A good spotter does not lift the weight for you but provides just enough security to help you push harder and lift it yourself
Same with spiritual guardians
Becoming dependent on anything is simply when your ego has adapted to the routine of having whatever it is
It can be a substance or an activity or even a person, place, or thing
But once you have become unconsciously dependent, you will be very uncomfortable, Should whatever it is- be suddenly removed.
Perhaps it’s the psychic shit talk that you can pick up on from the food workers whenever you have to wait on food that makes something so simple so painful
The human body is a microcosm of the solar system, which is a microcosm of the universe
Therefore, the true representation of the Spirit is the giant ass, super powerful ball of light and love in the middle of the solar system
I.e. the sun (making cosmic cycles, comparable to spiritual tendencies)
The Earth is a perfect representation of the physical human body (referring to the natural processes and elements)
The moon is a perfect representation of the intellectual ego. That mysterious stabilizing sphere rotating in perfect rhythm with the earth. Talking shit & judging its every spin
Important to remember with anything regarding psychedelics-
“Seeing” is often used in replacement of understanding, not what you actually visually pick up with your eyes
Institutions are kind of like artificial spiritual beings
Or the material version of a spiritual entity
The hardest dash of them all is for myself at the end of the shift
To hit the candy store and then the grocery store in that order
If you get the water ratio right and the right amount of frozen berries
Then you can make a legendary oatmeal-
Because as the oatmeal cools & thickens, and as the berries melts, they get a little watery and soft
So the heat from the oatmeal melts the berries just enough and the berries cools the oatmeal and thickens it just enough
Most people were dicks back in the day because they didn’t have any cool shows and movies to watch
But seriously, a lot of people just did not have info or proper examples on how to act differently most of the time
I’m not afraid to admit that I’d rather buy mental meds than pay water bill
I guess a little dopamine and serotonin is more important than water
And I’m blessed to live in a country that doesn’t shut my water off when I’m late on my bill
Shit starts making sense when you view your current lifespan, the equivalent of one day for your spirit
And that a year for your spirit is a cycle of 360 lifetimes
if a lifetime is roughly 72 years then 360 lifetimes would equal 25,920 years which is exactly the length of an entire great platonic year (how long it takes the sun to do a complete lap around the galaxy)🌌
We did good tonight,
dashing despite super low mental health and nearly bailing out several times
But we powered through, thanks to the help of some jokes, podcasts, and prayers
I guess technically you could be a genius with super boring stuff like organizing mail or tracking spreadsheets, but I don’t think that’s gonna help you get laid
Gonna smash A a bowl of blueberry oatmeal in a few minutes
Talk some more shit
It’s a Good Friday
I feel like whoever first came up with the word chaperone just trying a little too hard
Anyway I’m from east Charlotte in middle of the Carolinas
nc is Bout halfway up the east coast too
Nice middle af state
Didn’t realize until recently, how important syncing the lift with the beat has been my whole career
I love referring to my lifting career as if it was anything other than working out when I wasn’t at work
East = 3
Idk why , So
North = 1
South = 2
West = 4
I have a theory that it is better to bundle up for warmth than to force heat the room
Your body isn’t gonna take it serious unless deep down inside you hit that “oh shit“ mark
This means that unless it’s not at least a little threatening, you’re just going to spend the energy and go through the motion
Which is still great for maintenance or technique practice
But to trick your body into going into recovery mode,
You need to struggle just a bit- or push until you at least want to quit
When you have the leverage,
the only thing that matters is your ability to say no long enough to get what you want
As long as you show up and don’t fuck up, there’s at least a 50% chance your competition will make some kind of mistake
And if they do, you’re almost guaranteed a win with minimum effort
*shuffles cards 🃏
I really don’t know why I’m such a hoe when it comes time to publish my notes and writing
If it’s not obvious, I’m not really concerned about how it reads and all of that
It’s literally like this deep bitchy “ I don’t wanna feeling”
AnyWho, I’m logging in now
I wasn’t a believer in psychic warfare until I just wanted to write a little bit and it was so fucking hard for no reason
Which exposes me to the concept of resistance, but of the spiritual kind
For the record, I don’t think I’ve ever “seen” a ghost and honestly, I don’t want to Anytime soon
But I can sense them with the minds eye
Imagine descending from a long line of super righteous knights
Only to take radical left turn and end up in a biker gang in South Florida
I’m willing to bet the earth is actually more like a honeycomb
And the most intelligent beings are probably in the ocean
In super cool aquarium dorms
I’m not ashamed to admit that the thought of a little bit of attention makes me excited
I used to think that maybe it was some kind of repressed childhood bullshit from not having enough attention growing up
But that’s really mostly bullshit and I’m just an ego maniac who probably deep down wants to be an actor and is just too afraid to admit that
The hardest part about being a creative is that if you are too low on the emotional totem pole, you have little chance of overcoming the emotional resistance required to impress the muse
I simultaneously think
“I’m the best” while knowing there is no possible way I actually could be
Keep getting Tea in my eyes while editing lol - 7:43 11/5/25
If you don’t think Christian mystics run the world then why do you think they named the company Apple?
I can’t wait for the next big flood
Which is just going to be a revelation of everybody’s deepest secrets that they’ve been hiding online
Reincarnation the only explanation for being this young and feeling this old
Some thoughts are like a ricochet
I mean, it really is more like you hear them, instead of something intentionally conjured them
It’s like a reply
An internal commentary from somewhere or something
And usually it is far more accurate and more wise than the original thought
What if the secret spirit counsel actually elects the most qualified and the most wise to lead the secret spirit army
And just uses puppets cuz it’s more fun
And just uses silence cuz it’s more of a flex
Good news- think I’ve simplified what I want to do
Bad news- I wanna be a writer ✍️
It’s almost that magical time of the day
4:20 AM
It’s not that I’m a trained fighter. It’s just that I’ve trained fighting more than most DoorDash customers for sure
An hour is just a set of seconds
A day is just a workout of hours
A week is just a program of days
A month is just a hierarchy of weeks
A year is just a cycle of months
Can’t build anything without knowing where you are
Can’t know where you are unless you know what you just did
Can’t know what to do next without knowing where you want to go
Why do some women look like fish?
I think it’s when the chin extends further than the nose ?
Think aboutWatching your behavior or experiencing the receiving end of your behavior,
if either scare you,
then you scare me
A good PB&J always betters the day 🥪
The only bad part about the rain is all the bugs and small critters that violate our peace agreement and start going into the visible areas and force me to make a moral decision
I mean, I can’t be the only who meows once I get home
This is gonna sound bad because of financial problems, but I need to buy another ounce
It’s the most sound economical cannabis decision
IT’S MEDICAL
Man, that first delivery of the day as the morning sun comes up- hits hard.
Of the most spiritual way
“What did you do last night?”
“Not much
just drove around delivering pizzas, listening to oldies”
Alright Friday night
Time to get it on
*activates dash
“This is the end” is one of the funniest movies I’ve ever seen
It was the only movie I saw two times in three days with my best bud
Hard to beat a 75° day in the middle of November
I don’t think I’ll ever stop getting anxious when the food is late being prepared
No matter how little it actually effects me
Nothing like writing some amazing shit while delivering pizzas am I right?
If you want to be sexy you gotta do the least sexy work
*eats tuna & crackers
Hours of the day: 3
Sheets of crackers eaten: 3
Happiness PRs: 1
almost always you will find some suspicious herbal beverages on my kitchen counter
I’d rather cruise at the back of the line then speed at the front of it
INTERESTING PERSPECTIVES PT 1
If you’ve spent more time in the church basement than in the auditorium, then you’ll understand a lot of this shit I write
I know I ain’t a Jesus
I’m just saying to put my name down if there’s a sign up sheet for training
One version of Heaven is just guilt free Molly
Meaning Molly with no come down and no crash and also that’s widely and freely available
Ultimate separation can be the greatest vantage point of the Devine
Meaning the most beautiful bird on earth cannot see itself
But the ass hat with the camera phone can appreciate the hell out of it
You know when you get near the end of your stash
and there’s not enough left for two servings, but there’s enough for one super awesome one
That’s me right now at 3:13 AM on a Monday living my best life
I think writers are allowed to smoke without getting cancer
Because the role is so fucked that the gods decided to have a little mercy
Also, because if anyone can deal with the stress of writing,
they can handle their nicotine
My transition into being an artist has been in reverse
Cause I never even thought about it until 13 years into the game and I had to deprogram all the bullshit corporate sales stuff out of me
Weird vibe when you’re watching a opioid epidemic documentary while signing up with a psychedelic church
Pretty weird when the girl you lost your V to is in the same gym as you after 17 years
With her husband lol
Nothing like an a delightful lil buz at 8:48am on a Sunday in November
I know I’ve said it before but
I love when previously obscure actors get big roles
Driving a Prius to work at McDonald’s was a special kind of humble pie
I fucked up started thinking about how shitty some people are and got myself all upset
Groceries?
cat treats
Cat food
Cookies
Water
Crackers
Tuna
Bread
PButter
Jam
Blueberries
Body wash
Toothbrush
Floss
The fact that I hyper focus on anything historical is further evidence that my spirit is old as fuck and trying to recapture what it used to know
Door dashing during Christmas time is actually pretty fucking cool
I say it’s better to buy the shoes now when you’re young and dumb so you can learn how they don’t make up who you are sooner rather than later
Strangling strangers in a strip mall is something like no other
assholes have never done Molly and don’t know what it feels like to not be a dick
Don’t mind me walking down the street with my bag of chicken, coffee, and smile
I look a lot now like I did when I was around 16 adjusting for the hairstyle change
But from the ages of 18 to 20, I was some other kind of ugly creature
I just think that if more people had a few more overwhelming moments of bliss. It would change what they consider pain
Happy 9:33 PM
Time to smoke watch a World War II documentary and contemplate everything I’ve ever been taught
Shit starts getting kind of weird when you start realizing that the mind is the body and the body is the mind and the world is the mind and that means the world is also the body so we’re the body of the world in the mind,
Or some shit like that
You see what I mean ?
The proof that I am not fat in this lifetime is evidence of karma
I can tell by a mfers kneecaps if they need help or not
It’s funny how we can romanticize anything
Even becoming addicted to snorting through a straw
I believe that being a bitch about secondhand smoke is more dangerous than secondhand smoke, and I assert my childhood as evidence
If you have a lot to clean, split it up into two days
On day one just do it once over - getting the biggest & grossest stuff from as many different places as you can
And then on day two, with the knowledge of what you actually really need to focus on, but with less stress of the unknown,
break the project into three sections and tackle accordingly
I feel like everything is just a cycle of rediscovering infinity
Then hitting redo to see if you can beat the last high score
Remembering the few times I went to the strip club
directly after AA meetings
With all the people from the meeting
Every now and then I’ll get really weird flashbacks
Like I just had one about showing some cookie cutter house to Some unappreciative family
The one good thing about working real estate during the housing crisis is that it limited the amount of houses I could deal with because the inventory was so shot
So most of the time when we would pull up to our house, we’d already know if we’re gonna bid on it
I’d even have the offer already ready
So that limited how many houses we had to waste time seeing
I am happy to report that I never abused my position of authority
And being a young fit 20 something working at the most popular and highest attrition sales center in the southeast of Charlotte
That is saying something
I am happy to report that I never abused my position of authority
And being a young fit 20 something working at the most popular and highest attrition sales center in the southeast of Charlotte
That is saying something
Honestly, me and Alex are probably so jaded with the spirits at this point so it’s probably some kind of outside joke.
You know, outside the body of the space time continuum
Fuck it, bro. I’m leaving the Rick and Morty cut off on tonight.
But I am changing back into my dash pants
I cringe every time I see a plant based burger
Unfortunately, I don’t have that many friends anymore because I can’t hang out with stupid ignorant, sell out bitches who would rather do the whole weekend warrior shit then get up early and work late each day
I love deliveries in my own neighborhood because it feels like an easy way to serve my community and capitalize at the same time
Remember how this one agent,
though she was like seven years older than me,
I would’ve considered a more of a friend than anything
Then I switched businesses
Then She switched her game up
And seduced me (I obv was weak & willing)
And well, that was the closest to anything to a fling if you know what I’m saying
But it was gravy cuz we were mature adults and had switched jobs by the time of…. Insertion
Oh shit, I think the mushrooms are here!!!
That or somebody mailed me a bomb
a very light bomb
Hi, my name is Jarrett. I like to growl after I burp for no fucking reason.
Grrrrr 🐯
As a philosopher, my favorite shift is always “the next one”
As a philosopher, my goal is always “a little more than last“
Wasn’t until I got older that I realized most people have never actually been tackled before
Or had really any physical altercation
To think aliens would be interested in our planetary biology is adorable
They are obviously gonna be far more interested in the way we treat each other in the way we handle our emotions
I mean, there are Komodo dragons that go around eating cute koalas, and shit
Do you really think there’s no spiritual equivalent?
You know shit’s about to get real whenever a motherfuckers like
“have you heard about this”
and then pulls out their reading glasses 🤓
My behavior honestly could be best described as an arrogant ass pilot with amnesia
I’m just grateful that I’m actually in a position where I don’t have to do anything right now
But I am all too aware of what it feels like to be forced to have to get off the couch when all you wanna do is die
Imagine being hold up in a cave only to be discovered and immediately paraded out in front of the entire world
Happy 5:46 AM
I’m rummaging through the kitchen, looking for sweets like a suburban blackbear
True strength is not pulling a trigger
It is pulling through a full blown traumatic panic attack without lashing out sideways
Hear me out
Born in 1910
Don’t really know what happened between here and the great war
But “taught flying” in Britain and God knows what else
Would go onto master all kinds of arts, such as music photography engineering
Would also live second half of life as functioning alcoholic, who probably was pretty uptight, bad with money, and emotionally walled off
Dies in 1985
Reborn 1994
-Dad is a shit bird because of the way I probably treated my daughter in last life
-So I inherited genetically a physically gifted, but emotionally compromised meat suit
-Combined with my natural, spiritual intuition and tendencies
-Being an only child surrounded by Fuckery
-But with plenty of technical resources to do homework and learn personal skills
-Would work as a sales coach and trainer for a decade
-Profession combined with psychology allowed for opportunities to mirror previous patterns
-Literally addicted to training cause it’s all I’ve ever known
Extreme butter is better than the movie theater butter
I said it
Bruh how the fuck have I eaten near 3600 cals today
4 chicken bacon tendies 800
9 DBL Oreo 450
2 Tuna 400
Crackers 800
PB&J 450
Eggs 500
And I’m in a deficit Esq
Or slightly below maintenance
That’s 27 double stuffed Oreos within 12 hours
Amateur numbers, but still counts
“ God, please help me digest all that bullshit. I just ate.”
-my most common prayer
Imagine stressing about living forever when the key to live forever is to not stress about living forever
I do believe it is possible to be sad with a good attitude
It just takes elite character
My 3am meal:
-4 baked chicken strips wrapped with bacon
-9 double stuffed off brand Oreos
Not listed:
-1 big ass sludge shot
-A few hits
My problem is that I don’t actually like social media, but I need it to share art so I’m trying to make sure that I can control it and it doesn’t consume me
I’ve sponsored enough fuck boys to know what they’re really thinking
This last year has been so mentally draining
The year before that was so emotionally draining
The year before that was so physically
The year before that was a third of everything
Death seems a lot easier than actually having to man up and own all your shit
I guarantee that if you did nothing for 24 hours except sit patient and quietly and respectfully waited for signs of spirits and or high strangeness, you would experience something that you simply cannot explain
But almost nobody has actually sat in a quiet spiritual stakeout with the proper intentions before
So now that everyone skipped work and school to avoid being deported last week,
What do we do when they come back to work ?
How are we supposed to act?
The skill of Being able to show up at a random motherfucker‘s house & convince him to give me 20 grand for something as boring as a roof has got to count for something
Them overnight shifts at McDonald’s in the dead of winter in the most pretentious part of town Was only fun because the year prior I was incarcerated in a very sketchy behavior health “rehabilitation center” in the middle of the Tennessee mountains in the dead of winter
Crazy that was 12/13 years ago
Imagine not knowing what happens when you die
and having to compete with those who actually do
lol good luck
If you read the book of Revelation carefully, it sounds like people trying to warn some people that what you see is a trap and that if you see things through- things are gonna be really good, but if you don’t, it’s gonna be really bad
Eventually, every soul must endure every type of challenge in order to “level up”
If I had a dollar for every time I’ve seen someone nearly knock themselves out at planet fitness…
The only reason why a “alien“ would look any different than a human would be for lols
Imagine how much shit we can get done if we just stopped worrying about if or if there’s not a God,
& start focusing on what we’re gonna do on our next incarnation when we have to eat the tail
The entire point of all the political drama is to manipulate and expose those dumb enough to fall for it
And on behalf of the more wise, silent, and balanced,
we are grateful for the diversion
I do believe addiction is the hardest spiritual challenge.
It is the most sinister consciousness virus.
It can manifest in many forms but Always chooses the most cunning form possible.
It is the one demon that can truly highjack your own agency and primarily target those closest to you.
It forces development of higher spiritual faculties to defeat.
The reward is a level of Godlike psychological freedom,
the penalty is the destruction of everything that you and those around you love
So I’m pretty sure that all the ancients did all their stonework with their minds
Because the only reason why you would use the heaviest and hardest stones is to make a point that it ain’t shit to a God
But in order to get that ability, I think it was essentially unlocked in the equivalent of a scientific/spiritual unfoldment process
There really is no other explanation in light of divinity
If you need help, figuring out what to watch then just go to the list of things that are about to be taken away
The urgency aids the decision-making process honestly $
Don’t worry, I’ve got my Blanky and I’m partially bundled up ready to brave the cold 63°
Imagine letting a psy-op ruin your relationship and finding out about it later
Imagine gossiping like a cackling crow about something you have no idea about 🐦⬛
Imagine having to review all those stupid, angry tweets, and statuses in front of the holiest of holy
Thinking about the second sandwich already and how good the first one was
I’m just wondering if I even have a choice
But if I can wait a bit, then the second sandwich would likely to be even better
Decisions, decisions
Happy 4:32 AM
Forgot to note my dinner
I had one can of tuna and one sleeve of crackers lol
Stats:
35g protein
130g carbs
10g fat
750ish cal
If the walls were recording me, then it would just be a lot of monotone notes
That look exactly like what you are reading
But that would save me a lot of time cleaning up after this voice to text bullshit
The more sophisticated someone thinks they are- the more likely they are to be fascinated with something small, dumb, & common, but disguised as rare
I love video games
just nowhere near as much as I love resistance games
True pain is when the kitty is all comfortable on top of the blanket between your blanket but you have to get up to get your pre-workout because it’s 11:35 AM and you haven’t seen the light of day yet and when you go to move the kitty jumps and runs away despite your best efforts not waking him
The ego is the workman
The Layman, the builder, mindless repetition
It is who you think you are
But there has to be a builder of the ego
By my calculations, I would’ve been finishing up by civil war lifetime around the time James Garfield was shot
I hate to say it, but I’ve got a feeling I fought for the confederacy
INTERESTING PERSPECTIVES PT 2
Kind of weird that bravery is more correlated with stupidity
And intelligence is correlated with anxiety
A bad job will have you mastering every second of every minute of every hour on your break
They should be legally required to post the AI script they use on these stupid pharmaceutical ads
People act real tough til that credit check comes back…
Humans are the only beings that kill themselves
The only downside to believing in a God is the accidental over assumption that it’ll do the work for you
Sometimes you have to lose your freedom to find it
Not many people have danced in their living room for no reason and it shows
Fear will make anyone capable of evil
Most people have never been to a homeless shelter on Thanksgiving or Christmas
Actually, most people have never been to one ever
Bananas are one of the most functional snacks for several reasons
But you just cannot eat them around men
Motivation comes in many forms
Having a “child” is the most frightening
Those who abuse their power do so only because they don’t believe in anything more powerful than themselves
Never forget how many people are killing themselves right now just to wear a different T-shirt
Or to get a compliment from the barista who never notices them
Death is a gift to those who are ashamed of themselves
Most dudes think you’re talking about call of duty when you bring up takin an inventory
Only those who don’t really care about you will cosign your excuses
If they haven’t taken the time to be alone, they’ll take from others until they are alone
It’s honestly more sad than inspiring the lengths that people will go to try to find true love
Most will go to the end of the earth for some BS,
But will not go halfway to meet someone in the middle
Ain’t nothing more ironic than watching a sick and disabled person struggle to climb out of their sports car
The ego‘s favorite move is holding onto shit
An honest but tumultuous relationship is better than a quiet disingenuous one
Hard to believe there’s a Devine being buried behind all the body fat but there is
There must be….
Most mental health disorders can be intermittently overcome given a certain situation, but can be extremely painful to live with during leisure because there is no such thing
Hell is watching PTSD and trauma destroy your relationship while you take the blame for it
Remember that most games get boring if you get too good at them
Social media is emotionally addicting in the same way people get physically addicted to cutting themselves
If you make someone suck it up in silence long enough,
they’ll find a way to perform at their job until they just randomly off themselves one day
Nothing more sad than a group of dudes at a strip club
Friendly reminder that we lose about double to suicide than to the enemy
Nothing burns like desire
Nothing
Building muscle mass is way easier than building a spiritual foundation
I imagine the afterlife is just the knowingness of what you did or did not do
Pretty scary when you’re sitting at the light and you see people going through the intersection blatantly reading from their phone while driving
Ask anyone who’s gone through a year in hell that sometimes the greatest accomplishment fitness wise is maintaining and not giving it away or losing it to stress
Video games are a lot more fun when you don’t feel like a guilty piece of shit
Benching 225 is not the heaviest thing you will get off your chest
There is never a scenario where weakness is an asset
most cannot wrap their feeble minds around the concept that we are building something that transcends multiple lifetimes
“Eternal hellfire and damnation”
is just being roasted for being a baby back bitch and having no way out of it
Jail is one thing
The Looney bin is something completely different
If you’re too afraid to cry in front of people, then you have a lot of work to do
(doesn’t mean you actually need to cry though)
If you are too afraid to appear weak, then you are pretty weak to begin with
Military friends love to wait until you die so they can bang your wife
A good treat is better in theory then in practice
SAD BUT TRUE
You can start most good philosophical rants with the phrase “it seems to me“
Awareness can’t be destroyed
Just placed in different time loops
Levels of consciousness:
Lucifer
Profane
Activist
Amateur
Athlete
Artist
Adept
Alchemist / magi
Joker / Jesus
Officially Non-human / diety
Levels of psychedelic experience
levitate
Cross country Flight
Trip to the moon
Visit to mars
Shot out into space
Simply ineffable
Most people inside the church believe in demons
It’s just sad that many demons are actually inside the church
Can’t spell association without ass and CIA
If someone reacts negatively to your good deed, it’s because you reminded them that they missed an opportunity to do the same