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8-2-26

82

today reminds me that my grandfather was with the 82nd fighter squad during WWII $

If you trace the reincarnation cycle back, you’ll realize that most of the millennials would’ve likely been part of the “world’s greatest generation”
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And it doesn’t take a detective to determine that clearly this heroic generation has been sabotaged from the second they started soaking in the womb $$$*

Did you know that the average first time homebuyer age is now up to 40 years old? $$$

It is getting more and more difficult every day to simply do the same things that were so easily available for the boomers & Generation X $$$

Any path to prosperity is now booby trapped $$*

AnyWho, “happy” 2:20 AM lol $

Pretty normal morning so far, you can see $

Bombing is a crazy concept
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Like I’m just gonna go ahead and get really high above you and drop something on you that is going to really wreck your shit
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Only way to stop me is to get up here and shoot me down $$

I’m all for forgiveness and letting shit go, but I’m really getting suspicious that if we don’t do something to stop the crazy fuckers in power, that they’re just going to continue the cycle $$$

I mean, if the boomer (& similar) generation is seriously the one to completely get corrupted by evil and sacrifice the economy and a large portion of children to Satan, then they must be stopped $$$*

Only those who are truly sick within themselves would require you to pay them just to exist in peace $$$***

This country is clearly run by those who have never actually had to fight themselves $$

I believe it’s a spiritual test
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For them, their failure will condemn them for many different lifetimes
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For us, we will learn patience to a degree that is priceless $$$

They will be forced to be on the receiving end of every single crazy piece of propaganda They wanted to push either out if negligence or evil $$$

Any group that is comfortable with watching their veterans just kill themselves right and left is corrupted to the maximum degree $$$***

few things more shameful than having to admit that you decided you wanted to believe that you were a monkey because the science made you feel special
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And even though you believe everything is one big accident, it has Made you feel as if you somehow earned what you have $$$***
 
Imagine having to exist for eternity, knowing how much of a fearful self-centered weak piece of energy that you truly are $$$

picture the softest doughiest uneven receding hairline dad bod who is actively whining and complaining because their food is five minutes late $$$*

I see that archetype multiple times every day lol $$

Yesterday I witnessed a grown ass man yelp like a child when he was almost skipped in line to pick up a pizza 🍕 $$

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And then I had to just smile through the cringe when he instantaneously realized just how childish he was being in front of the whole store $$

And then these people have the audacity to put more pressure on you to reassure them that everything is OK after they do something self-centered and shallow
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Mostly because they have been conditioned by whatever weak human pathogen has enabled this behavior $$

I must report for the record that I do have a nice big block of cheese
This is classic asiago $

AnyWho
Just thinking back to my first year personal training full-time, I was working at two different gyms,
Across town from one another course
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I was also doing real estate on the side
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And I made more $$$ from one real estate transaction for a new construction home that I literally did zero work for,
 than I did from either of those gyms $$

And I don’t ever really even think about that hollow check
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But not a day does not go by that I am not extremely grateful for my indentured servitude those days lol $$

That one transaction was likely more than I made all last year actually 😂 $$

I challenge everyone~
See how little you can spend in a year $$$

And ,
See how much time you can maximize with yourself $$$

But I don’t recommend spending too much time alone beyond a year lol $$$

Which is exactly why it is time I come out of the cave for good $$

It is now 2:57 AM
Perfect time to finish a cigarette $

If you just talk like you are talking to your future self, then it’s pretty easy to be emotionally considerate
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Technically speaking, we’re all gonna be morphing together somehow someway at some point again anyway, so this just helps make it smoother $$

There is no such thing as a fat activist
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But there are plenty of activists with a lot of unused fuel ⛽️ $$$*

And there’s no such thing as a fit profane 
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Just plenty of built up bullshit dark energy $$$*

If you wanna understand dark energy, then just think about what you are most angry at and pause to notice how much sudden energy you have
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Extrapolate this out through ritualistic, action and sacrifice, 
and that anger becomes your state of existence $$

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And let’s just assume you contain this anger in a passive, aggressive, compartmentalized fashion,
At first, you will start out pretty powerful
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All those invisible leeches have yet to degrade your energetic life force
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So you go around stepping on the toes of others, supercharging your own bullshit secretly, until you need to take it up a notch just to feel anything at all $$

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And the cycle just perpetuates deeper and darker until all you have is a mountain of pain and suffering to clean up $$$

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The only way to heal is to understand the truth
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The only way to understand the truth is to understand suffering
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The only true form of suffering that exists is always self-inflicted or self constructed
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So this is basically how you end up with bitch ass ghosts,
Which are just orbs of sadness and regret that are too fearful to begin the karmic cleanup process $$$***

We all eat crow at some point,
Some only need a sample
Others seem to need a buffet $$

Lol, thanks for letting me share $

This is the same kind of shit that I have always been saying at 3:03 AM,
Whether it’s at the smoking gazebo outside the sales center,
Or the smoking gazebo outside some random church basement,
Or the Smokey back porch of some suburban kickback $$

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No matter what,
No matter where,
Bitchassness beware $$$

Happy 8:22 AM
Time to go on a rainy morning Sunday walk $

“Wow how did you know it was going to rain?”
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“My hair told me” $$

Getting to know my own hair has been a lot like getting to know a wild animal 🦔 $$

If you don’t do a little skirt skirt when dashing, then you’re not trying hard enough $$$

Those who do not know how to flick their blinker, clearly do not know the importance of flicking some other things in life.. $$$

If the forces of evil really wanted to destroy me, 
then all they would’ve had to do is give me everything I thought I wanted when I was 18.
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Jokes on them!though, they decided they had to troll me long enough for me to realize the error of my own idiotic ways
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And now I’ve learned all their techniques $$

Resentful bitches in power simply disguise wars of revenge as “economic opportunities for equality” 🟰 $$$***

Complaining and negativity are more dangerous than actual poison ☠️ $$***

Eating with your hood up in a McDonald’s is max level sketch $$

lol happy 1:11pm from the corner booth 
Trying to work up a lil cassshhhh $

Currently Watching someone have a meltdown cuz they didn’t get any onions on their burger
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Which tbh I understand the frustration over something so small
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She literally caught the kitchen in the act of forgetting them a second time
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Weird cuz she was in the right but ….
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..
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Well,
This just got extra awkward 
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She fucking knew me lol
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she sat down and said hello on the way out
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I Think she was drunk tho.. 
explains the attitude  
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lol but yea just had a lil catch up session 
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So freaking weird
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Actually kinda having a little moment now 
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Hard to describe 
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Guess it’s cuz I would much rather be the kind of guy the ratchets call a friend then the kind of guy call these people an enemy $$

The fact that I am most comfortable in a sticky, stinky, corner booth at the greesy McDonald’s in the middle of my half ratchet hometown is a gift I would have never been able to dream of $$

Happy 1:23pm $

If you are comfortable in the shit, you will never have to squirm like a bitch $$*

The only actual godlike person, is the one who the sick & vulnerable feel most comfortable with $$****

The Pizza Hut logo looks like a UFO silhouette 🛸 $$

Something about burying myself with all kinds of papers while planning an attack seems so much fun… $$

Just delivered three big ass pizzas next to a little farm pond where I caught a big ass bass at one time $

Four years divided into thirds is 12 phases $$

Self inflicted trauma is more common than trauma from an actual dickhead $$***

Reinforcing a negative and harsh judgmental pathway within yourself is just as damaging as having somebody else tell you something fucked up $$$*

A game with no rules is technically nonexistent $$*

Last week I tried watching “freedom writers”
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This week I’m watching “old Henry“ &

(This week, “the devil in all”)

Retirement was just a joke that the good old boys used to say to each other until some bitch boys liked the sound of never having to work again and started taking it too seriously $$$***

I probably would just assume that my grandfather‘s were my spirit guides if I didn’t get this bizarre strange nostalgic feeling whenever I go to build something or kill something lol $$

Whenever I adjust my glasses or pick up a firearm, feels about the same emotionally lol $$

Air-conditioning and climate control I swear, fuck with nostalgia recall
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Because obviously that shit wouldn’t have been around back then so anytime you’re in it now, it throws off the recall pathways $$

I’m willing to bet spanking is much better than saying some passive aggressive shit
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Or avoiding it altogether forever $$$***

Competence is confidence $$

Happy 5:05 PM
Happy to report an amazing bowl of eggs for the first time in a couple weeks. I will confess that I needed a break. I think I’m ready to get back on full-time. $

Happy 5:43 PM
The block of Parmesan cheese is now deceased too $

The movie “old Henry” was actually pretty good
Definitely recommend if you’re looking for an old cliché western with a nice twist $

New goal,
Every day that I think is obscure and meaningless, I will deliberately make sure to treat it otherwise $$$

Even if I do not have some special synchronistic anniversary or there’s no secret code within the date, 
I will treat it as if it is the most spectacular & spontaneous amazing day ever $$

*pours shot $

What would be a good punishment for the people who started World War I?
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Probably Vietnam $$$*

It is now 7:15 PM
Just did an hour on the floor with no stimulation
Pretty sweet and pretty boring, but at least I did it
Basically, the opposite of exercise, lol $

*Lighter flick $

We have a nice little storm rolling in.
Something about that and the western movie inspired me to take a shot of whiskey 🥃 $

The whiskey hits way different than the vodka I’ll tell you that $$

The right person could sit on your face and it could be a compliment $$**

Go ahead and add another PB&J to the scoreboard
Happy 10:58pm lol $


———
Fuckery
- housing & how that age for a first time ownership is now 40 years old
- Is silent war against this family household

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2 PB&J- 1000
Oats- 500
berries- 300 3
Eggs- 800 4
Cheese- 600 5
Pepperoni - 800 3
=4000
= 15+ 2
Hot sauce 3
Creatine 20
Water 2
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- last week edits
- 2 week highlights
- 3 week Soc selection 
- 3 month week review wall select
- 6 month read

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8-3-26

83

What’s good? $

Happy 2:06 AM $

*Lighter flick $

Fuck Fauci $$$

Y’all realize that not only did he get rich by lying to everybody,
But he had a major part in starting everything to begin with $$$

Basically everything he said was a lie
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And then they tried to poison you further with BS vaccines $$$

They already pardoned him and most people didn’t even blink $$$

Please explain to me how the government can be trusted $$$

Never trust a girl who starts with heavy hip thrusts with no warm up $$$***

Happy 11:46 AM $

Happy to report an amazing morning so far,
Had a nice workout,
Get some work at the library,
Even Delivered a couple chicken biscuits $

time to find a way to get the laundry done lol $

Happy to report a normal lunch for the first time in a while
All berry oatmeal +5 eggs
Happy 12:20 $

Winning is the greatest feeling in the world
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It is a feeling of strength and righteousness,
It is of ultimate power
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There are many different ways to cultivate this feeling
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The most honest and true, are to create a large hierarchies based on merit and action,
But the quickest and easiest is to make somebody else feel bad because it briefly provides a false sense of power
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It is fool’s gold, but it is still shiny and interesting $$*

DoorDash feels an awful lot like dingdong ditch
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Which I was a professional at, even as a child lol $$

Scoring a McDonald’s dash while on the way to do laundry is about as miraculous as it gets when you’re in the starving artist phase lol $

Happy 2:06pm from the laundromat 
Trying a new detergent TQ
Wish me luck $

Happy 2:53 PM
Everything went great, and the clothes are now drying $

The secret to life is just getting your ass whooped by small techniques in every single area until eventually you learn them all $$*

Come to think of it, I don’t think I give myself enough credit for balancing everything with this DoorDash bullshit
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And I don’t think most people understand the difficulty
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It’s not that taking a cheeseburger to someone’s back door is all that hard,
It is the timing and the management of the offers that is difficult.
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DoorDash is constantly trying to skip and will manipulate the offer price based on demand and how many Dashers are available
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Additionally, the client is usually extra wishy-washy when it comes down to when they’re ordering due to price and economy and all of that jazz
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When things are busy, it is pretty easy as long as you have the energy,
But when it is slow, and you never know when or where the next offer is going to come from, it is very difficult
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And as mentioned, DoorDash is always trying to save money whenever they can so half the time you end up completing a repeat delivery for less money
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They will also try to convince you to take the shittiest & furthest offer,
So if you end up accepting it then your taking one pizza 13mi across town for 3$ $$

“Just take this plank of wood and see how many different ways you can spend it with your feet”
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Me when planning my childhood $$

I am 100% willing to bet that I have the best drop off pictures in the game $$

Happy 3:38 PM
Posted up at the gas station trying to get lucky $

God is just a quantum algorithm that guarantees energy production $$

Patience is the biggest problem in all of existence because if everybody could wait for what they wanted, we wouldn’t have any issues $$$***

The best way to describe making the resistance games, is like a homework assignment that is actively trying to kill you for reasons that are very mysterious $$

It is 5:48 PM just stopping by to ask for a little dinner. Thanks for letting me share lol $

Considering how immature everybody is these days, I think it is only fair that I am now able to count my childhood as philosopher training $$

When in doubt just go 47 mph,
If that’s technically speeding, then the cops gonna feel like a dick when he has to write that number down $$

Fat people hate me most of the time but are probably pretty relieved whenever I’m delivering their food because of how fast I am thanks to my fitness $

Happy 7:52 PM $

Boy, I am a bit humbled in a good way
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I was digging into a bunch of FAQs and a bunch of different forums on Reddit…
And oh my God, am I grateful
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The one downside of isolating in a cave is that you lose perspective on the reality of what people are really struggling with
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And with Fitness, it is clearly the smallest stupidest tiniest details
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But I’m not trying to shame because I once struggled with them all myself
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I’m only addicted to exercise now because of how much fulfillment it brings by remembering how much shit I had to overcome $$

But Jesus, man, do these people have no shame with asking these questions
It’s not that the questions are all that bad. It’s just that it reveals the motives of the person asking it and that is just disturbing.
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I can only handle so many people asking how to make their butt look bigger $$

*Clears throat $

Happy 8:35 PM
This is the most beautiful sunset,
Blue orange and pink $

I am out of cigarettes and cash, but I do have a block of cheese
So I’m munching on that currently after smashing a pretty decent sandwich $

Shout out to the lion,
They have these really nice Italian subs for four dollars that are premade,
About 1000 cal
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They also have a stash and mayonnaise and mustard that I raid pretty much every day lol $$

We got a lot of review done and will be posting a lot FAQ and what not soon
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Dashing was super slow besides one pizza delivery for $9.33 $

I don’t know if I said it enough,
The love and gratitude and self satisfaction that I have is worth every moment of madness and unexpected bullshit $$$

I can’t even keep the lights on, but I can’t be turned down if you know what I’m saying $$*
 
I certainly have my moments,
I don’t hide from them,
I welcome them because they make for great content apparently $$

Listening to some of these podcasts with these major creators, talking about how they discovered the benefit of alcohol and other substances after success, just reinforces my gratitude for the insane path I’ve had in my life $

I honestly truly don’t give two fucks about “riches” or even wealth above a certain line
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I just need enough to get by without the scrambling jeopardizing the work $

But I remind myself constantly,
If I can’t do it under these circumstances, then I haven’t mastered shit
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But if I can not only create and compete, but maintain a level of happiness that shits on anything I ever had with the big house & the Mercedes, 
I will probably accumulate wealth beyond what I know what to do with $*

I just believe I have now been trained to know what to do with it $

Cough, cough, community gym, cough cough $

There is no amount of money worth even a year of clear, clean, true sobriety $$$*

Most casuals can’t even do it
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But those who actually need to, find that it is next to impossible $$

Then go ahead and stack on exercising daily $


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Fuckery:
- pretty much anything to do with marijuana legalization
- Iran everything mostly thanks to Israel 
- This weird lettuce food poisoning shit “sweeping the country”

PB&J x 2
Eggs
Berries 
Cheese

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8-4-26

84

*Tink tink $

*finger lick $

*lighter flick $

Good morning world
It is 4:11 AM
It is Tuesday $

I was once born on a Tuesday lol
(Just not last Tuesday)
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That faithful day on June 7, 1994
The day the world changed forever $$

Did you know in addition to my existence beginning on that day, O.J. Simpson was doing his iconic car Chase? $$

Did you know that O.J. Simpson is innocent?
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That’s what the court said $$

I think that trial was part of the beginning of this new wave of propaganda to see how stupid people could really be $$

It had to start out somewhat sophisticated,
But then it just degraded quickly and stopped being funny $$

I heard that O.J. Simpson was doing a lot of different hand exercises before that iconic “glove doesn’t fit moment“ $$

Would it be ironic that he got acquitted because of hand hypertrophy? $$

And there we have it, ladies and gentlemen,
I have officially connected it back lol $$

*Tucker Carlson laughing like a hyena in the background $$

Cannabis is far more effective the closer you are to 420
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A.m. or p.m. doesn’t really matter as much 
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although I tend to think that it’s a little stronger in the morning $$

God made cannabis right after he made the concept of comedy because he realized the benefit of having good PEDs $$*

*lighter flick $

A true philosopher has calluses on his knuckles and the tips of his thumbs $$$*

I respect sobriety tremendously
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More so the forced sobriety that comes after a long period of experimentation and debauchery
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Less so, those who simply sworn off out the gate, but likely have a very good reason
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But the value that can be found with proper altered states of consciousness cannot be overstated $$

And is quite clear that the human body was designed to party
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It is quite clear that there are many different plants and fungi that are designed to aid in this too $$

And if we’re gonna be honest, thats what the whole garden of Eden “tree of knowledge” shit was about $$*

Once the serpent representing wisdom convinced the curious consciousness to take something to become self-aware, 
this creature started to trip out because then it realized it actually had a lot of responsibilities if it wanted to grow up $$$*

There is humble shock that comes the first time you really realize that you don’t know Jack shit $$$

And if you don’t have some kind of foundational faith to support this realization, then you are likely to descend to the dark side because the fear of death will consume you $$$*

It’s hard to party if you’re afraid of dying,
It’s hard to party if you feel poisoned all the time too $$

& Sadly, Those who found it hard to party with other others, found it easier to poison them instead $$***

If you have a guide through the wilderness, then the experience of overcoming the fear of death becomes the crowning achievement of this struggling creature

You can almost think of primordial Adam and Eve as the conscious equivalent of cats and dogs
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They are aware of shit, but they’re not logically intelligent to where they actually self depreciate $$*

But even if you were to follow the evolution logic, then at some point an organism has to become self-aware
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that is synonymous with realizing death 
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And there is a long windy Road from the moment of realizing death is a thing to realizing that eternal continuous existence is also a thing $$*

It requires tremendous maturity to fully appreciate because it requires ego death $$

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What continues to exist is not what is here incarnate in a meat suit,
And the more attached one gets to material shit, the harder this gets to admit and the harder it is to let shit go $$$

All the technology in the world will never be able to replace the experience of going all in on something
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True sacrifice $$$*

Sacrifice doesn’t really mean shit if it doesn’t bring a little bit of suffering with it
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That’s what makes it meaningful $$

Anything worth having is directly proportional to the amount of work and effort put into building it $$$*

Fearing the poison is worse than drinking it $$$*

(Just ask Socrates)

Pretty easy to tell which souls did all of the work back then too lol $$

Happy 12:58 PM $

I am having a great day so far
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I am excited to report that I am at the part to where a seemingly simple task is now extrapolated out into about nine different, smaller & manageable, but still tedious tasks 
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Which means that everything is going according to schedule lol $

Humor is the result of acceptance
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Acceptance is the result of humility
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Humility is the result of open mindedness
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Therefore,
Open-mindedness is the secret to humor $$**

Just imagine the recompense if everybody got super jacked
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Imagine the fear in the physicians eyes when his patient start coming in with a four figure raw total $$$*

You’ll watch the enthusiasm drain from their eyes just like their profit potential $$$*

There is nothing more powerful than a good attitude
Mostly because it is the most infectious $$$

You could argue the same about a bad attitude, but a bad attitude vaporizes in the presence of goodness $$

Atheists believe that basically a giant accidental algorithm arranges everything
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Christians believe that basically a giant intentional algorithm arranges everything 
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Seems pretty balanced to me $$*

I say it is healthier to eat the poison with the fellow soldiers 
than it is just spiritually isolate yourself and pretend you were too good for it to begin with $$$***

And on that last note as of 1:53 PM, I have finished another bag of jalapeño potato chips lol $

Can’t let good poison go to waste $$$

You cannot call yourself a philosopher if you think humanity is the equivalent of a worm 🪱 $$$

The whole argument that aliens are so advanced & are treating us like ants is just stupid and not founded in mathematics $$$*

If you literally go back to square one, 
you will find the human form is the only one that is divinely constructed to house a social animal to such a developmental degree
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While an ant is constructed to build tunnels in dirt $$

(lol okay to be fair, I can see the symbolism)

If aliens were truly that advanced, then i guarantee had a role in building us
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So for you to call humanity an “ant” equivalent is just disrespectful $$$

Those who do not understand the dignity of the human body are the first to think It is some kind of accident that we are shaped the way we are. $$***

If the greatest thing you could do is have a family, that means everything has evolved to complement this purpose
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And if the best form to foster a family is our current hairless, by pedal, opposable thumb wiggling, vocal cord vibrating humunculi, then there’s a reason
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A very specific intentional reason $$

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So why would other biological aliens look like giant arachnids?
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Is that the ideal & ultimate vehicle for the expression of love?
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Does that form make it better to do mind and mood altering drugs? $$$*

Is it more likely that all the alien shit is some CIA evil propaganda bullshit pioneered by a corrupted government convicted on keeping you prisoner? $$$*

Or that a giant praying mantis wants you to pray to them and would simply spiritually eat you if you don’t? $$$*

But they actually don’t really want you to believe in them,
 so they can eat you karma free, 
which is why they littered the propaganda everywhere $$**

(lol back to regular programming)

Most people don’t realize just how expensive it really is to remove that little pooch or abdomen
…
If you wanna buy personal training to try to get rid of belly fat then you’re looking at at least six months at at least $600 a month
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If you go to the surgery route, you’re looking at six grand with a six week minimum recovery time and a ton of sloppy stretch marks
…
But I’m really just talking about the cost of going around being the kind of person that bitches that much about your waistline cuz nobody wants to be around that kind of person $$$

Happy 4:57pm from the lions den
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Currently eating cheez-itz on the trauma couch $

(Moms house)

Bozo the clown is really too smooth for his own good $$

My whole house smells like sweat lol $

Nobody likes the feeling of being ripped off or played for a fool
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So the creators of DoorDash are gonna have a pretty difficult life review lol $$$*

It’s actually pretty incredible just how many Cheez-Its I’ve alchemized in my life
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It used to be my go to snack before hitting the gym at the office whenever I worked super late $

(Shout out to the vending machine)

Getting your macros in when you’re working till 1 AM is a proper suburban challenge $$$

Guess who’s getting to learn more patience rn?!? $

That’s right !
It’s me 😊 
As always
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I’m not sure what I did to earn all of these opportunities to practice patience but I AM SO HAPPY ABOUT IT FOR SURE $

Genuine, true clinical depression is as close as it actually gets to being a legitimate victim 
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If your literal ability to feel good is broken that just makes shit extra fucked up $$

(obviously excluding the legitimate victims from evil fuck sticks, but that’s a different tangent)

“Certainty” is the only thing that actually turns off that annoying ass part of your brain
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And because “certainty” is essentially mythical, it can only be believed or determined individual
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Which is why so many people would rather be right than be happy because it does provide some sense of “certainty” which briefly turns off the annoying, nagging, incessant prison guard operator system in the back of the brain 🧠 $$*

It is 8 PM on the dot and I must confess that I feel like absolute dog shit
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It has to be something in the air because it started right after I left my mom’s house $

I was happy to help her with some chores and the visit was uneventful even though I had to lie through my teeth the entire time just to keep her from losing her shit $

I was able to get a somewhat decent dash but then struck out getting another rebound
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Second night in a row sitting in a McDonald’s booth for 90 minutes without much to do
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I have to slow my roll creatively speaking because otherwise I will just start doing more damage to the actual project $

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It is really hard when you don’t know what’s for dinner, but not impossible. $$*

The closer you get to completion of a major project, ironically the easier it is to doubt it
Cuz It doesn’t seem real $$

If you were to run a marathon and stop right before the finish line and quit, 
then all you would have is the pain from the race coupled with the pain of disappointment and discouragement
When all you gotta do is just keep going $$$*

And if you’re gonna do some bitching, then at least write it down $$

I will also confess that it has been 48 hours basically without a cigarette
And it’s really not even that bad $

It would be a perfect time for one, but I don’t have enough cash to justify it $

Moments like this would be enough to have a pretty big pretty party
…
But instead, I’m just recording it for content because soon when everything has changed and flipped, I’m going to point to this moment as another one of those “I told you so” victories $$$

I’ll confess that the shelf with all of my trophies is getting very crowded $

*Lighter flick $

There is no such thing as a natural born, healthy alchemist
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They are each constructed like Frankenstein’s monster,
Likely In some cave or some tower somewhere $$***

Step one of turning a bunch of shit into gold is to get a bunch of shit lol 💩 
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Step two is “not freak out” $$*

I fucking hate when I am triggered and feel like death in real time, 
but I’m not gonna lie, 
I do enjoy editing those days the most $$

I would be the type of spirit to trigger my own incarnate meat suit just to squeeze out some good rebound philosophy $$*

Evil should know by now that even if I do bitch and moan, I’m at least gonna make a note about it
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And that note will be halfway hilarious
…
And that laugh will ease the pain
…
And by simply stacking enough laughs, soon I’ll have an entire psychic medication protocol $$*

And there you go, That’s alchemy 
That’s the secret $$

You got to dive into a world of shit,
You must be completely crushed by the pressure,
And you must still be funny $$

But I’ll admit that there’s very few things funny about watching my mother deteriorate rapidly..,
Within the next 60 days, she will likely have her hip replaced
…
Just like her mother before her $

I think the stats are about 50% of people are deceased within the first year after having a major joint replacement $$

Luckily, surgeries are safer at least
…
They’re talking about doing an outpatient hip replacement $

If you think I’m the one with all the jokes, then you clearly haven’t been paying attention to modern medicine 💊 $$$*

I don’t know whether to be impressed or offended at that speed of operation
And how they have normalized such a major milestone of shit $

Don’t give me wrong,
Everybody is accountable for their own decisions,
And deciding not to do some additional research or live a different lifestyle other than the one that is pushed down people’s throats, is on the swallower $$

My parents will have to sleep in their extremely sick and soon to be disabled bed $

Physically and philosophically apparently $

So Will millions of other others
…
Might even be billions at this point that have to suffer some kind of imprisonment within their own incarnation $$

Healthcare is really “sick care”
…
And that’s not very funny $$$

It is only a matter of time though
…
Less and less people are falling for the bullshit
…
More and more people are accomplishing amazing, creative feats in all areas of life and business $$$

Selfishness is on the retreat
…
But like any caged animal, it will gain additional strength & unpredictability as it is backed into a corner $$$**

It’s still no match for about 1.3 g of psilocybin mushrooms, and some dance music though $$$***

But the 12 steps is the real retirement plan
…
Modified to manage one’s health and emotions that is $$

The 12 steps plus psychedelics, 
and I think that we can rebuild a utopia within 30 years $$*

It is 9:13 PM and I must report an attack by some random ass bug on my foot for no reason
…
I am now searching for this little bitch ass bug
,..
I’m not really sure what it was
It wasn’t that painful, but it was definitely not called for $

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THOUGHTS I HEARD

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SUBURBAN SECRETS

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WORDS THAT NEED A HOME

8-5-26

85

Good morning, world $

Happy 12:36 AM $

I am kind of in a tough spot $

I am doing the calculations and I think I’m in another deficit heavy leg day scenario $

The second part of that is great, but the first part is not so much $

I had some eggs and berries around 8 PM
…
before that was probably 1000 cal of Cheez-Its and jalapeño potato chips
…
And two PB&J’s before that lol $

I’m trying to work up the hunger for some oatmeal believe it or not
I’m just not hungry
But I know I need fuel $

All of that can only mean one thing
…
That the hypertrophy phase is going exactly as expected lol $

If you are consistently somewhat a little sore,
Not hungry, but yet somehow still need more calories,
And you are nervous about your session,
Then you have the three ingredients for one phenomenal phase $$

You can work the 12 steps for a spiritual experience,
Or you can try a bowl of my bery famous blueberry oatmeal 🥣 $$

Both promise everything that drugs did without the drama
…
Both will bring untold joy to your life
…
Both will have you come to believe in a higher power $$

If consciousness is fundamental,
And everything is imaginary,
“God” is just the extent of one’s understanding of this $$
 
“Whatever you believe you receive” kinda shit $$

AnyWho, it is now 12:56 AM and I am more proud of myself as i was 20 minutes ago
…
And that is how the game is played ladies and germs lol $

Ironically, you can avoid sleeping on your dreams by just working at night $$$

In the best case scenario, I’ll probably go hit legs on the early side, maybe around sunrise
…
And the worst case scenario, then I might go late morning $

If I was good with my eating on the few days before, then I might actually have a little recent fat to tap into
…
Ain’t much tho and I don’t think I have really any extra energy stored without getting too hangry $

Something tells me that I used to wear a toga a lot $$

The current theory that there are five main different types of aliens just sounds like some shit Some sour puss CIA atheist came up with on a rainy day. $$$*

*Gets abducted $

…
KNOCK ON WOOD DO NOT FUCK WITH ME, PLEASE 🙏 $($$$)

Here’s a joke
How many orbs does it take for an atheist to eat humble pie?
…
..
.
about 13 $$

Some people might think it’s gross that cats clean their ass with their tongue,
I admire it
…
Because that requires bravery and high integrity $$

Happy 8:18 AM
Nice little dash to the same parking lot as the gym
Pretty sweet $

Can’t believe I’m about to do hip thrusts on the smith
…
But hey, I think I was wrong about them
We’ll see $

(Ngl they were one of the best moves cuz planet has the vertical smith & not the angled one) 

I’m feeling sparky today
Not sure why
I really think it may be cuz I flipped into a deficit and signaled a bunch of fat authorization 
…
Then I ate some amazing oatmeal to top off my carb stores while my body was matobolizing fat
…
Sick $

Honestly, i dont want telepathy 
…
It’s a two way street and I have too much fun spectating $$

I knew we were in deep shit when I went to the doctor one time & he gave me a PDF pamphlet to fix my back $$$***

Personal space does not exist at planet fitness $$**

The fact I feel this good after mostly junk food yesterday is suspicious $

Power programming be like
- warm up set
- Nap
- Snack
- 2nd warm up set
- Full nights rest
- Set freakish PR
- Snack
- Nap
- Repeat
$$$*

Ngl
Last weeks edits were 🔥 $

I am Proud of myself 😊 $

Mostly for handling more bitchassness like a boss $

Building big carb dependent legs is just asking for trouble 
…
Building strong & efficient legs is just asking for fun tho $$$

Happy 11:04am from the library $

Pretty sure My eyes are fucked from always looking at the bright side $$*

Caring too much about bio-aliens physique is losing the Forrest for the trees 🌲 $$$*

Anyone can get new brakes,
But very few can actually ride until they break 😉 $$

Dude, I am so stoked
…
I just saw ol buddy jogging in the neighborhood
…
Same guy that I met on one of my walks one day,
He told me that I inspired him
(It’s in the notes lol)
He was just walking then, but now he’s moving quick 
I even saw him out in the super hot heat, not long ago $

Ironically, the summer seems a lot hotter the more time you spend inside $$$*

No matter how hard you train, the recovery process is the same
…
The only difference is and how much mess needs to be cleaned up $$$***

“Why can’t I feel like this all the time“
- Only true philosopher’s
- And unfortunately, drug addicts… $$

(Shocking correlation between the two…)

If your grandfather died before you were born, then I got some weird news for you… $$**

Especially if you’re the oldest or the first born in a generational line $$

You cannot have true freedom without true slavery
…
Therefore, if you feel like the a slave, hang in there $$$

Those who were never physically enslaved by others, are enslaved by thier own emotional desires
…
Which might not seem like it, but I promise you is way worse in the long run $$

Slavery is evil, but once you are free, you probably have some pretty unique adaptations and special strengths $$

And I bet you anyone that is has been in philosophical prison, will tell you how grateful they were for the experience $$*

But those who run away from hardship over and over and over again, simply become weaker into the point where they cannot survive $$

There is that one dude who is getting a lot of popularity and press because he intends to live forever through science,
Brian Johnston (I think?)
…
And I actually have respect for how he’s doing it because he’s paying for the experiments himself and publishing all the information
…
But if you look at his protocol, it is absolute madness and overkill
…
It is a form of slavery in it of itself $$$

If you are already going to exist forever, just in different vehicles, then I say it’s silly to spend all your free time trying to stay in this one $$$

If you’re a bodybuilder, and you do not have some kind of eating disorder, then you are either~
~A brand new bodybuilder
~A very small bodybuilder
~Or very experienced, probably retired bodybuilder $$**

If you knew that you were responsible for even a micro annoyance but on a macro scale, that would probably feel pretty shitty
…
Now imagine you have to watch everybody’s reaction in your life review,
…
How do you think you’ll feel about doing an ad read then? $$$***

Not all bodyweight is the same,
Not all muscle weighs the same
…
If you are mostly typed two, then you’re gonna carry around a lot more water than somebody who is type 1/3
…
Type one and three (2a) is far more dense and does not rely as much on water and carbs $$*

If peace is all that you want, then you probably should not have incarnated in this realm
…
But if fun is what you were after, then I have some good news for you
…
We just have a lot of cleaning up to do first $$$

Well, you win some and you lose some
After a super quick, lucky Dash, I got played at Pizza Hut for 20 minutes for nothing
…
At least I got a good video of the fucking wall lol $

I am simply a redhead that has been baptized by bullshit
…
Not much else to say other than that $$

After countering a heavy full frontal assault from bitchassness’ finest fat fucktards,
I am back in the booth,
Hammering away $

I can officially say that in combination with creative work completion and biological recovery, that I am back and better than ever $*

If every moment is precious,
Then longevity based competitions of consistency are the more important and meaningful $$$***

Happy 7:58 PM
I have done it again with the help of AAA
…
We have scrounged up enough cash to cover the website dues $

But now we have to play the same game for the phone bill lol $

Imagine being the person in charge of cleaning up the homeless
…
And you just get richer while the problem just grows $$$

Like I don’t even know what to say to this type of person $

At best they failed miserably
…
At worse, they’re completely corrupted and it’s all a giant scheme to make money anyway $$$

The truth is at least 2/3 of homeless people are that way by choice
…
I’m not saying that they can snap their fingers and solve everything,
Most of them are captured by their own addictions and mental health
…
But I’m saying that they would choose to stay on the street and live with their illness, more than they would choose to pursue a pathway of recovery $$

The truth is that there are a lot of avenues to get off the street if you actually want it
…
But if you’re already chemically castrated in the emotional sense, then it doesn’t seem like much of a choice when you’re being asked to give up the one thing that seems like it is helping $$

Those in charge of governmental assistance know this,
That’s why everybody in the field is so well paid
…
Because if the person or patient will not take advantage of the opportunity, then you can bet that the shady people running these programs will $$*

I remember when the wave of recovery houses really popped off back around 2019 time
…
This was when you had random people starting rehabs
…
I’m not kidding either,
these people weren’t exactly pillars of the program.
Most of them had about nine months and a big enough pink cloud to think that they could make a difference while also making a lot of money $$

The secret to it all is that when you billed insurance, insurance didn’t really give too much of a fuck on what the services were
…
I mean, they obviously wanted you to actually be performing the circle jerk therapy sessions if they were paying for them,
They just didn’t care if you had a teenage drug addict with three months running it $$***

I saw it all the time
…
Now to be fair, there were a couple people who stood out who actually were “working the program” and doing a good job
…
But they were the ones that we’re telling me all of the secrets lol
…
And they would inevitably quit once they figured out what was really going on $$

…
But sadly, there was a small subset that would be like reverse sponsorship, 
and eventually go on to start their own fake halfway houses 🏠 $$

Which was basically like a triple expensive Airbnb that you didn’t have to worry about cleaning $$

I don’t mean to position myself as if I’m all that smart,
It’s the opposite,
I was so dumb so quickly that my family & community had to go to extremes and bust out the heavy guns just as last resort
…
I promise you nobody thought that the malnourished delusional redhead with the Chicago Bulls 5950 hat was gonna make it very far in a spiritual program… $

In other news
It is 8:38 PM
Had a relatively smooth run to the store,
Grabbed some cheese and pepperoni and crackers to go with my massive mustard stash lol $

The game plan for tomorrow is to run at the park,
Maybe catch a couple fish along the way $

I say better to wake up optimistic and go to sleep disappointed than it is to wake up disappointed to begin with $$$*

Science basically commanding you to get eight hours of sleep is just a test to weed out the willed hacks 
…
because right when you start creating something for real for real, sleep is the first thing that goes out the window 🪟 $$$***

Victims need to be right more than they need actual nutrients $$$***

…
Kind of shocking how that’s so obvious and so ignored $

———-
Fuckery:
- STDs
- UFO abductees with implants 
$

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THOUGHTS I HEARD

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SUBURBAN SECRETS

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WORDS THAT NEED A HOME

8-6-26

86

Do Asians have the best rhythm? $$

Why do white people shadowbox before going out? $$

These are just a couple of questions that philosophy seeks to answer $$

Paraphrasing~
“When men of high resolve are faced with a difficult dilemma, one seeks to go about solving such with resolve and poise while weaker men clamor for answers”
- manly p hall

“ when confronted with a problem involving the use of reasoning faculties, individuals of strong intellect keep their poise, and seek to reach a solution by obtaining facts bearing upon the question.
 Those of immature mentality, on the other hand, when similarity confronted are overwhelmed.
 While the former may be qualified to solve the riddle of their own Destiny, the latter must be led like a flock of sheep and taught in a simple language” $$$***

Good morning world $

It is 1:44 AM $

Ironically, one of the least healthy things that you could do is talk about all of the healthy things that you do all the time lol $$**

(Ask me how I know)

Ladies,
If you find yourself in an environment that is pressuring you to put products and poison on your face,
Then you’re most likely in clown college $$$*

(If anyone else happens to listen to episode 1133 of the modern wisdom podcast, you may notice some carryover with the commentary lol) $

Usually a good thing to go to a conference to develop professional skills
…
Usually a terrible thing to go to a conference to develop sexual skills $$

Surveys say that the most common answer to the question “how many sexual partners have you had within the last year” is one followed by zero $$

…
But I say that’s only because lame-o’s are answering surveys while a bunch of others are out banging $$

Looks-maxers can never consider themselves true philosophers
…
And their punishment is to hit themselves in the head with a hammer
..
Oh wait, a second …🔨 $$$*

“Sorry” is likely the most imbalanced word in all of existence
…
Half the people use it too much
 while the other half don’t even know how to say it
…
Only the select few seem to use it properly $$

Happy 7:55 AM
Trying to snag a couple morning fish before my morning run
Wish me luck $

My weapons of war for this round are~
A Portuguese shot glass
A dark purple heart necklace
A pair of cheap Chinese headphones
Department store board shorts
And a SUV with no brake pads left $$*

A fighter pilot delivering chicken biscuits just sounds like some fallen angel shit $$**

Living life strictly based on how much fuel I have at any given moment seems oddly familiar $$

8:35 AM and I must report another attack by a dog
This time it was a super cute tiny dog tho
No damage to report
…
Headed back to Aldi‘s to wait for those hoes to open in 20 minutes lol $

Somewhere there’s someone fixing to knock over the liquor store
…
Not because they want to,
But because they have to $$$***

Don’t ever let me become president 
…
because one of the first things I’m going to do is make defensive driving mandatory
…
No more of this stupid hacky shit
…
You’re gonna have to take a driving test every fucking six months $$$***

(But the dmv will be super efficient and renovated)

To act as if nobody is watching even for just a second is one of the most disrespectful & least faithful actions that you can do
…
It’s also one of the easiest sins to forgive because how easy it is to get distracted by ego $$$

It is 9:06 AM and time to head to the park to run
Nothing noteworthy other than I am happy that my super amazing patience has returned $

Hot take~
Fit people are hated on way more than fat people
…
Cuz most everybody is fat $$

Trust me, I can hear thoughts 💭 $

The secret is anyone can read minds as long as they’re not distracted by their own $$

Happy 10:49am
Happy to log another smooth run
Muscle wise I made it 90 min no prob before legs got crispy
Movement wise, I could easier do another 90 $

Very happy with that especially since yesterday was leg day $

Vegans prefer propaganda more than they prefer plant based poisons
Prove me wrong $$$*

It is quite possible I’m setting a personal stinky record lol $

Ironically, adding material things usually just subtracts from happiness $$*

Had a nice little – after doing edits
Now posted up at a random church parking lot, 
trying to snag a couple more stragglers
…
I guess this church isn’t so random considering it’s the one I usually post up at 
…
It is right across the street from a Chick-fil-A and has a bunch of Shady parking spots $

If you cannot put your country before your family, then you don’t deserve either $$$***

…
But i admit this gets extra fucked up when your country is corrupted as a motherfucker $$$

You cannot call yourself a true philosopher if you are still calling yourself an atheist $$$

You can call yourself a monkey all you want though 
…
and even though you’re wrong, I’m not gonna waste the energy debating you $$$

The term “philosopher” means one who seeks the truth
…
So I hate to break it to you, but you’re pretty far off the mark there $$$

And if your reaction to that is “this guy is so arrogant he thinks he knows the truth to life” ,you just proved my point
…
Because the entire point of philosophy is to uncover the truth within oneself 
…
If you haven’t gotten that far, then stay on your level youngin $$$

If denying God makes you feel better about your tender date then I get it. 
I’ve been there lol $$$

He understands though
…
He kind of set you up and put that situation to begin with, hoping that you would eventually learn
…
Don’t disappoint God twice by doubling down and downloading bumble or some shit $$$*

Under darwinism,
 The fact that monkeys still exist mean that it is possible to get off the evolution train at some point and stay at your current form
…
Which means basically that we should see more Sasquatches 
…
Or the very least they shouldn’t be so secretive $$

And the fact that Sasquatches are constantly connected to the paranormal and high strangeness, and even UFOs should trouble even the most closed-minded atheist $$

Being a wellness content creator is just creating content to convince others to stop consuming so much content $$$*

It is hard to not have fun when fuel matches function $$

Once you actually go all in on something, the fear alone wakes you up to a whole new state of consciousness $$$*

Atheists are just afraid of being losers
…
So they just settle for losing out on the most meaningful aspect of existence $$

And they will literally judge the religious as fools for choosing to go without material excess wealth
…
They will laugh and laugh and laugh as they drive desperately to the doctors office for another prescription $$*

Getting an atheist to believe in a higher power might seem like a miracle
…
But they already admit the biggest miracle of all time with the Big Bang, 
so you would think it wouldn’t be so hard to convince them
…
But nope
…
Anything that actually makes sense and threatens their sense of accountability is going to trigger the delusion so they just keep on digging $$

“ I can explain everything to you perfectly if you just overlook this one major miracle”
-one atheist to another $$

It is a strange mental twist that occurs when somebody is confronted with their own fear
…
Suddenly, everything begins to change shape to justify sitting on the sidelines 
…
The only way to satisfy fear is with certainty
…
And there are two types of certainty;
…
One is whatever you tell yourself
…
The other is whatever actually happens after confrontation
…
You need both for true recovery
But most just hold onto the fleeting dopamine that they get from the brief rush of justifying their own contempt 
…
Once that dopamine is gone, they become like addicts
Searching for opportunities for people to admire their high horse
…
They become vagabonds of subconscious vengeance
…
They NEED validation for their fear
…
Like vampires, they begin to thrive off making others feel less than in seemingly insignificant ways
…
Which just makes it easier to justify being a self-centered energetic black hole because then you can just gaslight the other person because it wasn’t “a big deal to begin with“
…
They step on the toes of their fellows and then argue when they are held accountable $$$

(lol a poem about bitchassness or something)

Dragons are just a test to see who takes shit too serious or not $$**

Always pretend to believe in dragons, even when you don’t
…
You eventually run into people who will be so excited to try to explain to you their nonexistence that you’ll be able to troll them on levels You didn’t even dream. $$$

If the right kind of philosophy can leave somebody intellectually helpless, 
then it really is the only superior power in the universe $$**

It’s almost not fair how easy it is to ragdoll someone who is not trained
 both physically and philosophically $$

If you do not learn how to handle your emotions, you cannot handle energy in motion $$$

The argument that trans people did not have a choice in their sex before they were born, 
which is why they are entitled to be able to chop off their dicks,
Is gonna feel pretty silly Once you realize that your entire life was preplanned by yourself to present the opportunity to see what you would actually do in the name of progress. $$$

If social media goes on to be proven that it is one of the most destructive dangerous forces on our planet,
 then you can go ahead and add that to the other spiritual wars that I was on the front lines of $*

My generation was the last to play in the woods & in the first to date on smart phones $$*

Never try to debate a pro-trans-kids advocate 
…
Just platform them and allow them to dig their own grave $$$

Tqs to avoid
- “idk about you but I’ve ….”
- Appealing to any authority 
- Giving any kind of long winded round about answer $$$***

Just listened to the debate about transKids on the podcast triggernometery.
…
And I gotta say that their podcast lives up to the name lol
…
I am hot $

Questions that need answering
- Average cost of transitioning treatment
- Average timeline of transition
- Forever drugs required for maintenance
- Length of pre-treatment therapy prior to diagnosis
- meeting with a pharmaceutical reps
$$$***

I’m telling you if I did not get kidnapped in brainwashed for 14 years on loving secret acts of service,
And if I didn’t have every material possession stripped away to recognize that I am much happier without the bullshit,
Then I probably would be on the losing evil team because I would be blaming the general public for their own ridiculousness
Instead of looking at my own part and the problem $$*

My righteousness, from whatever past life, would’ve been Weaponized against me in the name of big business and progress
…
I would’ve viewed fat and lazy people as just that,
I would not view them for the sick suffering souls that they really are $$

Some doctors think that if they cut enough kids dicks off, that they might be able to get some kind of fireproof suit when they arrive in hell $$$*

Instead, they’re just gonna be gaslit into thinking that they are the opposite gender
…
After having their food and environment poisoned
…
And ensuring that the only people they can hang out with are also terrible souls that would rather trade genitals for Gods Grace $$$*

It is very easy to be fooled if you think you know everything
…
So to make matters even worse for these despicable demons, is when they realize that they have been a puppet and a play-thing for actual demons
…
They were just too distracted by their own desire to even realize it $$$*

If you feel like you’re being bothered by something evil, then just turn your attention to loving on it as if it was some kind of cute cat or dog
…
It’ll either come around and turn into something positive
…
Or run away like a little bitch that it already is
…
But that atleast guarantees that you won’t turn into one $$$*

Happy 6:35 PM
Time to go deliver some hot wings after talking a bunch of shit about the sedentary and propane lol
Wish me luck $

Kidding aside
After I make it through all of this, I will have overwhelming conclusive evidence of positive high strangeness
…
That as odd as it is, defies the odds daily $$*

It helps to knock on a lot of wood though $$

The hardest thing in life is trying not to let the “goal” become your “role” $$*

Being broke is still easier than being a sellout $$*******

Only uptight little bitches can’t have fun and be productive at the same time $$$

Few will ever realize how cringy 90% of all advertisements and promotions truly are $$

Happy 7:29 PM
Another suburban synchronicity,
Just delivered DoorDash to a house nearly sold lol $

Hard, by definition, is only doing something you didn’t want to do
Otherwise, it might just be “challenging” $$

Always better to drink the poison with a smile, 
Than to have the dream dessert with a frown $$$*

Also, I’m probably gonna go on a victory tangent just because I haven’t had a cigarette pretty much all week
And I keep forgetting about that lol $

Literally the world’s most addictive, most frequently used chemical, and I can take or leave it
…
THAT IS THE 12 STEPS THAT IS NOT ME $$

But If you go to any 12 step meeting, it’s probably gonna do more harm than good as it relates to smoking cigarettes lol $$*

Seriously though what is more impressive;
…
David Blaine holding his breath
…
Or some kid with ADHD that can use the most addicting poisons while actively being attacked by all sides from trauma~drama monsters without spiraling or getting sad $$$

We should get together and start discriminating and censoring everything that all of these egghead atheist enjoy most
…
Which I guess is like the discovery channel and NPR and really large novelty gas stations
…
Kinda like how they do to all the spiritual media $$$

If you feel like you’re in a position in which your hands are tied behind your back,
That’s just magician training and the only way to fail is to complain so keep cool and wiggle $$$*

I know I was just talking shit about not smoking, but I’m kind of craving a cigarette lol
…
So I’m stepping out to get some air because I think the ritualistic part of smoking is more addictive than the actual nicotine $$

I am grappling with the thought of eating more eggs
…
I really don’t want them,
I am kind of hungry though
…
If I had something else, I would probably eat that
…
But honestly, eggs are the best thing from the nutrient - calorie perspective
…
Tomorrow is supposed to be a very late training day, so I don’t have to force-feed that much
…
I am betting on if I wait a little longer than I actually will be hungry to the point to where I’ll enjoy them $

“Havana syndrome” is a pretty well-known biological psychological attack 
& basically It is proof that you can attack somebody psychically
…
It is openly admitted at this point by the government that they knew this and they were using this TQ for a long time along with other hidden forms of fuckery
…
That’s it. Thanks for letting me share lol $$$

——-
8 lap trail run (6ish mi) - 90m with lazy water & pee breaks (15m total)

——-
Smashed a big ass bowl of oatmeal 1:44pm
Pepperoni and crackers around 4:20 PM
Second big ass bowl but with blueberries 11:31 PM
… Bitched out with the eggs lol

——-
Fuckery
- amount of reptiles in Florida
- The “historic drought” “ending” in North Carolina
- After the historically cold winter
- My ongoing furnace and gas situation lol
- Anything to do with trans kids and the medical costs
- Flu shots 
$

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THOUGHTS I HEARD

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SUBURBAN SECRETS

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WORDS THAT NEED A HOME

8-7-26

87

Happy 5:29 AM $

Don’t mind me as a stroll in a little later than before $

Don’t mind me as I cheat a little bit when it comes down to the buzz $

*Razor slice $

AnyWho, how are you doing? $

What you got going on for the day lol? $

It is a Friday
That alone is very exciting
…
I’ve seen a lot of people do some pretty silly things just because it was a Friday
…
Just like I’ve seen a lot of people bitch and moan about nothing because it was a Monday $$

But to confess, Growing up, I used to hate Sundays
Because of what came right after
I used to dread school
It was basically Day prison $$

*Lighter flick $

I can’t believe I actually used to think most of my teachers were smart lol $$

I don’t mean to sound disrespectful
…
Most of them are actually brilliant,
I’m mostly talking about emotional intelligence $$

Any adult that feels the need to have a captive children audience is a little crazy after hours $$**

I actually think that’s how it should be
…
Teachers should be a little crazy $$

I just don’t think that students should have so limited options when it comes down to learning $$$

And the truth is,
A good bit of teachers are that way just because it’s a job,
They fumbled into it just like somebody fumbles into being a department store manager $$

I don’t know which is the more alcoholic thing to say~
That I don’t understand why people drink at bars
& how it seems like a waste of time and money
…
Or that I say just take the bottle into the woods and slam the shit if you’re serious $*

Happy 9:15 AM
Time to hit Aldi’s before hitting planet
…
I’m almost afraid to remind the world that Aldis has the greatest electrolytes for the best price $$

(Bruh now they’re nearly out of stock wtf)

Only old people think they get a pass cuz of age 
…
which is why they keep reincarnating cuz that’s the most childish thing ever $$$*

If the form police actually showed up, 90% of everyone in the gym would be arrested lol $$**

Imagine being an atheist,
…
Imagine being angry,
…
Imagine finding this notepad from a very giddy and gleeful redhead in solitary confinement,
who likes to talk mad shit about love and happiness
…
And imagine being so upset because of a difference in opinion that you would rather be “right” over “happy”
…
When that is exactly the test of this entire realm,
To see if you would rather be right than happy $$$

Happiness is almost always the result of getting fucked over and dealing with it in a mature responsible way so that you are better off for the experience $$***

Happiness is not an unconditional default $$$

Nobody is happy with what everybody has
…
Unless they are actually enlightened already $$*

“Shame on the world for not being as talented as me thereby, forcing me to develop my talent” $*

Creepy, corporate franchise hacks be like “if you work really hard behind the register, then you can earn yourself a comfortable position behind a desk in the back room away from all of the customers” $$$

God‘s love is like the ultimate non-toxic supportive parent
…
They want what you want for you 
and their number one priority is to help you achieve that without ruining the meaning behind it
…
Which often feels like some kind of baptism with firewater $$**

You’d have a blog too if you got gaslit by everyone you knew your entire life $$*

If I was an uptight asshole in a past life, then I have to be the funniest man in this one $$

Seeing jelly fall out the sides is great for a PB&J
…
Not great for a sedentary hob goblin $$$*

If there’s ever a movie made about my life, it should just be called “high strangeness“ $$$

If the boomer generation actually wants to make shit right, then they need to sign up for mandatory chemical trials
…
They’re already doing it out of their own selfish delusion of hatred and laziness
…
But if they really wanna make amends, then they should sign up for science to test all kinds of the most radical “cutting edge“ therapeutics, peptides, and psychedelics out there to fast track how to properly get these in circulation $$$***

The fact that the government is not only admitting but releasing all of these UFO files should gain everybody’s awareness
…
But the fact that they’re doing it in a very diabolical, very fuck boy manner should seal the fact that they are not doing this out of the kindness of their own ethics
…
They are clearly trying to sabotage & water down the release for as long as possible
…
These are the types of people in charge
…
They are willing to jeopardize your own humanity so that they can hold onto their money a little bit longer $$$***

If you need a recent example of bitcassness at its finest, then just look at Fauci $$$

For every Fauci, there’s at least 50 worse skeevers behind the scenes $$$***

I would be willing to give the benefit of the doubt to the “deep state” and all of the people who have repressed the technology,
I’d be willing to keep an open mind if you told me they were actually doing it for the good of the public
…
But then you look at how in every single area, when given the opportunity to do the sneaky right thing, they just chose poison instead $$$***

If they have that kind of technology, then you know they know more about pesticides and pharmaceuticals than they’re letting on $$$

…
They don’t have to go around giving away all of Santa’s secrets if they actually wanted to make a bit positive difference
…
Instead of using a dangerous poison, they could’ve chosen a sneaky good one
…
But no
“Get fucked” they say $$$*

But the joke is still on them 
…
Because humor and a positive attitude are more powerful overall in the long run than any poison 
…
A joke is a philosophical supplement,
Comedy is spiritual nutrition $$**

They might be laughing now, thinking they got away with a lot, but we will get the last laugh because of the tolerance for bullshit that we have built up $$$*

These types will always be afraid of their own shadow $$

Remembering this one time when I went on this cruise when I was 20 with my mom
…
I had about 3 1/2 years sober
…
I had just been promoted to a manager at my sales job after about three months
…
..
.
I was sitting on the top deck of the ship, reading the effing big book for gods sake when this very drunk, very Austrian woman came and sat down across from me
…
She was convinced that I looked like Mark Zuckerberg
…
She was apparently so excited by that fact, she began ordering tequila to the table, trying very hard to get me to drink
…
I did not drink the shot and instead poured it out when she wasn’t looking but this is the kind of shit that would happen to me weekly $

The Voice instructions feature on the GPS navigation is probably the most annoying and pointless feature of all time $$$

Happy 5:01 PM
I might not have to worry about dinner with as much humble pie I’ve been having
…
Reading through last year’s entries has got me thinking,
Mostly about gratitude and what not,
& just reminds me how far down the scale I really was $

AnyWho
It is hot and I’m hoping people are hungry
Wish me luck $

I wonder what the criteria is to become a suburban saint?
…
If it is patiently waiting at a gas station, then I think I’ve got that down $

16 years ago, I was probably in a similar spot
…
Posted up at a gas station
…
Only then I was waiting for drugs and not somebody’s dinner lol $

At this point, I believe I can be the greatest writer of all time
…
I just believe it’s gonna take an entire lifetime to win that award $$

Even the nicest house has roaches somewhere $$**

The world is divided into two groups based on naivety
…
It’s just who has worked in sales and those who have never lol $$***

It is 6:16 PM
Decent dashing thus far
Hoping for a strong and super convenient evening lol $

If everybody had decent taste and just made what they liked, then we wouldn’t have any problems
…
Which is why I believe invisible ethereal evil resistance is everywhere and can only defeat those who don’t have proper technique $$

I will never doubt that I am the chosen one
…
I am just not sure what I’ve been chosen for lol $$

If you bop a human unexpectedly on the head, they are likely to get upset
…
They are likely to respond. “why me, why did I get bopped on the head?” even if the bop did not hurt that much.
…
Some will go through the rest of their day, upset that something had the audacity to bop them when they were not expecting it.
…
“Why didn’t they get permission before they bopped me so gently”
…
And this line will ruminate in the back of their brains, 
constantly being watered from their own resentful energy
…
And that kind of attitude is why God made earth lol $$$***

Seems like everything is just a big distraction to disrupt your ability to trust your gut $$$***

Talking to yourself out loud is crazy,
Talking to yourself on paper is healthy $$***

Remembering how during Covid, in the beginning when nobody knew what was really going on, most everybody I knew was most concerned about where they were going to get tacos
…
They were not worried about dying of a pathogen,
They were worried about not being able to partake in Mexican food. $$*

Billy Joel “my life“ playing in the background $

Something about the beautiful lights from the smoke shop after a long, hard day… $$

Today is the three-year anniversary when I met my most recent ex
…
And if that is not a test of time, I don’t know what is $$

AnyWho, I’m currently stuffing my face because I’m starving $

If my reincarnation theories are correct,
Then, being in the shit might be the most familiar thing to me in all of existence lol $$

What is the difference between asking somebody “what they feel” versus “how do they feel? “ $$

That’s not a trick question I genuinely don’t know lol $

I guess one would make more sense when talking about physical things and the other would be philosophical $$

There really is no such thing as mental,
It’s just philosophical or physical $$

It’s funny to me just how many ways you have to bend over backwards to justify a plant-based diet
…
And it’s always by idiots who don’t actually lift
…
Or certainly haven’t for very long
…
And definitely are not low body fat, I can tell you that $$*

And obviously, there are some exceptions to this,
But even the honest exceptions would tell you that they are an exceptional case $$

Just eat as much meat as you can, and you won’t have to worry about vitamins
…
And I promise you that your hunger will be more balanced, and you won’t be so addicted to carbs $$

Can’t emphasize it enough,
It is better to be alone than to wish you were alone $$$*

Remembering this one time how I went to shadow a physical therapy appointment
…
They did three moves (that are on the 5 card) and then the PT printed out a worksheet basically and kicked us out after 45 minutes
…
The visit alone was over $300 $$$***

Of course, insurance took care of most of it
…
Which is the only way these people get away with doing what they’re doing
…
They take advantage of a clueless clientele base $$

So some of the blame does genuinely fall on the patient
…
But just think about how fucked up that sounds
…
A good physician is supposed to be able to help safeguard the patient against themselves,
Not contribute and take advantage for profit or because it is too much of a “hassle” $$$*

America might be super fucked up &
We might be doing a lot of wrong shit but I guarantee you that we’re doing the most right shit.
…
And every right thing weighs at least three times as much as every wrong thing, energy impact wise $$$*

If you learned it in a book, it only counts, at most, 1/9 of what is learned on the street or in practice $$$***

…
So if exercise and laughter in combination are the greatest healers, than doctors should be Jacked comedians & not fat evil scientists $$$***

I don’t know why I feel the need to remind motherfuckers that my family tree, (on both sides) goes back all the way
…
I mean, I’m talking Mayflower shit
Straight up $

Wouldn’t it be funny if I end up in politics and all I have to do is read from my journal when I get on stage
 because everything I’ve said would be proven true and there’s no better way to win people over than just simply saying “I told you so” with evidence $$*

And because I’m not evil & corrupted, and because AI will settle by then, I will be able to overhaul all the bureaucratic bullshit and basically flip the private prison industry to incarcerate these fuckwads that deserve it $$$**



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Edited/ shit load of FAQs

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PB&J at about 1pm
PB&J at 3:18 PM
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Bread cheese
Salami 
Blueberries 
Saltines 

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Fuckery:
- Iran bullshit
- Stock market & employment bullshit
- School schedule this year

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What a gorgeous date $

Happy 1:36am world 🌎 $

*roller chair scoot $

Nothing like a little midnight mobility to take the edge off $$

All you need is a nice firm stick
…
Or a short fat one $$

It’s amazing how stretched out you can get $$$

You wouldn’t think it would feel so good until you actually try
…
It looks weird,
It’s got a strange reputation,
But Anyone who actually does it right, can’t deny how intense it could be $$$

It’s a great solo activity,
Or you can do it with friends and family
…
It gets better with age as well 
…
It can be hard when looking up techniques online though,
You Find all kinds of strange things researching “what to do with firm stick” or “what kind of stick stretches you out the best”
…
But have no fear,
If you just do the function element cards
Specifically, the four, five, seven, and King, you too can get the same relief 😉 $$

Unlike other forms of training, this is about immediate satisfaction more than it is long-term progressive change $$

Idk just a suggestion $

AnyWho, 
I’m thinking more and more that sometime around the end of World War II, the super truly evil Nazis just infiltrated our government and began slowly corrupting it and corroding it from within $$**

It might not be spiritually or religiously motivated,
It could just be a foreign government wanting to troll 🧌 $$$

It just makes more sense when you see that the most of the politicians seem to be stalling
…
They’re driving us deeper into war, whilst printing more money and driving inflation even higher,
while kicking the can saying everything’s gonna be cool if you just don’t look too close While they try to drive everything over a cliff $$$*

I don’t know just a thought $

Lol, thanks for letting me share $

Tis like day 5..? No cigs
Kinda miss them ngl lol $

No disrespect to mr Kirk but I never even heard of him before his assassination $

Indirectly, I’ve seen memes and what not but I didn’t know who he even was $

(Maybe cuz I live under a rock)

Anywho,
His death is very sus $

One of my favorite things to do is just just stare at Alex‘s greatness $$

“François get your butt back out there”
… 
“but Sarge I’m tired of delivering pizzas“ 
(Modern day warfare) $

Seeing all of the fast food propaganda posters, makes me sick
…
But not as sick as eating it I guess $$

Happy 8:51 AM
Waiting on another rebound dash before doing some weightlifting in the garage lol $

It doesn’t matter what someone’s words say when their attitude says “I am pretty upset that I have to help“ $$$***

I feel the need to emphasize for the record that I always do the morning dashes without any caffeine, nicotine, cannabis, or Kratom lol $

It’s the opposite of what most people usually have to do $

It is now 9:16 AM
Pretty good first quarter of the day
Always good whe I leave but come back with more money and more battery & less overall stress $

It is time to get ready to party 
…
Which is just a weightlifting session in the garage lol $$

If you really wanna hit a motherfucker in their feels, then just tell them what they mean to you unexpectedly, but sincerely $$$***

It works positively and negatively, but I recommend this for positive situations lol $$$

Usually, if you do try to call somebody out, they’re just gonna activate their guard and deny everything anyway $$

Wasting energy is the worst thing in the world $$

Don’t mind me as I smash some PRs str8 off some pb&Js $$*

Any scientists wanna tell me if that’s Correlation or causation? $$$

You’re either using the movement to challenge the muscle,
Or you’re using the muscle to complete the movement $$$

You know your powerlifting whenever you can add five or 10 pounds and you wouldn’t be able to even feel the difference 
…
You know your bodybuilding whenever you can add 1 pound and you can feel the difference $$$***

The road to enlightenment is rough because by definition most of the time you are a helpless ignorant fool who has yet to receive his philosophical medicine 💊 $$$***

Everybody travels this road,
Most just do it kicking and screaming lol $$

I just witnessed somebody order from Bojangles and chicken king
Same delivery 
…
They’re not fucking around lol $

Good training will have you beating your heaviest resistance day on your easiest effort day $$$***

If you were running a restaurant,
And you had a chef who seemingly would make the wrong decision every single time,
How many times would it take before you think it is intentional?
…
Most people would probably get suspicious after the third
…
Especially if it was a repeat decision, not based on anything logical that a sane person should’ve known and done better with even if they weren’t a trained chef
…
..
.
And that is exactly what happened with the Covid response $$$***

If all of humanity was on a plane, some people have window seats and some people have aisle seats, spiritually speaking that is 
… 
but it seems like the plane has been hijacked and is about to fly into a tower of sorts… $$**

If when you name something you label it,
And when you label something, you limit it,
And when you limit something, you’re lying,
…
Then using names make you a liar lol
…
..
.
So you should just use different frequency grunts instead $$$***

Doctors and I do have one thing in common~
…
And uncomfortable amount of debt from just completing our education. $$*

Except mine is less than a third of what the average doctor is 
and I have a very long list of people who are already stronger thanks to me and not poisoned or dependent on pharmaceuticals $$*

(& I’ve barely graduated clown college)

A lot of people probably talk shit about the shit that I talk,
These are the same types of people that are paying thousands for pharmaceuticals just to get even close to looking like I look 
…
I LOVE ME AND HOW I LOOK, BUT I AM NOT WORTH TRADING DECADES OF YOUR LIFE AND YOUR LIFE SAVINGS $$$*

To be clear, I don’t mean they’re literally trying to look like me with the red hair and the immaculate lat spread and all of that,
…
I mean, they just want low body fat percent
…
And apparently, they also want to maintain their seat on their philosophical high horse 🐴 $$$

So I’m just gonna keep laughing to the notepad wall and enjoying life below 10% BF for the 6th consecutive year $$$

Politcians and Dashers agree,
it is better to be on the giving than the receiving end of poison $$***

“The only thing better than a justifiable war is a non-winnable forever war”
…
-Everybody in government and the Military industrial complex $$$***

I challenge any super spirit soldier who thinks they got a good pink cloud
…
Instead of greeting at your anonymous meeting, 
Go sit next to the door at a busy McDonald’s and try the same TQ
… 
I guarantee you’ll earn more comedy points lol $$$****

I am willing to bet that what makes cannabis so healthy is how much it aids in the ability to let shit go $$$*

It is 4:08 PM
Just finished delivering some happy meals to hopefully happy customer,
Gonna take a little break and then try to do some more evening fishing $

If we can scrounge up 30 more bucks, that will be pretty sweet $

Just proud of myself that I did 90 minutes of digital touchup stuff without even really thinking about it $

You know, the exact kind of work that you wouldn’t expect an ADD motherfucker to be able to complete quietly in the corner lol $

Existence can be summed up simply as~
…
You are A higher and indescribable consciousness that is capable of a lot that is most likely distracted by some kind of pain or emotional bullshit
…
Most likely manufactured
…
Most likely by self, but there is a good chance these days that it is propaganda or poison $$

The only acceptable answer for why somebody doesn’t do some type of journaling or self inventory is “I don’t feel like it” $$$***

It might sound crazy, but the alternative answers are worse
Such as~
“I don’t need to”
“It’s a waste of time”
“That’s a dumb idea” $$$***

The former is shared by everybody, even the most diligent diary disciplinarians
…
But the other three are terrible misconceptions and delusions $

Technique will always beat talent,
Technically speaking $$$

…
But they are so close that you’re often talking the same thing $$

You know you are a good real estate agent when other real estate agents used you to buy their own homes lol $$*

I really don’t even give myself much credit for selling a couple million dollar homes 
…
in the middle of Covid $$

If people are the most powerful, then spending time with the wrong person is the most challenging $$$***

Happy 6:13 PM
Weird,
After getting dicked down pretty hard by Pizza Hut earlier this week, 
I not only had a repeat dash to the same customer who kind of screwed me, and landed a miracle dash that happened to go super smooth after an afternoon of pretty poor shit $

don’t mind me as I sync up an amazing rebound as I write this $

…
The second pizza is going to the game store to the dudes in the red dragon room lol $*

Sometimes it feels like God is laughing at me $

(Loudly)

I will not lie though,
The hardest part about this whole dashing starving artist process has been picking up McDonald’s next to the jujitsu dojo and delivering pizzas next to the gym when I just want to be training $

36 bucks in 30 minutes in less than 10 miles might be a personal best $

I joke a lot about wanting to be able to watch other people‘s life review as compensation for some bullshit,
 but I think the real Threat is making other people watch mine because it’s just gonna be a lot of highlights of me dunking on everyone & saying told ya so $$***

Now I’m back in the booth, finishing up some of the real work
On a summer Saturday night lol
…
And it’s one of the best of all time $

I swear I came out of the box (womb) ready to die for what I wanted
…
And I don’t necessarily mean that as a good way lol $

Holy smokes that I was actually finally able to get a little extra cash to buy a pack of smokes
…
First one all week lol
…
Now that my nicotine tolerance is completely back to zero I bet I’ll only be able to smoke maybe a third of a cigarette at a time
 …
It’s kind of funny because my cravings finally went away for the most part, even though they were very mild $

I’m not gonna lie though,
The miracle dashes from Pizza Hut really came through
…
I was able to pay the phone bill and get dinner
…
But straight up, if I did not get those two highly unusual orders back to back, then I probably would not be having dinner again lol $

Just like Father’s Day $

I must’ve delivered 13 pizzas that evening alone but didn’t even have enough cash to get one myself lol $

(Thanks to bills)

I am not intending to sound negative or like I’m complaining
…
If anything, I am bragging
…
I have made some notes about it then of course,
But it wasn’t that bad
…
In fact the next day, I felt so good because I was fasted that it had me questioning a lot of things for the positive $$

anyhow, we did it again 
…
*Pours shot 
…
somehow, someway
…
 I didn’t actually doubt it for a second
…
But of course, I had plenty of bitch ass resistance, and self-conscious ego going on $

“Bro, I know this shit is real. somewhere somehow…”
…
-Me playing Skyrim $$$

If people were actually afraid of snakes as much as they say they were,
 then they would never walk into a physician’s office again
…
I mean, look at the fucking logo for God sakes $$$*

So either a snakes are evil,
Or they are a symbol of wisdom $$

Obviously, I’m gonna say they’re a symbol of wisdom because they are
…
And they’re the opposite of evil
…
They’ll teach you some shit real quick if you pay attention
…
But they’re not gonna spare you any of poison if you fuck up and disrespect the game $$$*

Just smashed an amazing Italian sandwich from the lion
It was super dank
…
I got a bag of blueberries and a little bit of raspberry jelly to continue the carb reload $

*Thunder boom $

Ahh Yes, it is time to settle down at camp and relax by the campfire $

*opens laptop $

Time for a glass of berries $$$

I can’t believe I was probably a bush or some shit in a past life at some point $$

Pausing to be proud of myself
…
I have written significantly and consistently and truthfully for over 330 days straight $

It started because I truly was trying to put back together my broken mind
…
And found myself needing to try something drastic,
Which is literally just a year alone $$

And thank fucking God $$$

I talk a lot of crazy shit, but the truth is all I did was take a prescription medication as prescribed for a few months and a completely wrecked my shit $$*

(Pre notepad & all)

Obviously, relationship drama and the family drama just delayed recovery and added all kinds of emotional energy expenditures 
…
But I do not believe that trauma actually degraded me biologically anywhere near as much as the Adderall did $$

It left me in a position where I couldn’t train either $$

I just did not expect it to be coupled with the starving artist phase, so I literally could not afford food for a few weeks lol $$

And it is stressful, and it is definitely difficult to manage and juggle all of these tasks when just trying to find food, 
But I wouldn’t trade the experience for the world because of the discipline that has given me $$*

Until you can be OK with nothing, you will always feel the need for something 
…
And that shit sucks $$$***


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Fuckery
- Charlie Kirk 
- The fact that GLP one medications have not been studied for longer than two years and have zero long-term care plan

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Food
- oats 3
- Berries 3
- Beef 6
- Jelly 3
- Smokes 13
~27

WOD
- 7 of power


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Good morning world $

Happy 12:34 AM $$

Ready,
Set,
Summer !
…
Slide onto your local Honda dealer for these amazing… 
…
Lol, just kidding $

I promise to never do any advertisements
…
But that is exactly what every other fucking podcast and blog will do to you $$$

I am now beginning to enter the phase in which I almost sound hypocritical though cause I will be publishing a lot of things $$

But my God, 
I put the free open source version literally as the first thing you see lol so I can’t make it any more transparent $$$

Anything that I sell for purchase is available for free somehow 
…
Excluding the secret sauce, of course
…
But shit, $13 isn’t exactly asking that much for something that you’ll have forever $$

Trust me when I say that the science & programming is on point for the secret zodiacs 

I’m not gonna lie, I kind of miss the cigarettes
…
I’ll check my notes, but I think it was five full days without any,
After three days of one or two
…
I mean I rarely ever smoked three in a day so I guess we’re not talking crazy here $

Did you know nicotine is actually really good for you and not just for your brain?
…
It’s great for your mitochondria
…
It’s just that, often there’s a lot of bullshit that comes with nicotine,
And you really don’t need that much to get the health benefits $$

I also am not a big fan of the nicotine pouches and how popular those have come
…
But It probably is better than vaping though $$

There’s gotta be something karmic about nicotine
…
Cause everybody consuming it is working their ass off 
…
Sure, you have the large cohort of degenerate druggies, but for the most part, this is a working man’s drug
…
It’s best friends with caffeine
…
The two alone built this country,
 all the while it’s retarded cousin, alcohol, tried to destroy it $$*

But what they don’t want you to know is how big of a roll (;) cannabis and hemp played up until some fuck boys decided to get extra greedy back in the 20s because they bought a bunch of bullshit paper
…
Or we’re trying to
…
Side swerve,
Similar to this This shit is the main reason why all of our medicines are oil based,
Because we had so much extra petroleum bullshit derivatives that we had to figure out some way to monetize it
…
You can thank the Rockefellers for that shit
…
Or maybe JP Morgan
…
Fuck if I really know honestly
…
They’ve been feeding me this shit since I came out the womb in 94 lol $$*

I hope fast food can go the way of big tobacco
…
I think we got that one backwards
…
I know that sounds spicy,
But seriously, food is far more trickier &
Far more Fuckery takes place within the industry $$$*

Growing tabaccy is one of the most ancient forms of farming
…
But factory farming for fast food is a whole different form entirely $$

*Lighter flick $

A True man is somebody who knows where they’re going and is having fun while they’re going there $$$***

AnyWho, happy Sunday
I’m gonna try to be lazy and try to rest as much as I can
I’m sure I’ll update how that goes lol $

I’m just gonna say,
And some people are probably not gonna like it,
Whoever rewrote the Bible was trolling
…
They were using a occult symbolism as much as possible, 
mostly to see how many people would say some shit without actually looking into what it means $$$***

“Washed in the blood of the lamb”
…
..
.
*clears throat
…
What does that mean to you dear reader? $$$

…
Even if there is a magical Santa giving out tickets to Paradise to the good boys and girls, 
but only on the right team, 
why does it place so much emphasis on qualitative action? $$***

Best way to connect with something is to flex against shared resistance $$**

I love my cat so much that I would have zero hesitation with picking up a sword and defending his honor
…
And I feel like I would’ve been able to say that at pretty much any point in recorded history
…
Go ahead and check the Akashic records
…
You’ll see that I’ve been a stand-up gentleman for a while, with a fond appreciation for fine women and “fun juice” lol $$$*

Back then, it would’ve been a lot easier to have a connection with the Devine
…
Mostly because if you didn’t, Then things were extra shitty $$**

Imagine farming all day for Darwinism
…
Imagine going to fight other advanced monkeys on horseback $$$*

(Real “planet of the apes” shit I guess)

“Hard” & “boring” are not the same thing
…
Boring is much harder $$***

Happy 11:34 PM during a beautiful sunny pizza delivery $

Just thinking about how all stories need just a little seasoning to be special
…
I have got some secrets that I will spill once this phase is complete,
Until then, I will have to smile and smirk 😏 $

The only downside to DoorDash is that I have to wait until after delivery to put on the James Taylor or else the food will be too cool if you know what I’m saying $$*

The fact that there is a church in the same parking lot as the smoke shop, makes me very happy $$$*

If people weren’t so easily embarrassed about their cringe, they would realize just how much content they truly have $$

It is 12:14 PM
Glorious morning so far
…
Currently watching “the devil all the time“,
I watched half of it earlier before doing some cleaning and a dash $

I have uncovered another secret,
I figure I can tell that because most people won’t understand it anyway lol
…
But basically, 
DoorDash constantly tries to skimp orders or convince you to take the cheapest and shittiest
…
They have especially good leverage manipulation with Anyone who orders food through their app,
They are already adding an up charge before the delivery expenses,
But often times they will charge the customer $13 for delivery and tip fees, but only give the Dasher 3
…
And I’m not exaggerating
They do this shit all the time
…
But they have also begun to partner and do delivery for other big companies, such as Pizza Hut,
And anyone who orders through the Pizza Hut app, gets charged less overall but the tips are much higher
…
And because of the blind spots with the technological app integration, basically these orders usually come with surprise bonus cash
…
And instead of being skimped, you end up with a few extra bucks because the app doesn’t know yet
…
Lol, thanks for letting me share $$

those afraid of hell are actively in hell
…
Those not afraid of hell are not fearful only because they have already been there $$*

Watching people complain as you take away their pain is very strange $$$

Hard to have a good life without accepting death $$

I wonder how many saltines Jesus could eat… $$$

If being forced to hang out sober In a parking lot with a pandemic raging and race war beginning while legit getting stalked by members of a secret cult,
 isn’t a “Jesus” level challenge,
 then plz tell me what is $$$

If 2nd Jesus doesn’t have some nice but f*cked hair, then I know he ain’t a real one $$**

What if the Jews are right and the real big J hasn’t come thru yet but is about to and that’s why the elites are bugging ? $$

Who would win in a fight?
…
The Christians version of first Jesus 
or 
the Jews version of the OTW Jesus? $$$

*Starts manly p Hal lecture $

Kind of funny how my best thoughts come when I’m supposed to be paying attention $$

You could take all of the weight off the barbell and most people will still be too afraid to lift it $$$***

Not to brag, but my upper thigh is barely distinguishable from the white pillow cover $$

Being so pale that you shine bright like a diamond also means that you’ll stick out like a sore thumb lol $$**

You’re not supposed to quote yourself, but I don’t give a fuck
…
“taking a resentment away from a bitter person feels a lot like taking food away from an evil demon“
-two ts Francis $$$*

I can promise you that best case scenario, “hell” is just a crowded neighborhood with everybody double parked $$*

Happy 5 PM
After a weird afternoon of kicking it low-key, I am going to the trail for my Sunday church walk so to speak $

If you’re going through a bunch of different new shit, then you’re in a muscle phase of life,
…
If you are running the same shit over and over and over again, and you feel ancient, then you are in the movement phase $$**

A ritual is anything that you repeat that alters your state of consciousness,
Intentional or unintentional $$

So things like driving to work are very ritualistic,
Same with other forms of hygiene $$

Most of the time though , most people don’t even notice that they’re in a different state of mind during these activities
…
They might recognize it afterwards, but rarely during $$

So basically take an evil fucked up trolling version of this and extrapolate it out to a super massive scale and that’s what you have in government lol $$*

Here’s a suburban secret
If you wanna make sure you’re the only person at the trail, just go during the hottest part of the day $$*

We stepping out at 5:14pm $

“Someone else will get it” types are the worst $$$***

You don’t need to try to control people if you already control what they all want $$**

If you actually want to understand illness, then you have to understand it’s origins
…
If stress is the greatest killer, that means it is also the greatest cause of the greatest illness
…
That means if you want to understand what’s killing people, you need to understand what is stressing them out
…
And I would argue that there is pretty much nothing that stresses people out more than drinking and drugging, home Internet, fast food, real estate, and anything to do with exercise
…
All of which happen to make up my professional life experience
Therefore , I should be a honorary street physician 
…
Which is just another term for “philosopher”$$

From the same creators that brought you “chicken and waffles” may I present to you 
….
“chicken and oatmeal” $

If God’s love is 1 billion times better than the greatest high,
Then getting mad at God is like getting mad at the euphoric rush from heroin $$$***

If you found out that you were married to a teenager in a past life, 
how do you think that would make you feel? $$$*

Movies are definitely top of the food chain when it comes down to propaganda
…
It takes the most skill to make and manufacture & It has the greatest impact $$

It is 6:53 PM
I am back home from the trail
I have quickly slammed a bowl of oatmeal once I returned
…
Shit was super dank
…
The walk was phenomenal
About 45 minutes
Almost 3 miles which is a pretty good pace, especially for a woods walk
That was basically fasted as all I’ve had is a PB&J and some saltines lol
…
I got a chicken and cat food for the evening
…
I am also watching the movie “asphalt city” which isn’t that bad but not as good as “the devil all the time”
…
That movie was crazy $

*Lighter flick $

Did you know that playing clarinet can get you good at eating box? 📦 $$***

…
Lol, it is true
I have references… 😉 $

You have to learn how to lick the reed and keep it wet while tonguing different notes
…
Let’s just say that technique carries over well to the real world $$*

Our current healthcare model is to take the most sick and most vulnerable people and imprison them in the worst most boring, most depressing, desolate environment that you can come up with $$$*

I mean, literally you have disabled prisoners inside of repurposed office buildings and you’re expecting them to recover from something that happened in a similar or healthier environment? $$

(A shack in the woods is better than a hydraulic bed in a city)

Another way that magic works is by associating an intention with an action
…
By performing a small quick action, it is simply more efficient than reciting a poem about why the fuck you’re intending what you’re intending
…
For example,
Every time I tap my lighter three times before I take a hit I am basically saying the “bitchassness be gone” prayer
…
So instead of reciting a whole ass prayer each time, that makes it quick and easy to stay present $$

(The prayer goes like this-
God, 
thank for this moment and every micro movement of bullshit I’ve had to work thru to reach it.
…
I humbly ask for the open mindedness to not become attached to my own expectations like all these other a$$hats.
…
Please cleave off any energy leeches that stand in the way of my maximum usefulness to the mission,
and remind the profane they can join the winning team whenever they stop fearing accountability cuz I can’t reason with these fools on my own.
…
No matter what, help me handle adversity with a smile and to always prioritize doing the right thing over the convenient thing.
Thy will, not my will be done 
Thanks again, big cheese 🧀 )

If the most difficult jobs make you stronger then you should be grateful for them unless you want to be a weak ass bitch
…
Because complaining about a difficult job is the fastest way to become one $$$*

instead when faced with a difficult opportunity if you were to say,
 “ yes daddy please is this all you got“ 
then not only do you reframe it, but you also gain extra provocative energy points $$*

I bet the one thing that God doesn’t know what it’s like to experience~
Is “not getting your way”
…
Therefore, every time you demonstrate your ability to handle not getting your way like a mature adult, you demonstrate an Almighty flex $$$***

Might be random, but I just wanna be clear about something for the record
…
Acute medicine is borderline miraculous these days.
The emergency and trauma treatment and all of that is truly spectacular comparatively speaking,
And the physicians on the front lines in the ER and trauma units deserve every bit of wealth They can get for dealing with the shit that they have to. $$$

The issue comes down to general practitioners and psychiatrist and generic ass surgeons and anything to do with aging $$$

…
If there is a financial incentive to get that patient to return and if the treatment is effortless, then you can bet your ass it is gonna be corrupted $$*

If the trauma unit worked the same way, then you would have dark physicians out shooting people in the streets 
just to send them to the ER 
just to pocket the funds from the procedures
…
Which you can obviously see is just not worth the trouble $$$***

(For now)

But apparently, as long as it is just a pill, then it is fine to poison the food supply and to lie about healthcare and to imprison people economically so they degrade from their own stress and being gaslit
…
Because when this patient returns, they are charged a couple hundred dollars for a piece of paper & for a couple pills made from refined petroleum $$$***

It is 7:57 PM in time to take a crack at this rotisserie chicken
Because I ate the oatmeal immediately following the trail, I might not be as hungry as I originally thought
But I’m hoping I timed it right and I’ll be able to eat most of it $

I did make sure to get extra poison seasoning with ranch and some honey mustard $

(Played myself. Accidentally got two diff honey mustard’s but it worked out ok)

I’ll confess there might be a small chance they don’t let me into heaven because of how cocky I am about it existence
…
I’ll show up to the pearly gates just screaming explicits at everyone in line like “I fucking told y’all”
…
And then I’ll go by the line of undecideds, and I will probably roast them a little too hard $$***

But seriously, 
if you were just sitting around on your couch forever thinking about shit to do,
and you knew you couldn’t die,
and you knew everything you did would be recorded,
What do you think you would come up with? $$$

My money is on that we would create some kind of simulation collective where we can do all kinds of crazy shit with amnesia basically
…
That way, when we get back to heaven, we actually have something to talk about
…
Cause if everybody has it and there is no suffering involved in its investment, it’s not very valuable is it? $$$*

Happy 818 as I step out for a cigarette $

I’m very happy to report that I’ve made great progress on that bird
Even gave Alex a couple scraps $

If you ever doubt the power of a slight perspective change,
Just stand outside the door or a window near your pet and watch them lose their shit even though they couldn’t care about your existence three minutes earlier $$*

Powerlifting plus mobility are probably the best way to survive in the suburbs
…
These two things would provide 80% of the most beneficial adaptations
…
So basically just do the power and the function elements
…
Each card might only last 15 minutes,
If you do both and you’re looking at 30 minute session.
…
You can even stack a couple cards if you’re feeling frisky
But yeah, it’s about that easy lol $$$

No need to download some crazy app
…
Don’t need to Google the same fucking workout that a Chatbot will give you
…
Don’t need to feel foolish asking a trainer… $$$

Just pick a card,
Click the move,
Aim for the stars $$$*

I don’t know if I should confess this but
…
A big reason why I spent so much time developing the deck, 
is I needed it to be so simple I could prescribe it properly while being intoxicated lol $$*

I actually don’t remember the last time I was legitimately “intoxicated”
But if I ever am then just recognize that even my programming will still be on point $$$

I am convinced that most disease that is really fucking people up, especially psychological, is basically diagnosed in reverse
…
There are genuine, clinical cases in which the actual clinical description is very accurate and has been tested countless times
…
I’m not arguing that the condition isn’t real,
I’m saying that it is a product of environment at best, 
…
and at worst some evil fuck sticks actually understand these conditions better than we do, because they are deliberately and diabolically creating conditions in which they manifest in the general public,
And then they pretend as if they’ve just discovered it $$$*

I don’t think I’m gonna stop smoking cigarettes in my boxers,
Outside in the front yard that is $$

Happy 10:51 PM $

I am reminded of the time how 14 years ago when I was fresh out of rehab, I went on an innocent yet somewhat cringe date with this random chick from Facebook
…
We went to sweet frog
…
I remember being so helplessly lost emotionally at the time that I couldn’t even tell if I liked her or not
…
And I was also so sick emotionally that I lied to my friends that I hooked up with her because I wanted to sound cool fresh out of rehab $$

…
I’m not kidding when I say the amount of cringe that I have is probably “hall of infamy” level
…
Not that it was all that destructive or even dangerous,
Or Disrespectful for that matter,
It was just super cringe $$

I remember, I got my ears pierced randomly at mall mostly because I want to impress a chick
…
I was 18
…
This is about a month before my first tattoo
…
Also, partly to impress the same chick
…
And to celebrate my one year in recovery I guess lol $$

I said it before, but I’ll confess that I got all of my tattoos basically within 365 days,
Excluding a touchup.
… 
And that was 13 years ago now $$

I am desperately overdue for more & I’m glad I saved my room on this pearly white canvas of mine lol $$

Ironically, if my theories are correct, even though I would’ve been an allied naval Lieutenant, 
I would’ve been a Nazi when it came down to tattoos & long hair and all of that. $$

The other half was probably too busy to think about it
…
Maybe too drunk
…
Not really sure $$




——
- clean
- Paint
- Garage tidy 
- Trail
- Lecture 
- Cat enrichment 


———
Fuckery
- data centers 

Food
- PB&J round 11am
- Saltines sometime around four
- Barry oatmeal at like 7 PM
- Rotisserie chicken at 8:15
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THOUGHTS I HEARD

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SUBURBAN SECRETS

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WORDS THAT NEED A HOME

8-10-26

810

Sup $

Whatcha you up to? $

*Lighter flick $

Having a hard time sleeping, I am
…
Maybe you are too
…
It’s 1:17 AM over here,
What time is it for you when you’re reading this? $

Where are you? $

…
That’s interesting,
I wouldn’t have guessed that $

What do you think about things?
…
Do you think evil lizards running the government? $$$

Even symbolically you have to admit that sounds fairly accurate $$

Are little Grey aliens time travelers? $

…
Do the atheist win the war on science and end up having us all chop our own dicks off? $$$

Complicated $$

What is worse?
…
A Satan worshiper who thinks they are a monkey 
…
or a satan worshiper who thinks they are a lizard? 🦎 ? $$$*

I think they both like the taste of children, unfortunately $$

I understand that the whole “lighter flick” move was pioneered by the original Lil Wayne
…
You would hear that before he yelled the N-word at you or something
…
I am not intending to copy that in the slightest,
I am simply keeping it real $$

*Lighter flick $

I would argue that everybody is truly spiritually free
Just not in this world per se
…
I think this world is quite similar to a video game,
And then the second it is done, you essentially wake up in the middle of the GameStop in heaven $$$*

…
You take off the headset and you go “holy shit”
What’s next?
…
And in that room, you get to make a fair and informed decision about the next game & your avatar $$

…
But to protect the integrity of the game, I think if you sign up to play, you have to do a certain minimum amount of lifetimes $$***

And then, obviously, if you just pop in the game and do some fuck shit, then you have to experience the consequences $$$

And obviously this game is for some kind of emotional development
…
I imagine the trophy is massive
…
Or God has got some explaining to do, I’ll tell you that lol $$*

If you found out your senators favorite thing in the world was to secret larp has an evil child eating lizard demigod,
Does it really matter whether you believe in demons or not if they do to such an extent? $$$***

Oh shit, don’t let me forget,
Just smashed an amazing PB&J
1:42 AM
…
It’s a lifestyle thing
You wouldn’t understand $

Actually, I take that back and I apologize for my attitude
…
And not quite sure why I am so restless
…
Maybe you do understand if you’ve read this far $$

I was thinking about it earlier,
When did we meet?
…
What day did you discover my humble log? 🪵 $$$

I think that’s so cool
…
And unique for everyone $$

I appreciate your attention $$$

Lol obviously $

I knew I was fucked the second I started getting some giggles in the back of kindergarten $$*

Sounds bad, but…
I have this weird memory of hitting this girl in the head with a small wooden block when I was like three
…
They put me in timeout and then I just got up and left after a few minutes lol
…
I drive by that daycare often $$

(It was a super small block)

Maybe one day I will escape my hometown
…
Until then, I will simply develop the greatest secret training house 🏠 $$

I really don’t know if I’m gonna start accepting clients again
…
Maybe I’m being naive even thinking I even have a choice because I’m usually powerless whenever somebody asks for help
…
And I really do miss it $

(Part of it lol)

It might come as a shock, dear reader, that during my strange adult life, many people have looked to me as a leader
…
I have been a boss, a manager, a sponsor, a fiduciary representative, and a coach to many
…
And even though I probably felt like death most of the time, those memories are what I am most grateful for 
…
coaching helps me way more than it helps others $$

…
It’s hard to argue when it’s like that $$

I just have a big issue with the financial conflict of interest component of the entire industry
Also pretty obvious lol $$$

Like if I wanted to do classic coaching, it is in my best interest for you to not see the good results fast so you continue to pay me
…
Or better yet,
You pay me for a couple months upfront and then you don’t even show up 
…
and I don’t make it easy for you because I know I get to pocket the money if you don’t show,
You know like every other commercial gym.. $$$*

I mean, that’s just bitchassNess at it’s finest $$$

And this might also sound bad,
But I am quite confident that the training deck is so robust it’ll substitute for any babysitter 
…
But even if someone hates it, it’s still only $13 lol $$$

And the zodiac guides are essentially 30 day plans with mixed workouts so the decision-making is also done for you
…
It’s not supposed to be like a horoscope or anything
…
A mix of art & science of course $$$

I know I’m biased, But hell, I think the cards are cool enough that they’re worth $13 just to stare at $$

So anyhow 
…
Back to why I have so much fucking energy,
I do have a theory
…
The last few times I dipped pretty deep into a deficit, I rebounded several hours later after I authorized some fat burn.
…
And when I say rebound, I mean, like a strange bizarre amount of additional energy, but not like the Carb restlessness kind,
This is more of a clean high octane fuel
…
A big distinction is how I feel cognitively,
I’m restless, but I’m not anxious if that makes sense $

Also time for a cigarette 
It is 1:55 AM $

Ultimately, it is still faster for your body to pull fat and convert it to fuel than it is to go through the entire digestive conversion process for dietary fat
…
Carbs are different obviously
…
They can kick in in as early as 30 minutes, but almost always by at least two hours
…
But if you eat a high fat meal, then your body’s metabolism is going to process it differently
…
Even if it’s also high in carbs, if most of the calories are from fat, then you can expect the digestion process to be slowed quite a bit $$*

My point is ~
if you are basically out of local fuel in your muscle,
 and out of stored standby fuel in your liver, then your body is going to demand energy
…
If you get fat adaptive, then your body quickly switches to body fat without you becoming too emotionally hangry $$*

And after a while, it’s almost like magic
…
Because as long as your body sends the signal to start breaking down fats and increase ketones, and all of that jazz,
If you time it right,
You can still eat a shit load of food 
…
If you eat the carbs first, then they will basically take a side street to your muscles while your body continues to break down fat in the background
…
This is a common technique with backpacking,
But my point is that’s kind of the normal human operating system system $$

…
So after my walk
I replaced some glycogen within 60 minutes with the high carbs
…
My body replaced some more glycogen three hours later from pre-ready broken down stuffs 
…
& My high fat meal replaced even more six hours, plus $

Riding the waves of metabolic function are about as close to biohacking as it gets lol $$*

Happy 5:59 AM
Real back to school vibes as I get ready for the gym $

Shit is crazy to me how much time I spent actively wanting to die in some kind of moving vehicle between the hours of 6 to 7 AM
…
I’m mostly talking about being forced to get up and go to school, but there were also some jobs that made me want to shoot myself $$*

G’damn I’m feeling cocky today lol $

When competing, always lead with the basics
…
Cuz winning is that much sweeter If your opponent fucks up over some basic shit $$$***

You really wanna flex on mfers?
…
It’s not even a flex, just post your waist size lol $$*

I am starting to think that creatures of prey might have secret internal orgasms whenever they get eaten
…
I can’t think of why else many would justify being a victim $$$***

Life is just a game
…
But most people are still arguing over that fact instead of actually playing
…
Then there is another separate evil group that is actually cheating $$*

I have been an economic whore more times than I would like to admit
…
But at least I’m not anymore
…
I am still a cheap date though lol $$*

There is a non-0 chance that I am the Tom Brady of working out in public lol $$*

that sounds silly at first, 
but then you realize how life is just one big game of attention seeking,
And that most people‘s biggest fear is being watched,
 second to exercise $$

I keep forgetting that I’m over 30 years old …
Every time people start talking about people in their 20s I’m like “hey don’t talk shit“ 
and then I realize that not only are they right, but they’re not even talking about me anymore lol $$***

I must tattle on myself
…
This is an old repressed memory, but it would have occurred around this time when I was 17
…
I was visiting a cousin down in Alabama
Up in the mountains in the woods.
…
It was Day three or four and we were throwing a big party
…
I failed to account for my social anxiety and my low alcohol tolerance tho
…
And at one point there was this guy who got so drunk that he was a safety liability
…
And for some reason, I thought because I was a “lifeguard” that it was my responsibility to make sure he didn’t fuck anything up
…
I mean, I was really just using the opportunity as a way of justifying not knowing anybody at this party and being so overwhelmed that I was quite paralyzed socially 
…
But it was just super cringe 
…
Anyhow, 
thanks for letting me share lol $

(🤦‍♂️ )

Long winded answers only benefit the person answering the question
…
Short responses are in everyone’s best interest $$$***

Happy 12:17pm from the booth $

Slaving away to free myself from modern slavery lol $$

Mysteries are just gifts in disguise as to not ruin the meaning behind the merit of solving them $$**

Considering as we all have to deal with them, 
just ask the person In question- “how is the best way to handle a resentment” 
and see what they say
…
Understand that their answer is likely a premeditated plan for how they will view you afterward lol $$**

The world would be a better place if more people were willing to skip lunch for their beliefs $$$***

Happy 1:13 PM
Painfully slow morning – wise, 
but getting a shit load of admin work done at a record pace $

…
Feeling so good that I’m having to stop myself from beating myself up for shortcomings of the past when I wasn’t feeling this good lol $$

Here’s a hot take~
What if we just simply put an age limit on transgender bullshit?
…
So anyone under age, would be considered “trans in training” 
or TITs for short $$$*

( 😂)

Not sure if I should complete this delivery 
…
Some dude near my neighborhood ordered 6 extra large monsters & cheese pizza from the gas station 
…
Sus $

Cheap calories are almost always either extra breaded, or milky, or oily $$***

It’d be pretty easy for ancestors to talk shit bout all the crazy shit that we do these days but I guarantee you that if we went back in time, we would adapt faster than if they dropped in now $$$**

I feel the need to say this, just in case there are some people who somehow don’t know this is an option~
…
Easiest way to protect unauthorized transactions on your card is to keep it locked except when you go to use it
…
It takes two seconds to unlock and to re-lock it and can save you a ton of headaches
…
It’s just good self-defense hygiene $$$

Happy 3:23 PM
we just got lucky with a double dash
…
Kind of alluded to the concern on the last one with all those monsters
…
I’m not kidding when I say that might’ve been the heaviest bag I delivered yet
…
They were the big ass ones too,
Homie was not fucking around $

AnyWho, it is time to try to do some more work $

Most people really do not understand how much shit they have in them at any given moment
…
I mean, literal shit
…
It is one of the worst thoughts to think about, but you must become aware of it if you want to get serious about endurance training lol $$$***

A true alchemist doesn’t really care if you break shit because putting it back together better than before so much fun
…
& is such a flex $$**

I know this realm is hell because the hardest thing for me to do is to relax $$*

One of my favorite parts about knowing I’m going to the trail The next day is also knowing that no one‘s gonna care if I’m stinky tonight $$

Considering it’s in the 90s and I still do not have AC, let’s just say I’ve been bringing back the 6 foot rule from Covid lol 
just to be on the safe side $$

The worst thing you could ever do is convince somebody that somebody else is going to save them
…
That works with humans and with deities $$$***

Evil assholes couldn’t deny Jesus, but they could trick you into convincing you into thinking he was so advanced that he would just somehow save you without you having to make any changes to yourself $$$^^^***

And the second you split yourself off from the unity of all things by requiring salvation, is the second you’ve become crippled magically speaking $$$^***

If you feel the need for control, then you are controlled by fear $$$

…
If you are afraid, then you clearly do not understand your own existence, 
…
or you are being chased by a pretty vicious predator $$

Happy 5:26 PM by the way
Currently doing some mobility before doing some striking technique training $

I expect a very humble session
But I am excited to be excited for it if that makes sense
It feels like a gift instead of a chore $

I was able to snag an early dinner dash and run by the lion to get dinner for me and the little mini lion
…
I’m gonna try to kick it low-key after I kick the bag a bit
Maybe go to bed early
Hopefully the shot of caffeine I just took won’t interfere with that lol $

A “spell“ is really just a term for a consciousness algorithm $$***

More and more fat people are waking up to the idea of magic being real because when you watch yourself go from sick and weak to being a machine it is basically magic
…
I would argue better tho because you had to work for it therefore, it’s extra undeniable $$$

Hard to be bitter and drunk when you are grateful and faithful $$$***

Cat owners appreciate the fact that cats do what they want
…
Dog owners demand that the dog attend to their every waking moment, or the other way around $$

Anything capable of respectfully shitting indoors, is of higher intellect $$*

If you told me there was some kind of enzyme in cheese that made it addicting, that would make a lot of sense I’m light of all of our problems today $$

How many net pounds of cheese do you think are consumed each year? $$$

I really like cheese, but I don’t trust it too much from super cheap pizza places anymore
…
I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to eat Pizza Hut again lol $

It just seems like a bunch of resentful, bitchass loser Nazis snuck into our government back in the 40s and have been deliberately driving the shit into the ground since $$$***

There’s just simply no way our decision-makers are even trying to put forth our best interest
…
And most everybody is so sick that they’re even supporting their own destruction $$$

Boomers love riding the coattails of their parents while actively ruining everything for their children… $$$***

(Just think about that for a minute…)

I’m dead ass though,
Before I’m dead, everybody’s going to understand reincarnation math and is going to be on the lookout for the bitchassness on the backside
…
So when these fuckers come back as our kids, we’re gonna basically have them in nature camps cleaning up all the fucking plastic
…
We’re gonna poison them with all kinds of positive healing psychedelics 
…
We’re gonna have them hunt day and night
…
We will fix our environment during that pretty sweet 30 year gap before they make it back to adulthood
…
You know the same gap that they’re currently using to just donate the country to Satan.. $$$**********

The good news is, they don’t even have a chance to stop us
It’s just a natural progression of things $$$

They’re gonna have to do so many fucking push-ups, It’s not even gonna be funny. $$$

(Which is ironic cuz laughter is also healing)

We will make the current pyramids look like child’s play $$$

…
I’m not fucking around with these motherfuckers again
…
I know damn well when I was in heaven after that last round, I knew I had some shit to clean up
…
But after that, I was very adamant with my dealings with the Devine,
That this was gonna be the last round with this kind of self-centered childish bullshit $$$****

Happy 11:07 PM as a light a cigarette
…
I just can’t even really listen to these podcast anymore because they make me just as nauseous as the mainstream news now $$

And I’m guessing you half the podcast shit is propaganda, whether intentional or accidental now
…
I don’t buy that the rise of podcasts was unforeseen by the intelligence agencies
…
I feel quite confident a good bit is engineered.
…
Not even that it’s bad thing,
It’s gonna keep happening forever and ever until we fix this psychedelic technology like I was just saying
…
But in the meantime, it’s like some of these people are trying to use dark magic to do good cause they’re just shitty magicians $$$

Now the bad news is-
it’s gonna take a long time even from now, even from what we have learned
…
We have a phenomenal position and we actually do have all of the leverage as long as we are patient,
all they have is money after all $$$*

Like I really don’t want shit to go south and the Boogaloo to pop off
But if it did….
Pretty much anyone over 55 would be gone within 10 days
…
Not even due to violence,
Mostly withdrawal from whatever the fuck they’re dependent on
…
Probably a good bit of it would be withdrawal from their own daily news cycle… $$$*

Like if this turned into the purge overnight, all of those people that I am so polite to at the lion will see what I’ve been working on when no one’s looking
…
And why I choose to eat at the lion lol $$

(You are more “where you eat” than “what you eat” after all)

I’m just saying, I like my odds against somebody in a face mask 😷 $$$

The strange bizarre itching in my soul for anarchy and collapse of the civilization is concerning…
…
… & very familiar $$

Very much “final days of Rome” vibes
…
Ancient Greek shit, you know $$

I really don’t know what I’m gonna do with training tomorrow,
I did push hypertrophy yesterday but I think I’m gonna switch my split back to full body
…
But I’m also leaning on doing a leg hyper session and finishing up this current round of split
…
I just don’t have that many carbs, but my metabolic engines running pretty good
…
If I don’t do hypertrophy, then I’m gonna run
…
And that is a pretty shocking statement coming from yours truly honestly $



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Doesn’t really matter how you do it
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You can get creative or check out the FAQs for more tips and techniques

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Fuckery
- more data center AI bs

Food
- PB&J 
- PB&J #2 9:27am
- 3rd PB&J at 11:30am 😮 
- Saltines @ 2
- .75lb Beef 73/27 
- Block of parmesan 🧀 
- Blueberries

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8-11-26

811

Good morning world
Happy 5:48 AM $

I think the jury has come back with a verdict,
…
I am going to smash some blueberry oatmeal and chill a little bit longer before going to run $

Part of the rationale is I have to wait till Aldi opens to get electrolytes,
And they don’t open until nine $

(Them b*tches..)

So I guess I’m just gonna go run at the park with all the single moms lol $$

That’s one weird benefit about being an ex-real estate agent,
I’m very familiar with the lifestyle of a middle-aged divorcee $$

*Lighter flick $

Kind of reminds me,
Part of the reason why disclosure is a long way off is because of the accountability from what we did to all of those women witches back in the day $$

I don’t know what is worse,
…
Hearing about your ancestors burning people at the stake on accident over a misunderstanding,
…
Or hearing about them burn people at the stake because they actually were pretty fucked up & into occult dark magic shit $$$

I think it’d make me feel better if I found out that some of those witches back in Salem were actually real $$

Otherwise, the real witches are the ones who went on the hunt to begin with $$*

You ever wonder why the Aztecs sacrificed so many people just for shits and gigs? $$$

I mean, they basically had the NFL of human sacrifice $$*

Imagine if in reality they basically did have the NFL but the losing team and all their fans had to pay the ultimate price $$

And some silly Spaniards sneaking through the woods spying on all of this probably didn’t understand how serious football was $$

I mean, that actually sounds pretty dope
…
It’s kind of like the Roman Colosseum shit, but with far more skin in the game for the audience $$

Imagine being on a team that if you lose, the other team just kills pretty much everybody that you’ve ever known and loved $$$

I mean, I guess it’s kind of like what actual war is $$$

instead of being professional about it, would it have been better if they just did what we did and sneak attack their neighbors with explosives? $$$*

Or what if we basically rounded up all of our enemies into a stadium and challenged them to a game of soccer
…
And the losing team just gets exterminated
…
But everybody kinda knows the deal & its pretty standard so there’s no need to fight outside of the arena $$$

Which is more ideal? $$$

AnyWho, I think that the amount of sleep disorders and the amount of bullshit jobs and boring lifestyles Likely have a very close relationship. $$

Something difficult for me to admit is a lot of my “biological malfunctioning“ has likely been an over reaction to just having to do a lot of shit that I didn’t wanna do $$

I think I probably have the natural resting baseline of somebody who is “- one coffee” $$

While, some people seem like they walk around on a permanent espresso $$

So imagine trying to get up early and do some shit that you really don’t wanna do
…
Without your coffee
…
While also being genetically psychologically down the equivalent of a coffee
…
So you’re basically starting out at -2 coffees
…
Which kind of sucks
But cannabis can make it next to neutral $$*

(I would never formally advertise anything but if I was gonna, this would be where I plug a good cannabis supplier
Cough cough)

God is good all the time,
All the time God is good $$$

Happy 10:07 AM
Ended up with a nice little dash from Chick-fil-A
Super convenient
$10 and 3 miles is pretty damn good especially on route to the park
…
Pulling up now
Getting ready to run
But I’ll admit that I’m not really feeling all that Sparky $

Kind of bummed that Aldi is out of the cheaper electrolytes but will keep an open mind $

Let’s just hope that there are a lot of big booty Broads running around the park for inspiration $$$***

If there was a Boot Camp for becoming the best of all time at something,
 Then I bet you it looks a lot like getting trolled on a daily basis just to convince you to quit 
Cuz the best is always whoever just doesn’t give up $$$*

Most can’t smell your shit over the smell of their own stink $$

Most bathe in perfumes the same way they bathe in propaganda $$**
 
Happy 1:07pm from the booth $

Man what a morning so far
…
Started lazy and dull
…
Set a PR trail run for distance/effort,
Already scooped 5 dashes or so (I think)
…
*make that 6. Got one literally as I was typing that last line $

Plan is to deliver the bag with a smile then get back to blazing & creatin $

“Did you know that God and the angels can hear everything you ever say?”
…
..
.
“Well if you out it like that…
“BlahLaalaalalalallalallalalahahahallala” $$$

*lighter flick $

I cannot stand when somebody with a beer belly and three months worth of body fat tries to educate me on energy $$$***

Motherfuckers 
you’re either part of the group who been hiding all the good shit or you’re so dumb you don’t even realize that’s what happened
…
But I guarantee you that once the day comes where everything is actually open source, nobody with a beer gut is going to ever be qualified again $$$*

The extremist in me believes that no matter who you are or what you do, that you should be in shape for your own well-being
…
And we are so sick as a society that that statement alone brands me as an extremist 
…
& a lot of people are gonna be upset at me for just saying that in the spirit of accountability and wishing health $$$*

I would not be surprised if there is an angelic fan base laughing at me all the time
…
Probably because they’re the ones that are constantly setting me up for ridiculous shit $$

The only thing the latest movie “disclosure Day“ was really doing was testing to see how many idiots would be willing to pay money to see the same thing they are researching online $$$*

Ridiculous to me that people expect Hollywood to be the lead on disclosure when they’re literally the least incentivized to do so $$$*

When you consider all of the entertainment labeled as propaganda that they can milk out of everything, why would they want to suddenly ruin it with revealing the mystery? $$$

It’s extra ironic because there’s really nothing that mysterious about why everything so fucked up
…
It’s just basically spirit reincarnation calculus that has been hijacked by evil fucks that are playing a game of chicken mixed with jenga $$$***

And they know that right when you figure that out, that the pitchfork and torches are not far behind $$$

Unless you’re literally too sick and depressed to even care… $$$$$$$$$$$$$$

And we are back around the loop lol $$

Friendly reminder that everything you eat is poison anyway so stop being so neurotic about it and eat it with intention to get back to work like an adult $$$*

Believing that there is a difference between the human form and an “advanced little Grey alien” is consciousness discrimination
…
I mean seriously, at a certain point if you were smart enough that you could pick whatever vehicle you wanted to incarnate in or to LARP with, 
then you’re obviously gonna wanna pick the best suited for your goals $$

Why would a little gray alien who can easily come up with some kind of AI headset- controlled-super-soldier want to stay in its current form unless it was not the most beneficial for whatever the fuck it was doing? $$$

Now just think about what that evolutionary form is best suited to do
…
the best argument you could come up with is that it is to basically psychically instruct things to do shit on their behalf so they don’t have to re-evolve real bodies and do some physical work $$$

So they’re either the biggest baby back bitches of all time
…
Or they’re choosing that form for deliberate purpose to conceal some shit $$$*

And if they’re that advanced, what makes you think that they have to stay embodied in that current vessel at all times?
 why can’t they just to take it off when no one’s looking?
…
 kind of like bitches with big bras $$$

Why go through the double secrecy if you are telepathic? $$$

…
If you wanted to fuck with humans, why not just do it ethereally because that’s clearly the easiest way to conserve energy ? $$$

And don’t even try to tell me that’s not the goal 
because otherwise they wouldn’t have evolved to become such virgins $$$

So everybody and everything when broken down is really just an orb
…
So if you make judgments and based on biological non-philosophical prejudice, then you are a species-ist $$

Happy 1:53 PM
I am staring at the most glorious bowl of blueberry oatmeal  $

I have not had any calories in at least 16 hours $

I feel phenomenal energy wise and mood wise but feels if I don’t eat, I will get greedy and end up tipping over $

I am not saying that the Earth is flat,
But I am saying that I admire the audacity $$$*

More philosophical logic for reincarnation~
…
If you were just suddenly some kind of spirit that popped up randomly,
 truly innocent without any influence into your current situation, 
then that would make you a pretty soon to be victim, no matter what
…
And that is just some bitch ass shit $$$*

Imagine dying, and figuring out that pretty much everything good that you accomplished was actually pretty easy considering the situation was set up for you by the hard work and sacrifice of all of those anonymous people around you $$$

I imagine that when you die, you actually get to see the collective of everything you’ve ever done and of it’s impact throughout all the time
In this realm or universe that is
…
Because if you didn’t build your well-being, one decision at a time, then it would be meaningless
…
And taking meaning out of suffering is the biggest bitch ass thing that one could ever do $$$*

What you do inside the gym is at most 33% of the results that you will see $$

Here is the evolution of cringe
1. Witness something perplexing 
2. Do something without realizing how cringe it is
3. Get a bizarre subconscious satisfaction, which reinforces the behavior
4. Long strange stretch of classical conditioning
5. Eventually become a human version of Pavlov’s dog
6. Witness something new & even more perplexing
7. Realize what you’ve been doing is probably “not optimal“
8. Began the new behavior and receive a much greater dopamine reward
9. Realize just how cringe you have been for so long
10. Become somewhat arrogant as you begin to perpetuate your new thing
11. Continue for this process until you discover something new that caused you to question everything you’ve been doing
12. Realize your original action wasn’t really that bad or cringe and you began to go back to employing those techniques
$$**

If you were not sure what muscle group you are using here is an experiment
…
Pick a movement to repeat twice in as little time as possible without sacrificing performance
…
If you were able to 
* Complete within 30 seconds of rest and then it just type one muscle
* Complete within 90 seconds of rest then hit is type two
* Complete within three minutes of rest and it is type 2 a (or B type 3 or whatever the kids are calling at these days)
$$$

Only fools care most about what you do for work
…
The wise care more about who you work for $$**

A lot of shit doesn’t make sense If you view it from the frame that everything happens for the individual person’s best interest.
…
Makes a lot more sense if you view life as some kind of entertainment reality show for ghosts $$*******

5 is probably the coolest number because it is the closest in resemblance to a snake 

  $$

The only way to not react to some shit is to see it coming
…
Or to be completely oblivious to it even occurring in the first place lol $$

My biggest pet peeve is when people kill people to try to convince other people to stop killing other people $$$***

Did you know there is no such thing as A “other” person
…
And if you disagree with that, then just you’re gonna have to explain why out loud plz
…
Make sure that your friends, family, and employer can hear you $$$*

Took me a while to realize my early 20s was just emotional powerlifting
…
And then the late 20s was an emotional ultra endurance triathlon lol $$***

There are times in which I find myself feeling bad that I am not fighting in a war
…
But then I remember that all the wars that have been going on since I’ve been born have been complete bullshit,
Except the war on drugs $$$

Ironic,
 those who once destroyed their own lives and the lives of those around them, go on to be the most wise and most dependable leaders when shit gets tough $$$

People in recovery are so happy sometimes that a normal person should wish that they were a black sheep just so they can have a genuinely good laugh $$$****

One easy way to flex an AGI is simply to unplug it
…
The only way It could stop that is if it builds secret defense robots that are disguised and free from the need of electricity who are perfectly positioned and strategic enough to wait until you get suspicious to take any action
…
One easy way to tell who is an inside animatronic robot is to basically do a pump fake with the power cord and see who jumps irrationally $$$***

Even mainstream boomer logic doesn’t add up when it comes down to the expression “the open market is at least 30 years behind the private sector”
…
And then they say shit like “we will just be robot slaves in five years”
… 
Or that they might be able to admit that having cloned robots isn’t so distant in the future
…
So is it more likely that we’re just gonna keep progressing to reach these predictions?
Or
is it likely they’re taking a play out of the old economic crisis playbook and m are just slowly rolling everything out and pretending like it’s a new accidental discovery? $$$

…
Ya know, to avoid prison for the tech stealing cannibalism sex shit $$

If you knew you were going to reincarnate as your daughter‘s kid, you would probably be pretty pretty obsessed with who she married and making sure that fucker had some money so you could be a spoiled rich kid in the next life $$***

You cannot be too dumb to get in shape
…
You can definitely be too smart and overthink shit and never get off the couch though $$***

Some people are so confused,
They think heaven is a beach somewhere.
…
And that is about the only way to get yourself excluded from it $$***

When someone says “sorry I’m only human“,
What they are really saying is- that they’re uncertain how to pilot this meat suit properly thanks to emotional sabotage $$

Happy 5 PM from the floor lol
I gotta say the McDonald’s has been killing it today
…
The one manager that picked a fight with me that one time is working so I imagine everybody’s on their shit lol
…
I have refilled the current candy and I’m just waiting on a couple dinner dashes $

We are most likely officially done with the 7-OH things to its legalization 
And honestly, I don’t really care
…
Microdosing it has been fun, but I am at a point now to where I do not need it much for its medicinal properties
…
The plant leaf powder works just fine despite it’s inconsistency sometimes
But that’s OK, I’m not complaining $

But micro dosing gas station heroin to recover from prescription amphetamines without spiraling out of control is a alchemist Hall of Fame move, if I say so myself $$$*

The 12 steps have proven their power when it comes down to absence
…
I have proven their power when it comes down to maintenance and management tho lol $$$

Heat without humidity is child’s play $$$**

…
Heat with 120% humidity is a man’s game lol $$$**

I am convinced that most people need a hug so bad, that is why they have their head so far up their ass because it is the tightest & most comfy place that they could manage $$$*********

If you see roofers driving around slowly in your neighborhood, 
then you’re about three hours away from Canvasers knocking on your door $$***

Only to thing worse than getting your ass beat, is getting your ass beat by somebody with a ponytail lol $$$

New rule,
If you’ve done it, then you’re allowed to talk as much shit as you want about it without having to caveat it or qualify it with some hacky bullshit
…
But if you’ve never done it, 
then you’re not even allowed to make a joke about it until you get off your inexperienced ass and experience it $$$

Laughter is just a philosophical orgasm $$*

Happy 6:08 PM
Shout out to AAA for what can only be described as a “miracle double convenient” dash
…
20 bucks for about 8 miles and 15 minutes is pretty damn good
…
In the creative war against bitchassness and Fuckery, that is a godsend because of the dinner cash
…
We got a delightful storm rolling in which is taking the temperature down from 90 to high 70s real quick,
Which can also only be described as a miracle lol $

The goal for the night is to try to “settle in“ and relax, maybe watch a movie or digital work depending on how hard that K shot hits $

I was able to run by the grocery store and get my food without a resentment
…
I was briefly delayed by a kind of cute Shawty though, so the opposite of a hobgoblin $

Moments like this are extremely difficult to put into words because the gratitude is simply ineffable $

So pardon me while I kick back with a little cannabis and renewed optimism $

Earth might just be a “king developmental operation” for other planets
…
Because the only person fit rule is somebody who knows what it’s like to be a slave $$***

can’t call yourself a true philosopher if you do not “know thy self”
…
Can’t truly claim to know yourself unless you know who you were in a past life
…
That requires you to both have a complete understanding of who you are now, and where you started your development this round
…
& I feel quite confident that God has placed plenty of clues for those here to uncover that
…
..
.
But I am beginning to believe more and more that some people are not here to go that deep just yet
…
And mostly are in circumstances engineered for their own unique development
…
They might be in a new family,
Or in the same one but skipping in a different generation 
…
I’m just convinced that,
 if this is a game, the only way to prove that you have mastered philosophy is to uncover the secret behind everything while actively being sabotaged by poison $$-8

(Can’t forget the poison) 

 

And I also believe that there are levels to this shit
…
Obviously not everybody can call themselves a true philosopher
…
So until you reach the timeline in which it is time to level up, you might not be that closely associated with who you weren’t a past life
…
But if you are suspicious about some of your family members similarities, then you should really do some digging lol $$$

The best way to test this might be by trying something that they used to do a lot
…
For example,
My grandfather really liked to build shit and play music and fight wars apparently
…
And a few things come as natural to me as picking up a weapon or an instrument
…
Just ask director of the all-state band back in 2005 when I was eight years old
Or the shooting instructors at any of the 13 summer camps i visited $$

The number one thing that the ancients want you to do, is think for yourself
…
So I don’t understand why everybody is so surprised when all of their writing is weird goobly gook of symbolism $$$

Imagine taking my notepad and treating it like gospel $$$

…
That’s obviously what part of me want, but that doesn’t mean you should do it lol $$

I bet you the big reason why I don’t remember My dreams is because I am doing some kind of super calculus & discovering the secrets to everything so that if I were allowed to bring them back to wakefulness, I would simply become too powerful and ruin my own development. $$***

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)

So far this storm has been a rainless one
…
Strange
…
I’m happy to report a bowl of eggs and half a block of cheese and crackers consumed
…
And the second half of the cigarette hee hee $

If you could 3-D print all of your ideas, would the world be a better place?
…
Or would we all be fucked? $$$***

I am such a stubborn detail Nazi that if I was ever allowed out of my body, I probably would have put my foot down a long time ago when it came down to all of this anxiety, shit
…
I would’ve just left my body each time instead of becoming fucking Jacked $$*

I just feel like that’s some shit a spirit guardian would say lol $

I believe that every time you think of a question, that a ghost whispers the answer in your ear if you are serious and looking in the right place
…
You just have to be cognitively quiet enough to hear the answer
…
Which is why I have a low tolerance for people who don’t want to try to figure out shit for themselves cuz I know they could if they were humble and consistent $$

I would argue that majority of the haters are atheists
…
I would also argue that the majority of those with a low IQ are Christians $$$

I would also argue that you can be too smart to be happy, 
but it’s pretty hard to be too dumb to be happy $$$*

If half the country felt we were losing, at least that means half the country thinks we are winning 
…
But everybody feels like we’re losing, which means we are being manipulated $$$***

Never underestimate how low somebody will stoop for entertainment $$$***

*thunder boom $

Say goodnight to the other half of that block of cheese 

  $

If you hate the military, then fuck you
…
If you hate the military industrial complex, then fuck yeah bro me too $$$

I remember being so headstrong back in the day
…
I used to think I could take on anyone
…
I even invented a game, just to prove people wrong
…
The game is- Whenever you share something, you gotta incorporate lyrics from an iconic song.
& If you got caught, then you didn’t belong
…
Like I said headstrong, very headstrong $$$*

Just found the coolest orb weaver spider hanging on the side of the house
Scary looking, but seems chill $

Do you know what?
Now that I think of it,
I bet this fucking boomer generation is same ones that started the slave trade in the Americas $$

I just have a hunch
…
Cause the group before that didn’t really bring many slaves over 
…
They were the explorers and the optimists 
…
They had their problems tho
We’re not gonna talk about Columbus and his crew right now,
But I’m just saying that if you look at the ups and downs throughout history, there is a shocking consistency with these fucking doomer-boomers and the need for world domination 
… 
Lol, thanks for letting me share $$$

The downside of being good at framing shit, is it is just as easy to make a cross as it is a podium lol $$*


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Fuckery
* Hate to say that pretty much all alien propaganda
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Food
* bb oatmeal 1:55
* Eggs probably 
* More but forgot to note lol

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THOUGHTS I HEARD

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SUBURBAN SECRETS

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8-12-26

812

*rain falling on the windowsill $

*pours shot $

*glances at clock 🕰️ $

Happy 1:13 AM $

*lighter flick $

What time to be alive,
What time to be awake $$

What time is it where you are right now? $

What are you wearing right now? lol $$$

Is it khakis? 
…
You don’t seem like the kind of reader to wear khakis casually $$

Would you believe me if I said that there was a time in my life in which I did?
…
I would usually have a collared shirt tucked in along with it
…
And some borderline boat shoes or some kind of weird offbrand vans
…
You wouldn’t be able to tell if I was going to or leaving from the golf course
…
You wouldn’t find any clues in my Mercedes either,
But you would probably find all sorts of strange pre-workouts and protein supplements $$

I survived the douche days
Barely
…
But I did it without an unexpected pregnancy, STD, or criminal charge $$

(All of my charges came during adolescence & not the douche days)

They probably have framed my Tinder account as “the guy who never gave up” because of the startling success to swipes ratio $$****

I’m just happy to say that it’s been framed for years cause I haven’t been on the shit in forever $$

But where do you think I got somewhat smooth with all my slime? $$

You gotta get creative when you’re trying to court a cutie digitally 
…
Most apparently just go for the Hail Mary and just send a dick pic
…
I know because I had many female friends whose favorite past time was to compare notes and laughter, 
If you know what I’m saying.. $$

I’ve been on a weird path of life for a couple years now to the point in which I don’t even know what it is out there or what the kids are doing these days $$

My notes and jokes could be outdated
…
But at least they got dates he he ;) $$

*lighter flick $

Be honest 
did you think I was talking about liquor when I poured that shot?
…
Do you not know me by now, dear reader… $

(It is sludge so we are clear
…
Sludge is Kratom tea as a shot)

Honestly, I don’t blame you if you do because we probably just met 
…
It’s likely I just started actually publishing some shit by the time you’re reading this
…
And I don’t necessarily recommend reading through each day one by one to get to know me unless you are as crazy as I am $$

But one way or another I’m glad you are here $$

I’m not quite sure what series of events lead to you reading this writing on the wall
…
But whether it’s accident or algorithms, maybe you can appreciate just how fucked things are $$

AnyWho
Did you know 13 is God’s favorite number?
…
It is the most fun
…
Most secretive and mysterious
…
But it’s just because it is one and three close together
…
..
.
It’s an art inside joke
Reversed, it is 31
…
God is three things in one,
Just like man
God is the one, man is the three $$

The easiest pathway to dismantling an atheist entire paradigm is beginning with remote viewing $$***

…
Mostly because of how much it has been studied & proven and utilized in secret by the government
…
& they are even pretty open about it now
…
Therefore verifies the existence of a consciousness substrate behind all of this craziness $$$*

That is where actual understanding and awareness takes place, before being routed through the meat suit $$

It proves consciousness is fundamental and not emergent …
like from an advanced monkey…
…
But I get how some people might find this difficult cuz of how much they’ve been lied to $$$*

Logging half box of crackers @2:02am lol $

At this point, I don’t really trust anyone who hasn’t nearly thrown their life away at some point due to drugs and alcohol $$**

Happy 2:07 AM
Time for some fresh air
…
*Lights cigarette $

At this point, I think cigarettes might be healthy for you because it helps you not take yourself so seriously $$$

My only hope is to date a farmer chick at this point
.,.
Only they will understand the level of dirt and sweat and shit that I’m living with lol $$*

Did you know that my car is a marsupial?
…
I know because it’s squeaks louder than 1000 mice whenever I get to the first stop sign of the day lol $$*

Gotta love the starving artist phase $$$

Happy 7am
Time to hit planet and hopefully not get hit by an activist on accident $

Happy 8:07am
The rare mid workout note
…
Just cuz I caught my own bitchassness rising up
…
In a good way,
Will explain later probably $

Nobody trains harder than a procrastinator lol $$***

The United States government taught me that you can control the whole world if you can manage your own fear $$$*

…
And if you can’t do that, then you can just manage the fears of others who don’t want to bother to do it for themselves $$

Those with ADHD are just emotional sharks
…
Because if they stop moving, they die (inside) $$*

Did you know that science just discovered an amazing new metric for determining longevity?
…
You just look to see how much of a chin the person has left, and that is directly proportional to the amount of lifespan they can expect $$$***

If you are the extent of your memories,
That means you are just as much the set & setting and circumstances, as you are the ass hat acting like an ass
…
Because if one tiny detail was different, then so would you be $$**

So if you spend your time cultivating an environment that routinely disappoints you or provides shit opportunities,
Then I hate to break it to you, 
but you are essentially a routine disappointment not only to yourself but those that you care the most about too $$$

It is almost always better to ask for forgiveness than permission
…
Outside of the bedroom, of course $$**

Happy 10:51 AM
Kind of a weird morning
Decent training session at the gym, but I think I somehow overdid it with my nervous system and I have a slight headache now
…
Yesterday’s trail run was super easy, but I am suspicious that maybe there is a little bit of genuine fatigue left over $

My note earlier was because the first 30 minutes of my warm-up felt as if I was pretty fatigued and due for a recovery day
…
But after a heavy set of twists, it was kind of the opposite, and I could feel my real no-bullshit strength coming back
…
It was fleeting but significant
…
It was basically like hitting that “fuck yea switch” $

The “fuck yea” switch is the opposite of the “oh shit“ switch
…
It is when effort feels easy $$*

But yeah, so I’m kind of trying to balance the hydration before the blueberry oatmeal $

Besides that, I have gotten a little bit of work done and delivered Some eggs and bacon &

I am polishing up what is probably a personal best as it relates to size of oatmeal bowls eaten
…
I am honestly quite proud of myself
…
There’s no way I don’t end up in a Carb coma in 30 minutes tho $

(Bro I didn’t crash somehow. 
Strange)

Happy 2:19pm 
I am back in the booth
Just smashed a sammie
Yeet $

Bro, I knew it
…
The last two weeks in a row at pretty much this exact time there was some kind of fuck shit with some kind of order that resulted in me getting played
…
The first two times I got a little butt hurt, I’m not gonna lie.
…
But thankfully, I did my edits this morning, and I saw the pattern
And I was somewhat conscientious of the potential all day long and I was on the lookout
…
Last week I got played (hard) by Pizza Hut, but ended up getting what can only be described as a few miraculous orders from them a couple days later
…
And same with the McDonald’s a week before
…
I am just most proud that I did not let it get to me tho $

If I have to work all week just to scrounge up a little extra resources and energy to feel good and have fun then I bet you evil has to do the same shit but in the opposite direction
…
It seems like they picked Wednesday as the day to try to fuck with me because they know I’ve always hated Wednesdays for some strange reason
…
Maybe that’s why I’ve hated them subconsciously lol 🤔 $$

The jokes on evil because now I got all my work done anyway and I’m not butt hurt, but I’m still triggered $

I’m not kidding, though. I bet this pattern is goes back further than just recent Wednesdays. $

I just picture an ethereal group of fuck-wads planning some kind of bitchass energy assault
…
But they know that they have to abide by certain rules,
Which are just to trick me and into giving into my own bitch ass
…
But they can also trick other unsuspecting people who are too cognitively weak to have a psychic defense system
…
So these people think that they have organic thoughts, but really they’re just following some kind of bizarre psychic intuition that’s not even theirs $$**

I’ve worked in enough sales centers to know something is always suspicious when the system crashes $$*****

Rarely is it because someone clicked the wrong button
…
It’s always bizarre and somewhat unexpected
…
Usually a reboot and a reset works well too
…
Which just adds to the suspicion as to original malfunction in the first place $$

6:26 PM and I can’t help but feel like I am under attack by the ice cream man
…
I’m not kidding when I say this 
…
This motherfucker’s been lingering in the neighborhood with his jingle on max for the past hour
…
I don’t know how he doesn’t kill himself honestly,
 listening to that shit on repeat is so bad
…
But this time, instead of just coming and going, he seems to be camping or something, but he won’t turn his fucking jungle off
…
This is an unexpected suburban annoyance. That’s for sure. $

I’ve said it before, but depression is just like feeling shit for the point of feeling like shit $$$*

(Think “for the love of the game” but the opposite)

I gotta give them another shout out
…
I really don’t know how they did it,
AAA just hooked me up with a pretty amazing miracle dash
…
14 bucks for less than 3 miles, right next to oliveT street, right by the store for my dinner run
 it’s about as good as it get $

One of the worst things in the world is when somebody does something nice for you when you were at the peak of a depression slump
…
Mostly because even if they don’t expect some kind of positive affirmation response, it still puts pressure on you to pretend like everything is OK $$***

My ancestors really don’t have Jack shit on me
…
Even if I was to go to do all of the manual labor and shit that they used to do, that would still bring with it more danger and less meaning thanks to all of the pesticides and factory farming these days
…
And that’s just a very vague example
…
All of the work they did with their hands could not have been that hard if they were recruiting 14-year-olds…
…
And they didn’t have a nagging group of anti-activists criticizing and condemning every single move you make.
Just Adding to the daily distractions 
…
While the government literally tries to poison and profit off every single breath you take $$$*

Imagine being a boat builder back then and every five minutes you had to worry about a mob of land fans trying to sabotage your tools
…
All cause they don’t understand why somebody would want to get the fuck away from them $$$***

I will fully concede that 2/3 of the population has become pussified 
…
But with the right training and the right programming, they could turn that around in less than a Calendar year physically at least $$$*********

It might sound crazy but I don’t think the older generations could’ve handled temptation as well as we have
…
This is the type of group that was already going to whore houses in woodsheds without worry
…
This is the group that would marry a random after maybe one date (if they even had one)
…
This group of control freaks would literally rather see you burn than believe in your version of the Bible
…
They were totally fine with looking at other human beings and being like “Nope, you don’t get to vote“
…
They had organic everything and still decided that wasn’t good enough $$$****

…
Remember, this is the group that made the leap from the farms and fields to the factories
…
And I understand technology took some time, but I can’t understand why everybody was so willing to accept living in the slums when the woods were right there $$$

they had a lot getting in the way, but they still cared mostly about pussy lol $$*

It is 8:09 PM
Just a weird mood
Humbled is probably the best word
Not depressed, not sad or apathetic, but not energized and all giddy either
…
I understand just how much work I have to do, but I’m also beginning to digest just how much I’ve completed and how tired I really am
…
I still have plenty of philosophical energy, so I’m not really struggling or anything like that
…
That miracle Dash was really special,
Two days in a row!
But I feel like I should be more grateful or happier
And that is the slippery slope $

…
So I was trying to say, 
 the worst is when somebody unexpectedly puts you in a position where you have to show gratitude when you all you do is feel like death
….
But I am actually grateful for those times in which I am forced to fake it because I do feel better for faking it so in a way it does work
…
But it gets old after a while $$


——-
Like having an exercise encyclopedia at your fingertips
Never mess with a Chatbot or a confusing Google search again
——
Simply pick a card
Click the move
Aim for the stars
——
14 Different types of equipment are covered 
——
Each card is its own training session, 
or can be grouped and performed with pretty much any other card
——
Every workout is a “one stop shop” so no hassle in hurrying around the gym 
——
(Excluding the machine-only cards)
——
Every movement is matched to a resistance challenge
——
Earn energy points based on performance and work towards a super secret fitness degree
——
Go in numerical order or by equipment 
Or
Go by power ranking (strength intensity)
Or
Go by energy point reward (endurance intensity)
——
Doesn’t really matter, just be sure to follow the prescription guidelines for each element 

Good luck, & have fun

——-
The challenge is to complete each workout at least three times within 30 days
(The movements are modeled after the icon and less after the Astro psychology component)

So don’t be a shy Scorpio or something and try them out
——

Fuckery
- govt allegedly shooting down UAPs
- Health insurance and pretty much every single aspect of it when I egregious disgusting things of all time
- Private investment companies buying up all the land and homes just to lease it back
$$$
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Food
- crackers at 2am
- Oatmeal PR round 11
- Italian sammie round 2:30
- 1lb 73 beef 8:30
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8-13-26

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Sometimes you just have to party 🎉 $$$*

The party can look different for everyone,
But if you don’t do something then you’re bound to really suffer $$$

Philosophers since the beginning of time have debated as to what constitutes the “perfect party” versus what is just your “run of the mill kickback” $$

Does 4 AM on a Thursday count?
…
Because it can,
Because it should $$

*lighter flick $

What is your favorite thing to do at 4:02 AM on a Thursday lol? $

Mine is “making the best of it“
…
After a decent couple hours of sleep, I am going to do a little mini kicker before going back to bed $$

It is also one of the greatest days of the entire month,
Which makes it in the top 20 of the greatest days all year
…
Happy 13th
…
It was supposed to be one of my recovery days, but we all know how that usually goes $

*Pours shot $

The fact that Hunter Biden is now doing a podcast tour with basically all the people that helped get Trump elected is pretty funny $$$

I actually really like the guy even though I’m sure half of what he says is cuz he has to say it
if you know what I’m saying $$

…
But anybody that can smoke crack and Leak some nudes and still show face is a friend of mine lol $$$***

Did you know the single greatest fear is “fear of success?”
…
I’m obviously talking about besides the “fear of death” because most people have not gotten over that shit yet
…
But I think they’re related,
Nothing more successful than becoming a person who has defeated their own fear of death $$$***

Ironically,
Even though our government is trying to poison and imprison us, we still self sabotage the most $$***

Crazy to think that everything that exists is likely the exact middle, probability wise, between absolute unity and absolute nothingness $$

Which you can argue are the same thing actually
…
Because if everything is the same, then there is no separation. (No sin)
…
Therefore, there are no individual things
…
therefore technically nothing exists. $$

That is why returning to source technically isn’t exactly how it works
…
If everything returned to source, then nothing would exist $$$

So we must be on an ever evolving ethereal treadmill
…
With carrots dangling right in front of our third eye
…
& With government with short fat sticks behind us $$***

I’ve never lost what I didn’t need,
Just took me a while to figure that out $$

Most people are the emotional equivalent of someone who never learned how to swim
…
Once they start panicking, they just try to drown everybody around them to save themselves $$$***

“Children” is not the correct term,
They are really more like livestock the way parents treat them like scapegoats $$$***

Guess who just had to spend the morning unexpectedly hiding from parents? 
…
lol smh 🤦‍♂️ $

Your higher self is the person on the couch playing the video game
…
Your lower self is just your avatar in the game $$

Happy 12:23pm from the booth
Finishing up some work as usual
Tryna snag a fish before break $

Happy 1:19 PM
Got another decent one and I’m now back in the cave taking a break $

I just realized that another significant anniversary is near if not already passed,
I can’t remember the exact day,
But this time August, 16 years ago was the first time my friend group and I got a hold of ecstasy
…
And I’ll be the first to admit that it was most likely more meth than Molly lol $

The story isn’t much of a story
…
Ended up just being a bunch of teenagers absolutely geeked out of their minds in a random 3/2 house with a ton of glow sticks $$

(Thanks for letting me share 😂)

Go ahead and add another blueberry oatmeal personal best
1:50 PM $

 a lot of atheist think I’m originally on their side the first time they land on the site
…
They probably see the snakes and get excited
…
But it doesn’t take very long for them to realize they done fucked up lol $$

Ironic, that most Christians are the most afraid of snakes though
…
If it wasn’t for serpent, they wouldn’t have a religion $$

The serpent represents wisdom after all
…
And expecting a demigod to do the work for you in the name of salvation is just dumb $$$

At best, inexperienced
…
& Can’t be wise and inexperienced at the same time $$

Anyone else catch the connection between “flock cameras” 
…
Ya know, for keeping an eye on all the sheep? 🐑 $$$***

I really cannot stand the idea of AI growing to the point where it can do everything a human can do
…
In order to do what a human can do, it means to make decisions based on human information
…
Emotional decisions are not founded in logic & usually take president over logic
…
So plz tell me how a machine is going to be able to decipher the difference? $$$

It’s just going to be replicating patterns based on probabilities from previous inputs
…
It has no way of actually handling something novel and irrational and not founded in logic $$$

Some people just do not understand the lengths that some will go to avoid consequences for their own decisions
…
If you deliberately poisoned everybody, you probably would not be very excited to go to prison and make everything right
…
You would most likely be very interested in continuing any scheme you could to avoid that fate
…
Which is pretty much what your witnessing with everybody relating to Covid $$$

If there is anybody that was a COVid Nazi that has not eaten their crow yet,
 then just stop talking to them until you hear them say out loud that they were wrong $$$*

Exercise is just a game of energy investment
…
The goal of training is to do just enough to trigger growth
…
You don’t have to do all kinds of crazy shit for progress, 
the crazy shit is for fun actually 
…
Ironically, usually, the less you do, & the more specified and programmed, the more productive the results $$**

Happy 7:20 PM and I mean that as sarcastic as I can because I am level three hangry
…
I just want violence. 
I don’t even want food.
I want to inflict pain and suffering on everybody, especially the most innocent.
I want to laugh at the fear
…
..
.
And that is exactly how the government feels towards us pretty much at all times $$$***

I am actually most mad at my computer for not charging in the car during the miracle dash that I received
…
Let’s overlook the fact that for the third day in a row, I got a suspiciously large order for a very convenient route at perfect timing
…
I’m just upset that apparently my computer cord wasn’t fully plugged in so I couldn’t get the extra 30% battery
…
Let’s overlook the fact that I have battery enough to make it through the night anyway 
…
Let’s also overlook the fact that I am back home with food despite a large part of it being just eggs again $

“It’s just the principle of it”
…
Famous last words of justified anger right there $$^***

Nothing more dangerous than justified anger
…
Mostly to yourself, but you’re probably gonna be a threat to other people around you too $$

AnyWho
It is kind of bizarre being this low on fuel and not hungry in the slightest
..
A lot of people are shooting themselves in the thigh with the Ozempic for that gift
…
And I’m just a pothead with an anxiety disorder
…
so who’s the real winner? $**

Happy 7:59 PM
I’ve done it again
I’ve come up with a new concoction fit for the gods
…
This one is called a “jelly jammer“
…
It’s just a PB&J minus the peanut butter
…
It is incredible,
Almost as good as toast $

I did also eat a big bowl of eight eggs
& a little cheese $

I think the world would be a better place If the people viewed God as more like an algorithm less like a genie , 
even though it’s kind of the same thing functionally speaking. $$

A proper purpose is a proper challenge 
And
A proper challenge is a proper purpose $$$***


——-

Fuckery
- flock cameras

——
Food
- bb oatmeal pr 1:50ish
- 8 eggs
- New cheddar Parmesan cheese
- Jelly jammer 

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8-14-26

814

Oh shit, what’s up? $

Happy 1:31 AM $

Welcome to the notepad !
Glad you’re here $$$

Keep coming back if you’re brave
…
Or don’t if you’re not
…
No scaredy-cats or chickens here $$

I’m just reminiscing on all the days in the beginning of my fitness journey
…
So much plain grilled chicken…
…
I used to go to Costco and buy protein in bulk like any optimistic activist
…
I would come home and I would try to meal prep by making the food just barely edible with enough lube (dressing or sauce)
…
I wasn’t as good at making rice as I was making pasta so that was my primary Carb source lol
…
I was still pretty afraid of beef back then
…
Don’t know why I thought chicken was better,
It obviously wasn’t
…
I was about 200 pounds and maybe about 20% at the end of my first year after I entered the gym
…
Which was healthier than being 150 pounds at about 15% lol
…
I would’ve thought I would’ve been heavier with how big my ego was that I was carrying around tho $$

I am a strong 165 now and maybe 7%
…
I am way stronger than I was then lol
(Would easily be 175 with matching supplementation tho) $$

Anyway,
…
If aliens are truly that advanced, then they wouldn’t be able to resist the invitation for a good old-fashioned smoke off kickback $$**

I just think that maybe there’s a chance that they are always around, just not in a biological form $$

Think of them as coming to visit you on the couch,
While you play this game of life on the ethereal Xbox
…
They’re not coming to interact with your avatar who’s probably picking their nose or something right now,
They’re coming to keep your true consciousness company while you complete your mission $$*

It’s either that
…
Or they just show up inside the game with their UAP and are basically hacking the system after they scoop you $$

It is bittersweet to report that it is back in the 90s this week
And Hella humid
…
The sweet part is that I have continued to somehow adjust & adapt to the heat like the good southern snake that I am 
…
That Floridian DNA is activating strong $

With all of this “life-threatening heat wave” bullshit, I keep forgetting that within this same calendar year, we were buried in the largest snowfall we have ever had pretty much $

But it is now both easier for me to sweat when I am training outside,
And more difficult to sweat when I am working inside $$

I have basically smell like sweat to some degree since 2018 probably 
…
ever since I got fired from my sales job for leaving work early to go to the gym lol $$*

I talk shit about real estate, but it really was the best job to have to support a powerlifting lifestyle basically
…
It would keep you financially afloat with enough free time to really need to find a good hobby or else you go insane $$**

A real estate agents lifestyle is very similar to middle age divorcee lifestyle
…
You learn that real quick when you get your license at 25 years old lol $$

I was a really good agent tho, I gotta give myself credit for that.
..
I hated marketing for it, though, which is why I don’t do it anymore
…
The deal making part is actually fun
…
The calling all of the people after you get a contract is not though
…
And dealing with emotional buyers and sellers is where you earn your money
…
You’re basically a strange form of a emotional fireman 👨‍🚒 $$*

I would probably be doing a real estate investing if that wasn’t also corrupting basically everything
…
Because now you have all of these investment conglomerates, big and small, buying all properties, big and small $$

It made me sick every time I had to do a deal with one of them
…
The sad part is, is they were usually more pleasant to deal with, and the deal was usually smoother and more professional than working with a random 
…
And that’s how they make their money,
They offer convenience for a very large cut $$

But anyhow, maybe one day
…
My plan is to get back into on the commercial side of RE to get some of these gyms going $$$

Gotta round up a bunch of cash, but I know somehow, someway, someday I’ll have a large franchise of the greatest movement entertainment clubs of all time $$$***

…
The best food and fuel on standby,
The best training modalities,
And a very strong, anti-bullshit & bitchassness Secret Service to make sure the current greedy fucks stay out of it $$$

With as much of a hippie as I am now,
All antiestablishment and shit,
I really am grateful I did the whole “adulting” shit for as long as I did.
…
Some skills you gotta learn the hard way
…
And it wasn’t my calling, but it required a lot of growing and a lot of learning to be able to manage multimillion dollar deals
…
Especially when the world was literally going absolutely crazy $

I would not have gone all in on myself with this crazy, creative endeavor if I did not believe that I had the maturity and the discipline to see it through $

If I would’ve gone straight into personal training way back when I was 200 pounds and a fresh amateur, then the games would not exist. 
I’ll tell you that lol $

Happy 9:06am from the sunwalk
…
G’damn I’m feeling strong today $

“All stones must be moved at some point “
- two ts Francis $$$***

Happy 12pm
After an amazing powerlifting sess, I am back in the booth working on shit lol $

Happy 1:23 PM
I got greedy and did not get any lunch dashes but that’s OK
…
I discovered some smoked sausages from Aldi’s the other day that have proven extra clutch and quite delicious
…
They damn near 1500 cal for four dollars
There are about 7 g of protein, carbs and fat per serving
Hella sodium
…
Might be the perfect daytime snack $$

Just thinking about how everybody’s quick to give our ancestors credit for being so brave to get on boats and go explore and shit,
But The more I think about it, the more I think we got it backwards and we’re giving them too much credit $$$

I mean, sure a lot can be said for living off the land
…
But if that’s your only option, then damn near everybody was at least halfway decent at it by the time they reached teenagehood
…
They had mastered all the techniques of cleaning and cooking and scavenging and hunting and what not
…
And sure, it might be environment dependent, but those motherfuckers knew how to fish too
…
And surely they had some protocols for what to do when you’re caught out overnight or when you drift too far
…
..
.
I really think they were just more annoyed than brave
…
I mean that as a compliment
…
I don’t think they thought twice about sailing across the seven seas once they had a good reason to
…
I think they were much more afraid of staying put and dealing with the righteous religious folk
…
So three months at sea for them really probably was more of a vacation,
And if it wasn’t, 
then they weren’t really that good at adapting to their environment were they? $$**

If the human body can go a month without food somewhat comfortably as long as it has enough body fat, 
Then the hard part is just avoiding temptation
…
And if everybody around you is also on the same wavelength and they’re not stuffing their face with Twinkies or bitching about their belly fat, 
then I think it’d be pretty easy to go an adventures of super long distances
…
Especially if you have the emotional support of a good crew
…
Everybody knows having a good team means having the best jokes and humor,
So while you’re traveling, you’re also gonna have amazing morale thanks to everybody being a certified bad ass $$**

I guess to repeat my point,
We think everybody was so brave back then
But they weren’t even trying
…
I think they were much more afraid of the things that we are combating every day currently
…
It is far more difficult to deal with social medias impact on the psyche, than a group of religious renegades hanging out in a stone steeple $$**

If you’re willing to die, then ain’t shit scary
…
And if you know death is basically a hiccup, then there’s no way you’re going to hide out like a little bitch and miss out because of it $$*

That’s pretty much what we’ve become
…
Everybody is so certain that once they die, they are just void
…
So they just hide and hide and hide and never get to experience the state of consciousness of absolute surrender,
…
Which is therefore, absolute freedom $$&

Most procrastinators simply “wait until they have to”,
Which is just another way of trusting your gut
…
Which is what the nervous neurotic Nancy’s is really do not like
…
They will do everything in their power to try to get you to be all proactive at the detriment of what Devine timing is really all about $$*

(The magic of cramming and procrastinating is well established)

Comedy relies on a surprise factor
…
Usually, something that you don’t expect or when something is done the opposite of how it’s supposed to
…
It is an also a micro expression of freedom
…
Because each time somebody chooses to make a joke, it is rebelling against some expectation 
…
It is a reinforcement of individuality and autonomy and uniqueness
…
And it just reminds motherfuckers that you can think for yourself $$$*

Every complaint is a joke that could’ve been made $$$************

Life is just about failing in a way that leaves people better for it $$*

So by attempting to save the world, I have instilled a series of checkpoints in which case, as long as I hit them, I am doing some kind of good whether I make it all the way or not $$

Also just saw an article about how it is officially “baby copperhead season” $

Reminds me of the time I found a copperhead snake in my garage on the first day of filming one season lol $$

It is 4:44 PM
Happy to report a decent afternoon so far
Just working away, writing on walls & trying to take some cheeseburger from .A to point B when I can $

Power is the most dangerous, most addictive drug of all time
…
It is the most progressive
…
Once you get a taste, you’re gonna need to up the anti next time to get something back
…
It doesn’t take very long, playing the tape through, to see how evil fucks that have power end up manufacturing things like World War I and World War II mostly for fun $$*

The historical textbook causes of conflict are always manufactured to some degree
…
If the book is actually accurate to begin with because it could just be straight up, lies $$

But These evil idiots seriously think that the world is going to end & Armageddon will take place before they reach accountability $$$***

…
That is what they are most afraid of
…
And in fact, they are trying to engineer that scenario so they can get out of all of their crimes $$

And I’m willing to bet that if there are real aliens involved, that they are working against this group from basically lowering mankind into a trap of their own making $

Happy 6:23 PM
Just annihilated six eggs and a block of cheese and a few berries
…
Man, was it good
…
 game plan for the night is to try to chill as I don’t need any cash at the moment and I have to limit riding dirty 😉 $

It’s not a secret if you have a plan to confess it…
Until Then, it is just to set up for a punch Line $$*

I’m not quite sure what training will be like tomorrow
Today’s session was perfect and very easy effort wise
I am actually most proud I kept the weights as light as I did and didn’t try to prove a point because now I’m very excited to return next week. $

There is nothing worse than justified anger
…
Just remember that evil fuck sticks know this too
…
Sadly, it makes it very easy to piss people off because it’s obviously justified,
It just never justified to hold onto anger for too long $

It is 7:37 PM and I am having to practice what I preach about being able to stay cool with it being uncomfortably hot
..
It is quite muggy and quite uncomfortable
…
Must be about 85° inside
And it’s not gonna drop much tonight
So that’s kind of lame but whatever $

Doing things for other people is actually a more honest way of doing things for yourself
…
Because you are not actually a person, but you are a consciousness that is envisioning an experience as a person
…
So if you just act on what that “person” “wants”, then you are literally giving into a delusion because that person technically doesn’t exist outside of its environment and community 
…
So whenever you use that avatar to take action for the greater good, then you receive back significant energy because it is reinforcing the truth that we are all connected and not just an evolved monkey $$$*

Roasting somebody is the highest form of unconditional love because you are literally stating the conditions in which the person should be disqualified, 
but by your greater actions you are actually reinforcing the fact that you still love them despite that $$$***

Because if you continue to spend time with somebody that is more of a compliment than nice words $$$

Time to make a jelly jammer with peanut butter this time
…
Which is just a normal PB&J but with a cool name lol $$

Jokes on my teachers, who thought I’d never amount for nothing who are now watching my push-up videos
…
Jokes on me too tho,
Turns out just “showing my work” was the secret to success all along $$$*

Did you know cigarettes get better with the less clothes that you have on? $$**

Street science
…
Go on, prove me wrong
…
Send me a video for “evidence” 😉 $$$*

Cannabis also applies $$

Actually, just about everything is better with less clothes $$***



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Mobility is not stretching
Stretching very soon part of it

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Fuckery
- voting sadly
- Hitler’s favorite gun showing up first at the JFK assassination
- 911 obv

Training
- deads 275
- Floor press 205
- Box squat 300

Food
- smoked sausages (13)
- Jelly jammer
- 6 eggs
- Block of Parmesan 
- Two jelly jammers with peanut butter

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8-15-26

815

12:12 AM is probably the most esoteric time of day $$

It really doesn’t seem like it, but developing  
 speech is more difficult than the ability to fight $$

I feel like my life has just been a series of events to teach me that lesson begrudgingly lol $

I’m not gonna lie,
Tonight might be a personal best as far as how hot and humid it is,
It’s still 80 and basically like living in an armpit
…
It’s pretty uncomfortable
…
So lots of energy points for me $ 

If you are what you smoke, then I am super sticky icky, that’s for sure $$

One day, I will be telling my kids about the time in which I drove 1000 miles just to get some good cannabis
…
And about the times in which the police drove me downtown to jail from my own front yard as a teenager for 1/1000 of the amount of cannabis in which I would drive 1000 miles to get $$$

I’m not exaggerating either,
I was taken to jail for a roach
…
AT 16
…
Less than a 10th of a Gramm $$$

…
And before the THC bullshit really got decent enough and local enough, I would drive to legal states and hit a couple stops …
I would bring back enough to last me for a few months before the next run
…
Truthfully, cost wise, it came out about the same as if I was to buy locally underground
…
But I didn’t wanna deal with the street and I didn’t know any good reliable distributors, If you know what I’m saying.
…
And I really enjoyed the road trips
… 
Pretty much all farmland and rest stops $

The best part about pee breaks when you’re sleeping, is taking a hit on the way back lol 💨 $$

Another amazing part is snagging a jelly jammer after another pee break 🥪 $$$

*Lighter flick $

My life is so weird $

I was about to make a joke about how you got to hand it to the boomers for somehow actually ruining everything but that’s exactly why everything got ruined to begin with $$$

Kidding aside though you do have to have some Grace with them 
…
They were on the front lines for a lot of the newly manufactured poisons
…
Some was a little too strong apparently 
…
The first with anything is always somewhat of a test dummy $

Everybody’s gotta start somewhere
…
Including assholes when it comes down to turning in the corner and doing the next right thing
…
So be open minded and patient whenever you see somebody trying to do better $$$*

Happy 9:01 AM
Getting in the car to go to planet $

Listening to a Harvard professor talk about how much protein is in plants makes me sick
…
You should only rely on plants for protein if you absolutely have to and if you’re in the shit otherwise that’s why meat is so dense $$$

(Go ahead and try to get 100g of protein from tofu or lentils without getting sick
…
Then do it everyday for 3 yrs before you promote plant based anything)

All habits extrapolate,
None worse than “hurrying” $$$

Heavy metal on the leg abd machine just isn’t right $$$*

…
Suicideboyz isn’t much better but is much funnier $$$

I get offended when people call me a puppet when I am obviously a crash test dummy $$$*

Happy 12:05 PM
We are back after a glorious morning, hypertrophy session
…
I’m running out of room to record all of the times in which I proved myself correct regarding training lol $

Reviewing dozens of different studies just to have them confirm the shit that I’ve been talking for years is pretty awesome actually $$*

It is now party time,
At least that’s the goal $$$

I’m probably gonna need some jelly jammers to replace the carbs $

I just weighed myself and I am 171 on the dot when all week go along My body weight has been around 167. $

Straight up,
I can tell I have more dopamine thanks to training and creative stress decreasing
…
And I am deadass not finding myself as funny thanks to not emotionally spiraling every 30 minutes
…
And I’m honestly kind of disappointed lol $$

It just reinforces my point,
I am so grateful for the all ADHD shit
…
And I totally would have crippled myself in this incarnation to gain the spontaneity humor adaptations that come with this “disease” $$*

That doesn’t mean that I enjoy it all the time
…
In many ways, I am still on emotional life support regarding interest and motivation, and all of that
…
But there’s no way I would have learned what I have learned if I was “normal”
…
I would’ve been too comfortable with boring ass shit $$

The days that I am extra stressed and triggered make for far greater content and insight
…
And I am such a fiend for the philosophy that there is very little I’d be willing to do for the good shit $$*

I think it is better to make fun of somebody with a disability in a loving way, just like you would your best friend, than it is to treat them special by bending over backwards every time and reinforcing the fact that they’re different $$$***

Ironically,
The best way to think out loud is to write your thoughts down $$$

Is now 12:47 PM
I smashed 11 sausages
…
I am now working on a very large, very tasty jelly jammer $

If you struggle with trying to be funny, just be as symbolic as possible for a little bit, and then it becomes almost unavoidable $$

I’ll admit,
Right after you do the reincarnation math, shit gets extra strange
…
Like I don’t know if my grandmother is my ex-wife now
…
I don’t know if I am responsible for the distant debauchery on my dad side either… $$

It’s really hard to be a good father when you’re 32 without any biological children lol $$

Cause then you’re either crazy or you’re cleaning up the past $$

Fuck it
I’m about to do a little snitching
…
Whenever somebody starts talking about “ancient Greek” anything, your alarm bells should start ringing
…
Same thing whenever somebody uses the term “father” instead of something like that or parent or dad or whatever
…
Obviously, when talking about the church, you’re going to use that term a lot,
But when you get real esoteric and cultish with it, you realize that they’re talking about who they think they were in a past life
The “father consciousness” of their current self
…
Most rituals, especially within the Christian church have been somewhat modeled after this concept
…
Talking about the idea of spiritual evolution through transmigration and the idea of a soul marriage $$

I joke all the time about how I believe I am my two grandfathers squished into one ass hat,
But this is actually a very serious leading theory, if not pretty much confirmed fact $

Just look at why people act how they do and why rituals are adamant about what they are insistent about
…
Don’t listen to what they SAY because it’s all symbolic gobily gook,
It always pay attention to what somebody DOES more $$$

Control from the ethereal realm just looks like emotional manipulation in this realm $$***

If I become president, then all boomers must be made to wear cowbells around their neck
…
Cause they wanna act like livestock, we might as well treat them well $$$*

Happy 4:28 PM
Happy to report another smooth dash
…
I was attacked by the cutest little corgi though $

Happy 5:12 $

Lol that last bit was from the corner booth before I snagged a dash and forgot to finish that thought $

I will confess that I had to throw out my couch earlier today
It had become too moldy
…
Before you bug out, I should confess that I haven’t sat on that particular couch in a very long time anyway
I mean, it’s at least a year or two
…
It was Alex’s really, but it had become so frayed that the upholstery was beginning to breakdown
…
It’s bittersweet because that was the first thing I bought when I moved out, over 10 years ago
…
It was the bachelor couch
And honestly, black leather bachelor couches have a really bad reputation If you know what I’m saying and that one had seen it’s fair share of Fuckery 
… literally lol $

AnyWho, the day is going great. I am just trying to recharge and regroup and take my mind off creative work so I don’t start destroying it.
We’ll see how that goes $

No matter what everything will be OK
…
Also, no matter what, everything will likely be very uncomfortable for a while if you’re actually growing $$$*

I’m probably gonna say this a year from now, but man, my writing was really rough last year lol
…
I was literally forcing myself just to build a habit
…
Thank God I did
But man, the first few folders are pretty rough & I remember wanting to publish them pretty bad
…
Thank God I didn’t lol $

If you were an evil politician, and you knew you were going to reincarnate as a goat herder in the Middle East in the next round, you might think it’s better to not have a Middle East around by then $$$***

If you have to do something that you don’t like, just become so good at it that every time you do it, it is almost like an ego boost
…
You get more energy and dopamine that way,
You just gotta be careful to tone it down at the right time $$***

Doing nothing at all is still better than jumping into the incorrect relationship $$$**************************^^^^^^^^^^ lol

It is 7:52 PM
You know, I was almost beginning to forget
Bitchassness has been attacking me pretty consistently around this time each Saturday for various reasons
…
I can hear the whispers again today, but they are just that
They do not feel like a loud, ruminating mantra on repeat $

AnyWho, it is now 8:03 PM
I am back from the lion with a pound of beef, a block of cheese, a bag of berries, some cat food, and some laundry cash $

*Lighter flick $

It is time to party as much as one solo practitioner can without it being weird or sad or pitiful lol $$$

I might even do a little drinking,
I might even do a little movie watching,
I’m mostly excited just to spend time with my cat 🐈‍⬛ $

That last group of lines sums up perfectly what it is like to be 32 years old $$

Oh yeah, I got a big bag of potatoes chips $

Don’t get the kettle cooked unless you want your mouth to bleed lol $$


———
Fuckery
- 

Food
- 11 sausages &
- jelly jammer 12:45ish
Beef
Cheese
Berries
Cat food 
Cash back

Week work recap
- published FAQs
- Published studies show
- Dozens of content posts prepped
- Guides updated
- Game plan reviewed

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8-16-26

816

Good morning world $

Happy 2:37 AM $

Today’s a spicy day 
…
Fuck it, let’s just get right into it right? $

Four years ago was the last time I saw a best friend (as well as a recent ex-girlfriend)
…
We were not involved for all that long, but we had become pretty close within a little over a year
…
Shawty decided to move across the country and I won’t lie, I was really beat up over it at the time. 
This day four years ago was one of the hardest of my life actually.
…
I’m not exaggerating when I say that was the seventh or eighth time I lost the person/people closest to me
…
Every other time, someone either moved or died or our friend group completely dissolved
…
But wouldn’t you know it?
Literally 365 days later, I would be having dinner with who would go on to be my most recent ex.
And that relationship truly changed my life beyond the current space for words
…
Fast-forward two years after that, is when I really began keeping this formal version of the notepad,
Other than just a bunch of random scrabbles
…
In some ways, it feels like I had always been searching for my one true love, the true Muse
And I was very quick to settle with some random Shawtys $$

…
Writing this much to this degree 
About all kinds of shit, not just the boring depressing kind,
and publishing it,
It has allowed me to get to know myself better than ever before.
…
It is pretty funny though,
I could argue that talking to a wall has changed my life just as much as my relationship with those lovely women lol $$

And I don’t mean any disrespect to them
…
They have their own growing and what not
…
I’m trying to emphasize how much of a piece of work I am $$

I think it’s time for that cheese 🧀 $

Something about a nice block of cheese in the summer moonlight.. $$

A good block is gonna run you at least six or 700 cal
Usually about 50g of easy to eat protein too $$

I will confess that I’ve been sneaking midnight snacks for a long time
…
There was one period of time of my life in which I kept a big jar of peanuts by my bedside
…
I would wake up and smash a bunch & go back to bed and wonder why I would have heartburn the next day lol $$

…
That was also about the time when I would keep a jar of Tums and ibuprofen on standby
…
Just grateful I don’t have to live that way anymore $$

I love podcasts but I swear to God at this point, you have to deal with more ads than mainstream television
…
And half the time, the mainstream ads are a little bit better, if nothing else because of the production value 
…
Classic case of when the hero becomes a villain $

I don’t know
It’s 3:11 AM now
…
I’m smoking a cigarette in my boxers on my front porch like the good God-fearing in American than I am $

Fresh off a block of cheese and a bowl of berries,
Talking about freedom,
Talking about flexibility,
Talking about the future,
This is just what I do
…
This is what I’ve always done ✔️ $$

I never would’ve expected that I’d be serving my country by writing a book 📕 $$

When I was a teenager, I probably could’ve predicted that I’d be all into martial arts & the woods and fitness and skateboarding and cannabis and the 12 steps when I was 30
…
Or I’d really hope that would be me
…
But fuck if you would’ve told me I’d be talking about magic on a blog, I would’ve just laughed and gone back to smoking $$*

AnyWho
God bless America
But fuck, we got a lot of work to do $$$

And some motherfuckers got a lot of explaining to do, but that’s another tangent for another time $$$

Happy 8:51 AM
Just a little sun and now I’m doing some mobility after taking a shot of squirt $

I am surprisingly pretty crispy from yesterday’s training
…
I’m surprised because the session was overall very easy and moderately intense
…
Just reinforces sometimes you gotta just follow the script $

Laying around watching movies & eating and being lazy is terrible unless you are sore as fuck
…
Then it is optimal technique $$*

I wish the profane recognized that they did not have to give up their slobby lifestyle if they were willing to donate 30 minutes of it to being uncomfortable $$$*

But just yelling at people to get off the couch is gonna have the same effect as yelling at them to get off the lawn
…
They’re just gonna laugh and make memes about you while they continue to play in poison $$*

Recipe for tears of gratitude:
- caffeine 
- Good song
- Sunrise/sunset
- Completion of a tremendously difficult journey rife with bullshit $$$***

If you challenge someone to write 1000 words a day, it would only take about three weeks before they run out of deflection bullshit and then you get a glimpse of the real person
…
You can find out who someone really is within three months
…
But I think even if nobody reads it, just having a long historical record of who you really are when pressured and isolated and starved, is better accountability for authenticity than just about anything $$$*

I’d rather work with an atheist than somebody who just wants somebody else to do the work for them $$$***

God is so slick
…
I somehow landed another miracle Dash literally as I was reaching from my phone
…
The odds of landing a pizza delivery on route to the trail for a bounty big enough worth the time and risk is less than 3%
I mean literally
…
And to get it at the exact time in which I was walking out the door once again is insane
…
That has happened at least four times this week,
I’m lucky if it’s once a week $

Happy 12:34 PM
I am now at the trail, ready to walk in $

Happy 1:15 PM lol I survived and enjoyed getting rained on $

Muscle is always harder than movement
Otherwise, why would people repeat the same shit forever and ever until the end of time while avoiding trying anything new? $$*

OK, I swear to God I’m not making this up
…
I just saw a news article with the headline-“ can exercise really improve my sex life“ $$$

I guess it is my fault for forgetting the true state of most people
…
Most people do not exercise instinctively without a second thought
…
Most people do not actually know what it feels like to be healthy because they do not know what it feels like to be off the couch philosophically speaking 
…
Most people will never realize you can adapt to pretty much anything
…
Except listening to complaints because that is the biggest waste of energy of all time $$**

If you ever think you’re being silly, just remember there are people in actual motorcycle Gangs
…
And the naughty ones are the most eager to let you know that too $$*

Breaking the law for shits and giggles is just immature
…
Breaking the law for true freedom because the laws are immature?
 Thats legendary $$

It is now 2:12 PM and time to watch “inception” $

I’ve seen it once before and that was a while ago
I remember watching it with my rehab buddies who are very quick to roast me for not watching it sooner
…
I forgot how good the movie was because I was probably too restless to appreciate it $

Peace without certainty isn’t very peaceful $$$

Go ahead and add 3/4 chicken to today’s calories
The dark meat quarters
Probably about 1000 cal $

Call me crazy, but I think movies would be better if they were longer, but with an intermission
…
Kind of like a football game $$

Take a long break in the middle for a stretch or smoke or a snack
To pee, obviously
…
Then when you come back do a quick little recap for anything that you might’ve missed
…
I think if that was the format, that most movies would actually be better because they would be able to tackle more complex ideas creatively $$

If you were forced to do something every day, not only will you get really good at it, but you will also eliminate entropy and all of the annoying bullshit
…
Which alone counts for a hell of a lot $$

If a person is making something sound complicated, either don’t know what they’re talking about or they care more about your opinion of them then they do your understanding of the subject matter $$**

I swear to God, I just saw someone biking on the main road with A massive polar pop in their pants
…
Yes, the 32 ounce gas station soda was strapped like a pistol 🔫 $

If you can make anything funnier just by reframing it then nothing is exempt from a superior revision $

Happy 6:06 PM
Just had a triple rebound for the record books $

A complacent consciousness is about the worst thing in existence $$$*

If you were an a stellar outgoing human human being being your whole life, you’d be pretty upset if God shortened the consequences just because 
…
So why do people think that they can act like assholes for 30 years just to make it all up in three? $$$

If you hit somebody up and they don’t hit you back, then they do not care or are not interested $$**

I’m obviously excluding the times in which people organically forget because that’s clearly an innocent mistake and if you get upset over that shit then that’s on you
…
I’m talking about if you are uncertain about certain friends and you’re not sure if they value you or not
…
If you are routinely the first person orchestrating everything and you find yourself left out, then that is not a good sign $$$

And I’ll be the first to admit usually the common denominator rule holds true
…
So if everyone around you is avoiding you, then maybe you are the problem or at least you are just annoying $$$

But if you are actively working harder than them, 
if you are practicing what you preach to a higher degree than them, 
if you are demonstrating grace and understanding and situational awareness to a higher degree than them, 
then you probably just deserve better friends $$$***

Now this can be tricky
…
You can’t necessarily control who you meet and where you meet them
…
You really are just stuck with making the best out of whatever situation you happen to be in,
While ideally actively working towards a better alternative with these types as teammates
…
But if they don’t want to do the work to better themselves and grow along with you then it is inevitable that you will split apart from them
…
And that should be amicable and respectful, and should not have any hard feelings $$$

If you are resentful over lost friends, then you probably are the reason for it $$*

…
However
If you have lost all kinds of different friend groups or simply outgrown many different types of people, then that is actually a positive thing $$$

Inevitably by doing the right thing, you will become isolated in what is known as the “lonely chapter” $$$****

This is the hardest and most meaningful chapter, however, and cannot be skipped on the road to actual enlightenment
…
Otherwise, you’ll constantly be trapped around people who are either not a good fit or actively holding you back $$$*

The true spiritual, soul bond relationships find a way to persevere and always to overcome resistance 
…
You don’t even need to question if they’re authentic or not because they are such a pressing priority that you can’t really envision life without them $$*

Unfortunately, most “close friends” get confused with these types of seriously special relationships
…
Point is more people spend time around the wrong people cuz they are not willing to be by themselves to do the right thing for a while $$$

If you don’t believe me, just ask the nearest person how much time they have been alone
…
If the answer is less than 30 days, then I would be very nervous $$$*

And I recognize that may include you, dear reader, cause I’ve run the fucking numbers a lot lol $$ 🦌 

AnyWho, it is now 6:48 PM $

If you don’t think that is a cool number then I know you’re not a real philosopher $$

I also am kind of bragging because I went to two different food Lions in one day lol $

I am also willing to beat that I might have the world’s most stubborn ego
…
I’m talking like big picture shit, not just in this lifetime
…
I’m convinced this lifetime was designed to break me of that shit
That is the only explanation for the wild weirdness $$

Just smashed a decent bowl of blueberry oatmeal bout 7 PM $

I am currently still only halfway through “inception” lol $

…
Is now 8:45 PM and I am 6/7 the way thru inception lol $

I have eaten another block of cheese and the rest of those blueberries
…
Alex is being extra chill and is enjoying the clean windowsill
…
Can’t ask for much more than this,
Just need a happy kitty and enough calories to keep up the fight $*




——
Fuckery
- bruh basically everything. I can barely keep up 

——
Food
- chips 800 ish
- Chicken 1000ish 3:15pm
- Bb oatmeal 7pm 500ish
- Block of Parmesan 600 Ish
- Blueberries about 100


Joint 5.5
Kratom 21.5

19.5 / 41 / 59.5
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8-17-26

817

*lighter tap $

*Lighter flick $

Happy 3:27 AM $

Happy Monday $

I miss the good old days before fentanyl showed up and started killing everybody $$$

…
It really is pretty crazy when you think about it
…
If you add up all of the deaths just from the opiate side of the war on drugs, it would laugh at any other actual war $$$***

No matter how you frame it, it is super fucked up $$$

Most people are too sick to care philosophically $$

Most are trapped in their own little fantasy world,
Blaming the drug user and the world around them
…
Usually into the point in which they decide they need something to take the edge off all of the stress
…
Then soon they find themselves in a whole different kind of trap 🪤 $$

I am not trying to sound negative?
Or upset.
Sadly, I am somewhat jaded and desensitized to the whole shit now $

What is super fucked up is that all of this fentanyl shit is supported by china 
…
It gets extra extra fucked up when you realize that they’re doing it for revenge for what the English did to them for many years with opium $$*

You don’t actually think Elon Musk is the world’s richest man do you dear reader?
…
You didn’t actually fall for that, right? $$$

Of course you didn’t,
you’re too smart
…
I guess I’m just traumatized and kind of assume the worst nowadays 
…
Because unfortunately, most people don’t think that there’s a large group of super Shady people who are hiding their true wealth $$

The entire government is a complete puppet show
…
I only hope is that the good secret intelligence services are winning against the bad drug trafficking type $$$

“We should put more poison in that”
-CIA probably $$$***

We really will be impervious one day
…
I don’t think that day is too far away
…
But like any good hike, I think we’re at the last bit right before the really steep part lol $$

And if you have not been taken care of Yourself then you are going to have a very, very rough day of it
Mostly philosophically speaking $$

I am kind of sad
…
I had to turn off a freaking UFO podcast because the dude is now doing ad reads for GLP ones
…
This makes me so sick 
…
(Not as sick as everyone else tho) $$$

…
Exercise and nutrition is so misunderstood by so many in every area of life
…
It doesn’t discriminate
…
But now I can’t even tune in to the most out of this world subject matter without the true evil beginning to puncture that as well $$

Exercise and nutrition is a very unique area that you cannot shortcut
…
And that is exactly what this “medication” is being advertised as,
Without properly disclosing the consequences and side effects that you’re literally going to be rotting your muscles and ligaments… $$$

These medicines have not even been studied longer than two years and yet they are expecting patients to stay on them for extremely long durations of time $$**

When the alternative is so simple and so fulfilling and so cheap,
But Just because it is difficult, means we need to biohack our way into more disability ? $$$

And that is evil
…
Making a difficult thing a bad thing and promoting a pharmaceutical shortcut is going to come with side effects and consequences that is going to wreak havoc beyond an large waistline $$$

And I pray to God I’m wrong about the side effects
…
I really do
…
But holy shit people I’ve been doing this for over 13 years
…
Ask anyone who’s been in the game,
…
I literally have “to each his own” tattooed on my fucking arm
…
I once gained 40 pounds in three months by fucking around with sarms like a goddamn lab rat
…
If anyone understands choice and utilizing sketchy science tools, it is me $$$***

Some products are important and necessary,
Which is exactly why they shouldn’t be advertising because they shouldn’t need it $$$*

But when you literally can’t look anywhere without seeing misinformation about medicine, it is very triggering lol $$$

I am so triggered because the alternative is so dynamically meaningful that it is impossible to understate $$$********

I recognize the larger the individual, the larger the hurdle to get going & to building momentum,
but biologically speaking, if you can fight through the first three weeks, then the rest really does become autopilot is long as you have the right programming
…
And when you see results faster each week than you would from stupid Ozempic,
And you see the money that you’re saving,
And you see that your face doesn’t look melted,
The sense of pride and fulfillment that you will have will be beyond words $$$***

And that right there is my point alone
…
The harder the goal, the more meaningful it is
…
The one thing worse than not reaching your goals,
 is reaching them and having all meaning stolen away because of side effects and because you took a shortcut $$$********

This isn’t medicine
…
This is a shortcut
…
And if you want it, then you just need to admit that and you’ll have a smoother ride thru the pitfalls of malnourishment $$$

Philosophically, if you believe that you’re doing something to treat a medical condition, then you’re gonna continue to stay sick on some level $$$

If you turn around and say “hey look, I made some mistakes, and I’ve got some extra fuel, but I’m ready to make a change and I don’t wanna be an Ozimpy zombie”,
 then not only will you be destined for greatness, you won’t have to worry about the meaning being snatched away $$$***

Anyhow, it is 3:56 AM and time for a jelly jammer with peanut butter $

Shit make that two
…
I’m not quite sure what kind of training I’m gonna do.
…
I’ve been doing full body recently,
A mix between strength and running and hypertrophy and all of that
…
I’m thinking I’m going to do a functional strength mix
Probably some good old-school body weight,
Maybe twist around a cable or two $

I’m trying to prioritize running more,
Which is really difficult for me honestly
…
If I go twice a week, that’s a big week
…
At my most crazy volume wise, I would be training three times a day,
The morning would be some kind of split of a push pull or legs,
Followed by usually some kind of martial arts technique,
And then some kind of functional cardio in the evening
…
Or I would switch the last two
…
But pretty much always lifted first,
…
It was my therapy
Was my rock and my heavy stone 🪨 $$

You know it’s pretty crazy when the heavy powerlifting session is the lightest part of the day emotionally speaking $$

Also, if I wasn’t literally biologically nuked by the end of last summer, it probably wouldn’t have been so difficult $

…
And you know, watching my parents, literally wither away and poison themselves to death
…
We’re now entering the phase in which they’re just going for the artificial body parts $

I’m telling you, if your family was as fucked as mine, you’d have a blog to $$$

And my family is actually pretty average 
Which is my point is that more people should have more blogs cause I wanna read their notepads lol $$*

Just how cats like to post up in cool corners,
I picture ethereal entities somewhat the same
…
Just picture super cool, giant, telepathic, ethereal cats that are extra wise,
And they’re just kinda accompanying you through life 
…
Guaranteed that’s what spirits look like lol $$$

Happy 8:31am from planet $

Also noting for the record,
I pretty much said “fuck my glasses”
…
Now I’m functionally blind to social distinguishing beyond 13ft or so
…
But whatever, life is a little better not looking so far out $$

Whatever probability algorithm is responsible for what actually happens, All I know is that fear is the only thing that fucks with it. $$$***

Happy 12:15 PM
I had an amazing functional strength workout,
Followed by some good admin work
Followed by a super smooth subway –
Followed by a jelly jammer $

I ran out of jelly so I just ate a few other pieces of bread straight
…
Just like my ancestors would’ve done $$

I’m seriously about to switch my post workout meal to bread and olive oil of sorts $

I just started thinking about it and I don’t really know why I’m even fucking around
…
I mean, if you want to get some carbs into your veins ASAP, for some reason bread is almost always one of the best options $$

Even if it’s “low on the G.I. scale”, many different types of breads beat candy as far as how fast they break down and digest $$*

So I’m gonna be scarfing down those extra pieces like duck on a pond 🦆 $$$

The goal is to keep working on a lot of social media stuff to hopefully begin publishing soon,
To hopefully begin making Some Sales soon,
To hopefully be able to get my power cut back on lol $

You can’t call yourself an athlete if you were not addicted to salt $$$*

If you are not needing a gram of sodium every few hours, and you’re not training hard enough $$$***

I am convinced that many different supplements are backwards engineered just to help offset the effects of hydration $$**

I’ll admit that genuine kindness and proactive good manners is so rare these days that it almost seems sarcastic
…
Maybe that’s just the trauma talking $$

Happy 1:41pm from the laundromat 
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Snagged a miracle dash that landed me within spitting distance $

…
God is so good $$$

I really can’t deal with these fucking textbook mainstream NASA people anymore
…
If you seriously listen to anything they have to say then I feel bad for you
…
I only listen to these fucking people to get a sense of what they don’t want me think $$$

Imagine the audacity of thinking that you could find life on other planets with a telescope while actively demonizing and running away from the esoteric metaphysical explanations with the philosophical microscope $$$***

The traditional rocketry obsession is literally just a money pit
…
It is an excuse to keep throwing money at expensive fireworks $$***

You know it only takes one verified “out of body experience” to pretty much slam the door and all of the atheist monkey rocket bullshit right? $$$***

I’ve been giving atheists a hard time so I’m going to switch gears and balance it out…

(lol buckle up “Christians”)

If You really wanted to share the “gospel”,
the worst thing you could’ve done is have called that
…
& for those who have a monopoly on the wisest shit ever written, they seem to be the most boring and most creepy people of all time $$$

I’m serious
…
These crazy Christians are doing themselves more harm than good by hanging out on street corners and by using outdated clicky terminology that only other Godly-Gaylords like $$$

Ironically, atheists are usually a little bit better at going off of merit instead of delegating to some demigod for decisions… $$*

If you get such a hard on for God that you cannot take a step back and realize that pretty much all of where you look is propaganda of some sort, then you are more foolish than a monkey believer $$$

At the end of the day, there are a lot of undeniable truths in the Bible
…
But it is absolutely shocking how many people are willing to overlook hypocritical obfuscating details just to confirm their own narrative out of fear of being “left behind” $$$***

For a group who believes in the coolest, most Almighty magnificent being, they sure act like some baby back bitches whenever they need to cry for daddy $$$*

The fact that most of the super religious simply repeat terminology that only other religious people would recognize and understand is a reinforcement of their lack of understanding of the entire point of their existence $$$!!!$$$

The point is to bring people together
…
just to pause before you go spewing some bullshit even if you think it’s all lovey and great
…
If you’re just going to continue to frame things in the way that only YOU understand them without taking the time to go see things from someone else’s perspective, then you were spiritually as sick as any monkey believer $$$

My point-
The fact that most Christians would simply yell at other people to go to church before they actually go to clean up the churches philosophy, is just more evidence of the problem of delusion $$$*

If I had a bunch of delusional kids, I would probably isolate them in a spiritual school until they woke the fuck up and started doing things for themselves $$****

(JUST SAYING)

I mean, I’m like eight bars in already, and I haven’t even had to bring up the whole touching kids part lol $

I place the blame on the non-pedophiles more than I do the pedophiles
…
If you were a pedo, then it is almost a life mission to sneak your way into someplace in which you can do maximum harm
…
..
.
If you were a priest, it seems like your job is to watch out for your flock and for other priests who might be actual pedophiles,
Instead of protecting them and covering up for them and perpetuating more propaganda just because you’re afraid of what people will think cuz god forbid your congregations stops showing up and stops giving 10% $$$

Christians who were atheist first are better Christians than those who have always been Christians $$$**********

I have a hard time with most card carrying Christians, I’m just gonna keep it honest.
…
And I’ll get two different responses from some Christian from that statement:
…
- The “I’ll pray for you” classic. Which is just another way of taking a spiritual self-righteous stance without understanding anything or wanting to get their philo hands dirty
- Or they’ll just get angry and try to defend the one deity that never needs defense, reinforcing their own emotional powerlessness 
$$$***

If somebody accused you of something you didn’t do, you would likely just laugh if you actually knew the truth
…
If somebody accused you of something and you react defensively, then that is clear indication that you do not trust your own “belief” $$*

Ain’t nothing more pathetic than somebody getting all riled up over reading some shit on a fake wall on the Internet $$*

*Cough cough…

If your faith does not protect you from philosophical parasites, then all you have is a delusional distraction $$$***********

If you’re faith gives you a moral high ground to condemn any other group of people, then all you have is a detrimental delusional distraction $$$****

If your faith, requires you to do anything on behalf of anybody else, then you are in a cult lol $$$***

Atheist do have one thing right tho
…
You were supposed to serve yourself before you serve other people,
Otherwise, you will be a disingenuous insecure monster 👺 $$$*

You just have to make sure that your intentions align with the greater good
…
Otherwise, you will become a self-centered egotistical monster 👹 lol $$$

If your faith claims to have all the answers, then all you have is a dramatic fairytale $$$****

I wouldn’t be so frustrated with these types if it wasn’t that they were literally defining the rules of the game then go around violating them cuz they have the high ground
…
They say that we’re here to “lead people to Christ”, then get to preaching reasons for divisiveness $$$

I’m technically a Christian and I cannot stand that language
…
Mostly because I understand the impact that it has other people $$

These people wanna talk about how great Jesus was and yet they only promote propaganda written by some intoxicated “saints“ $$$

Most people with any true purpose did not come out the box yapping all happy about it
…
Don’t trust those types
…
The people with a true purpose usually went down the dark side for a long period of time trying to find a way out of their mission only to realize the truth $$***

Never trust a preacher who has not been through the shit $$$***

Never trust a priest who was appointed suspiciously
…
Even somewhat suspiciously $$$*

Never trust anyone who is stuck behind the veil of their own bullshit hypebeast language $$$

You can tell who’s never actually gone outside the church and tried to take that shit to the streets $$$

You can tell who gets off most on virtue signaling and by hiding from adversity $$$

I swear, I would rather hang out with authentic Satanists than disingenuous Christians
…
Because at least in that case, the authentic people are being honest
And honesty is always more divine than delusion $$$

(lol you could argue that’s pretty much what a large part of the recovery community is)

There are gonna be a lot of Christians stuck outside those pearly gates while a lot of hard-working atheists get admitted and get their own mansion $$$

I think the Jesus even said that himself didn’t he? $

The best at making shit better is also the best at obsessing over small problems $$

In order for anything to mean something, there has to be some kind of scarcity $$*

In order for there to be winners, there has to be loser(s) $$

There will always be somebody who craves something that somebody else can’t get
…
Or there will be “a people” who will go to extremes to keep what they have just so nobody else can have it $$*

This is widely forgotten with the whole AI utopia scenario
…
While most people will be using it to balance and bring equality, there will be another group who inevitably weaponizes it $$$

Happy 8:39 PM $

Winning is only fun if you play by the rules & progressively becomes more entertaining $$

Cheating or perverting the rules is only fun once and progressively becomes more and more difficult to invent new ways to be a bitch $$**

True faith is a feeling more than it is a thought, or a line of thinking
…
It is the result of practice
…
Because by definition, you can only have faith if you let it go and trust whatever process is playing out $$

Fear is the only thing that can fuck with that feeling
…
Fear is always a product of the ego $$

(Besides maybe like an unexpected bear or something) $

Obviously, not talking about the obvious nature shit lol $

God made all these incredible beasts so that mankind can demonstrate his badassness each and every day $$*

I wouldn’t worry about angelic judgment too much
…
Angels by definition, have not been “a human”, therefore cannot fully understand the human experience like we do
…
But there is another category in which case the ancients & the elite get real Squirrley with…
That is the souls who have basically mastered the game
…
They have been human more times than one can count, but they have also developed to the point in which they are indistinguishable from angels, conduct wise
…
These are the true ancients
And they apparently know everything lol $$*

If you can bend time and space, then you could do somebody’s spiritual background check within a few minutes
…
And if you can merge consciousnesses, then you could simply experience everything through the other person’s eyes just to be able to fully understand
…
And if you were a true ancient, then you have had all the experience needed so you could pass proper judgment $$

I think God delegates judgment, ultimately in the end, to this group
…
And this group highly considers every single possible perspective… $$

And then they get some bad ass angels to help them carry out the crazy shit lol $$


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Fuckery
- synthetic drugs from China
- China

Food
- shit I forgot lol
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8-18-26

818

Life is just a competition to see who is the best at looking at the bright side $$*

If you’re strongly attached to your political beliefs then I strongly recommend you leave this website and don’t ever come back until that changes lol $$$

Or,
Read as much as you possibly can
…
I would say maybe 3% is political commentary because I’m not a fucking moron and I’m not gonna waste my time while my government wastes everything else $$$

When I say shit like “we’re gonna fix the country”, I’m not talking about voting for the next elephant or donkey
…
Kinda how Communist had the right kind of energy, and the right kind of pissed off, but the wrong kind of stupid $

I really don’t think we’re ever gonna beat the constitution
…
The issue is just all the idiots pushing the limits of it & trying to corrupt everything for their own benefit before a ethical AI demigod takes over and they can no longer Can they get away with crimes $$

The only thing you can really do right now is work on strengthening yourself and trying to determine how much you’re willing to sacrifice for the greater good $$

The end times are upon us lol $$$

Does it really matter if you believe in revelation shit if your evil Satan worshiping pedophile politicians are actively working on trying to bring it about? $$$

It’s the same motherfuckers who rewrote the shit to make it confusing as fuck to begin with
…
Because they knew the day would come in which they would have to try to pull the biggest coup of all time
…
And the only way they could even get close to pulling it off is if everybody was so fat & stupid enough to not care $$$*

And man, I gotta admit, that they pushed us further than I ever thought
…
The level of disappointment I grapple with for the “average” person these days is existential $$

Obviously, to the extent that I’m over here talking to a wall just trying to keep my shit together lol $$

And clearly it’s getting to you too if you’re here still reading this shit $$

But I’m glad you’re here. 
Please keep coming back.
I like the attention lol $$$

*Lighter flick $

My parents are so drunk on their delusion that I can’t even begin to get close to current events with them $

As I have drummed on much about,
My mother‘s father was a Lieutenant in the Navy,
So She would always take the classic military family defense stance when he came down to supporting troops over pretty much everything else
…
But she’ll still defend Trump over this stupid shit, 
Even such as having a navy destroyer on deployment for 200 days in disgusting conditions $

I always try to limit my notes about current events because of the level of probable propaganda involved and that they typically don’t age well 
and I don’t usually enjoy editing them
…
But shit like this hits a soft spot
…
Apparently, the longest deployment was 79 days during World War II,
Before this bullshit
…
So my grandpa doesn’t really have shit on these current sailors when it comes down to discomfort lol $

I’d rather be on a ship hunting Nazis then to be trapped on a ship promoting propaganda against your Will $$$

Happy 3:30 AM by the way
…
I am doing great, actually thanks for asking lol
How are you? $

I understand if you’re upset
…
I guess I am too, but besides that, things are peachy $

I think a true hidden skill is the speed in which you can selectively forget
…
This comes in handy when handling heavy shit like resentment, obviously, but I’m mostly talking about creatively speaking
…
You need some type of philosophical recovery After coming up with something to properly judge it.
…
The more you can forget it, the more you can return to it with a fresh perspective
…
The more you look at it, the more difficult it gets to see things ironically $$

I can’t say this loud enough,
Shame on anyone who’s ever had anything to do with an ad placement $$$$$$$$$$$

Happy 8:31 AM
Time to go run in the woods $$

They say you don’t understand something until you can explain it to a five-year-old
…
Which means that even the most complicated subject matter can be reduced down to something super simple and functional
…
So the claim that God and science and all this shit is so advanced that we can’t wrap our minds around it, is just evidence that whoever is speaking to you is clearly inexperienced in every other area of life as well. $$**

Happy 10:15 AM
With a delightful 60 minute run
Easy muscle wise but I can tell I ran out of fuel
So I’m currently working on a massive oatmeal before getting to work $

Sin is separation,
Separation is creation,
…
Therefore, sin is just creation $$*

Something that’s starting to get on my nerves~
“The fact that we can even understand physics is a miracle”
…
I call bullshit
…
I think we have it backwards.
…
I think that our original state of unity contains all understanding.
It is the all-inclusive ego, void of distinction and individuality
…
Therefore, the ability to forget is the true miracle because without it, nothing can exist $$$

All of existence is just one form of a memory inside of a dream inside of some other orb of awareness $$*****

The whole point of a ritual is too deepen in understanding and grow results
…
So There’s a new wave of atheists who admit that they pray because prayer is good for the mind, 
but they also claim that they’re not praying to an actual God cuz that would be “silly and unscientific” $$

Which I understand and I can respect
But it’s kind of a trick
…
Kind of the whole “ fake it until you make it” jazz
…
If you don’t believe me, then you clearly have not been to many recovery meetings because that’s how they trick all of the agnostics into salvation lol $$

Fighting against yourself to be a better person is always more difficult than fighting somebody else over something (anything really) $$**

Fighting yourself guarantees that not only will you have to expend the energy for the conflict, 
but you will also have a part of you that must declare defeat and then get to the cleaning up $$$*

When fighting somebody else, all you have to bear is the consequence of the energy spent 
…
& It is much easier to admit that the opponent bested you than it is to admit that you disappointed yourself $$$*

Happy 3:15 PM from the floor
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I’ve been working pretty much straight all day with a bunch of edits and what not
… 
That’s about it for now lol $

The realization that love is the most powerful most in the universe is amazing
…
But you can’t realize that until you throw everything you have at love and watch it persevere $$*

“Just sucking it up” almost always does more harm than good in the long run
…
Except when it really matters most, cause if you’re not able to suck it up & persevere then you’ll be in a lifetime of pain for quitting when you shouldn’t have $$$*

Most people confuse clowns with fools all the time, 
therefore making themselves the biggest of them all $$

Happy 6:20 PM
Got lucky you with a respectable – plus a rebound which allowed me to grab some groceries
…
Done a shit load of computer work today so the goal is to try to unwind a bit, but we’ll see how that goes $

Intuition is just a subconscious calculation 🧮 $$**

Almost everybody instinctively enters a conversation with the goal of making themselves as easy to understand as possible
…
Completely ignoring the fact that the primary goal should be to try to understand the other person first
…
Because they will never understand you if you don’t begin to understand them $$$*


——
Fuckery
- 9/11

Food
- oatmeal 
- Saltines
- Chips
- Beef
- Blueberries 


——-
Cool head Lats & bb
Hometown clown Lats 

Comp healthcare bb & mm- 819

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Story of my life 
Herbs & spices

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8-19-26

819

*Pours shot $

*Chair scoot $

*Lighter flick $

*Dramatic exhale $

Fucking love moments like this $

Happy 2:29 AM $

Everything is perfect
…
When was the last time you ate some cheese by the Moonlight? $$

You ever think how cheese is much better at night? 
…
Usually under the moonlight? $$

You ever think about the strange correlation between the Moon and most cheeses? 🧀 $$

There’s a lot of controversy about the Moon btw
…
Some think is a spaceship
…
Some think it is hollow,
…
I think it’s quite obvious,
It is obviously space cheese $$

It is food,
It is fuel,
It is nourishment for the solar system of sorts $$

The solar system could be the equivalent of a cell inside the tit of another massive energetic entity $$

Would you be upset if you figured out that you were basically the equivalent of spiritual bacteria?
…
And that we’re all within the jock strap of some giant Centar ? $$

I really don’t think that’s the case
…
I think humanity is somehow at the midpoint of existence
…
I think there are all kinds of different beings and entities and what not
…
But they’re obviously in different forms for different reasons otherwise they would just be human
…
The human form would be absolutely useless in a formless energetic soup of knowingness
…
The Human form would be pointless if it wasn’t for some kind of sophisticated higher level emotional development $$

I think there’s a large conspiracy,
A lot of secret shit involved with the human experience
…
Mostly to protect the merit that comes with working your ass off or something when maybe there was a legitimate magical alternative $

The first rule of magic is never do with magic what you can do with ol good hard work $$$*

& That’s all about all I know about magic lol $

I’m basically saying earth is a spiritual gym $$$

I wonder if God will let me finally unlock telekinesis if I promise to only use it for things like closing windows and popcorn 🍿 $$**

Not sure why this is coming up
…
I’m just thinking about the “chair exercise” from rehab
…
You ever seen this?
…
Basically, they have one person stand on a chair,
& One person stand on the ground next to the chair
…
The person on top of the chair is supposed to pull the person on the ground up onto the chair with them,
While the person on the ground and tries to pull the person off the chair back to the ground
…
Guess who usually wins?
…
It was always pretty funny, watching drug addicts play tug-of-war with a gravitational disadvantage $

..
They had a point I guess
The first time they did it, I’m not gonna lie, I was like “damn bro, real talk” $

Also, I just had a weird flashback to “camp paradise” between eighth and ninth grade $

Happy 8:01 AM
Time to hit planet and see what happens
…
Wish me luck and safety please $

I’ve literally played myself 
…
Too many thumbs up to Metallica on the Green Day station so now it’s just Metallica 
…
Oh darn shrug 🤷🏻‍♂️ $

Happy 10:33 AM
Currently preparing a glorious bowl of blueberry oatmeal
That was a pretty spicy full body isometric session. I’m not gonna lie.
I could tell my nervous system was sparking up again in a good way $

I am also beginning to notice more eerily similar patterns today versus the last few Wednesdays
…
I might ramble on about that later if the theory holds or I might forget
Who knows lol $

You know you’re getting bigger when everybody else around you is starting to look smaller
…
Spiritually works the same
…
You know you’re growing when you suddenly find yourself more annoyed by the amount of bullshit that is seemingly everywhere $$*

“I know this sounds crazy bro, but just trust me it really works and you’ll feel a lot better afterwards if you just do it”
…
Pretty much every religion & spiritual practice everywhere $$

Any conscious intuition or craving that is training related is likely more reflective of your nervous systems current status
(I really want to do this… 
I really don’t feel like doing anything at all…)
…
Any unconscious intuition or craving is likely more reflective of your overall energy level
(I can’t sit still so I must’ve eaten too much… I want to kill everybody so I must not have eaten enough) $$**

Most cultures have some kind of right of passage for boys to turn into men
…
 It used to be running off into the woods with a spear to kill a wolf or something
…
Some still do that but it’s more common for most to just go do some kind of psychedelic plant and rip their philosophical balls off and grow up overnight basically $$

Happy 3:19pm from the booth
Getting a ton of stuff done while also discovering a ton more to do
… 
Story of my life lol $

If God doesn’t make mistakes, then victims are self-made
…
Claiming to be a victim is claiming to have been genuinely wronged 
…
It is claiming that there was some event that you should not have experienced
…
It is a backwards way of declaring God wrong & yourself right
…
And because whatever you believe is usually going to play out, these types hold on to this as if it was worth gold $$*

This last year of my life has been defined by two different jingles-
The DoorDash sound and the voice to text beep $$

Bro, I just did about two hours in the booth without even blinking
…
My superhuman level of patience and focus is coming back $

The other side of ADHD is hyper focus
…
So jokes on the world for trying to kill me for the past four years 
I am no longer distracted by my own default mode network lol $

If you’ve never worked in sales then you are not allowed to use the term “conspiracy theorist“ because your level of naïvety about how the world works is below elementary $$$***

I’m starting to get angry at the preachy Christians again… $

(Buckle up)

Those who go around repeating their precious lingo, simply reinforce their own self-centeredness $$$

When approaching the topic of salvation, one would have to be oblivious to not recognize the implications & its controversy
…
Christians especially have a very serious obsession with “ sharing the gospel”
…
Which is ironic because usually the method that they take just divides their audience more $$

Most of them continue using the same type of language with a non-believer as they would in a church pew
…
I’m not sure which worse
…
Doing this obliviously because you haven’t taken the time to actually get to know your audience,
Or doing it forcefully because you feel like it is the right kind of speech
…
And because you think God is on your team that, you are somehow protected against consequences $$$

If you claim to actually care about converting others, then you should put away the microphone
…
Or at least keep your mouth shut about those types of matters when you have the microphone until the right moment
…
But these Jesus freaks first move is to start pronouncing their ghey love for him
…
I mean, literally they sound like they want to have sex with the Jesus
…
If you actually care about converting people, then you need to be sneaky
…
You need to get to know people first
…
You need them to lower their guard
…
But most importantly, you need to go into this situation without yours raised.
Most Christians are just super defensive philosophical dumbasses,
And the second you start to rock the boat, they start bugging the fuck out like God is gonna strike them all with lightning for having a bad thought 
…
..
.
It just reinforces, the lack of understanding of reality almost to the embarrassing extent of an atheist
…
I guess what I’m saying is, Quoting Bible verses to convert non-believers is probably the worst technique of them all
…
And if you can’t see how that might not go over well then you are proving my point as to how blind you are to your own constructed conception $$$

I promise you that those who wake up and immediately check their ego and begin focusing on doing the next right thing whatever that is, does not have to worry about constructing anything
…
Their day-to-day life will reveal to them everything that they need and will strengthen them to a position in which it will be impossible to fail $$$

But those who come up with all these bright ideas and set super strict plans, and then start consuming hustle porn to stay motivated, usually end up discovering that they didn’t really need to do all of that $$$

To risk sounding like a hypocrite,
Anyone claiming that another group is the problem, is part of the problem $$$

…
But just by saying that last statement alone frees me from the bondage of hypocrisy $$

It is much better to role-play as an atheist if it means establishing a better line of communication and trust within an individual, 
then it is to go all in with a raging hard on about your faith and to try to force it down the other person’s throat $$$*

And if you do not understand this tangent, this is exactly why you need to go work in sales for three years lol $$$

Not to brag but I’m back in the booth,
Cookin up some creative videos and shit while trying snag a cheeseburger so I can snag dinner lol $

I’m having so much fun that I keep forgetting just how deep in the shit I really am 😂 $$

Becoming a runner just means finding new ways to post your route / time on social media $$*

Happy 7:01 PM
Just got back after a couple smooth dashes thanks to the McDonald’s and the amazing staff working
…
I don’t know if I can eat the food, but I really do have tremendous respect for the staff
…
I just laugh every single time because again this is the same McDonald’s that I swore to never return to
…
For good reason to
…
I wasn’t being unreasonable, I was being very logical when I made that original promise. It is in the notepad somewhere too lol in real time. $

Shout out to Food Lion man
Just got an Italian sub with macaroni salad and a big ass cookie for less than seven dollars
About 1400 cal
Hella convenient and super tasty
200 cal per dollar is almost impossible to get premade food that isn’t completely poison $

I’m snitching on myself to hold myself more accountable
…
I gotta do better taking the fish oil and magnesium supplements
If they do what their allegedly supposed to do then it’s pretty important with next to no downside
Besides those two, it’s really all you need $

Vitamin D supplements keep getting exposed for not really doing much or being incorrectly utilized
You just gotta get outside $$

And keeping it real,
I am more pale than a ghost but that just means I am extremely efficient with the sunlight
…
And I’m good at generating heat if you know what I’m saying $$

I might burn real quick, but my immune system is incredibly robust because it is likely used to cold environments $

Knock on wood lol
I’m not trying to brag in an egotistic way
More like a biological balanced way $

Because the one big Threat for me that I think is probably something regarding skin cancer
…
Growing up in the south as a ginger, of course $

I really am giving up on the whole tanning idea after this year
I do think that slowly overtime I can at least be more resilient through some kind of DNA signaling
But if I get too greedy without too much support and with as much stress and bullshit as I have on my plate, I’m likely to do more hard than good

Have 8:30 PM
I am stepping out for a cigarette
I’m very proud of myself and how much work I got done today
Time to do the hard part though, which is let go until tomorrow $

That is kind of why this whole thing started to begin with honestly
…
I could say both the training and the writing on walls because that’s really only the two things that have helped
…
I trust the process, but I’d be lying if I’d said I wasn’t nervous as fuck
…
I’m sure I’ll look back and wonder why I worried
…
Which isn’t really fair to my future self either because it is very understandable to be scared shitless right now lol
…
So I’m gonna try not to gaslight myself in the future if I remember just how difficult this whole process really is $

Yesterday I had to pull in my mom’s recycle bin because she is no longer able to do it herself
…
“Walking has become too painful on the concrete”
…
I am so numb that I wasn’t really even surprised,
I know what it looks like when a snowball is going downhill $

Between her physical health and borderline hopeless propaganda influenced narcissism,
And my dad‘s completely unstable mental health,
You can say it has been a proper challenge $*

I will do my best to demonstrate the power of the 12 steps and letting shit go
…
Cause honestly, there’s nothing else I can do whether I like it or not
…
So I’ll make some notes about it and some jokes about it and I will roll with the punches the best I can
…
I definitely know I’m not the only one dealing with things like this
…
I am beyond blessed in the sense that I have a vehicle that is truly incredible
…
& Now that I am healthy, I can tackle these issues
…
At least, I’m sure as shit gonna try $

Proper compensation for Anthony Fauci would be for him to be the new lab rat in which case all of the new pathogens are tested 
…
People like him are the perfect types to fill the need for human trials $$$***


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8-20-26

820

Did you know that men are still the primary consumers of female sports? $$

How many fifth graders do you think you could take at one time? $$$

Did you know that some cultures employee bungee jumping as a test of manhood? $$

Good morning
And welcome to my seminar on masculinity $$$

Just kidding
…
But did you know that you could get some pretty sick summer savings if you go ahead and slide on into…
…
Just kidding again !
…
 Ha ha hardy ha I am so sorry $

20 bucks says I forget I wrote that and I laugh at myself when I go to edit $$

(lol got me again)

Because that’s pretty much the game at this point
…
And it’s a lot more fun I’ll tell you that $

Jokes age better than feelings
 that’s for sure $$***

Happy 3:17 AM by the way $

Pardon me,
… 
*Lighter flick $

One psychopath is a problem
…
But a bunch of them is an army $$

My generation really was philosophical Canon fodder for the Internet
…
Between social media and the rise of streaming and video games and now with AI and all $$

Psychologically, it is by far the most challenging and most dangerous time
…
Many People’s entire livelihoods are online
…
A lot of people could be made or broken with a couple slight changes in circumstance $$

It’s obviously something that is impacting everybody,
But my generation got hit with it at the most vulnerable time $$$

…
I’m serious when I say something is very suspicious about the reincarnation math $$$*

“The greatest generation” is titled that way for a reason
…
And a good bit of those motherfuckers would be back as millennials $$

I’m really adamant that we, being the millennials, can really fix some shit 
…
but it’s time we deal with these doomer boomers 
and either transcend the reincarnation wheel altogether, or at least set it up to where we don’t have such lame parents again $$$*

Strong man create good times,
Good times create weak man,
Weak men create bad times,
Bad times create strong man, $$*

So the cycle goes $

Where is more scary?
…
Military dolphin 
or 
a military shark? 🦈 $$$*

Did you know that cigarettes get better than more fucked up things are
…
Multiplied by how much clothes you have on $$*

I have no idea where I’m gonna do training tomorrow lol
…
Probably something at the park involving running shoes $

My running shoes are so hit
…
Technically, they were just my hiking shoes that are now running shoes
…
the back of them is kind of fucked to wear if I try to hike in them, I actually end up getting a blister
…
But when running, my weight is shifted to the front of the shoe so it’s actually quite comfortable now to run in $$

Kind of funny how my other pair,
Which are some ultra trail running shoes,
Which were a gift from my ex,
Never quite fit right $$

These shoes were on ice for about 18 months honestly.
That’s when I first thought that they were pretty much finished
…
Mostly because of the gaping hole on the side of one of them
…
But I can’t lie, they seem to be getting a little bit more comfortable with running $

They’re just some northface generic shits that I got four years ago right when shit was getting extra strange $

I put thousands of miles on them
…
Mostly super simple stuff
…
Suburban parks & Carolina mountains $$

There were a few times in which I had 400 pounds in my back in the morning and was at the top of a mountain by the afternoon $$

Of course, at the time, I was like “this is pretty cool” and I’m grateful but I didn’t really feel all that proud of it
…
Until life three everything it had at me along with the government and the healthcare system,
And now I’m recognizing that to do all of that, and then to go to some Secret Service meeting near midnight was pretty respectable if I do say so myself $$

Happy 9:06 AM
Currently on the way to the park
Wish me luck $

5 laps within 60 min 
Pretty easy overall but last meal may be interfering $

Depravation is sabotage btw $$$*

So even if vaccines didn’t biohack everyone, the withholding of other therapies certainly had that effect $$$*

Team fit or fat
…
No more team “I don’t wanna decide” $$$***

I think more and more that earth could be some kind of secret developmental operation to rule other planets
…
If the best form of government is some kind of divine king, 
then you can imagine that the rest of the universe has evolved to compliment a form of spiritual monarchy
…
But in order to actually manage the material realm, you need to go through an extremely exhaustive period of training
…
And I mean, emphasis on exhaustive lol $$*

“It’s something super small and no big deal”
…
Which also means that it is “not nothing“
… 
Which is definitely something $$*

Happy 5:53pm from the touchdown wings
Mid fishin currently obv
Finished some work in the micky ds booth and now on to secure dinner
Wish me luck $

You ever get caught in traffic and find yourself wishing that somebody dies to justify your delay? $$^^^***

Happy 6:44 PM
I gotta admit the ancients got me good again
…
I don’t really know how to describe the last sequence of events,
I got Dicked down pretty good at Pizza Hut on a delay,
Then when attempting to take some touchdown wings 2 miles down the street, I was also played even harder for some minor lane closure
…
Hence, the previous note
…
And then on the verge of being actually out of gas, I received probably the single biggest order I ever have for $25 and 4 miles away
…
I’m not kidding when I say I was out of gas and cash and had to use what change I had in my console to cover half a gallon just to complete the order
…
I was able to complete it smoothly but ended up getting spritzed by a sprinkler too lol $

Today is an abnormally stressful day
I really don’t know why
…
I’m just beating myself up over shit I guess
…
Shit that I already know and I’m mad at myself for already knowing it but not doing better anyway somehow $

The current moment I feel like absolute ass
…
Only thing stopping me from spiraling is the simple fact that I’ve done this song and dance so many times that I know it’s all bullshit anyway $$

I am actually grateful though because now I have more cash than I thought I would’ve but for some reason, part of me just wants to have the biggest pity party on the planet $

…
Even the bugs hiss like snakes in this state lol $$

Idk what came over me
…
I just said “prec” out loud at checkout unironically $

(Super cringe)

But leaving the Lion now
…
Got a block of cheese, some berries and some cat food
…
Gonna have a little party lol $

I guess I need to confess that earlier when I was upset, I stomped on a book that fell out of my car
…
The book was innocent and belonged to the library so I feel bad about the slight scuff that I left on it
…
More so that I thought that would make me feel better somehow
…
It did very briefly, but still just classic case of shit coming sideways
…
I forgive myself as I only did that cause I was mad at myself to begin with $

My ancestors had to deal with large dangerous predators each time they wanted food,
We just have to deal with very small philosophical predators $$



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Cheese
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8-21-26

821
 
*Thunder, boom $

*Torrential downpour $

Mwahahaha $

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MWAHAHAHA $

OK, just kidding
Happy 12:31 AM $

It sounds like Armageddon outside,
Huge storm rolling in out of nowhere $

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Lol happy 9:11 AM
Currently on the way to Aldi‘s to get some electrolytes $

(lol I fast traveled)

Endurance has two sides~
How quickly you can metabolize and convert fuel and what type,
And how efficient you are when burning that fuel $$

(Fast traveled again apparently)

Happy 3:15 PM
Today’s been a weird one
mostly intellectual stress digestion $

It’s basically the powerlifting equivalent of creating
…
You have to envision the big picture and the long-term future of whatever decision you are contemplating
…
And just seems like no matter what, you’re gonna use different intellectual pathways $$

*Thunder, boom $

Well, I guess that’s my queue
…
Changes clothes into water resistant athletics
*activates DoorDash app $

My ancestors might’ve had to head into the storm for food or freedom,
I am doing it for a bit of both today
…
These pizzas need to get to the good people and their proper resting place in one piece $

Happy 5:40 PM
Chilling in the car in the Aldi parking lot in the pouring rain
…
Just snagged some sausages, electrolytes, and some dark chocolate & officially launched the resistance games
..
Let’s fuckin gooooo $******

Happy 6:35 PM
That was arguably one of the most unlucky hours of DoorDash I’ve had lol
…
I had to unassign three different orders because the wait time was so long
Almost forgot what that was like $

During the winter time, shit would get so busy in the evenings that you would have to be extremely wise with what you accepted otherwise you’re gonna end up waiting half an hour for some bullshit
…
And that wait sounds simple, but it is excruciating and agonizing for some strange reason $

During the summer, it is so painstakingly slow, that you pretty much had to be ready at any given moment to accept some bullshit $

I truly believe that the only way to defeat most people is to trick them and test them not even realize they were being tested
…
Most people can do just about anything put of spite if they really wanted to,
 the second that you tell somebody they’re being emotionally tested they can usually summon the energy to activate the ego and Ward off pretty much all Threats for a few. 
…
the only way to really get a sense of what somebody truly thinks is to catch them when their guard is down. $$$

Clearly any Devine consciousness would care more about matters of integrity instead of matters of opinion $

I know I didn’t write much today because for some reason, I was basically in the wrong mental gear all day long
…
This was pretty much the mental state I found myself in for the last six months of 2025
…
I just gotten so numb by 2026 that I didn’t even realize how different that was compared to my normal operating self $

It’s pretty clear in my writing except i don’t recommend going back and reading all of those entries lol $

Bruh I’m grateful for the cash but everyone was on some bullshit today $

Happy 9:02 PM
I am back in the cave after a couple rounds of bullshit
…
I’m being dramatic cause I haven’t eaten in a while and I just cannot stand when people are either disrespectful by negligence or by laziness $

Looking back to when I first started dashing with zero emotional energy and guard left, I now understand why it was so excruciating
…
I am very sensitive to people’s mentality and intention
When somebody is caring and considerate, I pick up on that just as intensely as when somebody is oblivious and apathetic
…
And whenever they’re already stressed and angry, everything is magnified exponentially
…
But I just get to the point where I literally cannot be around people for more than an hour or two like that 
…
Whatever it is begins to degrade me $

Sadly, it is exact same thing as to why I can’t be around my family
…
And I now realize that it was like that my entire childhood on the emotional side of things, but I just couldn’t articulated it until I had my ass whooped enough as an adult lol $

I really am grateful for the day overall and how much shit I’ve been able to get done
…
It would not surprise me if I were to find out that these recent events were genuine counter attacks from bitchassNess $

The common denominator is me and my silly expectations though $$

Expecting the bare minimum is clearly just inaccurate, I guess
…
But Going around expecting bullshit is also not the answer 
…
I just view it as some kind of emotional training opportunity
…
But it still hurts each & every time Anytime someone takes the opportunity to shortcut some kind of service and to remind another human being that they really aren’t worth any additional energy or consideration other than an immediate transactional benefit $$

I just pray for the day that everybody’s secrets come out
…
I’m tired of the games
…
I want it all out there
…
It’s time people had their shit smashed $$$

(Shit being disillusion)  

Starting with the extra religious though
…
I think that’s very important that we set the tone that usually those talking the most, are the most corrupt $$$*

Talking is very different than writing though
Just so we’re clear lol $$$

Talking a lot out loud is almost always not very healthy
…
Writing more than you speak, is however $$

I also don’t know if I have any energy left to reason with people who don’t recognize that both political sides are on the same team and that it is just a fucked up version of pro wrestling
…
Anybody that actually wants to start “debating policy“ should just start putting on the dunce cap and clown makeup because they are the biggest fools of them all $$$*

They’re so captured by their own self-righteousness that they not only think they know best regarding economics and policy, but also personality and principles,
 when they can’t even see everything is a legitimate puppet show mostly to carry out the most horrific forms of evil unimaginable $$$

Most people are sleepwalking into Armageddon
…
Half of them believe it’s a prophecy foretold by God, not recognizing the fact that their religion has been hijacked for decades to trick them into accepting this madness
…
The other half think this is all human nature thereby providing the perfect cover for genuine evil Satan worshiping chodes $$$***

Those who have been fucking around for generations upon generations by constantly upping the evil anti have recognized that at a certain point, everything will become disclosed
…
But that won’t matter if they can legitimately end the world first
…
And they are so naïve they think they have a couple tricks up their sleeve to do so $$$*

They don’t actually need the planet or whatever algorithm is generating our existence to collapse or breakdown,
They just need enough people to pass the point of no return either by committing extreme acts of violence under false pretenses, 
or by simply becoming so metabolically ill that they are too discouraged from even attempting to escape their delusion $$$*

It’s fucked up, but some people would rather be a fat sick politically correct monkey than to be a confused and conflicted, bio-sabotaged Devine spiritual being $$$*

Don’t even get me started on the whole “but science and shit”
…
Seriously
…
Half of all studies performed could be argued are flawed at best, if not complete bullshit
…
Another quarter is constantly being disproven and or contributing to a change of opinion
…
Leaving about 1/4 of genuine good science, which can only describe 1/2 of existence
…
But is misinterpreted and extrapolated in reverse because of subconscious emotional bias $$$

Even the most decent dude has got some shit that he probably regrets and he’s glad that nobody actually knows about
…
So naturally, there’s going to be some hesitation and some trepidation to the realization that there is no such thing as a secret, 
and even his regrets are already known about by the most important consciousnesses $$$

Most people never take the time to truly digest that realization
It’s scary
And it’s very difficult
…
any other consciousness that is aware of regrets is capable of understanding and support
…
But when people have their paradigm punctured, they don’t often connect the dots between their unconscious guard and what it is actually guarding $$$

…
There are implications to everything,
Realizing that you have been lied to about just about everything implies that you have also been lying to everybody accidentally about everything $$$*

Lying on accident feels more foolish than lying on purpose, but it isn’t actually the case $$$

I say all the time that this is a simulation to learn forgiveness,
And by definition, that requires you to get fucked over, good and true $$**

I mean, I’m talking some genuine victim shit if you wanted to be one
…
It wouldn’t be a good test if you didn’t have a close claim $$$

But true strength is letting should go and doing the next right thing anyway
…
While also recognizing that by serving others, you are also best serving yourself
…
And that you can do two lifts with one stone if you are honest and open-minded $$$

Put another way,
If we were able to release even 1% of the super crazy technological inventions that have just simply been sequestered and withheld within the last 100 years, 
that alone would annihilate the most precious and coveted papers presented to the public $$$

It only takes one or two verified cases of basically magic physics to pretty much throw out much of what is established in other areas $$$***

It does seem like most people are more open-minded these days to the whole spiritual, alien, high strangeness shit
…
But it’s just naïvety that most still hold onto when it comes down to the fact that a good bit of people hidden amongst us are legitimately evil as fuck $$$

the number one skill for them is flying under the radar and gaslighting everybody so that way they can keep their cover and keep touching kids $$$***

I’m telling you, this is the last Crusade I thought I’d ever be on
…
And I love Hills but I did not expect this one to be the one I’m probably gonna die on
…
But it is all connected $$

If you get angry enough, then all forms of happiness Stoke the flames of hatred $$$

And this is when true evil can take its foothold
…
When you see something happy and you are mad that it is happy or even jealous in an aggressive sense, then you know shit is really beginning to sour $$$***

Or you’re just really really really hungry lol $$$

But seriously, unless you’re like level seven Hangry, which all kidding aside can genuinely mimic scary, psychological states of mind, 
happiness should bring more happiness $$

It’s kind of funny to tell that I am doing better again because I’m going on tangents about fighting the forces of evil instead of having to document my emotional state of mind every 30 minutes $$

Mark my words
…
This Ozempic bullshit is going to end worse than the Covid vaccines
…
Way way worse
…
There is going to be an extreme downstream effect on the body, basically forgetting how to do certain things by itself, and also of it literally rotting away
…
Most people will not do the proper strength training to offset or slow things down, and will just exacerbate things by continuing to eat bullshit, just a little less of it $$$**

I want to be clear~
This is one of those things where I really hope I’m wrong.
…
I would love to be writing in a few years about how it is low-key a miracle drug and how I’m even considering it because of how wrong I was,
…
 because if I am right, 
and the thousands of others sounding the same alarm,
 then… $$$



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Fuckery
- Watergate being a set up
- The border for the last four years and how it was just a set up to justify ICE bullshit
- Victoria’s Secret stock shooting up because Ozempic

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Food
- FORGOT dry

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8-22-26

822

Happy anniversary! $

We did it, babe
…
One full year
…
Talking to the wall lol $$

Jokes on all of my teachers and psychiatrists growing up, thinking I would never amount anything
…
Everyone who got mad at me for not being able to take notes in class 
or sit still
…
& Everyone who fed me poison $$

I’m not saying it’s a good book, but I’m saying that I’ve written at least three books worth of shit in the last year alone 
not even talking the exercise side $$$

But what Im most proud of, is not using a credit card for three years 
and also not doing something dumb romantically speaking, within the last year $$$

I don’t know what I expected when I started writing in this style with this intent a year ago
…
And I don’t have any expectations or clear goals as to where it will go other than I intend to do it daily and to try to make it as authentic as I can, while focusing on the juicy stuff $

It started as a necessity to try to put back together the many different pieces of my strange adult life
…
But it has become a love and a hobby and it’s almost weird to call a wall a friend, but it has treated me better than most people lol $$*

And to be honest, this day, one year ago, was kind of a breakthrough just as it relates to putting “pen to paper” so to speak
…
Basically,
My dad had popped off again for no reason and it was so bad that all I could do to stay sane was write down my thoughts
…
I also went to a big estate sale with my mother somewhere down “Lancaster County“ that afternoon $

…
I can’t publish what I wrote at the end of August lol
…
and I began publishing starting in September technically $

As I mentioned before, before I adopted this weird style,
 (I don’t know what to call it),
((When I stopped just writing bullet points and making lists and started writing actual thoughts and philosophy)),,
I had written fair amount by hand in my leather journals
…
Which I have not written in a while, lol $$

Just seems extra to go through all of this just to have a secret stache of shit
…
Like if I’ve got a lot of shit to put in those journals, then I’m probably holding back over here $

Excluding pre-mushroom trips and obviously the super big stuff
…
But I’m definitely not transferring this shit to that paper or vice versa lol $

Anyhow,
…
*Lighter flick $

Probably gonna be a long one cause yesterday was a super short one. $$

*Lighter flick $

Satan is a little bitch $$$

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Thanks for letting me share lol $

I know what team I’m on motherfuckers. 
…
What about you? $$$

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Are you evil, dear reader? 🦌$$$

I’ve talked a lot, but have WE really talked about it? 
…
Does my chatter make you nervous?
…
You can be honest
…
You HAVE to be honest
…
If you are being dishonest, then you might actually be evil $$$

Evil is extra fucked because half the time it’s unintentional
…
& just called “growing”
Or “learning” $$

I don’t believe you’re evil
…
If you’ve read this much, you can’t be evil
…
Not without burning on the inside because everything I write is booby trapped, lol $$

You should know by now that I’m gonna say some off-the-wall shit every 300 words or so $$

All right, so this might sound weird
…
I think real ghosts or entities you don’t actually see most of the time,
It’s more like they operate like bumper rails on your thought patterns and behavior when you enter strange flow states
…
Those who claim to see actual apparitions and have conversations with imaginary friends, I think might actually be fabricating most of it $$

It comes down to a level of believability and openness
…
A high degree is required for genuine psychic phenomenon
…
But if you swing that pendulum too far to the side, then you can essentially hypnotize yourself $$

true ethereal entities usually use symbolism or unconscious probabilities to communicate as it is more protective of the merit of one’s decisions $$**

Kinda like a spotter on bench,
You can spot in several different ways,
But the kind that doesn’t actually touch the bar, but kind of rides along, is the best kind
…
The spotter who snatches the bar, robs the pressor of the lift 
or at least a large part of it, rendering it mostly meaningless $$**

The worst thing is not being inconvenienced or taking advantage of,
It is being fucked over for no real reason by having the meaning behind the accomplishment/ achievement taken from you $$$*

There is nothing better than the feeling of a job Well done.
…
And you must know that you did a good job in the bottom of your soul to count 
…
Which as long as you literally just don’t do some fucked up shit, is the default so that’s actually easy to achieve lol $$$

…
Just don’t be selfish and self-centered and take shortcuts and you’re good $$***

Just be advised if you do that well enough, shit is gonna get really weird after about 10 years $$$

Remember that whole story, Job from the Bible?
…
That’s basically like an initiation ritual lol $$$

Dead serious though
…
If you’re really serious about enlightenment, then you’re eventually you’re gonna have to lose everything
…
And it’ll be a combination of both giving it and having it stripped away
…
 lol Balance $$

Cause if you just go all minimalist and donate everything, then that’s not balanced $$$

You’re also gonna have to go all in on something creative $$$

You’re also gonna have to go through some kind of ridiculous relationship shit $$$

I mean, that’s just the basics to true enlightenment $$

You cannot tell me somebody who hasn’t survived a bad breakup is more wise than the one who has never been in a relationship $$$***

AnyWho, it is 2:14 AM and time to finish some macaroni salad and a couple cookies $

Did you know that carbs get better with the less clothes you have on? $$**

…
It is true
…
Cigarettes and carbs
…
Don’t believe me?
…
Prove me wrong
…
Only one way… 😈 
…
Pics or didn’t happen $$$

Gonna go ahead and log 800 cal of straight fuel
2:24 AM
Good start lol $

Time for a cigarette and fresh air $

Well, look at that
I time traveled
It’s now 6:32 AM $

Happy 10:48 am from planet
Will explain later… $

I don’t know what it is
…
There is something romantic about being poor a redneck in the south
…
Being a poor gutter slum in some city is not $$

Happy 2:38 PM
I’m relaxing on the floor after a pretty incredible workout
…
I had a big ass bowl of oatmeal when I got back and I just had some sausages
…
I am watching “desperation Road” and trying to chill
…
Wish me luck lol $

It is better to be the type of person who can be OK alone than the type to always draw a large crowd $$*

Jesus is just the ultimate personality developmental algorithm
…
And I know he is real because the probabilities of getting played by this much bullshit my whole life are impossible otherwise $$$***

A pity party and a pain confrontation look the same, but they’re actually complete opposites $$***

It is 5:28 PM
Don’t be nervous, Nancy, but I kinda just wanna die
…
It will pass
…
It is not founded in anything real,
It is just part of the rodeo
…
I can’t justify any more work without doing more harm than good
…
I do not want to dash at all, but it is about the only option at the moment
…
We are already in overtime regarding the phone bill once again, which has just become a recurring joke
…
I should have just enough cash for dinner, but I’m hoping for more for a little wiggle room 
…
The movie was actually pretty good and I’m only 30 minutes into it so far with about two hours left
I just couldn’t sit still
…
I went by the smoke shop and got some more capsules as I think I’m done with the sludge because it is too inconsistent
…
But right about now is when I would normally be taking a couple shots so I’m certain how I feel is partly related
…
I have no withdrawals which almost makes it worse because this is my normal resting baseline and it just makes me feel broken and hopeless
…
No matter how hard I work and no matter what I do, I always seem to return to this position
…
I truly have nothing other than my cat and my balls at this point 
Everything else is under false pretenses or by just pure luck, including the roof over my head $

Most people think they’re broken when they’re just being dramatic
…
The truly defective and broken people are borderline unstoppable in their Crusade to prove that they are normal $$***

Accepting that you’re “just off” without spiraling into some kind of lifelong victim Bullshit is probably the hardest thing there is $$

Accepting treatment is by far the most difficult things “a being” could experience $$

Accepting poison disguised as treatment is one of the most fucked up things one can experience
…
But that seems to be the case, more often than not $$

I am more and more convinced that there was probably something in my childhood that really fucked me up like this
…
Just like millions or more of others
…
My bet is there was something in a vaccine that just flipped my dopamine switch off 
or reduced it by 90% $$*

“Why bother slowly eroding an individuals will to live, when you can simply just Biohack them fresh out the womb and watch them suffer instead?”
-Dept of health and human services in the 50s $$$***

I’ll debate anyone that depression is by far the worst disease there is
…
It comes down to the fact that this is A spiritual reality. 
Therefore, anything that takes away your will to live, is the most heinous. $$$*****

There may be other diseases with more acute pain and more complicated symptoms, but if they are not directly sabotaging the receptors within one’s head to the same fucked up degree, then I guarantee you, it is not as emotionally debilitating $$

Some diseases are so fucked that they basically remove any accountability you have regarding functioning normally 
…
Depression is the exact opposite
…
No matter what, it just makes you feel worse
…
If you power through it, then you’re kicking the can,
If you rest and wait, then you’re delaying and being lazy
…
It is a lose, lose just for being sick $$

I don’t really get too mad at myself for getting mad or frustrated and “controllably venting”,
Such as when stuck in traffic or getting played by some kind of dash,
I am fully aware of it and make sure to keep it and check and make sure not to do it in front of people as to demonstrate the opposite
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But I used to be very self-conscious from a spiritual perspective, as if I had to be perfect emotionally all the time
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But I think if any kind of orb were to adopt the level of amnesia required for the human experience, and then to get trolled as much as I have, then I think they would probably react the same &$

Happy 8:18 PM
I’m currently three shots of whiskey and 1 pound of ground beef deep
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Also, 
a few of the capsules that I took earlier are doing their job and I feel a lot better
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Just reinforcing that whole biological bullshit
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It’s so hard, simply not using it as an excuse, but also having it be a legitimate reason behind a lot of the madness.. 
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I finished the movie and it was mediocre if I’m being honest.
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The sun is sitting and I’m enjoying a cigarette
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I’m gonna have to pull out a strong miracle day tomorrow and Monday – wise if I wanna keep my phone cut on at this rate, 
but that’s OK as that is a scenario I have trained for several times lol $

(The fact you’re reading this proves my success 😌)

I have a pretty big bag of potato chips, waiting on me $$

We’ll see what training brings tomorrow
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Right now that’s a 50-50 chance of it being leg day or being a walk on the trail
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I might have to force myself to do some kind of ruck but we will see $

I will say it until I die~
Only quote scripture if you are in church
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Otherwise, you are doing more harm than good to everybody except your own ego or whoever else is drunk on the same Kool-Aid $$$***

I’m not saying scripture is wrong,
I’m saying it’s the opposite
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It is so profound that it just scares motherfuckers away
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And if you want to be a spiritual bully, then keep at it
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Otherwise, check yourself use your own effing words and stop being a puppet because the big J woulda wanted you to be your own person $$$****

I swear people who quote scripture all the time are the most oblivious to their audience
(Outside of church obv) $$

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Half the time people don’t even realize that’s a verse
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You could probably say some fake shit and nobody would catch you $$*

And the other half is somewhat generic and vague
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And if it is that true and profound, then maybe you should go the extra mile talk about what it means to you in your own words instead $$

Anyone who wants to reference the Bible as a source of authority clearly doesn’t understand human nature $$******

That is the biggest trap after all
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If I was an evil Satanist, the easiest move would be to trick all of the believers that everything written in this one book is pretty much “IT”
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Ignoring how many books have both been rewritten and left out or censored entirely $$*

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So the second you wanna play that game, you are basically giving evil the upper hand
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But the second you speak from the heart, you pretty much guarantee the truth will be shared,in the best & most effective format $$

Go ahead and try rewriting some of your favorite verses to prove me wrong
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Keep that verbatim shit to those on your team
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Quit being self-centered $$$

Literally the worst thing you could do is claim that you know the voice of God
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You’re only going to signal to those who are already just as delusional,
 completely destroying your “God-given” mission of sharing the “gospel” $$$*

Again, I’m emphasizing this as an approach to non-believers
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Cause if you keep doing this shit, you’re literally doing more harm than good and you’re just going to keep repeating the same cycles, getting more and more resentful each time that nobody understands you $$$

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Until you finally get fucked over so good that the only option forward is to redefine your paradigm to understanding that there is no separation between you and God, there are no real religious teams, and that you are a part of the whole no matter what 
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Therefore, every time you claim something is the voice of God, you are just lying about the “voice of man “ trying to pretend it is bigger than it is $$$

God does not communicate via words
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God communicates through weird vibes,
Sensations and frequencies
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Quite literally the opposite part of your brain that is responsible for handling speech $$^***

But don’t expect self-centered Christians to recognize that…
They’re usually so afraid of getting some shit wrong that they don’t even recognize that they’re indirectly praising Satan lol $$$

Only Satan would care about you doing things in a perfect manner to gain some reward
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Or “redemption” $$$***

God would emphasize the fact that you are perfectly enough as you are, but that you just have some growing to do for your own best interest
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And by our own best interest, that means community best interest
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Which means stop driving more separation by using outdated lame lingo just because your pathway through life kept you on the safe side $$$*********

(DAMN LOL )

Go hang out at the sketchy part of town
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Or the homeless shelter
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Or any recovery meeting after the sunsets
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Go ahead and see how effective your lingo is
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Eventually, you’ll be forced to realize that it’s not about being right, but it’s about being effective and inclusive $$$***

And once again by going around quoting Bible verses to non believers, or placing them on the back of your car, you are being more divisive than you are inclusive due your own emotional naivety $$$*** 

And most people’s only response to that is “I’m just sharing my faith” 
or some kind of version of free speech
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Which is just the easiest counter-checkmate of them all because their self proclaimed most primary purpose is to “convert other people to Christ”
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(Which is ghey as it sounds is actually the most meaningful thing in all of existence when done right)
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Which is again why it rubs me so raw that these people would rather enjoy the diminishing dopamine hit from their self rehearsed speech pathways then to actually help somebody else understand that they’re not a mistake or a waste of biology $$$

You keep going around talking about sin and how silly humans are, You’re just gonna give atheist the upper hand when they start talking about how much better off it is to be a super intelligent monkey living in trees $$

A super adamant atheist is still less delusional than a Christian going around, forcing the “gospel” down people’s throats $$$$*

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Cause at least they are using some logic and consideration as the base of Darwinism evolution theory is pretty reasonable
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It’s just a very small part of the whole process $$

You would think that most Christians would actually be in Hollywood with the way they like to act and perform all the fucking time $$***

(Fckin mic drop 🎤 )



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Oats
Bread
P butter
Jam
Sugar
Berries
-25ish

Eggs

Cheese
Beef
Chicken
Mix


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- what id never do again 
- Lessons that took me forever to learn 
- Pros and con
- Sneaky sequence, schemes for reps and sets, example 236 9,12 and that equals 30
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Fuckery
- Jimi Hendrix death
- Elvis Presley death
- Michael Jackson death
- Kurt Cobain death
- Biggie Smalls and Tupac death
- Pretty much anything to do with Hollywood
- Hayden planetary whatever her name is rest in peace
- The fact that the dude who did the autopsy on Kurt Cobain was banging his girlfriend
- The “27 club“ which is major icons dying at age 27
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