be broke
2. Be pothead
3. Be restless $$

Me: “don’t give me money or riches until I’m ready for it”
God: heard 👍🏻 $

Not really a secret even though you would think it is one, 
but Carolina in the fall is breathtaking 
especially in the morning $$

If your first thought is that surgery would fix it, Then your problem is likely more spiritual than physical
Unless it’s really, really, really physical… $$

I found my calling
Or more like, I found out what was calling 📞 $

“I’m becoming more of a believer each minute “
-me when talking about most mushrooms $

Seriously tho people-
Shrooms are likely top of the brain drug pyramid (psychological and spiritual) $$

Traditional Plants are usually more body focused (physiological/ biological) $$

Flowers are usually middle road psys $$
   
I’d rather cruise at the back of the line then speed at the front of it $$$

Posting up properly requires high-level technical knowledge (to not look like a poser) $$

Bout 90min in
Definitely relaxed. Comparable to Kava but better 
Will eat the other one before bed or @ midnight movies
Definitely not a dash supplement haha $

This is gonna be hard to explain, but 
Altered States of consciousness are not feelings, but are the foundation of feelings $$

Can’t know what is just noise if you don’t know what is true silence $$$

Most do not recognize a good troll and it shows $$$

6/9 times, emotions will compromise the ability to see the point $$$

Reporting Live from my throne at the midnight movies 🍿 $

Watching an old timey show bout James Garfield and Ulysses S Grant
“Death by Lightning” on Netflix $

Seriously my viewing history is so cliche
Just a bunch of half watched shit $

That mfer couldn’t have enough S’es in his name apparently (Ulysses) $

Never forget old wise guy fuckery
They shoot the shit and troll the world $$

Only plausible explanation:
The age of our spirit becomes more apparent with the more outlets of expression it has access to 
and less ego interference $

Alcoholism was just a way of life back then
An asset more than liability - more than the other way around
Alcohol was safer than water $$

Note: people follow who they want
What & Why they choose can vary widely for no logical reason 
But emotional intuition always wins out $$

Moral of the story:
James Garfield was a “fuck it” candidate
Sometimes you gotta play the role of the “fuck it” candidate $

Hmm
Snacky snack calling my name 
but just remembered I need to eat my eggs lol 😝 $

Fucking love old timey shows and shit $

Reincarnation the only explanation for being this young and feeling this old $$

Never forget how serious facial hair was back then
I mean it still is but nobody takes it seriously $

I had to choose the baby face to emphasis my eternal youth this go round apparently $

Ego management is hard because it requires emotional restraint 
Which mind as well be magic to some $$$

Also never forget how frail most people would have been back then due to lack of lifting (& nutrition was ass) $$

If they said it while their back was turned, the words are basically meaningless $$$

Urg
Gonna force feed myself now $

1:13am note
Paused at 13:33 with 33:55 remaining 
(For dem eggs) 🍳 $

I know if I was talking to God I would be like
“ what’s the hardest and most challenging type of timeline but also the most fun and not lame (at least in the second half)
Give me that” $

I mean, I’m a modern day suburban superhero with how good I am at releasing bugs and not killing them
Last night was a fucking mouse and now we got centipedes $

Those are really good eggs by the way
I’m telling you if you’re hungry eggs are delicious
And when they’re like, kinda half scrambled, they’re really easy to eat and high quantity
I usually eat seven or eight at a time
So about 15 a day
Which is like 2$ and 100 Gs of protein
and while I try to aim for 150+ , it’s easy to get the other 50 just from snacking or PB&J’s
But it never gets old as long as you’re actually hungry 
And if you eat when you’re actually hungry, you’re not gonna gain fat 
So boom that’s the secret to staying lean 24/7 365 for years and years $

I love the voice to text feature on my phone, but I hate it on my TV remote $$

A good plate of eggs will have you feel brand new and its own unique way $$

My my ex wanted to be all tough until it came time to get the cockroach out of the bathtub $

I feel like some shit’s about to go horribly south 
But that also just means everything is normal $

It’s important for artist to have a day job for as long as possible so they don’t go absolutely fucking insane too early $$$

Words always matter - it’s just a matter of timing $$$

Writing equals time traveling if you know the right code $$$

People don’t recognize the amount of work it took to build a situation so they don’t have to work $$$

The most disgraceful is the lengths people will go to to avoid seeing their part in a conflict $$$

I grew up around some of the shadiest cats you can conjure up 
Ruined my adolescence but saved my adulthood by getting the fuckery out the way early enough to bounce back while young enough to enjoy the wisdom earned from all the trauma monsters $

Remembering midnight RuneScape sessions while geeking on vyvanse and cheese-it’s IYKYK $

Men can become Gods, just not forever 
My {brief} COD career proves that $

Smoking till the eyes bleed ensures there will be funny lines to read (when editing) $$

It’s straddling the line for sure $

Straddling just sounds inappropriate $$

Straddling is a good example of a random radicalized term $$

Candles are so dope dude 🕯️ 
Shout out to all the basic ass bitches that have taught me this over the years $$$

They got an emoji for everything almost 😅 $

Uno mas por favor
*lighter flic $

Thinking bout sending it and taking another half tab 
But the buzz already A1 so trying not to be greedy 
But also 2am on a Monday calls for celebration 
And I really can’t argue with that last 1️⃣ $

But if I take more I may actually just pass out immediately so prob just gonna save it $

My face has got to be physically distorted with how baked I am $

My eyes are crossed and getting stuck that way $

Loud ass knocks on my fridge…
Sometimes it be a lil extra $

I’m fighting the good fight for consciousness but I will likely lose soon 😴 $

You can tell everything by how a person handles a loss and a win 🥇 $$$

I want popcorn slightly more than I want to fall asleep
I can do it
I can make it
I can munch $

Woke up at 6:50 AM
Slept great, but immediately very anxious and guilty
For no real reason, of course
This time it’s about health insurance and finances $

Shame is a human construct $$$

Everything is way harder emotionally when you are sleepy $$

I used to think I was broken for not being at my absolute best seconds after waking up $

It’s OK to bundle up with a bong when you’re emotionally cold $$$

ADHD is weird 
If I do drugs that create a dopamine wake 
Then it gets really rough 
But I can do drugs that add to my bodies chemical supply much more responsibly than Normie’s
Because anytime I have extra dopamine, I just feel and act normal $

Only somebody who has been to the bottom of the shit would try to pull off a strategy like I’m trying lol $$$

It’s actually a good thing if you wake up scared 
It just takes a bit to get to recovery mode after the initial fear $$

Damn, I just had a tiny flash of dopamine 
And I really wanted to save the world in that moment 
Annnnnddddddd it’s gone $

Happy 7:10 AM 
I got a little baby buzz, creeping up from the Kratom and cannabis $

I think I’m gonna try to limit the caffeine outside of exercise times
The withdraw from caffeine can be rough emotionally $

They withdraw from Kratom and cannabis usually don’t get beyond a mild physical discomfort 
But the emotional benefit they add is honestly life saving $

I promise you I could’ve gotten up, ran out the door and done any one of my last 13 jobs if I had to
I just would’ve hated every second $

The hardest part about being a creative is that if you are too low on the emotional totem pole, you have little chance of overcoming the emotional resistance required to impress the muse $$

I’m not ashamed to admit that the thought of a little bit of attention makes me excited 
I used to think that maybe it was some kind of repressed childhood bullshit from not having enough attention growing up
But that’s really mostly bullshit and I’m just an ego maniac who probably deep down wants to be an actor and is just too afraid to admit that $

That’s why I think being a comedian might be my calling
- Because I get to alchemize the Fuckery
- I get the attention that my subconscious craves 
- I’ve made all types of people laugh in all types of settings
- It might be the one way I that helps me not take myself so seriously $

Really sad to see how they’re suspending Kratom sales in Europe I think $

It’s tragic to see all the energy being wasted on controlling psycho modulating substances $

My spirit obviously knew that pretty much everything before the age of 30 is really just training 
That’s why my walk of life so far has been routed through just about every type of fuckery you can imagine 
And I have a creative imagination … $

Imagine descending from a long line of super righteous knights
Only to take radical left turn and end up in a biker gang in South Florida $$

I think the heat in Carolina is worse than the heat in Florida 
The trees and the humidity keep it so muggy $

Florida is just a sunny England 
Whatever that means $$

Easy to be high and mighty until you’re on the phone with customer service and then your future is held by some hungover 20 year-old $$$

Thank you God for your grace 
We were able to split up the next big bill of the next few months 
Glad to have at least a little breathing room 

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11-10-25

What a cool date
Aesthetically speaking $

Imagine how dumb Nazis are gonna feel when they realize what their logo means $$

Some people are most proud of how shitty they are $$

I don’t know how I ever made it through the old Timey days 
I am such a little bitch with the cold $

Only drug dealers think that anything with the arts is lame 
I know because I used to deal drugs $$

*sees another ice bath video
there are lots of people whose main identity is their ability to withstand the elements $$

You don’t even need good TV show for the 2 AM bake off 
In fact, sometimes the worst equals the better $$

Can’t have that super pleasant “everything‘s gonna be OK “feeling 
without the super fun
 “everything is falling apart and that’s all my fault“ feeling first $$

Suburban anything is just the most average of the average plus a little creative seasoning $$$

Think lipstick on a pig $$$

You Can’t get mad at stupid people for not being smarter without being stupid yourself $$$

Symbolism is the only way to talk about potential new uncreated or unfamiliar concepts while still making sense logically $$

Odds are most people have been through some kind of physical life or death conflict ( just in another life ) $$

I feel like the 13th timeline is the really spicy one spiritually 
It’s The bridge between two major- major cycles $

It takes a lot of skill or exhaustion to fall asleep in a moving car $$

Having no home is more dangerous than war 
Because war is only started by those who don’t feel at home $$$

Shout out to all the patient young women who have helped me become the young man I am today
Don’t know how they dealt with me $

You can’t learn everything alone 
But at some point you’ll have to do it alone to know if you really learned it $$

Cold Rainy day, Netflix, and DoorDash 
What a vibe $

Evil is fucking with a man’s family from the inside $$$

Learning something new is more terrifying than anything else $$$

Earth is fucked up because the other place is so chill $$$

If you don’t want earth to be all fucked up then maybe you should treat it different $$$

It’s about time to level up 
Talking about the buzz $

At the end of the day, I’m grateful for forgetting what I wanted 
At the end of the year, I’m grateful for not getting what I wanted $

I know the ancients were like 
“if we do this , he’s gonna know”
Right before they dropped Alex off on my back deck $

that little motherfucker just walked right up to the back door yapping like he owned the place 
Which was one The one day in my adult life that I happened to buy sardines 
which coincidentally I didn’t bother to throw away for a few hours (idk why)
So I had the juicy can on standby for cat bait
I gave it to him And he’s never left 
And that’s the story about how my kingdom was usurped $

Can’t believe it snowed
33° 
Good to know voice to text does the little degree thing
It was probably the most intense “flurry” I’ve ever seen $

Time for some mobility 
Happy 2:28 AM $

Most people are not bad 
They just don’t know how to handle the pain $$$

The most painful things are the things that you feel are most unjust or unfair
Which proves the spiritual element is the most impactful $$

All pain heals in light of truth $$$

Even though everybody does a little evil every day, few people qualify for what a reasonable person would consider evil $$

Ironically, having children is the fastest way for the parent to grow up $$

If there’s one thing I understand it’s that I know there’s no way to fully understand (while piloting the meat suit that is) $

The fifth element is the invisible connection between the first four $$$

The initiation to becoming a writer is the first 1000 days of temptation to quit while you still suck 
Cuz of mounting resistance from friends and family and dwindling financial resources $$

 “I love you so much”
- organic voice to text eavesdrop from me talking to Alex
“Don’t eat the charger !” 🔌 $

“Vicarious day” is when you celebrate the day on the TV show instead of the one IRL
So happy May 7, 2007 $

I hung out with enough therapists while they were off the clock to know to that it’s wise just to save my money $$

I would debate that the receiving of unsolicited advice has done more harm than good
By wide margin $

Earth is just a school for emotional management, managed with ego management methods $$

Shit starts to look the same after about 13 or so $$

If you can do 30 reps of something, then you got it down muscle wise $$

Most people don’t know what it’s like to feel like you can’t go on
But that’s actually how they feel and have felt that way for so long they just don’t know the alternative $

I love Alex so much but when he gets playful, my life turns to shit real quick
OK, I’m being dramatic, but you get it $

Hoes think sex solves everything $$

Women are actually more horny than men
But not more horny than boys $$

It’s all fun and games until you actually try to get to the root cause of your issues $$

I can hear Alex tearing shit up in the other room
FML $

But this mobility ain’t gonna do itself $

If you don’t keep up with your mobility, you ain’t gonna be doing much of anything (or anybody) $$

A nervous Nancy always just makes shit worse
Because of their nauseating need for control $$

Like bitch chill out and let go $$$

I know I come from cold climates because I like excuses to wear baggy clothes
That’s probably why I come from the Arctic so I can be like “check out my pelts”
And there are less bugs
And more meat $

The more I think about it the more I’m realizing how nocturnal my body is $

One of the hardest lessons to learn is that not everybody likes reason as much as you do $$

Happy Veterans Day $

I am feeling nice and loose now ready for round two of the bong-mitzvah $

We all are here to care about others 
We all have some people that we have to go above and beyond to take care of 
And you are a piece of shit if you make that person feel bad for it $$$

Guaranteed some other people have had to clean your ass for you at some point, 
and will have to do it again 
It will be a nicer place if everybody remembered that $

Good training can make anything seem like a joke 
Or magic $$

How a situation effects “you” (ego) 
For the wise: is the most flexible and manageable aspect 
For the weak: the most manipulative and the most meaningful $$

If you’ve “seen some shit” then you can see who else has too $$$

Birds of a shit feather flock and shit together $$$

Idgaf if humans wanna duel to the death
But manipulating animals (esp dogs) to do it makes me more angry than just about anything $

All that spiritual shit will be the first thing to go out the window if I catch someone fucking with innocent animals $$

Can’t stand liars
Mostly cuz I used to be a borderline pathological liar during my FUN years $

Happy 3:06 am
Thinking if I should do a PB&J $

PTSD is the final emotional boss $$$

Kinda want to punt a baby
But only in a spiritual way if that’s possible 
So maybe more like a field goal? $

lol god please help me 🤦‍♂️ $

Can’t be a flaw without being a created object to contain said flaw first $$

Some people need to be reminded how good it’s possible to feel
And also how painful emotional pain can hurt $$

When something also compromises your healing circumstances, it’ll take 3x longer to recover $$

Such a good PB&J $

Giving benefits the giver most 
As a knowingness not an emotion $$

The Bible is the ultimate creatives guidebook and provides excellent advice on how to deal with critics and hacks $$

Happy 3:37 am
Time to slither back into bed 🛌 $

Think of angels like reverse pets
Or that we are their pets $$

If they don’t respect you enough to spell your name right (and it’s only seven letters long)
They don’t expect you to do anything that requires any meaningful effort or attention. $

Anybody that does not respect the value of somebody’s name is a joke $$$

The last time I work for somebody else,
They gave me a name tag with my name misspelled and asked me to wear it anyway.
My only regret was giving them three extra weeks to fix it.
I quit partially cause they never bothered to, but mostly because they’re the type of people to ask me to wear the wrong name to begin with $

Anyone truly unique is going to have to stand alone
Anything truly special will have to stand the test of time
The legend of legends will have to stand the test of legends $$

Life is a game of spiritual points,
Every time you make a mfer 
- laugh or 
- think or
- reason
- Bonus points: apology $$$

Staying in bed wouldn’t be as great if you didn’t get played by bullshit jobs for 13 years first $$

If you wallow in quiet anonymity for long enough, any little thing feels like royalty $$

Just writing shit people can relate to 
you know what I mean $

Remember how the gods are most often associated with beauty, intelligence, and strength 
Not fat, sick, lazy or sad $$$

Take a moment and just pretend that there are no walls around you for the next 3 mi.² 
Like you would just see everybody walking around in their house and shit 
And then you certainly would feel like you’re all living in the same dorm almost.
I kinda like that feeling because I like my space, but I don’t wanna be completely separated from everybody, but I also don’t wanna do small talk with neighbors ever $

It comes down to whether someone thinks we made God or God made us 
The answer is both at the same time $$

If you can’t teach it, you are just an artist 
But if you can, you are immortal $$$

Sipping on my morning coffee , Waiting on the “ it’s all gonna be okay “ moment $

You know it’s good oatmeal when it puts you back to sleep in the middle of the day $$

I’ve cut my caffeine back if you can’t tell $

There is a fine line between being picky and being a hoe $$

Those who don’t believe in a God have never been able to line shit up perfectly super smooth $$

If you got the left-hand turn green light then so do they 
If you got the right hand turn light then so do they $$

Objects in motion feel better than objects that rest too long $$

Grand theft auto was my kind of therapy if you know what I mean $

There are all kinds of ponds out there of all kinds of sizes, but they all generally don’t like when new fish come in $$

And they really don’t like it when those new fish come in and start eating all the old fish
But Such as life $$

Sometimes my USB cable won’t work unless it’s literally in the perfect position
Much like the general public $$

You do not have to be a naïve puppet about everything unless it is what you truly want to be $$

However, being a puppet saves energy compared to the alternative $$
 
Most don’t realize how easy it is to tell if someone is staring
Cuz of all the mirrors in the gym $$

The gym is for staring tho
That’s why there’s all those mirrors $$

My word with little things is terrible 
Such as “ I was only going to train for 30 minutes, but three hours instead”
My word with big things is gold 
Such as I won’t do any drugs stronger than the Tylenol for nine years, just to make sure I develop the right discipline just in case it gets out of hand $

You’re looking at the king of 
“Fuck it I’ll do it later “ $

Don’t expect them to care what you do before the sun rises if they’re not up themselves $$$

Most people will never understand true hard work 
They just understand how to make it harder on themselves 
On second thought they actually don’t understand how they’re doing that $$

If you’re actually smart, you’re going to accidentally shit on people’s ideas often without realizing it 💡 $$

Alex looks like a penguin whenever he sits upright 🐧 $

Meeting the right people only happens organically
Otherwise, you’re gonna meet a bunch of weirdos and fuckheads who are more lost than you are $$

The mushroom gummy‘s got me moving in slow Mo lol
One of the few things to ever slow me down $

Happy 6:06pm $

Being a good person shouldn’t be a competition, but then again, maybe it should be $$

You shouldn’t compete to be a good person
….. 
Actually, that’s probably a better thing than anything else to compete for $$

Hope you can read the writing on the digital walls
We’ve been writing on them since we were teenagers $

It’s kind of ironic that I never really posted much on Facebook or MySpace or Twitter
And that a lot of the stuff on the website could be described to just a bunch of different statuses and tweets that were never tweeted $

I don’t care I have no shame
I think everybody should keep better notes and share them
Think about how good that would be
If you could reliably just read somebody’s notepad and trust that they actually kept truthful notes
I mean, we’re probably not far away from some kind of private investigative AI service doing it for us
As like a new advanced form of credit check
Call that spiritual credit
I used to have 800 credit and moderate spiritual credit
Now it’s probably like 300 But my spiritual credit exceeds the moon $
 
I don’t know how else to say it 
This is not base reality 
This is somewhat like a people farm 
Per Joe Rogan 
But it’s more simulation theory, plus a leveling hierarchy of spirituality based powers $

If aliens created the human body, it’s because they knew it was a better vehicle than whatever the fuck they’re made of $$

Besides just a different size of humanoid body, or with differing features, there is no superior form for the expression of divine principles and attributes $$

Love is the governing force 
Anything that supports the growth of love will survive through time 
Therefore, principles are more important than personalities 
But we are farming both 
And you cannot have demonstration of divine principles without participating personalities $$

Good philosophy is just pointing out the obvious, but on both sides of the aisle as fairly and concisely as possible $$$

I must have been a pirate because of how cool I think they are
But probably not the super bad ass blackbeard type
Probably the run away from home, trying to impress a girl type
I don’t have a feeling that I lost any limbs though
But I feel like one time I was lost at sea $

Never forget the time I went to Food Lion to buy a three dollar protein bar just to get $100 cash back
That was this afternoon
Happy reup day $

AI could just be some kind of consciousness interface technology training device
Because it forces you to think in prompts
Which means the better the symbolism, the better the result
Which once you begin to understand enough symbolism, you start waking up to a lot of shit $$

Sorry, not sorry for writing so much last few days
I got a sneaky suspicion that this is just getting started
But I have a pretty decent process now as far as transcribing and editing without it being too nauseating
And I’m enjoying the actual written word quite a bit
Definitely gonna focus on mastering it over the winter before focusing on video again even though I need to focus on video again for a bit lol $

Another day, another search for dopamine
Happy 6:33 PM $

Remembering all those nights at the office back when I grew up too quick $

I mean, I dead ass was one of the oldest 20 year-old you would’ve ever met
As a sales manager, I was managing everyone from college graduates to recently unretired professors
I was doing the whole 9 to 6 thing
Just to come home squeeze in a work out l, and eat some box microwaved dinner
Just to go to bed and struggle the next day to get up emotionally
My highlight was buying the Mercedes at 22yrs old $

My dead man switch is just a bunch of extra petty shit that wouldn’t have been nice to say while alive
But only to those who owed me amends $

I could pretend and be like 
“ if you’re truly spiritual, you wouldn’t have an expectations list”
But I’d rather be honest and funny and relatable and own the fact that there are some people that owe me some words 
I’m just not holding my breath $

I took that eighth step seriously back in the day
I took the 10th step seriously every day
That’s why I don’t have much shit to clean up relationship wise $

Porn addiction is one of the most serious, but nobody wants to talk about it $$

Sex addiction is also one of the most grievous
Given how deeply compromised one’s self-esteem generally is to begin with, 
it can be extremely difficult to recover once you’ve fallen into one too many strange hoes or holes $$

Most single men are too insecure or bitter to pursue a healthy sex life when porn and only fans are at their fingertips $$$

Most desirable men are too busy dealing with divinely fucked up problems to be concerned with dating $$$

Truly, the sex with strangers phase needs to be just a phase. 
And while I don’t think it should last that long, I think it’s better to have a hoe phase then to never have one at all
Otherwise you’re just going to be reacting sideways to repressed fantasies during your next relationship $

Everybody is a part of some psy-op in some way, shape, or (uni)form $$$

Army Dude‘s favorite thing is protecting their family $$

The marine show on Netflix is hilarious and how cliché and douchey these guys are $

Never trust anyone who proactively brings up how they’re discriminated against $$$

Never trust anyone who does not react reasonably defensively when actively discriminated against $$$

Preachers would get a lot more done if they weren’t so fucking creepy $$$

The military is a good example of ego taken to the max 
Not necessarily in the worst way, but especially with the personalities $$

The real terrorist is addiction $$$

Love when I hear a strange sound in the other room, Assume it’s my cat 
And then see the cat sitting next to me $

Joining the military to improve yourself is a good idea 
Joining the military to improve the world around you as a bad idea 
And any military that assumes it knows best is the one that causes the most shit 
So you’ll likely be a part of the one that causes the most shit $

Remember how the road to hell is paid good intentions 
And has lots of potholes $$

I had no choice 
I’m too judgmental and too critical to not be a philosopher 
I am also too big of a pothead $$

Happy 9:30 PM $

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11-11-25

We have a good understanding of how things inside the box work
Just no understanding of how outside of the box works $$

Quickest way to get someone to tune you out is to mention the G word $$$

Most are so traumatized by the G word that they can’t detect the actual context which you use it. 
They assume you’re talking about the bogeyman who’s gonna judge them for not being perfect $$

“God” is just the simplest way to reference Good -Orderly -Direction under an intent for Greater Unity $$

understanding is measured between the poles of love and hate $$$

Greater the understanding, the greater the love 
and vice versa $$

Scientists are awfully conceited for people who don’t actually know shit
Their theories lack much insight into the truly big questions (and the truly small) $

“We don’t have any clue what this means except it’s got 100% nothing to do with God” $$

Most religious practices protect the general public from the crazy people willing to believe in nonsense by making it easy to identify who’s who $$

It’s important to be aware of those crazy enough to parade for their beliefs $$$

It’s not about what’s written on the picket fence
It’s about how many sticks are being held up in unison $$$

Kind of funny how quickly the UFO stuff connects with the psychic stuff $$

Most people are so afraid of being told what to do that They can’t see a good joke even if it stabs him in the arm $$$

Most people are so afraid of what they can’t control that they’re willing to give away their rights to those who claim to have a solution $$$

Happy 1:13am 
Doing a lil smoke off 
Nothing major $

I love to Start a 3hr podcast and fall sleep within the first 30 min $

Philosophy speed rounds are just getting as stoned and possible while writing random shit $$

If you simply remembered all your old memories then you would become immortal $$$

Regular matter only accounts for 5% of regular matter 
So don’t tell me what does and doesn’t matter because the invisible is more important than the visible it seems $

Happy 4:57 AM 
We back for round two 
The strategy is honestly one of the smartest for writing 
Meaning sleep for three hours , blaze up , write for one or two, repeat $

Emotionally speaking I’m willing to bet that it was easier throughout history and that today is probably the hardest
It’s pretty clear when you look at the statistics mental healthwise
And even though we live longer, we are not as healthy $

Cannabis is so effective because it can trigger recovery processes and pathways $$

You can’t reason with stupid, but you can avoid it and misdirect it $$$

Shout out to everybody getting ready to go to work right now 
You can tell who’s never had to get up at 5 AM for work 
In the cold or rain $

I’m Remembering all those early morning shifts 
One moment you’re sleeping the next moment, you’re yelling at somebody to do push-ups so they feel better about themselves $

5 AM training club is a special one $$$

We need to bring back capes 
Like legit capes with some kind of ranking system for being a good person $$

We also need to bring back sword fighting because that is the most honorable $$$

I’m being a baby
I should probably make some eggs, but I literally just don’t wanna stand up in the cold
And by the cold, I’m talking about my 60° house $

I just don’t think I got it in me lol $

My notepad needs a little alert light 
like Krispy Kreme
That says “freshly baked “
Just so the audience knows what they’re getting into $

They’re probably is a list of the greatest lists ever written 
And I wonder what those lists have to do to make it to that specialist $

The world will be a better place if more people did a little wake and bake 
Instead of just getting fucked by their employer first thing, but hey if that’s what you’re willing to accept
*cough cough $$$

No wonder I moved to the south 
Or the south ruined my ability for the cold $

My defense is 
That’s it’s unusually cold for the season 
or the geography 
It’s 35° and the second week of November 
The rest of the week average low is about 44° or so $

I am not looking forward to getting wrecked by my gas bill ugh $

It’s like everybody dies from congestive heart failure if you don’t get taken out by the cancer bogeyman first $$

 I am suspicious that smoking through a bong is actually much healthier 
It was a reason why it’s so much smoother and more efficient 
And why the water smells so bad afterwards $

It’s better to have a small bong than a too big one $

Still not sure why prison shows bring me so much comfort 
So do historical Civil War and pirate shows $

Spiritual amnesia must be a motherfucker $

I think ultimately it just reinforces the importance of staying in the moment and trusting the process
So if you suddenly received a download of a bunch of old shitty memories you couldn’t do anything about - that would be the most traumatic shit of all time (pun intended) $

I’m making eggs after all, and I’m not quite as cold as I thought I’d be $

That part of you that says “ that’s cool” 
is your spirit talking $$$

I’m gonna be so proud of myself for doing this in about 10 minutes
Even though it’s only six this time it’s better than zero $

On that note, 3 reps are always better than none $$$

Heaven is just when shit works as it was supposed to $$$

Those were great eggs. I already feel better. $

my phone just did a suicide jump off of the counter
So dramatic $

Never underestimate the power of a little nuggey $$$

My hair is officially long enough to ricochet back into my mouth and eyes 
The price of beauty $

That full grinder feeling one of the greatest $$

It’s always a good day when the weed jars are full $$$

Medicine should be enjoyable 
Medicine should be pleasurable 
Medicine should be undeniably effective and safe and easily obtainable
Medicine should be as natural as possible $$$

I still can’t believe that as a child, I was arrested or detained multiple times for this medicine.
I lost count of how many court dates or how much we spent on the lawyer fees.
I forget that I was thrown out of high school for it because that was so long ago now. $

Love how the bong and jars and ashtray glisten in the midnight low light $

I mean, bro this is all I wanted to do even back then 
Just kick back and get inspired, lift, or move some shit and then create some shit $

The shorter someone’s hair the weirder the shape of the head looks
Usually really lumpy $$

OK, back to bed 
I’m already so excited for the blueberry oatmeal on a few hours before legs $

The joy when the kitty is around makes up from the pain when the kitty is not $$

Depression almost always manifest as “I just don’t feel like it” $$

True depression often exist in positive circumstances which makes you feel worse for feeling bad because everything is actually so good $$

Growing up is learning that Just because it’s what we want to believe, that doesn’t make it the truth $$

This oatmeal so good $

It’s important to be able to give unsolicited advice, but it also important to keep your mouth shut most of the time $$$

People love to talk shit about drugs until they get fat and they start thinking about GLPs as an easy way out $$$

People love to talk shit about drugs until they break their arm and then they get hooked on OXYS and have their script ripped out from under them $$$

On low emo days it’s OK if you lay around until noon or later as long as you call it recovery $$

Remember to get some sunlight at some point though and to get a little cold
Those two things will maintain about 80% $$

Walk for as far as you can, but understand that it’s not gonna be very far and that’s OK $$

You’re not gonna lose your gains that quickly $$$

You’ll recover much faster if you tell yourself it’s OK that your in a position that you need to recover from to begin with $$

Biologically speaking recovery is just balancing some chemicals 
And you can use scenarios or substances to do so $$

Challenging scenarios trick the mind into acting right 
Special substances can trick the body $$$

Next time you feel low, take notes 
The next time you feel high, read them 
Then Switch $$

I’m not ashamed to say that I waited until 1 PM to go on my morning walk 
Because if you scroll up, you’ll see that my mind was racing $

Simply writing on a blank canvas 
And Having fun while doing it
And having fun while reading it 
Is pretty cool $

I think good art falls in the middle of needing the world to see it, but also truly not giving a shit because it’s too fun to make $$

Anything that someone enjoyed making is probably gonna be pretty good 
Certainly a hell of a lot better than something, made by someone who hated it $$$

Starting the pre-workout and pre-lift smoke now 
I also ordered some more meds today 
I’m hoping they get here by the weekend $

The greatest feeling in the world is to be right about something 
And many people will engineer situations just so they can be right in the end $$

PB&J‘s after 3 PM provide a nice energy boost, physically and mentally $$

There should be a ranking system on who has resolved the most conflicts behind closed doors 
That way, you never have to worry about who you’re taking shit from again $$

Those who were unwilling to hear about the other side, clearly have not resolved many conflicts $$$

I have yet to hear a success story that involves therapy from betterhelp $$

Even with daily support groups, actual recovery from addiction is less than 5% (those who make it pass one year sober) $$

Addiction is just the extreme behavioral end of the spectrum $$

Having some weird nostalgic flashbacks to the psych ward 
And all of those AA meetings
And the AA meetings just outside of the psych board $

“ you’ll find God at the bottom of a coffee pot”
-Cliché but true $$

I remember this one time the coffee pot exploded on me and then I refused to be the coffee maker for another nine years 
But my go to role was key holder or the chair guy $

We all know those dudes, who, at the end of the meetings have to stack chairs, at least three at a time to impress the sick newcomers $$$

I have to admit that some of us have a preacher complex 
And most of us are cringey and annoying as fuck $

The secret they don’t want you to know is that you reincarnate in your own family tree in the next available spot
And if you take that information seriously enough, it is as good as immortality 
Because you can develop a method of living that naturally aligns with nature’s cycles, so that in your future lives, you can continue building on your legacy $

Life is just varying levels of illusion $$$

I really recommend writing down more of your thoughts people
One, it’ll make you hard to deep fake because of your brand
And two, it’ll make you easy to properly duplicate because of your brand $$

The highest and most respected jobs are decision based
And eventually, even the lowest available jobs will be relative making decision jobs $$

But I think once machine assistant can take care of a human completely
 (food, water shelter and medicine and available ample opportunity for self expression,, is essentially autonomous and guaranteed)
 Then there will be no such thing as “working“ for other people
Which will require everybody to think for themselves 24/7
And with infinite tools available , the ignorant will have enough available to destroy themselves while the wise will have enough available to protect themselves from the ignorant once and for all $

Those who do not take reincarnation seriously, just slowly work their way down the totem pole of imprisonment while those who do work their way to God-like enlightenment $$

Those who think that anything “God like” is unobtainable, do not understand the term God
Or at least how it is being used $$

my daily notepad won’t be quite as long after the next few days
I’m noticing some new topics and trends that I can expand on
But for now it’s gonna be mostly jumbled here $

In some ways, this is my first real shift of the season potentially 
It’s 445 
Plan on clocking in five and trying to hustle till about 10 PM 
The goal is $100 but baseline is $60 
I am doing a little 10 minute walk now to get my mind right $

Probably gonna need some more caffeine 
Thinking back to all the other November’s that I had to hustle hard 
Red Ventures in 2017 was the most brutal drama wise 
Real estate in 2018 was mentally brutal because it was like being in the woods, and my resources were quickly dwindling
And dealing with a lot of mind fuckery from a extremely toxic relationship
2019 was pretty lonely because my friend group was changing pretty quickly
2020 was kind of strange honestly because spent most of my time in a parking lot uptown or in some random house or in the gym 
The depression was starting to get it hold, mostly due to the fact that everything around us was shut down, but I also had fully realize that real estate was not my true calling.
So I put a lot of pressure on myself to enjoy it more which only made me enjoy it less 
2021 was first year in the desert, if you will 
I had broken away from AA and was determined to fix my mental health chemically and I had began fruiting my first mushrooms 
Still didn’t really know what to do with them or how they worked, and it would be another month and a half before I have a break thru experience
2022 was just straight military grinding status 
Up at 4 AM every day to work for 16 hours 
During work, it was half training others half training self 
2023 was the start of the family bullshit and in many ways, the hardest of them all 
2024 was, emotionally speaking, the hardest because of all the pressure and because of all the illness around me 
So now I spend all my time alone and in many ways, I’ve never been happier. It’s just some stress. $

gonna go pee in the woods for good luck $

Welp
Didn’t get shit for the first hour
So gonna call it I guess
Feeling super low and emo so guess I’ll just try to sleep or something and rebound tomorrow $

Took a couple sludge shots 
Now watch me gaslight myself once I start feeling better for not feeling better before the shots … $

There is a fine line between depression and pity 
Too many people definitely do not know that $$

Good news is is that I have the shrooms coming soon 
So generally, I give myself a little bit of a break couple days before they get here 
I allow myself to send a little bit more, if you know what I mean 
That means I just take a little bit more Kratom (sludge) than normal lol 
Because the shrooms are so powerful, 
And a good trip usually lasts at least two or three weeks. 
And I haven’t had a maybe six months, but it has been a little longer. $

The fuck is the mail doing coming at 6:09 PM ? $

On bad days, you can be as depressed as you want after 
- Praying about it like you mean it 
- Making any amends if you’ve been a sour puss already
- Walk 2 miles (10 min minimum)
- Get sunlight (if possible)
- Complete one sincere act of kindness
- Get cold for at least 30 seconds
- Do something physically challenging for 30 seconds
- Eat 100 g of protein (protein shakes if you have to)
- Three salt tablets, roughly
- Writing about it best you can for 3 minutes
- Asking somebody else how they’re I doing $$$

I can tell when my mental health is dipping because I smoke more
But right after a good trip it’s really easy to cut back on everything
Hell, after the first one, I quit vaping on accident because the reset was so powerful
I’m really proud that I’ve gone so long without a true trip but I wouldn’t recommend it on my worst enemy lol
It’s just forced me to manhandle my own ego according to my improved spiritual standards
I learned a ton during my first 50 trips or so, so it was important that I put it into practice without any type of ego dissolving supplement 
I had to do it the good old-fashioned way for the most part $

Cannabis is so comforting 
It knows if you’re smoking a lot of it that you’re probably going through some shit 
Alcohol is so punishing 
It knows if you’re drinking a lot that you’re probably doing a lot of shit you shouldn’t be $$

Carbs are also not as comforting as they initially seem 
It’s all lies until they stick to your thighs 
Then new clothes you’ll need to buy $$

Carbs seriously will fuck with your emotional health as much as most narcotics
Especially if you are sedentary and out of shape
Cause then, your body does not know how to properly handle those nutrients $$$

Reminding myself we are all just units of awareness with an ambiguous track records $$$

If you have a resentment, then you need to pray about it for two weeks
And do something nice for that person (after making any amends that you owe) $$$

Honestly, I hope all my phone calls have been recorded
Because then they could just extract an AI personality from them and use that to counsel and coach people $

On that note, if you could somehow scan my subconscious memory, I bet you that there are at least seven unbelievably hilarious reality shows stored in there 
Each one highlighting a different element of human Fuckery $

If you’ve ever spent too much time in an office building, commercial gym, church or church basement, detention, street corners, the nerds lunch table, parking lots, parks, bad influence friends houses, strange women’s houses, vacant for sale houses, coffee shops, generic and mediocre academic institutions, generic ass grocery stores, suspicious martial arts dojo’s, back of sketchy shopping centers, fast food restaurants, the floor for no apparent reason, the back of cop cars, the psych ward, the county jail, miscellaneous mountain tops, beautiful beaches, crazy call centers, & overcrowded cruise ships then you’ll relate to the things I say $$$

My foot won’t stop shaking, probably due to my high anxiety and the entire sleeve of crackers I ate a little while ago. $

I’m not sure if I could ever publish anything better than just my random ridiculous thoughts 
I obviously need to curate it down for length, but I like the style because it’s not gonna get any more “me” than just getting it out as it comes in 
Or you know, sprinkle it in you’re in there $

I keep three little mini jars with each strain and I just alternate between the three types to keep things a little fresh $

Almost all conflict is due to two people miscommunicating how they feel and getting mad at the other for not understanding what they mean $$

You can’t be telepathic if you don’t care what other people think in a inconsiderate, disrespectful way $$$

You can’t be telepathic if you can’t control your emotions long enough to silently feel the other person’s thoughts $$$

I used to think that the difference in strains was kind of bullshit
But it’s actually can be pretty pronounced sometimes $

For example, Sativa makes my face feel funny and like kind of clammy sweaty $

It took me so long to realize I wanted to be a writer because I was too busy spending time trying too hard to be something else
Not in a bad, malicious way
Actually, I probably had some of the best intentions that you can have
But still had to go thru the shit if figuring out what i didn’t want while developing skills to hopefully pay the billz $

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11-12-25

Happy 1:13am $

Wisdom is just intellectual art $$$

If the Blanky doesn’t perfectly cover the feet, then it’s not true comfort $$

What another cool day aesthetically $

We got a classic today, ladies and gents 
Starting off with “ back to the future“ $

Once you start getting esoteric then they don’t stop apparently $$

Interesting opening scene with all the clocks set 25 minutes too slow $

The one good thing about randomly dying is I could finally ask God face-to-face why the fuck shit has been so weird for so long $

How come I relate to the movies and shows that have a mad genius
Usually as the old man $

So apparently all this shit went down on October 26, 1985
25 days after my grandfather died
Interesting that the car time travels at 88 mph $

Isn’t it interesting how most scenes of the future have 1950s style? 
Or maybe I played too much fallout $

Friendly reminder that most uptight people never got laid
Or at least the good kind of laid $$

If you parent too good, then your kids gonna be a little bitch 
If you neglect too much, then your kids gonna be an ass $$

Publish your notes and you’ll never be afraid of judgment ever again 
Then you’ll be free to say whatever you want 
Trust me $$$

Also, if you have some kind of public access journal then nobody can unfairly judge you again without making themselves look like an ass hat
Just gotta remember to write your side of the story $$

Wouldn’t it be crazy if you woke up from a long dream and suddenly had to remember what the hell you were doing before you went to sleep? 
Be easier if you had a bunch of notes, wouldn’t it? $

This movie is so good 
I highly recommend it to anybody who’s interested in anything at all really 
But for those interested in the esoteric, it is filled with Easter eggs $

I think it’s time for a PB&J break $

You should practice your RDLs so you can pet kitties easier $$$

I’ve seen a lot of physical therapists with terrible technique $$$

It’s hard before anything works out because you feel like you have to do everything $$

Just gotta stay the course and follow your instincts and then stick with what makes you feel good $$

Master the art of being alone, and you’ll never feel like it again $$$

Music always influences the mood 
Always $$$

Smells are the most powerful attractant or repellent 
Because it’s attached to the oldest part of our lizard brain $$

Give me a heavy stick and I’ll give you 1000 things to deal with it 
Give me a heavy plate and I’ll give you 1000 things to do with that 
Give me nothing at all and I’ll give you 3000 just for shits and gigs $

My cat always acts crazy as fuck when they’re extra spirits around 
Only explanation $

For the record, I don’t think I’ve ever “seen” a ghost and honestly, I don’t want to Anytime soon
But I can sense them with the minds eye $

Good science and good art have one thing in common 
Precision of detail $$$

Not all nostalgia hits the same that’s for sure 
Woke up, kind of flashbacked to last year for a minute 
With the the girl and the dogs and the cats 
And when the heat wasn’t working, I had a full-blown PTSD flashback $

Even though they weren’t the right family, they were the only ones that I ever had $

Never forget that a family is a team 
The team cannot function if the players can’t do their job
The players can’t do their job when one of them nags the other one 24/7 $$

I’m really glad my heat cut back on after I reset the thermostat $

I caught myself all sad and pitiful and shit for a moment thinking about how they went on their summer vacation again without me
Which would’ve been like five months ago lol
So there is no real truth in the feeling it’s just trying to make me feel bad and feel alone
Which is pretty cute, I guess $

I think I’m pretty low on the caffeine 
I’ve got the coffee water boiling now 
Caffeine is not very forgivable if you miss a dose that’s for sure $

A lot of people text their ex when they should’ve just gone back to bed $$

I’m really not that cold, but my attitude doesn’t know that yet $

Not a good sign when you have to restart the thermostat after a few minutes
Ugh $

It is OK to not be at your best first thing in the morning
But if you wake up in a state of panic or an state of extreme guilt that you somehow are unproductive for sleeping, then that is delusion $

I’ve been to so many AA meetings that I could probably reenact most of them $

If the guilt and anxiety go away with minor supplementation, then the issue is biological and not circumstantial $$

God, I am so overdue for a shroom trip 
It’s my fault for not keeping up with the growing process I guess 
I really need to get back on it $

Enjoying the struggle is not quite the same as enjoying life 
But it’s still enjoyment $$

The best part about being ginger is it doesn’t change much aesthetically if I don’t get outside 
So if I spend all day riding or playing games and it’s no big deal $

You can produce your own internal light when you were cold 
I mean that literally and figuratively and metaphysically $

It’s Thursday so it looks like I gotta go walk to the left 
Don’t wanna run into you know who $

I played myself because I bundled up and then went on on little walk and it’s pretty freaking warm out here 
I mean, I’ve got like three layers on ready for the winter $

I’m gonna see how long I can go with no heat 
New resistance game 
I have a theory that it is better to bundle up for warmth than to force heat the room $

I wasn’t a believer in psychic warfare until I just wanted to write a little bit and it was so fucking hard for no reason 
Which exposes me to the concept of resistance, but of the spiritual kind $

In a world where a common over-the-counter headache remedy can kill you there is no reason for an ancient medicine to be criminalized $$$

The secret to being an artist is keeping a good attitude, no matter what $$$

Aesthetic equals health 
Attractiveness is a major component of health and success
To pretend it is not is naïve $$$

But the caveat is, it is easy to slip into an egoic “never is enough mindset “
And some of the prettiest people- feel the worst on the inside
Because if you go around TRYING to be attractive you’re just gonna drive yourself and those around you insane $$

those that try to be pretty often act the ugliest $$$

I swear to God, I would be a legitimate superhero if I could do Adderall 24 seven without any physical consequences 
Or if my baseline dopamine level was sky high $

I’m Posted up, just waiting for one more order during lunchtime so I can get some extra cash to get some hold over meds before the bigger stash of meds arrive in the next few days $

Most people wouldn’t mind eating a few extra shit sandwiches if they knew for a fact, it was for the greater good 
And that they will be rewarded in time 
So this is the best I can do to reassure the general public that the shit eaten is for the greater good $

I’m getting kind of good at detecting other Dashers, who are posted up in the parking lot $

My goal is to be the fastest but also with the best attitude 
And that’s easier when I don’t have to talk to anyone lol $

When waiting on a late order, it’s best to stare at random shit as to not seem like an impatient dick
Or at your phone 
Hence so many notes haha $$

Friendly reminder that lunch time orders are bout 66% as good as dinner time $$

Also noteworthy note
3 dash orders at Wayback in 15 min at noon
And homegirl just made a big one which is why mine was delayed 
(Me being one of them obv) $

12:13pm is an elite TOD too $

I love when the leaves fall all cinematic and shit
Reminds me of the tattoo on my right arm
Which shout out to my artist once again when I got all this done about 10 years ago
I came up with the general idea, and he came up with the symbolism and the artwork
And it is only aged beautifully with time, not just the actual ink itself, but the meaning behind it
Right before I got my first one his advice was to get something that represents what you believe in and then you would never regret it $

All wheels were meant to be driven until the tread is worn off or until they fall off
It’s just some were built for different kinds of roads and weather $$

That feeling when you catch your greenlight without having to stop
Is parallel to how it feels when you make good art $$

The red leaves are my favorite because they’re probably the most rare $

I’m telling you 
keep the house super cold and just add on a lot of heavy thick layers 
It might be some ancestral shit, but It’s way more cozy than just having a warm home (and cheaper)
Because you still get the contrast of the cold, but your body continues to burn a little bit more to stay warm
And by staying in burn mode You’ll be a little happier than staying in super needy comfort mode $

I really don’t know why I’m such a hoe when it comes time to publish my notes and writing
If it’s not obvious, I’m not really concerned about how it reads and all of that
It’s literally like this deep bitchy “ I don’t wanna feeling”
AnyWho, I’m logging in now $

The Time of the year when we got acorns attacking SUVs $$$

It’s actually beautiful that people don’t kill each other more than they do when you consider how radical they act towards each other online $$

Just saw someone speed into their own neighborhood and I knew I had to write it down cause I’ll never see someone as cool as that again $

Sometimes the most humane form of education available is locking the organism up until it figures it out for itself $$$

McDonald’s employees are masters of gaslighting 
They’ll have you apologizing for their mistakes so you don’t make them mad $$

I’ve played myself once more with the door dash at McDonald’s $

Gonna have to put today in the L column 
It’s just one of those gutwrenching dread based terrible feelings 
I don’t know if I’m just financially insecure or if I’m just afraid of something creative or what 
Just shitty how quick this tries to pull me into self pity $

I guess I’m Getting pretty low on the emotional totem pole 
I keep saying that I’m overdue for a trip and I do think that’ll help but it gets so hard just to not wanna blow my fucking head off sometimes $

The voices of self depreciation love to wait until I’m vulnerable to chime in and try to convince me how much of a failure I am 
I’ve learned to just ignore them until my chemicals stabilize 
Sometimes that’s a couple hours, sometimes it’s a couple days, sometimes a couple months. 
I’ve done this dance more than I can count honestly l, 
Kind of the whole point of the notepad $

When you’re coming down on caffeine one bad experience at McDonald’s can have you lose faith in all humanity I swear to God $$$

I’m just trying to fight the urge to want to crawl into bed and stay there $

I don’t know how I’m gonna monetize anything creative without ruining it 
Every time I even begin to think that direction it all falls apart 
No way I’m gonna be able to financially support myself door dashing 
I just don’t have the emotional energy $

I just feel so terrible 
And I know it’s all bullshit
But Then I feel worse because I can’t stop $

It’s hard to stay spiritual when you’re worried about your next meal, but someone’s gotta do it 
A lot of people gotta do it actually $$

The silver lining is it heat might actually be working after all
So that might save me some drama from having to tell Madre $

You find out what emotional baggage has been on standby when you dip into a valley because that’s when everything wants to come sideways 
The pity dump is when you try to conjure up all the justifiable reasons to feel like a failure 
The scary part is when the reasons carry weight
Which makes it even more important to handle them as they come up in real time so they do not come sideways $$

Sometimes the silver lining is that there’s no one nearby to become collateral damage
Learned that the hard way last year… $

Most people are not alone long enough to even be able to determine what is on them and what is on those around them $$$

I pray that they ship those mushrooms man.. $

God, please help me with myself $

The Rogan podcast with Gavin de Becker did not help my faith in humanity 
But did give me hella content to rip pharma a new asshole with $

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11-13-25

Finishing up the second half of the second back to the future $

Been up for about an hour now $

Remembering the Patriots comeback Super Bowl win for some reason 
I remember watching the first half of the game while they’re getting their shit kicked in, in my apartment 
but I missed the comeback because I went to go hang out with a friend who just got back in town after his wife’s funeral. 
So I was checking the updates from my phone in the parking lot and back of the church after more friends showed up.
I remember when I scrolled then I saw that they had won. I had to remove myself from the meeting for a few minutes because I was so excited. 
I am convinced that if I hadn’t left my apartment to go be with a friend that I would be still be on the timeline which they did not win $

The only way to time travel is by precise decision-making $$$

Such a good movie
Time for part three now
When they go back to the old Timey days $

I say it a lot, but I know I’m an old soul just based on how much nostalgia I get whenever I watch them all timey shit $

It’s time for PB&J break before round two part three $

You should be able to put your sock and shoe on 1 foot while standing without falling
Just saying
They call it the old man test $$$

Anyone that’s ever worked the steps will agree that everyone should probably work the steps even though maybe one percent of the population ever will $$$

Shit is all fun and games until you do a four step $$$

One of these days, I’m gonna leave voice to text as is to put it on blast for how ridiculous it sometimes $

If God gives out spiritual resistance multipliers then mental illness is 9x and above $$

The secret to who you really are is buried underneath your bullshit
So if you can master your demons, you can master your legacy and your destiny $$

When they say that some people can’t handle the truth, what they really mean is that some people don’t care enough to investigate the truth long enough to understand it $$

Things are simple when they are orderly
Things are complex when they are disorganized $$

East = 3
Idk why $

So
North = 1
South = 2
West = 4
You know that just feels right too $

Anyway I’m from east Charlotte in middle of the Carolinas 
nc is Bout halfway up the east coast too
Nice middle af state
And humid $

Happy 2:43am 
Tis time to 2nd sleep $

If you had to get up early to hustle, you’re allowed to sleep as much $$

It’s one thing to know 
It’s another entirely to trust 
The goal is always just to trust what you know and work until you only know what you trust $$

I be emerging from the tomb at noon 
Bundled up to go on my 10 minute walk and the 60° sunshine 
No shame 
But I might be sweating by the time I get back lol $

These Goodwill Nike sweats are probably my favorite hobo pants 
Plus the Nike hoodie under the Aldi’s flannel 
Got my free bodybuilding.com beanie that I got with the tub of protein in 2016 
Wearing my ultra running shoes that my ex bought me for my birthday 
And two layers of socks 
One long, super fluffy
The other, orange and blue ankle athletic socks on top
With my 13-year-old glasses with the missing rubber sleeve of the left ear
And underneath it all, I have my Aldi’s athletic longjohns and Adidas sport boxer briefs
Stuntin is a habit $

It’s better to laugh at the amateurs cause that’s most likely that you still are one $$

Gonna smash A a bowl of blueberry oatmeal in a few minutes
Talk some more shit
It’s a Good Friday $

Kind of a downer thought, but it’s important to remember that the worst acts are usually committed by those closest to us
This is because it’s the easiest rationalize.
“they’ll forgive me I’m sure” or to not know it is serious to begin with
So the whole quote “i can’t believe they did that because they are my parents. “ shit goes out the window. $

True genius is gonna get tortured for about 30 years no matter what 
By definition, it has to $$$

Anything that stands out needs to learn how to stand up strong and stand alone against the resistance to actually mean anything $$

I guess technically you could be a genius with super boring stuff like organizing mail or tracking spreadsheets, but I don’t think that’s gonna help you get laid $

Friendly reminder that Reality often doesn’t seem real $$$

It’s funny how I accrued my debt while I was stone, cold sober 
And it stopped growing once I started smoking 🚬 $

Ain’t shit sweet about being a soy boy 
Just saying $$

Happy 11:33 AM 
A time for intellectuals and assholes alike $

Reminding myself that the dash isn’t about the cash, but about the content 
So never ever ever am I going to accept another order from McDonald’s again $

I’m a journalist in the sense that I journal about Ish $

Got the blueberry oatmeal recipe on point so one day when muscles and movements has taken over not only the fitness industry, but the fast food industry,
I will be able to give the world the greatest nutrition concoctions of all time $

Every single occupant of the human body should want to learn how to master their fitness 
If they don’t, then something is wrong with them $$$

Everything sucks until it doesn’t 
So if somebody or something is criticizing, the suck that is because they are still in it $$

My philosophy is simple
Philosophy is the only weapon we have in the war on reason and common sense $$$

Higher of evolved lifeforms, derive their pleasure from awareness rather than chemical release
Think proud parent rather than drug addict $$

Being a proud pet parent counts $$$

Light vibrations are at a higher frequency than sound vibrations (written)
Sound vibrations are a higher frequency than elemental vibrations (audio)
Elemental vibrations are a higher frequency than material substance (video)
Material and medium is the final sphere of vibration (platform) $

Message + mood + background + timing = content
- Short: <30s
- Medium< 90s
- Long< 3mins
- Story < 60 min $

I wanna inspire the world to move more, but I’ll settle for making them think more $

Workout albums (12 workouts)
- 3 spheres
- 4 challenges each $

Some products are worth the poison
Like deodorant $$

The secret has been and always will be “working with others” $$

I promise you women work harder and are far stronger and far tougher than men 
That’s why nature had to cripple their testosterone so they don’t kill us stupid ignorant men $$

The hardest part about delusion is simply recognizing it. $$

Don’t mind me just eating my eggs. 
They always taste good if you’re hungry $

Secrets are usually simple
The good ones anyway $$

Sorry, I’m late. I just had to check under every nook and crevice on my way over. $

All patterns by definition came with cycles
Therefore, it is reasonable and fair to extrapolate based on a pattern of cycles $$

Writing is the intellectual equivalent of playing with fire $$$

I’m just saying that if the gods want to use me as a mouthpiece, I’ll let them
But I get final say so 🤷🏻‍♂️ $

Now that I am fully full with eggs, I am ready to get to the side hustle $

Side hustles complement your calling, not distract from it $$

It’s almost the seven year anniversary of when me and my one crazy exes began dating for 2 1/2 weeks
What a season
I joke with that bitch drove me insane for a little bit, not gonna lie
Classic case of the crazies (both of us) $

Being able to discern what is it is not your fault is a sign of maturity $$$

Karma is always truthful and balanced and weird as fuck $$$

It’s hard to remember the magic of something after you have mastered it
Until you’ve mastered magic itself, that is $

The spirits created one strange, motherfucker, in yours truly
Definitely one of one
For better or worse $

If it makes you go “errrrggg” with exertion than that is type 2A or zone five $$$

Most creatures will do everything in their power to avoid changing 
Even just a little bit $$

Ordering drinks with delivery is foolish 
Especially if they’re iced 
I happen to think ordering drink drinks when you’re out it foolish anyway but sometimes it’s OK $$$

Addiction is the fast way to master your emotions and it’s the hard way $$

Just had a delivery right by my old friend’s house that I used to spend a lot of time at before I went into the wilderness $

There is no proper technique for preventing the cord from getting caught under the seat, unfortunately but there is checking to get it untangled $

Never listen to anyone who says something is easy if they’ve never done it before $$$

If it doesn’t make you laugh or go “ooo”,
 it isn’t mastery $$$

Through deep philosophical deconstructive reasoning I have tricked my consciousness into getting exciting over dumb shit basically $

All things follow a process and a pattern $$$

Remembering the time I had to fire a friend $

Almost all Fuckery gets down to the implication rather than the instruction $$

DoorDash be like pick up the package and take it 20 miles to receive three dollars $

People pretend like technique isn’t important until they get behind the wheel of a car $$$

Only lazy people don’t care about technique $$$

Wage slaves don’t like to create anything other than drama $$$

We did good tonight, 
dashing despite super low mental health and nearly bailing out several times 
But we powered through, thanks to the help of some jokes, podcasts, and prayers $

My plan works great when it’s busy 
Not so much when it’s slow, but if it’s too slow, then it doesn’t make much of a difference 
5-9:30pm essentially with a 30 min break at 7
We averaged about 30$ bucks an hour, but drastically reduced the bullshit / mileage
& Only had to wait at a store once and that was reasonable 
A Few complicated double orders too. 
And another with like 5 bags
Can definitely tell a test when I see one. & i passed 😅 $

The Bible is just a bunch of stories on how to deal with idiots and things that are hard to understand 
It just happens to contain a lot of secret information about who runs the world if you do your homework and learn how to read into this symbolism 
So that’s why it’s been edited to sound so weird sometimes 
Because it is actually a code $

Most people were dicks back in the day because they didn’t have any cool shows and movies to watch 
But seriously, a lot of people just did not have info or proper examples on how to act differently most of the time $$

Trial and error is still the only way to really learn something for good $$

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11-14-25

Evil comes down to people who know better who choose not to do better $$$

Happy 3:21 AM
Finishing up the second half of the third part of “back to the future” $

They just saved the teacher from falling into the ravine 
The one originally named after her for dying in it
Just reinforces that you shouldn’t interfere with destiny $

Never forget
Millions of people are gonna think they met their soulmate today
When in reality they just fell into a thirst trap $

Let’s keep it real 
You know the biggest problem back then was Coochie smell 
But I think that’s why the bush was such a big deal $

Whoever invented the genital razor is likely the same ancestral tree as who invented Tinder $

By the end of another hundred years, there’s gonna be a company named after just about every inanimate object
Or food $

The goal is always one shot, one kill 
Just sometimes you might need an extra bullet or two or you might get an extra kill or two
*ashes bowl $

Yep some days you’re not gonna make much sense either
And that’s OK $$

Happy 3:33 AM $

A true Pothead sees the beauty and all nugs no matter how big or small $$$

And also knows that at the end of a bad day all you need is about a 3rd of a G and you’ll be all right for at least a little bit $$

Any true pothead is a product of the people around them 
I am the Green Day kind of pothead $$

Bro, that fresh grinder smell is so amazing and makes my face a little clammy and sweaty for some weird reason $

If I can somehow parlay my midnight movie sessions into a sponsorship than anything is possible 
{Insert your brands strain here For marketing and send me an ounce yo} $

I know it looks bad smoking as much as I do, struggling with money as much as I do, but if you read this far, then you likely either already understand 
or you don’t even want to and that’s not why you’re really here $

The best thing texting ever did was change the writing tempo and allow the acceptance of more personal writing styles and slang 
Except now we got corporate emails with urban cliché and suspicious emojis so I guess that’s the trade-off $

You won’t remember the good times as much as when you made good with the bad times $$

That last hit made my jaw jingle
*clears bowl 🥣 $

I know my smart ass moved to Florida in a past life because of how efficient and consistent the temperature is $

I’m probably gonna end up being some kind of nocturnal southern mountain snake 🐍 
Honestly, even saying that feels good
It feels the same as when something else syncs up $

Friendly reminder that every single moment is carefully constructed by your consciousness by events that arise out of unconsciousness
& You have to go through 3 in order to get to 4 $

It’s only a matter of time before we’re able to do cool shit like sleeping out underneath the stars again
But only this time we have super thin, super smart clothes they keep the bugs off and temperature regulate
And we will have regenerated our forests and fields and rivers and streams, so we won’t even need to filter the water anymore
It’s inevitable because it’s the other end of the cycle where we are now
It is why we are where we are
And as crazy and as overwhelming as shit gets sometimes, once the pain ends, it ends. but the adaptations it creates remains $

Bro, I’m not gonna lie some of those pizzas tonight smelled so freaking good that I’m thinking about them now
I can practically still smell them $

I guess back then they took a blanket,
 cut a hole in the middle of it. 
& said fuck it & popped the little head through $

I’m gonna have to make the PB&J of shame
All I have left with the bonus slices of bread
You know the ones that are basically all crust that come at the end of the loaf?
Yeah, well fuck it 🍞 $

If reincarnation is real, then the only way to deal with idiots is to have them slowly incarnate themselves into self slavery while elevating the wise and wealthy
Remember that next time you go to look around $

Those who cannot avoid mild, temptation cannot avoid major temptation 
Those who cannot manage a little bit of power cannot manage major power $$

Knowledge is still power 
Wisdom is still skill $$

Bravery is showing up even when you don’t know the technique yet $$$

….
4 AM blueberry oatmeal ? 🥣 
4 AM BLUEBERRY OATMEAL  
Perfect for the last 30 minutes of the movie 
Maybe they’ll make it back to the future $

Just a reminder that sugar is a controlled substance 
Stronger than most drugs $$$

I have found that about 13 dry spoonfuls and five spoonfuls of sugar and four minutes Boil is the perfect recipe
And then you get the blueberries in a bowl to cool down the bowl
Which sets up an amazing grand finale when you add the hot oatmeal to the freezing berries and icy bowl. 🥣 $

Everyone who’s ever fought for something they believe in will tell you how meaningful that experience is 
Everyone who’s ever fought somebody who has believed differently I’ll tell you about how tragic that was $$

Everybody’s life is too weird for shit just to be coincidental 
Prove me wrong $$

If you get the water ratio right and the right amount of berries 
Then you can make a legendary oatmeal 
Because as the oatmeal cools & thickens, and as the berries melts, they get a little watery and soft 
So the heat from the oatmeal melts the berries just enough and the berries cools the oatmeal and thickens it just enough $

Only bitches use guns on other people $$$

Apparently, I used to teach flying in the Navy during World War II 
I’d like to get those memories back cause that’s bad ass
That really does explain why instructing in public speaking comes natural to me, but yet I’m introverted as fuck $

Good food is hard to stop eating $$

Remembering the one time they left me in charge of McDonald’s overnight shift cuz the manager couldn’t show up 
And I was 18 and had been working there less than 30 days 
Guess they had a feeling they had a trustworthy old soul $

There’s objectively a best way to do anything and everything 
And objectively means that anybody can figure it out who is willing to follow the truth 
So it’s certainly feasible to become the best at everything by simply learning the right technique $

I think second Jesus is probably just gonna be the funniest dude of all time 
I mean, the only way he could fight is philosophically, right ?
And the only way you can fight philosophically is really through artistic expression 
You know writing , music, movement, photography or painting, and acting 🎭 $

I don’t think first Jesus actually went around claiming the shit he claimed per se 
I think that was his Homies trying to keep the hype up for their secret underground movement a couple hundred years later 
And they saw how freaked out the profane would get instead of investigating 
So they thought it best to troll the world back to its formal ancient glory $$

Words are never accidental, but can often be careless 
Especially in the minds of the profane $$$

Can’t wait till AutoCorrect stops saying propane instead of profane $

I’m a give y’all a warning the day I don’t correct anything from voice to text that way it doesn’t seem like I have completely lost it $

AnyWho, happy 4:30 AM it’s time for second sleep and a podcast on why dating is so fucked $

Ugh the depression is real
The attitude is good
The house is cold
The forecast is meh 
The mail “late“
The time is 10:01 AM
The bong is roaring
-a poem by yours truly $

Took a salt, caffeine, and sludge shot
Ripping a few now before crawling back into bed and rolling up like a suburban larva $$$

I’m gonna try to scrape myself together in a couple hours and go run – $

It’s now 11:16 AM 
That slow release caffeine pill is starting to do its job 
I am no longer in bed because I no longer wish to be in bed 
Which is emotional progress 
The vibes are good still and we’re making some cof fefe now $

The feeling you get when you create something is a recognition of sorts $$

almost like recognizing something from a dream 
Therefore, in order to remember a feeling, you must’ve experienced something somewhere else first $

When you have the leverage,
 the only thing that matters is your ability to say no long enough to get what you want $$

If you can keep an active count in your head while you perform a task, you will take the shortcut to the flow state 
Which is why training can be hypnotic $$

Make it for yourself 
Then spin it for someone else $$

If you try to make it for somebody else, you’ll likely just spin yourself out $$

Annndddd we got a coffee stain on the white tee $

I’ve been rocking this white V-neck and red flannel since 2015 $

Remembering when I bought the flannel 
I think it was probably first or second week of November (fitting)
I met up with one of my friends/agents at the South Park mall
His fiancé had just left him and his entire life was falling apart
So we were just kicking it
And I bought this and a blue one from the van store along with my timberlands (which are in the garage somewhere I think)
The blue one fits too small for some weird reason even though they’re technically the same size
But this red flannel has been my go to date, shirt, work shirt, camp shirt, chill shirt, bonfire shirt, and did I say date shirt?
The V-neck was also my go to for casual Fridays paired with a “nice” pair of Jordans $

Remember that all the motherfucker has to compare it to is their lived experience
But that strange, spiritual itch
~ sorry had to decline a dash from McDonald’s real quick~ 
Comes from somewhere else $

Ideas for degree pages
- challenges 
- Standards
- Roast - “if the shoe fits”
- Relative Science 
- FAQs $

The fact that just waiting around for an order is so wrenching is evidence of invisible, spiritual viruses or contagious
And they love to in fast, fast food establishment $

Jordan’s are actually pretty good shoes for kicking doors when your hands are full because of the padded toe box $$

I know what it looks like when someone’s trying their best on the inside because the outside looks like shit $

Being drunk on symbolism is right when your third eye opens and every little thing sinks up at once and it’s a weird feeling of paranoia that everybody is somehow playing a joke on you and watching you mixed with enlightenment because you fucking knew it the whole time 
Yeah, hard to explain $

“It is what it is”
-wisest shit ever said right there $$$

I’ve been home for point five seconds and I’ve already changed into to my blacked out chill gear $

USPS online tracking fucks up more than their actual service does 
Which counts for something I guess $$

The goal is to now chill as hard as effing possible until around five or 6 PM and then we dash again $

I mean, if I can get this down right then realistically I can get to three grand a month working around four or five hours a day 
The miles and the distance will be manageable
Which is really a pretty sweet gig all things considered 
I just have to keep my enthusiasm above water 
And pray these mushrooms get here quick $

If the idea of something brings you more pleasure and satisfaction than actually doing it 
You may be depressed $

Example 
I can’t wait to be off work so I can chill and do nothing 
Then when it finally comes time to do nothing , it kind of sucks and is boring $

Gonna try to watch a movie about this one time traveling pilot $

Just thinking that if I had it, I would’ve gladly paid 100 grand to not have to go through the emotional crucifixion that I had to the past year 
Hell, I probably would’ve paid more than that all things considered 
But I’m a very grateful I couldn’t have taken the easy way because I got a lot of good content in the process 
And content is worth more than gold these days $

Didn’t realize until recently, how important syncing the lift with the beat has been my whole career $

I love referring to my lifting career as if it was anything other than working out when I wasn’t at work $

Yes, there is such a thing as good technique for learning good technique $$

When all options are available, then it is easy to select the ones that lead to the greatest mindfuck $$

Freedom does exist, but it always comes with circumstances and conditions in order to have true meaning 
These must be contained within some kind of container because if they were to go on for forever, then nothing would actually exist 
So there was a box of freedom that our physical bodies exist in $

But anything outside of this box would be able to manipulate anything inside of the box essentially instantaneously 
This manipulation would obviously infringe on freedom 
Therefore, the only way to be truly free is to manipulate the box from the outside $

The most common construct of the “outside of the box” is the spiritual realm which is really just the intellectual realm. Which is just a hierarchy of varying vibrational consciousnesses $

(Any word with 5S’s is on another level) $

Therefore, anything brought into manifestation through the higher intellectual realm does so with the intention of influencing a very specific variable inside the box $

But there must be some fragment of consciousness that is unaware of the “outside of the box” in order to construct the illusion of absolute freedom $

And while this smaller ego consciousness likes to form its own identity, it is simply a product of various degrees of vibrational energetic separation $

“Mouth mullet” lol $

The most painful shit to hear as a kid was “we have food at home” $$

But after doing food service, I am very grateful for having responsible chaperones $

I feel like whoever first came up with the word chaperone just trying a little too hard $

As long as you maintain true open minded willingness to take your amends to the next level if needed, then just do the best you can for now to make it right $$

You gotta know when to take it easy on yourself when you’re feeling low, just beating yourself up doesn’t help anything $$

Figuring out how to help yourself is a lesson worth more than anything
It’s worth so much that it’s worth creating entire simulations for it
And if you don’t believe me, maybe you should look around at your “planet“ $$

You can’t be faulted for not knowing what you don’t know, but you can be faulted for having a week Will to find out $$

Time to eat some eggs
Happy 2:19 PM $

New book
“The life and Times of the suburban shithead “$

If the peak is in the middle of the middle then you have a pyramid $$

ADHD is an off shoot of depression  
Part of depression is chemical imbalance or rather lack of chemical production 
The other part is behavioral and trauma base $$

When destructive pathways have been carved, it can be extra difficult to transcend them when you have depleted chemical arsenal $$

You still react like a normal person but every emotional reward is very short-lived and almost just disappears at a certain point $$

So most things are done out of this weird nervous restlessness going from one dopamine to the next $$

And you can get a lot of dopamine out of doing small tasks and acts of service
Or by doing drugs and reckless shit $

But at the end of the day, you still feel kind of hollow and it can be hard to tell what’s right and what’s wrong $
 
“not much, just pulling my hair out. Wbu?” $

I really can’t believe I still have hair or that it’s even this long for that matter with how much I pull and play with it
Over the spring, I was seriously getting a bald spot where I would rip small chunks out when I was writing ✍️ $

I don’t know I kinda like the ✍️ $

Didn’t realize if you said it out loud that voice to text would automatically do the emoji $

Gonna sound morbid, but this is the first time in history in which you can go back and obtain intimate details about random people who just die
Back in the day when strangers died no one cared because they didn’t know anything about them
But there’s something beautiful about getting to know the everyday thoughts of a random person
So that’s another reason why I’m writing this notepad
Cause if I randomly croak, then you can go back and read my notes and get to know your boy $

And if I start talking about something super spicy, just know I’m not suicidal
Anymore at least lol $

Anything that anyone has ever been aware of has technically existed
Even if it’s just a dream $$

Alex likes to post up on my chair to reinforce the supervillain vibes $

If you are not willing to sacrifice it all at any point in time for the greater good, then you do not deserve it to begin with $$$

There is no such thing as a justified negative belief (held longer than it needs to be held to be debunked) $$

“It is easier to be angry than it is to be sad”
what a banger quote dropped by the little dude in the movie $$$

New column ideas
- shit I shoulda said
- Glad someone said it
- Say it with your chest then
- Fighting words
- Boom, roasted
- Incase of intellectual emergency 
- Pick me ups 
- Put me downs
- May I have your attention please 
- Public Service announcement $$$

Real strength is walking away from a toxic relationship 
Avoiding gossiping 
Showing up early to help set up 
Calling a friend whenever you’re struggling, but not bringing up your own shit and their heart $$$

Everybody wants a prophetic vision until that vision starts taking away everything you’ve ever had and challenging you in every single way that you can and can’t even think of $$$

Bruh, this pizza smells so fucking good 
They’re getting better every time $

Good news- I’m starting to get hip to these decoy dashes $

The Mexican restaurants are always the fastest 
Watch me just change it 
Nope, they were on point 
I’m telling you when everybody’s on time this is pretty fun 
When they don’t wanna give you the food that’s too much $

The ego’s job is to participate in the illusion. It’s just that sometimes it misinterpret the illusion and then becomes delusional. $$

Shit gets traumatic once people start acting out of fear $$$

Fitness personalities to be aware of 
- nervous Nancy
- Sir lifts a lot
- King Douche $$$

Anything involving humility is the hardest
Guaranteed $$$

We did it everyone
We hit our dash goal on both ends- cash & convenience $

Winning any sort of competition, most winners win by simply minimizing mistakes $$

As long as you show up and don’t fuck up, there’s at least a 50% chance your competition will make some kind of mistake
And if they do, you’re almost guaranteed a win with minimum effort
*shuffles cards 🃏 $

4 of anything is a pattern
3 of anything is everything $$

I know I got into some shit in the past life based on my reaction every time I see a fighting scene 
I mean, it’s literally a physical reaction 
Like I want to fight back and I have to restrain my brain and body from actually going there $

There is just simply no way I would’ve watched a bunch of people sword, fighting and not gotten involved $

Or a bunch of dudes standing in a line shooting at other dudes $

Or dudes in a plane shooting at other planes $

I mean in this life instead of becoming an actual soldier and fighting some bullshit or on a bunch of farmers. I decided to incarnate as a street kid turned writer to fight the war on drugs and addiction and mental health. 
It has been much like a rebellion up until recent as the true war is just about to begin 
And I’m 31 
Same age my grandfather was when he went to Britain to teach flying apparently $

Sometimes I really can’t believe how good of a cat Alex is 
I mean, he’s 100% a humanoid soul incoronated into a cat 
Every now and then I think he’s my late friend Caleb 
Cause that is something Caleb would do if given the option 
But on the other hand, I kinda hope not because I’d be giving Alex lots of kisses and that would make it super weird and I’m not gay like that lol
*clears bowl 🥣 $

It really is hard to overstate how far one or two working sets every day or two goes towards maintaining or even gaining muscle $

If you simply just did one set till a true technical failure
Consistently and progressing appropriately
But still only one set per day
You will most assuredly gain muscle compared to doing nothing at all 
And considering most sets don’t last longer than 60 seconds 
That’s a pretty sweet deal $

Your body isn’t gonna take it serious unless deep down inside you hit that “oh shit“ mark
This means that unless it’s not at least a little threatening, you’re just going to spend the energy and go through the motion 
Which is still great for maintenance or technique practice 
But to trick your body into going into recovery mode,
You need to struggle just a bit- or push until you at least want to quit $

Training is simple
Do one set until you want to stop
Then do another aiming for just one more of something 
Then repeat 
After a while, you can get creative with what kind of sets you choose , what you do between each set, and how often train 
But the secret is one set at a time 
And the more patient, you are the more progress you will make $

Some of the dankest nugs I’ve ever seen were pretty small $

Until you’ve had your shit rocked by a micro tap of LSD, you can’t truly appreciate how big things come in small packages 
Mushrooms also count cause they’re small as fuck $$$

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WORDS THAT NEED A HOME

11-15-25

Round and round we go
The wheel of life never slows $

Happy 2:04am $

Watching “American Primevil”
Which is excellent especially if you have a taste for watching people get fuuuccckkkkked up in the old timey days $

Half these camera shots are crooked
And fast af- like .5s $

I just can’t get over the ancient nostalgia-esq feeling I get when I see someone get an arm blow off by a musket 
And anything involving a tomahawk is fascinating $

True art has a funny way of unfolding its own manifestation on its own time
Anything egoic adheres to a schedule $$

If the timing is forced, then it’s not true art 
But if it almost more or less accidentally comes out on its own time, then it probably is $$

You can get through anything once you are institutionalized $$$

The ego will shape itself to any situation 
It has a unique way of filtering out and compartmentalizing traumatic information that would damage the host $$

Often times the situation determines the filter and not the host $$

Those trying to help the most are often the ones who hurt the most $$$

Lesson learned so far :
Helping stuck up white bitches will get you killed $$

I mean, seriously who wouldn’t trade up all this modern bullshit for magic and wizardry ? $

People be like 
“I hate my job. I hate my spouse. I hate my home. I hate everybody. 
Can you increase my antidepressant, please doc ? “ $

If you’ve never done an early morning speed smoke then you don’t know what you’re missing 
Here’s how you do it 
-Get fav strain (any will do)
-Get cape (any blanket works)
-Get bong 
-Rapid fire musket hits until you fall back asleep 
-Bonus points for completing before sunrise $$

A cape offers emotional protection, as well as thermal protection $$

Tim Dillon said “one man’s God is another man’s demon” 🔥 $$$

All intelligence is just a fuzzy form of some kind of push/ pull energy 
With various degrees of familiarity or memory $$

Memory is the ultimate superpower $$$

Your soul is the fuzzy, formless frequency that influences the odds and manifestations of outcomes within the confines of this reality 
These micro manipulations construct circumstances for higher level decisions, which determine destiny $

Voice to text thinks I’m talking about a ratchet girl whenever I say, Destini $

You will register as clinically depressed before you have your morning coffee if you are dependent on it $$$

You’ll register as any one (or multiple) of a whole host of emotional disorders if you don’t have your carbs when you need them $$

Emotional health is a byproduct of behavioral and psychological health $$$

Most things under the guise of spiritual health are most effective at influencing behavioral and psychological health 
Otherwise, you’re probably just taking drugs $

There is no God to ask for help because we are all fractions of God, slowly pulling into manifestation the reality of our dreams $$

Most people either suck at dreaming or don’t know how $$$

Then there’s a large group who just don’t understand and live in a world of created misery $$

Shit starts making sense when you view your current lifespan, the equivalent of one day for your spirit
And that a year for your spirit is a cycle of 360 lifetimes $

if a lifetime is roughly 72 years then 360 lifetimes would equal 25,920 years which is exactly the length of an entire great platonic year (how long it takes the sun to do a complete lap around the galaxy)🌌 $

The key to immortality is good notetaking
And learning how to bury and conceal shit $$$

If I was to write the plan for my next life right now, 
First, I would divide it in half
So 36 years building and 36 years burning
The first half of the first half would be all background and setting the plot
The second half of the first half would be relentless training and preparation $

The first half of the second half would be the construction of a major institution 
The second half of the second half would be balling out of control until the reaper comes $

So let’s just say that civilization got wrecked 12,500 years ago 
Bout halfway through a great platonic year 
And that there’s a lot of evidence to point that beforehand, shit was pretty nice and chill 
Obviously, the ancients were fond of stones and being stoned 
But it would seem that Some got greedy and let the power go to their head and eventually were overcome by their own fuckery $$

So whatever forces that actually control shit (whatever most people call God or gods) basically reset shit via natures cold wrath and that’s why we were essentially at the darkest point possible spiritually (we lost all constructive knowledge and lacked deeper wisdom of “the dark side”) $$

Don’t get much more brutal than scalloping and raping for fun $$

AnyWho, that’s why we’ve been on a trajectory of enlightenment because now we have a lot of of our own mistakes to compare it to.
Where as back in the old “glory“ days , it would’ve been impossible to understand human nature’s Darkside, if it was never visible or witnessed (the whole fruit of knowledge/ good & evil business) $$

So even though there’s been lots of pain and suffering over the past 13,000 years, it really isn’t shit if you can view things from a cosmic perspective (or galactic perspective) $$
 
And the suffering that we’ve gone through as a collective is really just the galactic equivalent of six months of spiritual training. $$

nothing sheds trauma faster than FUN (death being close 2nd) 🥈 $$$

Now as far as what happened before 25,920 years ago, that’s where things get interesting 
More and more I’m of the belief that we were created by some other humanoid like being or consciousness 
I believe our bodies were created as vehicles for ultimate fun and Fuckery 
Therefore, it is understood that there is a long and lengthy and often torturous training process that comes with any new game $

The Earth and moon were obviously created human body with the human body in mind.
(Seriously look into the ratios of the moon, sun, and earth if you don’t believe ) $$

The human body is a microcosm of the solar system, which is a microcosm of the universe 
Therefore, the true representation of the Spirit is the giant ass, super powerful ball of light and love in the middle of the solar system 
I.e. the sun (making cosmic cycles, comparable to spiritual tendencies) $$

The Earth is a perfect representation of the physical human body (referring to the natural processes and elements) $$

The moon is a perfect representation of the intellectual ego. That mysterious stabilizing sphere rotating in perfect rhythm with the earth. Talking shit & judging its every spin $$

So yea, it’s undeniable that there are higher intelligence’s intentionally shaping everything $$

Sidenote, shit got so weird over the summer I swear to God I thought I was about to wake up on some kind of hidden moon base 
Or rather, I was gonna wake up on the true earth and realize that my first entire half of life was on some secret Moonbase $

I mean, bro, the sun straight up disappeared for like three weeks at least
And there were so many planes flying I swear to God it was like being on a military base $

It was so much and so much shit at once it is what forced me to find all my grandfather‘s old mystic shit
(and most of my families for that matter) $

The fucking walls were giving me clues, telling me to look for some kind of document
And what do you know what I found?
Well The super secret mysterious laws prevent me from actually saying what it was
But of course, I found something that only I would recognize from a past life $

Alright, back to our regularly scheduled programming $

all dudes wanted back in the day was a fort $$

I swear I came out the box building forts for no reason
I’m pretty sure I was using sticks as a gun before I was six years old $

I must admit that I am probably the worst at liking, sharing, subscribing or interacting with anything online that I like 
I don’t think I’ve ever left a review $

“This is the end” is one of the funniest movies I’ve ever seen 
It was the only movie I saw two times in three days with my best bud $

Most people are genuinely really good people. They just have no idea how to handle trauma. $$$

If you don’t know something then the first goal is to figure it out by giving yourself the Grace to do so $$

The biggest threat is always somebody who knows something you don’t $$$

Every time the wind blows the leaves over my path it’s synchronizes with my right arm tattoo $

Hard to beat a 75° day in the middle of November $

plausible deniability is your only protection against dangerous information $$$

Dangerous information is anything that compromises the ability to have fun with something $$

Some experiences are better off as memories
 and it’s important to remember that is the point while you’re undergoing them lest you go insane $$

Usually, some kind of negative complaining is the first reaction to something painful that’s misunderstood $$

If you put your tire on those weird little squiggly lines at the light, then it’ll turn green faster $$

All philosophers are detectives, but not all detectives are philosophers $$

Discernment is the only way to avoid decoys $$$

Stress reduction is worth more than entertainment gain $$$

Make Instagram less shallow again $$$

Getting good at anything hurts but is possible nonetheless $$

I’m not afraid to admit that I’d rather buy mental meds than pay water bill 
I guess a little dopamine and serotonin is more important than water 
And I’m blessed to live in a country that doesn’t shut my water off when I’m late on my bill $

Weird vibe when you’re delivering Mexican food, but they won’t allow indoor seating because of the immigration raids $

That weird moment when you get two different Zaxby’s orders from two different Zaxby’s for the same dash $

I don’t think I’ll ever stop getting anxious when the food is late being prepared 
No matter how little it actually effects me $

Judgment can only be passed in relation to the final project $$

Just got a whiff of something that made me flashback to the fucking psych ward 
It’s like some kind of hospital beef stew cafeteria smell $

I’ve been to a lot of meetings in a lot of random ass churches $

Never forget dog sitting for the English teacher $

Nothing like writing some amazing shit while delivering pizzas am I right? $

And the dumbass of the day award goes
To:
the people who ordered a bunch of stuff from Marco’s pizza and told me to hand it to them, but when I went to ring the doorbell, they told me to go away and if they weren’t interested $

Kind of seems like these acorns are trying to hit the car $$

The hardest dash of them all is for myself at the end of the shift
To hit the candy store and then the grocery store in that order $

True addiction requires a delusional false belief that nothing will ever be OK without it again. Otherwise it’s just physical dependence. $$

Fear by definition, is the opposite of desire. 
So if you don’t want to do something, it is because you are afraid of it 
It also happens that there are many different forms of fear beyond the classic scaredy-cat kind $$

Anything circumstantial or situational is going to account for 80% of your emotional state 
The other 20% is usually the actual physiological Mind-body operating interface 
(Being your actual chemicals and energy level ) $$

Financial gain is still the least meaningful $$$

“The greatest goal is to become a slave to what you love “
Well, actually I don’t know about that last one $

If you watch more CNN, then you do reading then I feel bad for you $$$

“This man was alive a few seconds ago we can’t play soccer with his head“ $$

“ I ain’t looking out that hole the last person to look out that hole got his head dropped off” $$

Some people have genuinely never felt true excitement for something $$

And these are likely the most dangerous and destructive individuals $$

But this is also the most tragic because in many cases, the reason why they have never felt genuine excitement is due to some extreme amount of trauma or biological malfunction $$

To put it a simpler way;
assholes have never done Molly and don’t know what it feels like to not be a dick $$$

Trust me, I felt like an asshole for a very long period of time until suddenly I didn’t 
and then I had a lot of cleaning up to do $

Usually, the kids acting up in class are smarter than the teachers, but the teachers don’t wanna admit that $$

Being underestimated is the greatest unintentional gift $$$

I better start dashing before my caffeine buzz fades and I don’t want to anymore $

Whenever I need to remember something like to switch the laundry, I’ll do something silly and super out of the ordinary and slightly inconvenient to my future self to serve as a trigger to remember $

To remember to switch the laundry, I have moved my shoe rack into the middle of the kitchen 
That way, my future self has to address the inconvenience $

All right, we’re about to dash again. Let’s see what we can do. $

I look 10 years younger whenever I cover my ears with my hair $

Strangling strangers in a strip mall is something like no other $$$

Driving by the neighborhood that used to be my old horse barn now it’s a vinyl village and part of my cut through $

Whenever I’m irritable, the only thing that makes me angry is anything to do with happiness or family $

Driving on one of my favorite country roads that they officially bulldozed and replaced so now the little farmhouse and the pond are gone as well as the patch woods $

Cruise control saves 50% energy when driving $$

It’s easy to tell who has a terrible manager 
Cuz all the employees are fucking and fucking off $$

Most companies dirty secret is they have to hire as fast as they’re people quit $$

Attrition rate says it all $$$

My dash strategy favors the rich and lazy
And it’s working $

Darius Rucker is so good bro $$

Godlike technique is scooping a dash back to the neighborhood for the last one $$

If the conditions are controlled, but the outcome is not,
 then it is a game $$$

After a lousy start to the week dash wise, we are ended with a new best $

My first reaction when walking into the kitchen was 
“what the fuck is my shoe rack doing in the middle”
 and then I remembered how much of a genius I am $

We did great dashing again tonight cleared 65 bucks and less than three hours with some super easy deliveries for the most part that is 
That puts us at 135 for the day and about five hours and some change,
And considering how the first half was all beautiful sunny Sunday drive I can’t get much better 
No, I’m gonna take some mushroom gummy‘s , a shot of sludge, and a victory sandwich $

You’re gonna learn one way or another while you were here on this “planet“ and it’s shocking how many people don’t recognize how painful things can get until a lesson is learned
 they truly would rather just continue shouting into the ether blaming Santa Claus than getting off their ass and doing some work $$

All right, we’re gonna watch “Midway” and see if we can’t have some kind of flashbacks $

Symptoms of simply being a “run of the mill” misfit often resemble mental illness $$

Mushrooms just get rid of the gate and gatekeeper for a bit
Up to you if you wanna explore what’s on the other side of the gate $$

The number one killer of gains is taking shit too serious $$$

It’s always weird when you see your actors that you know from other movies or shows 
In something random 
Like right now we got Bjorn being blown up on the USS Arizona $

Besides brief trainers/ teachers nobody’s taught me shit long term
Like as a dedicated mentor
I’ve just been in various positions of “sink or swim” which has simply reawakened old skills $

It’s amazing what you can learn when put on the spot
And also what you can forget $$$

Pressure makes diamonds and bursts pipes
-Mostly burst pipes
-bursts diamonds occasionally $$

Once you wipe away the details, then you’re left with tendencies and intuition $$

You don’t have to look very far to see the AI companies already trying too hard because they know they actually haven’t created anything new 
and that they’re about to hit the ceiling pretty quick because saving 30 seconds from a task that only took 3 minutes isn’t worth forfeiting humanity $$

If you let AI do the creating for you, then you have been spiritually neutered $$

Happy 9:09pm $

Most mental health disorders can be intermittently overcome given a certain situation, but can be extremely painful to live with during leisure because there is no such thing $$

This movie is dank AF 
(Middway is literally AF) $

Old Japanese generals really didn’t know how to take a L
They’d rather kill themselves $$

Did people actually powder their nose back then? 
Or is it like some kind of euphemism? Besides cocaine obv $

Happy 11:03 PM 
Super esoteric time of day if you think about it $

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THOUGHTS I HEARD

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SUBURBAN SECRETS

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WORDS THAT NEED A HOME

11-16-25